Author's notes: this chapter would've been posted up a couple of days ago, but since so many of you reviewers were asking so many questions, I decided to add to this chapter at the last minute. To those that asked; im not following any story lines from any of the comics, movies etc. I saw that pic of logan kissing rogue and thought up the story. I didn't even know about the Rogan stories in the xmen movie section until you guys mentioned it! Remy is coming back next chapter, which should be posted up mid next week (coz im going to sydney end of this wk). & Because you guys kept asking why Remy left, I decided to add to the end of this chapter and now it has what happened when he left- originally I wasn't going to write how he left.

Okay, enjoy and don't forget to review!

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ch3: Logan wants more

It had been a week now since Rogue's birthday. Neither of them had spoken to each other since the incident where Rogue spilt the milk. Rogue was ignoring him and avoiding him, but Logan wanted so much to talk to Rogue. He didn't know what it was, but even after a week, he couldn't get enough of Rogue. Even though Xavier strictly told him not to do anything with Rogue like that again, Logan couldn't help thinking what it would be like to sleep with Rogue when they were both sober. To the rest of the students, The reason why Rogue and Logan weren't talking was because they'd had an 'argument'. Only Jean and Xavier, Rogue and himself knew the truth.

Logan couldn't sleep. He couldn't stop thinking about Rogue. He wanted to smell her again, to taste her, to be with her. He rolled over and stared at the clock. The large red numbers shone 1:14am. Realising he wasn't going to be able to sleep anytime soon, Logan got out of bed and made his way to the kitchen. On the way to the kitchen, he passed the lounge room. He heard that the TV was still on and he figured that maybe he could bust one of the students for staying up past lights out. As he walked closer to the door, he smelt it. Her scent. "Rogue," He whispered.

Anxious to finally be able to talk to Rogue, Logan walked into the rec room. Rogue, with her back to the door, was seated on the couch watching late night infomercials. She didn't realise Logan was in the room until he sat down on the couch next to her.

Seeing someone sitting next to her startled her. Rogue thought she was alone and didn't expect anyone to be awake at this time of night. "Logan!" Rogue said a little louder than she was aiming for. "What are yah doing here?" She asked anxiously.

Logan looked at her and realised he'd pretty much just ambushed her. She wasn't expecting him to be up, let alone come into the lounge room. "Cant sleep," He replied. "You?"

Rogue tried to relax. She'd been avoiding Logan all week and she realised that she needed to sort some things out between her and Logan, so this was as best a time as any. "Same," She said quickly then turned to look back at the T.V. She had no idea what to say to him.

Logan could tell she was still uncomfortable. He didn't want her to feel uncomfortable around him, especially since he wanted her to sleep with him again. He looked down at his hands. He was fidgeting for a moment while he contemplated what to say to her. "Why are you afraid of me?" He looked back up at her as he asked her.

"Ah'm not!" Rogue replied quickly. She was only partly lying. She wasn't afraid of him. She was avoiding him because she felt guilty about sleeping with him. She still wanted Remy to come back, but now she knew she'd blown her chances of that ever happening once she'd slept with Logan. But on the flipside, she was afraid of what would happen if she admitted that she enjoyed that night in the truck. For the first time in a long time, from even before Remy left, she felt loved and wanted. That's all she ever wanted. To be loved. Maybe those feelings came from Remy leaving her. Maybe she really did like Logan that way. But she just wasn't really sure yet.

Logan could tell she was lying. "Look, Stripes. We haven't really spoken since.. that night," Logan said. He leaned forward and leaned his elbows on his knees. He clasped his hands together and looked at Rogue. She had no idea what to say, so Logan took this opportunity to say what he wanted to say. "I know you only did it because Remy broke up with you only days earlier and it was just out of loneliness or comfort," He explained. Rogue looked at him attentively. He was right. It was out of loneliness and comfort. But Rogue didn't say a word. She wanted to hear what he had to say. "And I should be ashamed with myself for.. doing that.. with a student, but now I'm not."

Logan watched for a response from Rogue, but she didn't say anything. He couldn't tell if she was mad, or happy with the look on her face.

"And I miss that we used to have danger room session together and have our own private jokes. But I just can't shake my feelings for ya. I.. I think I'm going to have to leave the institute," Logan explained.

Before Rogue could fully register and think about what Logan had said, she called out, "No!" and grabbed his arm. She was shocked with her own actions, but deep down, she didn't want Logan to leave. He was one of her best friends and she since Remy left, she didn't want to lose another friend. She removed her hand from Logan's arm and put it back in her own lap. "Ah don't want yah tah go. Ah miss all that too. But ah dunno what ah feel right now," Rogue explained. Her thoughts went back to how she missed Remy. She really didn't know if she really felt that way about Logan or if it was just purely out of loneliness. Then, she heard a voice in her head.

