Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts, Square Enix and Disney do. And I don't own the song 'Same Direction,' Hoobastank does. I just own my own copy of their CD "The Reason", which is awesome by the way.

A/N: Hey all! I've decided to be a good girl and start the next chapter early! Wow! I'm actually doing it! Haha! Well, I'm glad that you all are still reading this. My last chapter was so disturbing, I'm still remembering it in the middle of class. So I'm making this a Riku chapter so that we won't have to see the scariness for a while. But he's going to be angry but I think that he'll come around later on. Oh yeah, and I like the reviews that I got. I know that the last chapter was a bit, say, "rushed" and I'm glad that you guys all spoke the truth. The beginning and the end are just fine but the middle was so 'blah' and ugly that I might have to just revise it later. Until then, here is the next chapter and this time, I'm taking my time on this one. Well, I hope you enjoy.

Note: I don't hold these opinions that Riku and the rest of them are talking about. They're just talking about things that I've heard many other guys that I know talk about. So don't get pissed at me if they say something that offends you, I'm just going with how the characters are like. Thank You.

Burning Desire

"Same Direction"

"God damn him. God damn him!"

That was all I could say as I made my way through the crowd towards Axel's house. I couldn't believe that little asshole would do such a thing. He basically walked into it with open arms, as if he didn't ever think about the fact that Yan could probably beat him into intensive care when they returned to their apartment. But I don't fucking care anymore, he can rot in hell for all I care.

I knocked into a few other people as I pushed my way across the busy street, not caring that cars were screeching to a stop and honking at me on both ends. Did he love him that much? Was he so blind to think that the bastard actually cared about him at all? Yan could hardly care less if he found him lying in a ditch somewhere, hell, he'd probably be ecstatic and play with the body!

But who did Sora think he was? He simply allowed him to dominate him like that, humiliating him to his brother's pleasure.

Remembering the kiss, I ball my hands in my hair. More so, I could remember how Yan watched me the entire time like I was some kind of amusement. The smug bastard was enjoying toying with me, having to watch him openly tongue Sora. And even worse was knowing that Sora couldn't do anything about it without having to worry about his brother's wrath even more. But why was I so upset about that?

When I reached Axel's house, I simply walked inside, ignoring the welcoming smile of Kairi as I made my way to the bathroom, slamming the door behind me.

"Riku? What's wrong?" called Kairi as she lightly knocked on the door. I just ignored her as she tried to turn the door knob, finding it locked. I just needed to be alone, just for right now. Later I'll tell her like I always do. Right now, I just need to think.

I leaned back against the wall and slid to the floor, trying to ignore the concerned voices outside. Why would he do something like that? Didn't he know that his brother was just using him? Didn't he ever stand back and realize that Yan didn't love him and had no intention of loving him? So why was he doing this? Why does he keep crawling back to him as if he owes him anything?

Kicking my heel harshly against the counter in front of me, I groan angrily, wiping my hands over my face. Tears?

Rubbing my watery eyes, I chuckle to myself in frustration. Why was I getting so worked up about this? After all, I didn't know Sora more than his name and who his was brother. So why was I crying?

A few more tears fell down and I pulled up my knees, burying my face in my arms. Why did I care so much about what could possibly happen to the guy anyway? He was, after all, just some guy that I started lusting after. I got what I wanted so why was I not happy?

Sniffling a bit, I try to search through my mind, looking for any kind of sign. Why am I crying over him? Why do I feel like I've made a mistake in letting him go?

After washing off my face, I take a deep breath and open the door, scaring Kairi half to death.

"Riku! Are you okay? What happened?" she asked as I made my way to their garage with her trailing right behind me.

"I'll tell you later, I just need to get this off of my chest," I say, mentally calming myself.

When I opened the door, I jumped back a little to see three worried eyes staring back at me. Kairi must have told Axel who would have blabbed it out to Tidus who would have given up and told Leon since the guy didn't like being the only one not to know anything. Thus is the communications network in our group.

Sighing, I glared at Axel, rolling my eyes. "Great, did you have to alert the media?" I asked, walking over to the mike stand, adjusting it and turning it on. The speakers squeaked a little until they settled themselves with Kairi's help, giving off a normal white noise.

"We're just worried about you Riku, don't get like this," said Tidus, frowning sadly at me. I hate when he gets like this. Normally, it means that he's going to guilt me into telling what had happened.

"Whatever, let's just practice for out performance. You and Leon need to synchronize a bit better or else this song will be shit and it's bad performing someone else's song and it being shit," I said as I waited, tapping on the mike.

Leon folded his arms, looked at me in his 'you-better-talk-or-I'll-beat-it-out-of-you' glares. Why was everyone so god damn nosey?

