What Hurts the Most

By

Nicole

Disclaimer: I don't own Power Rangers I'm just borrowing them. I just own the plot and the characters that don't exist.

Summary: She feels like she's missing out on something. She leaves her husband to find what she was missing, not knowing that she left the one thing that kept her alive behind.

What Hurts the Most

Chapter 1: The Same Thing

Ashley woke up to find Andros already gone. She got up out of bed and walked over to her dresser. She pulled out a change of clothes and went to shower. She got out and pulled on her clothes. She brushed her hair out and heard the baby monitor by her bed go off. She set her brush down and went into the nursery down the hall. She opened the door to find her son, Alastair, standing up in his crib. "Hey, Alastair," she greeted happily. She walked over and picked him up from his crib. "Hungry?" She asked. Alastair just gurgled before pulling at her hair. "Let's get you changed first," she commented. She set her son down on his changing table and got him a new diaper and out of his pajamas. After she pulled on his red t-shirt, she picked her son up and left the nursery.

Ashley walked into the living room and set Alastair into his playpen. "Look, here's the new toy Auntie Karone got you," she cooed to the baby. She handed him the little Megaship that Karone had got for him before she left for Terra Venture. Alastair took the toy and started to chew on it. Ashley laughed slightly and went into her kitchen. She went to the synthetron and got her breakfast and found a note sitting on the dining room table. She walked over and picked the note up.

Ashley,

Sorry I missed you this morning but you were too beautiful to wake up and I knew that Alastair had kept you up all night. I'll see you when I get home tonight. I love you and tell Alastair I love him too.

Love Always,

Andros

Ashley put the note back on the table before going back into the living room with her breakfast. She sat down and watched as her son played in the playpen. Alastair let out his normal baby gurgles and giggles as he played with his toys. Ashley smiled but then her intercom went off. She got up and picked her intercom up. "Hello," she answered tiredly.

"Wow what a greeting," Cassie commented.

"Oh hey Cassie. What's up?" Ashley asked.

"Nothing much. Just calling to see how my best friend's doing along with my favorite godchild."

Ashley laughed. "He's playing in his playpen and he's been keeping me up all night," she explained. Alastair then let out his shrieking laugh and Ashley laughed slightly.

"Well he sounds cheerful," Cassie commented.

"As always."

Ashley let out a sigh. "Everything alright though?" Cassie asked.

"I don't know, Cass," she replied.

Cassie looked at her in disbelief. "Don't get me wrong, Cassie. I love Andros and I love my kid but…" she trailed off.

"But you feel like there's something more," Cassie put in.

"Yeah."

Cassie let out a sigh. "KO-35 has it's customs, Ash. Here you're known as Ashley Hammond but on KO-35 you're Empress Adora, daughter of Alastair," Cassie pointed out. Ashley nodded her head.

"Do you think things would've been different if Andros and I hadn't found each other?" Ashley asked.

Cassie sighed. "For one thing, your son wouldn't have existed. You said yourself you love Alastair. He's your second chance, after what Psycho Yellow did your other baby," Cassie pointed out. Ashley bit her lip as she remembered that day.

(Flashback)

Psycho Yellow grabbed Ashley's arm forcing her to her knees. "I know your little secret, Yellow Ranger," Psycho Yellow laughed. Ashley's eyes widened in fear when Psycho Yellow picked her up and she saw that she was about to hit her stomach.


"ASHLEY!" Cassie shouted.

"DON'T!" Ashley shouted at Psycho Yellow.

She tricked kicking the Psycho Ranger away from her, but the Psycho Ranger kicked Ashley square in the stomach and then she threw the Yellow Ranger across the room. Ashley hit the nearest wall, de-morphed, and then everything went dark.

(End Flashback)

Ashley felt the tears press against her eyes as she thought about the brutal death of her unborn child. "Ash? Ashley?" Cassie called. Ashley shook out of her trance and looked at Cassie. "You okay?" She asked.

"Yeah," Ashley replied.

"Sorry, is it still painful for you to talk about that day?" Cassie asked.

Ashley nodded her head slowly. "I…I know that I wasn't even that far along with him or her. I didn't even get to name it or to even tell my husband that I was pregnant. The only thing I could tell him was that he was a liar when he told me that the baby was dead," she explained. Ashley wiped the stray tear away and let out a sigh. "Apart of me will always be torn about the death of my and Andros's unborn baby, because it was someone that was created from me and Andros," she explained.

"I know," Cassie answered.

Ashley let out a sigh. "Listen, Cassie, I know you have things to do. I'll call you later okay?" She asked.

"Okay, I'll talk to you later," Cassie answered.

Ashley cut off the transmission and Alastair let out a wail. She walked over and picked her son up from his playpen. She bounced her son up and down on her hip and calmed him down. "It's okay sweetie," she whispered. Alastair had Ashley's shirt bunched up in his tiny fist while crying. Ashley kissed his forehead and sat down to bounced her son on her knee to get him to stop crying. After awhile, Alastair fell back to sleep against her. She kissed the top of his head and held his tiny hand with a sigh.