Disclaimer: I don't own anything of the Gilmore Girls (though I wish I did) the WB does or is the CW now?

A/N: I am a Java Junkie all the way but I wanted to do something a little different…

Happy But, Broken

It had been about a month since that night when Lorelai appeared at the diner asking Luke to elope. Luke did all he could to get in touch with Lorelai, leaving nearing 47 voicemails on her cell phone and 23 on her answering machine. He stopped by the house 2 days later only to find the house darken without Lorelai or even Paul Anka- no life to be found anywhere. He went to Sookie-"Just give her time Luke." He went to Rory- "Sorry, Luke. She asked me not to say anything." He even went as far as going to her parents, but he only got the door slammed into his face. Eventually he gave up thinking that she would come around when she was ready to talk and they would fix everything.

One day after getting ready for the morning rush Luke found an envelope with letter inside than been slipped under the door with his name on it in familiar loopy handwriting and a sight bump inside…

Luke tore open the letter and a ring fell out onto his hand …

Dear Luke,

I am sorry about that night and how every got out of control but Luke, you know what? You hurt me that night so badly that I don't know how I was even able to walk away. You just let walk away too, you didn't even try to stop me. Later that night I went to Christopher's and I ended up sleeping with him.

I felt so guilty but I was happy at the same time because it felt so nice to be wanted and loved again after so long. Luke, you said 'no more secrets, we have to tell each everything that's the only way this is going to work' but you didn't really mean did you? You hid the fact that you had a daughter for two months, TWO MONTHS Luke!

That broke me more than you'll ever know. I don't blame April either this was all you. Then you went on to keep her from me, you kept me out of your life when I was your fiancée and we suppose to be putting two lives together not getting more and more distant. There once was a time all you had to do was look at me and you knew if I was upset or not, you used to known me so well. Luke, you just let me go after 8 years of friendship and 2 years of a relationship. You waited for me for 8 years to finally to see you and I thought if I waited for you, you would see ME again but what I didn't realized then that I had already lost you, didn't I ?

I loved you Luke so much, I never loved someone like that before you. I thought you were the one and we would get our 'middle'. Luke, the point of the letter is to say goodbye, I recently found out that I am pregnant with Chris's baby and how do you ask that I know it's not yours? Well, considering the fact you and I hadn't made love in months helps to know. Luke, I have decided to be but happy with Chris and raise our child together, if I couldn't be happy with you then at least I will be happy with Chris but always broken inside.

Luke, I wish you the best of happiness, have a wonderful life and I truly mean that.

Best of Luck,

Lorelai

Luke stood there in shock with the ring in one hand and the letter in the other. It was then that he realized that he had been crying. Luke fell to his knees in despair and started crying again; mourning the life and the child he could have had with Lorelai.