'Remy ain't comin' back.'

Rogue knew it was true. Maybe Logan could give her a happier life than Remy could. At least she knew that he felt strongly for her and so she could get that little insecurity out of the way.

Logan smiled and leaned in closer to Rogue. "So what are ya saying, Stripes?"

When Logan leaned in closer, Rogue could smell his cologne. It reminded her of that night in the truck. She was confused again as to whether she really liked Logan or if it's just because he's willing to be there for her. "Ahm saying that ah don't want yah tah go," Rogue replied.

"Why?"

"Cause, ah.." Rogue was afraid to answer, afraid of her own feelings. She felt like someone was screwing with her head because she didn't know what she was meant to be feeling. Should she been feeling disgusted or attracted to Logan?

Logan leaned forward and placed one hand on the back of the couch, and the other on the armrest next to Rogue. His knee leaned on the couch between her thighs, pinning her in the corner of the couch. Logan leaned in closer until his face was only inches from hers.

"Cause why?"

"Cause ah… ah.. ah duno! Ah think ah may have feelings for yah!" Rogue spat out before she could think about what she was going to say. She couldn't believe what she had said. It was true, but Remy had only left her two weeks ago. Was Logan just the rebound guy? Rogue had no idea. "We're both gonna get kicked out," she explained. She wanted Logan to kiss her, but at the same time, she didn't. She knew what they were doing was wrong and that there was no turning back now.

"We can keep it a secret," Logan proposed as he leaned forward to lick Rogue's ear.

"There are two psychics in this house, Logan. How secret can it be?"

"They already know, so it won't matter."

Rogue cupped Logan's unshaven face. God, she loved stubble on a man. That's probably why she found Remy to look so manly for a 23 year old. Rogue took a deep breath and looked into Logan's eyes. 'Maybe this is the best I'm ever going to get,' She thought to herself. 'Maybe Logan is the only one I'll ever find who'll love me for me.'

Rogue leaned forward and pressed her lips to Logan's.

Catch me as I fall

Say you're here and it's all over now

Speaking to the atmosphere

No one's here and I fall into myself

This truth drives me into madness

I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away

If I will it all away

(Evanescence – Whisper)

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Rogue woke to the sounds of birds chirping outside the window. She opened her eyes and realised that she was in Logan's room. The room was dark, save for the rays of light that crept their way around the edges of the dark curtaining. Rogue looked next to her and found that she'd been sleeping on Logan's arm. He was lying on his side, facing her with his other arm wrapped around Rogue's hip. Rogue quietly and slowly rolled out of Logan's embrace and placed her feet on the floor. She sat on the edge of the bed and leaned her elbows on her knees. She admitted that last night was good, but she was still confused. She felt guilty again, but at the same time she wasn't guilty. She felt that maybe she did like Logan, but at the same time she felt like she didn't.

Rogue remembered the first time her and Remy had sex. She'd gained control of her powers only a few months ago. She and Remy spent their first night together in Remy's room. All the Xmen were out at Duncan's twenty-first, as he'd invited half the school. Rogue and Remy decided to come home early to get a little privacy.

A few weeks after that, Remy became distant. Rogue couldn't figure out what she had done wrong. She figured that Remy would be happier now that she'd gained control over her powers, but instead, Remy visited her bed less and less. Three days before Rogue's twenty-first birthday, Remy up and left. Rogue asked for an explanation, but Remy didn't give one.

The next day, Scott told Rogue that Remy had confided in him weeks before. Scott told Rogue that Remy was losing interest because Rogue wasn't something he had to fight for anymore. She was now willing to go out with him, willing to touch him, but for Remy, he missed the flirty stage where anything can happen. And so he left. Scott was also mad at Remy for not giving Rogue a decent explanation before he left. Rogue wondered what would have happened if Remy never left the mansion after he broke up with her. Would she and Logan still have gotten together?

Logan slowly awoke as he realised the warm body beside him was gone. He saw Rogue sitting motionless on the side of the bed and he moved his hand up her bare back.

"Morning," Logan said in his husky morning voice. Rogue turned around and put on a fake smile, but seeing Logan's gorgeous morning face and his adoration for her made her smile for real.

'Maybe this is as good as it'll get for me.'

I got you crawling up a mountain
Hanging round my neck
I got you twisted round my finger
Crawling round my legs
The emptiness
The craziness
Satisfy this hungriness
Darling
How would it feel?

