Hey everyone sorry it has been a while. WARNING SELF HARM
Every time i look at Tris i keep thinking that my life can't any better than this. I already have the girl of my dreams what more could I ask for? Tris and I are so very simular my past was not as bad as hers but i can honestly say that this girl has changed everything for me. I am very much a asshole. Tris loves me with every fiber of her being just like I love her. Max did such a good job with her I cannot believe he didn't raise her. Tris is everything to me I will not lose her to anyone not even Four. I thought about all this on the way back to my apartment. I enter my code thats when I realize Max is sitting on my couch.
"What are you doing here old man shouldn't you be in bed with Tori?" I cant help but smirk at him and he just laughs "Yea I probably should. I just can't help but think about everything that Tris has told us." he puts his head in his hands. I hate feeeling like there is nothing I can do to help Max and believe me it kills me just as bas as him I sigh then say. "Yea I feel the same way but there is nothing we can do, I feel just as lost as you I was thinking about the whole walk up here from the dorm." He just looks at me and shakes his head. "What if i kept her? What if i just told her the truth from beginning? I cut him off really quickly. "MAX STOP the what if game is not helping you it only makes things worse. Look I know your hurting and believe me I am to but you can't forget so is Tris. Think about it Max we have never seen that fire in her eye the way she talked about taking Four out definetly brought it out. Those other people have taken more than we will ever know. I can't imagine all the shit she has gone through and what it did to her mind."
" I hate to admit it but your right Eric but I still can't help but wonder. I can't get past the fact my baby girl MY BABY wanted to kill herself. I could have lost her and just the thought of it makes me want to puke. Eric they did this to her, I dont understand how Natalie would have gone on with it. My baby got hurt in the worst way I can't help but think that if things were different then none of this would have happened." I sigh and shake my head. Max is stubborn I just think that's where Tris gets it from. "Eric I'm sorry I know this can't be easy for you either. Tris is my daughter we have to help her. I want Four gone not to mention the fact he called my daughter a whore just makes it that much worse." I was trying to forget that part because the fact he did it made my blood boil. Trust me he will go down very soon because I want my girl safe. " look I hate Four more than anyone especially what happened in initiation but Tris doesn't need this she doesn't need him looking over her shoulder every ten seconds." Max thinks for a bit then says "I want you to be behind her let him walk circles around the other initates if Tris needs help not that I don't think you already do but just saying be extra I dont give a Fuck what it looks like to the others my baby needs you to protect her." I can't help but nod. Max stands up and says goodnight before I can even respond he shuts the door.
Tris POV
Here I am laying in my bunk just thinking about all the shit my dad and Eric found out. I can't help but think that somehow I dissapointed them with fact I couldn't fight them. My childhood was not the greatest but ending up in the place where deep down I Knew where I Belonged right here in dauntless with Eric. When thinking about Eric my heart beat is faster and can't help but feeling happy. I hear someone enter the dorm so I turn over and look at the time it says 1:01 its so dark I cannot see a fucking thing then I hear his voice. "Hello Tris miss me?" he just laughs and walks away. I wish I wasn't so weak when it came to him but he paralizes me with fear. I know im not going to be able to sleep here I need Eric but right now I'm not able to breath and I just hate myself more. I walk into the bathroom and come face to face with a stickey note attached to a blade that says
Dear Tris, You were always so stubborn and fiesty but did you really not think we would see the scares when we were having our fun with you? I just start to tear up and I power through and I don't know why and I know it's stupid but I keep reading the letter. I remember when i saw them it would turn me on more because I knew we had/have such a power over you. Natalie is dead but guess what your real mother Tori well she is alive and I am not afraid to hurt her but for now I'll leave her alone. You, you did this Tris all you do is bring death and danger to the people you love. Remember what we did to caleb for defending you? would you like me to do the same thing to Eric? I stop reading and slam the letter down on the floor and just slide down the wall it's pathetic but I just cry. They killed Caleb because he tried to help me, I can't help but blame myself. Once again Four got me to me and I slice my Wrist right where my tattoo of the maze Eric and I have and I just break down more its then that I realize what I'm doing. I throw the blade across the bathroom floor and pick up the note and shove it in my pocket then grab the blade that's when i decided that I am going to Eric's.
I start to walk and think at the same time. I hope he doesn't hate me for this ugh i hate being this way i just know i have to be open with Eric and just pray everything goes okay. I look down at my Wrist and see its still bleeding i guess i cut more than I orginally thought. I knock on the door not having a clue what time it is and i hear Eric screaming "IT BETTER BE FUCKING IMPORTANT TO WAKE ME UP AT THIS GOD DAMN EARLY! He yankes the door open and his face quickly softens and looks worried. Now that could be becuase he's afraid he scared me or the fact I have tears streaming down my face or it could just be both
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