"No one's playing until you tell us what the hell is going on. We can't have a very good band if our singer is too stressed out to hit the notes."

"Why does everyone have to be in my business anyway? I'm fine see? So let's get this damn thing over with before I say fuck it and we play at the club as is," I say, my temper starting to boil inside of me. For all of their years of knowing me, they should at least have known that whenever there was some kind of thing bothering me I tended to shut myself off from the world until I dealt with the issue. However, I guess they decided to ignore that minute little detail.

"It's about Sora isn't it?" asked Axel, twirling his drumsticks absently, probably not really wanting to push my buttons the most in this room.

"How did you know about him?" I asked, starting to get suspicious. Did Kairi tell him about that too? The one thing that I had her swear never to tell anyone in the band?

The red-headed drummer just sighed, tapping one of the smaller drums lightly. "No one told me, if that's what you're thinking. The guy just came up to me when I was walking with Kairi, begging to stay with us for some reason."

"Some chick was begging to stay with you? Why?" asked Tidus, totally confused as he fiddled with his light blue electric guitar, covered in various stickers from different popular surf brands or something like that.

Axel just shook his head, giving him a smirk. "No, Sora's a guy, probably a little shorter than you and with brown hair. Basically you but not so annoyingly surfer boy with 'dude' and all of that shit," he said, making Leon snicker.

"You think it's funny huh? You better not be checking me out Riku or I'll castrate you," said the blonde angrily, giving a scissor-like movement with his index and middle finger to stress his point.

I just laughed and shook my head, rolling my eyes. "I wouldn't want you anyway. I'd have to shoot myself if you said 'I'm gonna cum dude' in bed," I said, earning laughter from everyone, including Tidus.

"Anyway, I saw him and he said that he was your boyfriend and needed a place to hide out from home so Kairi here convinced me to drop him off at your apartment," said Axel, earning a nervous giggle from his sister.

"But he needed a place to stay and I thought you wouldn't mind since you were the one that had been lusting after him all of this time," she replied, making me redden into a blush.

"Kairi! You weren't supposed to tell them that!"

"Well, it's pretty obvious since you've skipped out on two practices to have hot steamy man sex with him, don't deny it!" she accused, making Tidus redden in embarrassment.

"Do I really have to hear this?" he asked, earning another snicker from Leon.

"But you feel so fine in giving us great mental images of every broad you fuck."

"Yeah but that's normal! People are made for that!" protested Tidus with a glare.

"Well when you have what you have, you just have to use it," said the brunette, completely grossing out the blonde. Don't get me wrong, Tidus is totally cool with Leon and I liking other men. Hell, he's even threatened to beat up my last boyfriend 'cause he started cheating on me but that's a different story. He's just completely straight and the thought of fucking another man and possibly being the one on the bottom freaks him out way too much. I guess it's the same way with Leon and doing it with a woman.

"But that's just creepy!"

"Well, if you think that's weird, think of lesbians. Now that is some tough shit right there," I say.

"It's pointless to me. There has to be some kind of penetration in order to make it sex," commented Leon, his eyes twitching slightly at the thought of it.

"But they're awesome for three-ways," replied Axel while licking his lips at the thought of it hungrily.

Tidus shrugged in thought. "Well sometimes they can be pretty handy with their fingers, and even…"

"God! Tidus, that's freaking gross!" yelled Kairi as she clamped her hands over her ears. "Where the hell did you learn this stuff?"

"From the wonderful world wide web, why?"

Axel just laughed. "What kind of porn freak are you?"

"Hey, it's a valid hobby! They have everything you could want. They've got Al Bhed, Asian, Black, fat people, old people, people fucking goats and shit. They even have all of that that gay shit that you two would probably like," said Tidus, making us all raise an eyebrow while Kairi giggled.

"Wow Tidus, you're a walking porn encyclopedia," she laughed.

There was a long pause in our conversation before we all tilted our heads to the side.

"What were we talking about again that got us into this?" thought Tidus as we all tried to remember. That was our life though. Whenever we had a potentially important or serious conversation that we needed to talk about, we always somehow got off track and didn't realize it until we were so far away from out original topic that it was too late to try to figure it out again.

(Normal POV)

"Riku…"

The bed slammed roughly against the wall then back to tapping against it in its normal sick rhythm. The brunette buried his pale face into the uncomforting mattress, dull sapphire eyes focused on nothing in particular.

"Riku…" he whimpered again, feeling a pair of elbows falling down to rest at either side of his face. His smooth cheek continued to move against the now ruined fabric of the sheet below him, rubbing his face raw.

"Oh God," moaned the person behind him, making the rocking of his hips more erratic.