If we sleep together
Will you like me better
If we come together
We'll go down forever
If we sleep together
Will I like you better
If we come together
Prove it now or never

(Sleep together – Garbage)

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Rogue played with her food. She'd eaten her chicken and was now mixing together her mashed potato with her peas and corn. To her right sat Kurt and that usually meant a barrel of laughs. Kurt and Bobby always made the students laugh all the time at the dinner table. Remy would usually be seated to her left, but now Jean was seated in Remy's chair. Seated directly across from Rogue was Logan. They'd decided to seat in their usual spots and act normal around each other so that the other students wouldn't think anything was going on between the two. Of course, Jean and the professor knew, but as far as the two psychics were concerned, Rogue and Logan only had that one time encounter in Logan's truck.

Rogue took a quick glimpse at Logan. He was chatting to Hank, but it was as if Logan could tell Rogue was looking at him. He turned his head, and looked back at Rogue. She gave Logan a small warm smile and returned to her food. She didn't want the other students finding out what she was doing with Logan. She knew that the professor would send her and Logan away if he found out they were sleeping together. It was exciting to be having a secret relationship, but at the same time she wished they didn't have to hide their relationship from everyone else, as if they were ashamed of their relationship. But at the same time, she felt like she should be ashamed of herself. She felt like she should be feeling guilty that she was sleeping with Logan. She still loved Remy, no doubt about it, but Logan was willing to be there for her.

Logan smirked when he saw Rogue look back down at her food. He was glad that Rogue didn't turn him down the other day when he told her he wanted more from her. He found her mere presence intoxicating. He never really allowed himself to think of her in that way before, but after her birthday, he couldn't believe he'd never seen it before. She'd grown into a beautiful woman. Her gothic make up was gone, but her eyes were stilled outlined with black eye liner and her make up was light. She'd grown her hair and it was now just past her shoulders. Her white streaks outlined her oval face and her green eyes stood out and shone as she looked at him.

Logan returned his vision back to Hank as he listened to what Hank was saying. After a moment, Logan felt something brush his inner thigh. He tried not to let Hank know as he quickly glanced down at the edge of the table. He couldn't quite see what was brushing his inner thigh and the only way he'd be able to was to tilt his chair back and lift the tablecloth and have a proper look.

Logan pretended to scratch his upper thigh, then slowly moved his hand under the table cloth and under the table to see what was moving it's way up his thigh and dangerously close to his crotch. Then Logan felt it. A bare foot. As his hand brushed over it, he saw Rogue rearrange in her seat just a tad. He realised then that it was Rogue's foot. Logan smiled to himself and figured he might as well let her have her fun, so returned to eating. He couldn't let anyone else know what was going on. He glanced up at Rogue for a moment, and she was looking down at her place, eating her mashed potatoes as if nothing was going on under the table. Logan wanted to lean back and enjoy the sensations he was getting as the foot made it's way up his thigh, between his legs and now rubbing his crotch.

He wanted to moan out loud as the rubbing was turning him on. He tried his hardest to act like he was eating his meal normally, but his body was begging him to relax and enjoy the ride. He tried his hardest to hide the emotions of ecstasy and sexual pleasure from his face as he could feel himself getting a hard on. His jeans suddenly felt tight and it was going to take some serious will power to stop himself from cumming right there and then.

He glanced back up at Rogue and he saw her raise one of her eyebrows as she felt Logan becoming rock hard.

'Oh God,' Logan thought to himself. 'This needs to stop or else I'm not going to be able to keep quiet any longer.'

Logan pretended to scratch his leg again and then slowly moved his hand back under the table. He caught Rogue's foot and Rogue let out a cough as he did so. Everyone else seemed oblivious to what was going on and he was thankful for that. Logan slowly pushed Rogue's foot away. Rogue took the hint and stopped.

'That girl is going to get it later,' Logan thought to himself. For the rest of the meal, he tried to think of all the naughty things he could do to tease Rogue next time they got it on.

Rogue smiled to herself as she realised the effect she'd had on Logan. Being able to touch someone without killing them had given her a bout of confidence. But at the same time, she wished she and Remy had done stuff like that.

'Remy ain't commin' back,' she thought to herself. 'Logan's here now. Logan loves me. Logan won't leave me like Remy did.' Rogue convinced herself that she'd be happier with Logan.

Long time I been waiting to get next to you
Long time I been anticipating the things that I wanna do.
Long time I been faking just for one kiss

Long time I been dreaming about feeling your tenderness.

