Chapter Eight- Miracles, Blue Eyes, and Blue Tears
Thanks to AllAboutMe123, obsessedwithstabler, mstang.gurl, K-Fuzzy215, Whatsername007, idinakristinfan, onetreefan, savit, and JennBenn3148.
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The monitor started to beep rapidly as doctors rushed into the room and nurses tried to pull Olivia away from her daughter.
"What's going on?" she screamed as she was shoved out into Elliot's arms.
Elliot had fear in every pore of his body, but held tightly onto his wife.
"The doctors are trying to figure that out." He said softly, with more confidence than he felt. His world was falling apart. His daughter was the glue that held his family together. The old and the new. He couldn't lose her.
Olivia was sobbing hysterically, just as Alex came running down the hallway with Casey right behind her, both carrying a child.
"Let me have my baby!" Olivia screamed between sobs.
Alex gently put her daughter into Casey's arms. Casey was scared but knew that Alex had known Olivia longer and could probably help her more.
Alex wrapped her arms around Olivia while Elliot completed the hug. "Liv it's gonna be alright. She's a strong girl. She wouldn't give up so easily." She said firmly.
Olivia's sobs softened a little.
"Have faith in her." Casey said softly, cradling the children.
Alex backed away as Elliot pulled Olivia into a full hug, both crying softly at the thought of losing their little girl. Alex's heart broke at the sight of the two strongest people she knew so broken. Alex was still hurting after Jackson's death, but she hadn't had time to think and now watching Olivia and Elliot, she was glad.
The doctors finally came out. A young female doctor looked tense as she approached Olivia. "Detective Benson and Stabler, I am very sorry but your daughter didn't make it." She said softly.
Olivia let out a wail as Elliot felt his tears spill out of his eyes. Alex stared in horror while Casey nearly dropped the babies.
"No!" Screamed Olivia as she broke out of Elliot's arms and pushed past the doctors with a cry of anguish. She knelt down by her daughter's side.
"Please baby, pull through for Mommy. You can't give up Emily, you just can't. I need you, Daddy needs you, honey everyone needs you. Please come back to me." Olivia sobbed into her daughter's hair as she squeezed her hair.
Elliot watched from the doorway with a distant expression on his face. It scared the hell out of Alex who was standing beside him, in silent tears. Emily had been something special to them all. Alex refused to believe that she was gone.
Olivia gave a cry of surprise when she felt Emily squeeze her hand. The monitors started beeping rapidly again and once again, the doctors rushed in pulling Olivia away from her life line.
"Emily!" Olivia screeched at the top of her lungs, trying desperately to get back to her daughter as nurses ushered her and Elliot and Alex out.
Alex was arguing with the nurses using every foul word known to man as tthey shoved her out.
Elliot was silent. He knew something was happening. Maybe it was the fact that Emily had always been daddy's little girl. He knew she would make it. It was in his instinct and in his gut. He had learned to trust it. He knew his little girl would pull through her hell, just like her mother had pulled through hers.
"She's gonna be okay." Elliot said softly as he kissed the top of Olivia's head.
They were back in the waiting room, holding their breath, wondering if Emily was going to make it or if what had just happened in the room had been a figment of their imagination. Two agonizing minutes passed before the doctors exited the room again.
"Uhh…Detective Benson and Stabler," the same female doctor before began. "Your daughter is…"
Olivia interjected. "She can't be dead." She wailed softly. "She just can't be. I felt her hand squeeze mine."
The doctor held up a hand. "Actually I was going to say that she was a medical miracle." She said smiling for the first time. "She's alive and shockingly awake."
Elliot was speechless with joy and as he looked into Olivia's eyes he could feel the same joy radiating from her smile and her eyes.
"She's asking for you." The doctor said before walking away.
Olivia rushed into the room and laughed and cried when she saw Emily awake.
"Mommy!" Emily cried happily, shouting the most beautiful word a mother could ever hear.
Elliot was smiling widely as he wrapped his arms around both his wife and his daughter.
"Hey honey." Olivia said gently as she patted her daughter's hair. "How do you feel?"
"Like I got hit by a car." Emily replied impishly.
Elliot laughed. "You did honey and you lived to tell the tale."
"Daddy I'm gonna live forever." Emily said brightly, earning a laugh and hugs from both her parents.
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Alex watched from the doorway with a forlorn expression on her face. Only a few days ago, she had had what Olivia had. A family, someone to love and to hold. In a flash he was gone. She fought back tears and turned to Casey.
"I'm gonna take Faith and James home." She said quietly, surprised at how easily her children's names rolled off her tongue.
Casey wanted to stop Alex, but one look from her icy blue eyes told Casey to back down and keep her mouth shut. Casey obeyed the look, knowing full well that her friend was hurting and there was nothing she could do about it.
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Alex walked into her home with a completely different sense of the space. It was once warm and friendly. A good place to go home to, but now it was different. It was cold and it gave her a sense of loneliness. Out of habit she called as she carried her children upstairs on their sling and setting them down in a crib that Jackson and her had bought,
"Honey, I'm home!"
She got no answer. She felt tears pour out of her eyes and she didn't fight them. She had to move. She had to get away from all the memories. The hurt. The pain of losing the man she loved.
Got a date a week from Friday with a preacher's son
Everybody says he's crazy
I'll have to see
I finally moved to Jackson when the summer came
I won't have to pay that boy to rake my leaves
I'm probably going on and on
It seems I'm doing more of that these days
Alex couldn't believe that life was still going on with Jackson. She buried her face in hands as she sank down onto their bed…now only hers. She laid back with tears running down her face and leaving wet spots on the pillows.
I probably wouldn't be this way
Probably wouldn't hurt so bad
Never pictured every minute without you in it
Oh you left so fast
Alex could always swear she heard Jackson breathe beside her. Her hand moved in his direction, only to find no one there. She let out a soft whimper of pain and sorrow. Her constant was gone. Nothing of him remained.
Sometimes I see you standing there
Sometimes it's like I'm losing touch
Sometimes I feel that I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much
God give me a moment's grace
Cause if I never seen you face
Probably wouldn't be this way
"I'm alone." She cried softly. She didn't know how she would make it on her own. Jackson was her support, her life, and he had left her behind in a flash. She closed her eyes. She had two children. Not one, two. She hadn't checked the gender of her children when they were still unborn because she and Jackson had decided to surprise themselves. Alex was now living the surprise by herself. Her let out another cry of pain at the memories that soared through her mind.
"Jackson why the hell did you leave me?" she cried out in anger and in loneliness. "How could you leave me behind?"
Mama says that I just shouldn't speak to you
Casey says that I should just move on
You oughta see the way these people look at me
When they see me round here talking to this stone
Everybody thinks I've lost my mind
But I just take it day by day
Alex got up and grabbed her pillows, slamming it against the bed over and over again before reaching for the picture on her dresser of her and Jackson's wedding. They looked so happy and she felt an unreal amount of abandonment mixed with her grief. She threw it against the wall and felt her heart shatter as the glass on the frame did.
I probably wouldn't be this way
Probably wouldn't hurt so bad
Never pictured every minute without you in it
Oh you left so fast
Sometimes I see you standing there
Sometimes I feel an angel's touch
Sometimes I feel that I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much
God give me a moment's grace
Cause if I never seen you face
Probably wouldn't be this way
Alex sank down to her knees and laid her hands on the glass, not feeling the pain as the pieces cut into her flesh and made her blood stain the carpet. She couldn't stop crying, nor did she try to. She only wondered if the songs were true, that her tears would wash the color from her eyes.
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I think I'm in tears. Sorry guys never meant to be so depressing.