"Riku…"

A slow tear traced its way down his cheek as he laid his face to the side, his sweat drenched hair falling raggedly onto his face like a shredded curtain. The head of the bed jerked roughly against the wall again, signaling to the boy that he was almost done, along with a few more desperate grunts behind him.

"Riku…" he sobbed, imagining the seductive but kind aqua eyes of the man that he was calling for watching over him, telling him that everything would be okay.

Burying his face into his sickly pale arms, he cried silent tears as he felt sudden hard thrusts behind them slowly weaken, followed by a long purr of satisfaction.

"You're so good," moaned his assaulter, collapsing down onto him in a sticky mess after he yet again emptied himself violently into him. The bed creaked as it shifted its weight and then settled with a sigh of its springs.

Smooth lips trailed feverish kisses over his shoulders, his fingers feeling the damp skin of the boy's hips. The brunette, however, had lost all feeling in that area previously, glad that he was too numb to feel the deep welts that had ravaged his once beautiful skin. He was no longer beautiful anymore, he was ragged, an old doll that had been roughhoused too much to hold any resemblance to its original form.

"Come on baby, you know that felt good."

"Riku…"

There was a rough motion behind him then the feeling of his body being spun onto his back maliciously, followed by two large hands clamping around his neck. The air rushed from his lungs and he gasped a little, his eyes widening in a lackluster way. The man on top of him glared down at him menacingly, hazel eyes glowing angrily back at him.

"I wish you'd fucking die…" he spat as he tightened his grip, watching his eyes redden, turning blood red.

"Ri… ku…"

The blood rushed to his face as I felt everything slowly being succumbed to black all around him. There were no thoughts in his mind as he began to grow tired. He imagined the silver-haired man standing over him, smiling down at him with his playful and charming grins. Reaching a hand to his neck weakly, he tried to pull at the hands on his neck and then gave up in that attempt, leaning his head back as tears erupted from his face.

Everything started to disappear as Riku's eyes suddenly took a more panicked expression, yelling something to him over Yan's shoulder, starting to vanish. Mouthing it yet again, he felt the pressure in his head reach the boiling point until suddenly everything crashed him into darkness.

(Riku POV)

The club roared as we walked onto the stage, cheering and calling out our names while squealing. Tidus grinned at them and waved, making a few of them cheer. Scanning the crowd, I couldn't see him, he wasn't there.

"Don't worry, he'll show up," murmured Leon, placing a reassuring hand on my shoulder. I just looked up to him and smiled sadly.

"Yeah, you're right," I said, trying not to worry everyone more than they already were. It still was surprising that Leon was going out of his way to try to comfort me. I mean, whenever something happened, he normally would just stand stoically in the corner and just give his awkward worried glances, which was close to never. But here he was, twisting his normally unmoving frown into something that could come close to a comforting smile, looking as if he hadn't given one in such a long time, especially not in public with a bunch of other people around. It reminded me of the old Leon.

A smile crept to my lips as I grabbed the microphone, adjusting it to my height while the fans still continued to scream.

"Hey," I said, making everyone cheer excitedly. "Are you guys excited?"

Again, they all screamed, waving their hands in the air and jumping around. It was a pretty packed audience in the club and I could practically feel the heat radiating off of them as if it was a sauna. Yeah, bad analogy but you kind of get it right?

Chuckling lowly, I grin back to them. "Good. If my performance is kind of shitty today, just bear with me. But I'm gonna try to make it great okay?"

They all cheered in response. Axel just laughed while Tidus did the same.

"Well, here we go. For 'Cover Night' we're gonna perform 'Same Direction' by Hoobastank!" I yelled as the sound rushed into a roar.

Axel tapped us off and the music started off low, Tidus playing slightly over Leon's bass. The crowd lowered down, intently listening while nodding their heads while I swayed my hips from side to side, my eyes closed as I waited for the music to pick up.

Hey!

Then the music roared, making everyone scream and yell out excitedly as they got lost in the beat. Closing my eyes, I bit my lip while I let myself be carried in the music, letting the rush take hold of me while I waited for the verse.

Whenever I step outside, somebody claims to see the light

It seems to me that all of us have lost our patience

'Cause everyone thinks they're right, and nobody thinks that there just might

Be more than one road to our final destination

Tidus nodded his head to the beat as he started to sing the back up, strumming the strings as I yelled into the microphone, shaking my head from side to side. Leon leaned onto one side, his strumming in quick jerking motions as he matched his bass with the blonde's guitar.

But I'm not ever going to know, if I'm right or wrong

'Cause we're all going in the same direction

We all just focused on the music, feeling the vibrations vibrating through out bodies, giving a better high than any drug could. It was freeing, just being one with the music, as I screamed out the lyrics with my voice booming out of my chest.