Some time I wanna grab you and just get some

Some times I feel the urge just to let you know

The feelings I have

If you know I

I gotta crazy crush on you but can't seem to let it show

(Ms. Dynamite – Krazy Krush)

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--Two weeks ago--

Rogue sat in the kitchen and stared at her coffee. Her elbow rested on the table and she rested her head on her hand. Her other hand held the coffee cup. She stared into space. She was worried that Remy was hiding something from her. Ever since they'd slept together, slowly slowly, Remy had begun distancing himself from Rogue. The changes weren't sudden, but Rogue noticed them none the less. Remy would stand apart from Rogue when they stood in a group and he'd try and get out of their romantic situations. Rogue had no idea what she was doing wrong. When she she'd ask him what was wrong, he'd reply saying "Not'in." She'd been seriously worrying about him and why he was acting that way for the two weeks.

Rogue was in such a daze that she didn't notice Kitty walking into the kitchen. "Hey Rogue. Rogue?.. RO-ooogue!" Kitty waved a hand in front of Rogue's face.

Rogue, being snapped out of her daze, looked up at Kitty. "Oh, hey.." She greeted unenthusiastically then went back to staring at her mug.

Kitty sat down opposite Rogue at the table. "Still worrying about Remy?" Rogue nodded. "Have you like, asked him about it?"

Rogue nodded. "Every time ah ask him what's wrong, he says it's nothin'!" Rogue explained. She'd explained it to Kitty and Jean heaps of times, and of course, they told Kurt and Scott. Secrets were a rare thing in the X-mansion. "Ah dunno what ah've done wrong!"

Kitty changed seats so that she was sitting next to Rogue. She put a hand on Rogue's shoulder in an attempt to comfort her. She knew it wouldn't comfort her, so she tried to help how she could. When Rogue first confided in Kitty and Jean, Kitty had gone straight to Kurt and Scott and asked them to find out why Remy was acting so weird.

Just then Kurt ported in. "Rogue! You have to come now!" Kurt ran up to Rogue and Kitty and grabbed their hands.

"What? Why?" Rogue asked.

"Remy's leaving!" Kurt explained. Rogue's gut dropped like a kick in the stomach. Kurt could see the look on her face. He wanted to protect Rogue and since Kitty told him about Rogue's situation, he and Scott had trying to suss Remy out. Scott mentioned to him that Remy confided in him but didn't tell Kurt what Remy had said. Kurt figured Remy should be the one to tell Rogue himself what his problem was anyway. "Remy's packing his stuff! Scott's trying to stall him. Come on!" And with that, Kurt ported Rogue and Kitty to Remy's room.

When they got there, they found that the room was empty. Before Rogue could say anything, Kurt ported them again, this time to the garage. When they got there, they saw Scott arguing with Remy. "I can't believe you're not going to tell her!" Scott yelled. Remy tried to ignore Scott as he tied his backpack to the back of his motorbike.

"Tell me what?" Rogue asked angrily. She crossed her arms and both guys looked at her. "That yah leavin'?" she tried to sound angry but she couldn't contain her sadness. Her worst fear was coming true. Remy was leaving.

Remy looked at Rogue with a sad face. She had no idea why he was doing this and she was angry that whatever his problem was, he didn't trust her enough to tell her.

"Ve'll leave you two alone," Kurt explained as he put his hand on Scott and Kitty's shoulders. The sound of Kitty protesting to missing the show could be heard just as they ported out of the garage.

"Why are yah leavin', Remy?" Rogue asked. Tears were welling in her eyes. Remy stayed quiet and returned to trying up his backpack. "What did ah do wrong!" Remy tried to ignore her. "Just TELL me, Remy!" Rogue yelled. Now she was crying. She walked up to Remy and spun him around so he could face her. "Whatever it is, we can fix this together!"

Rogue looked into Remy's demon eyes. His eyes always told her how he felt. He looked sad and troubled, but she didn't understand why he wouldn't tell her what was wrong.

"Remy leavin' because he have to," Remy explained. He put his hands on Rogue's shoulders and slowly pushed her away from him. With her out of the way, he got on his motorbike.

"Why do yah have tah?" Rogue cried. "Don't yah love me anymore, Remy?"

Rogue didn't try stop him. She wanted to rip him off the bike, but she was so consumed with confusion and the feeling of rejection that she didn't move. Remy didn't respond to her question. Rogue watched him put his helmet on and started the bike.

"Remy, don't do this!" Rogue cried once more. Her cried fell on deaf ears as the rumbling of Remy's motorbike filled the garage. Before Rogue knew it, Remy had driven out of the garage and out of the grounds of the mansion.

Rogue dropped to her knees and cried. Within seconds of Remy leaving the mansion, Kitty, Jean, Kurt and Scott were in the garage to comfort Rogue.

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Author's notes: okay, now the REASON why Remy left is revealed in later chapters. For now, all u need to know 4 now is that he left and Rogue's broken down over it.