And I'm not sure which way to go, because all along

We've been going in the same direction

The crowd yelled as I went into the second verse, a small group of them moshing in the corner while the rest of them bounced up and down to the music while shaking their fists to the music.

I'm tired of playing games, of looking for someone else to blame

For all the holes in answers that are clearly showing

Clutching the mike, I lean the stand close to me as I loll my head to the side, almost humming the song as I felt a pang in my heart. I thought of Sora at that moment, where he might have been, fearing that I might not be able to tell him what I was starting to feel for him.

Like the song said, I was tired of blaming everything on other people, like the fight in the café that made Sora hurt, him being in love with Yan so that I couldn't hope to get his affection. Even when I had froze and messed up by not making Sora stay with me, I blamed him for being blind to his brother's intentions instead of acknowledging the fact that I just screwed up.

For something to fill the space, was all of the time I spent a waste

'Cause so many choices point the same way I was going

I closed my eyes and yelled out the chorus, catching Tidus off guard as he quickly shifted his eyes to me in concern. They threw themselves into their instruments as I almost cried out the song, my eyes squeezed shut as I hunched over the mike as I leaned it forward. I had really screwed up and I needed to make it right. I needed to find him again.

But I'm not ever going to know, if I'm right or wrong

'Cause we're all going in the same direction

The audience bounced to the music harder, throwing their fists almost violently towards me as they bobbed their heads vigorously. Everyone in the mosh pit scrambled around, ignoring the security who was trying to break it up before they just gave up.

And I'm not sure which way to go, because all along

We've been going in the same direction

Going in the same direction!

Same direction!

Tidus grinned at me as he sang out the backup, not letting his playing lack its intensity. I yelled the bridge, my brows furrowed as I called it out to an invisible person in the audience as I felt the emotion rise up in me. It made me feel like punching someone, it even made me feel dangerous.

So why does there only have to be, one correct philosophy?

I don't want to go and follow you just to end up like one of them

And why are you always telling me what you want me to believe?

I'd like to think that I can go my own way and meet you in the end

Go my own way and meet you in the end!

The music lightened up lightly as I softly sang part of the verse before ringing out into the heavy beat that it had before, making everyone in the audience look as if they could go crazy by the way that they were swaying carelessly side to side, bouncing with the beat as Tidus jumped with it too for a bit. He then returned to swinging his head as he leaned over his guitar, getting lost in it entirely while singing parts of it along with me.

But I'm not ever going to know, if I'm right or wrong

'Cause we're all going in the same direction

Leon joined the backup with us as he rocked back and forth while closing his eyes in concentration, his fingers working his bass as he kept up with our slight increase in speed towards the end. I felt almost maddened with the high I was getting from the music, making me scream it with all of my voice, making sure not to strain myself as I rocked almost deliriously to Axel's furious beat.

And I'm not sure which way to go, because all along

We've been going in the same direction

All I could think was how cathartic it was. It was sheer and utter bliss.

Going in the same direction

Going in the same direction!

Same direction!

A/N: Oh my God! This was such a rush when I typed up the concert scene. Yeah, I know that this chapter was kind of eh but it's the whole transition chapter until everything truly changes. And besides, Riku is figuring out that he's falling in love with Sora. Go him! Anyway, I finally dug out my Hoobastank CD, you know, the recent one? Well, I listened to the first song 'Same Direction' and I thought, "Oh my gosh! It sound's like something Riku would like to sing!" I mean, if you listen to the song, especially with earphones, super loud, and pushing the earphones close to your ears so you could hear everything, it is totally euphoric! Heck, if I knew how to play the guitar or anything, I'd totally rock out to it myself!

Well anyway, that scene took forever to piece together. I mean, I had to listen to the whole song like three times to try to plan out what the heck the band would be doing while they were playing it then I had to listen to each piece of the song, trying to hurry up and type it all out so that I didn't lose the image before I got it down. And then, I listened to it one more time while I replayed the whole scenario in my head, making sure all of their movements would be correct with the music so that they could flow like normal performances. All of that came to this final product and I hope that you all enjoyed it. If there are some innacuracies, feel free to bring it up to me, I know I might have screwed up here and there. I tried though!

I know that the whole thing with Sora getting strangled is not the best way to transition into the concert scene but I couldn't help it. I wanted it to be kind of rough to show how the mood of this chapter is. It's supposed to be somewhat chaotic. But don't worry, he's not dead. Well, hope you all enjoyed and I'm so glad that I'm getting so many honest reviews cause I have to admit some of my scenes and even chapters suck and I'm glad you all are noticing that! Please review!