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Postponing dreams.

Kaho Mizuki ate her breakfast quietly watching him.Him, whose blue eyes were no longer shining;him, whose mind was far away from her.Something had changed in those past few years.Something she wasn't aware of.

"Eriol you should eat something…"-she said kindly and put a plate with toast in front of him.He looked at her with a sad look.He looked…guilty and she wished she knew why.He kissed her hand and said.

"I am ok, you don't have to worry."-she knew he didn't mean that.He wasn't ok.He was distant, sad, and guilty.But he wasn't sharing anything with her.Why didn't he trust her?

"You know Eriol…we had our ups and downs.But you always spoke to me, even if it hurt me , you always told me what was bothering you.And if we want this marriage to work you will have to talk to me Eriol!Do we want this marriage to work?"-she asked him, after all if he wanted to cancel there was still time.He said nothing.He just stared at her with a distant look.

She felt the tears coming.She stood up, got her coat and left.She didn't know where she was going, who she was going to talk to, but she couldn't stand his silence.

'Oh my God what a day' she thought.The days at work had been so tiring.Tough it was what she wanted because it kept her mind off Eriol she was getting really tired since she barely slept.It had been three weeks since he left.One month, one week, 8 hours and 25 minutes left without Eriol.Yes, she knew.Work isn't that distracting, and she really wanted to see him.After not hearing from him in almost a month she found out that having him as her friend was better than not having him at all.

But three weeks to herself allowed her a long time to think.To look back at her life and try to see why everything seems out of place.And she discovered some really scary stuff about herself.

She wasted practically her whole life until now.She wasted all of these years living for others.She was living for someone else right now.This job was her mother's dream not hers.She wanted to be a famous fashion designer.Not a workaholic that passed her week and some weekends closed in a office.

All of her life she forgot to live.She lived for someone but she never stopped to think about herself.She lived for Sakura for ages!Designing her clothes, helping her, making her realize Sayoran was in love with her even tough it hurt seeing Sakura with someone else.

After that she buried herself at work.Like she was doing now.Until of course she started her affair with Eriol.He saved her.Being in his arms gave a little sense to her life.Then, she lived for him.She missed days and days and days of work just so she could be with him.She didn't regret it , no, she loved him!But she regretted not ever thinking how it would affect her life.She never made a limit.

She was trying her best to ignore everything that she had given up.Her dream to be a designer, Sakura, a healthy relationship with her mother, a real boyfriend.So she just accepted whatever got in her path.Eriol, her present job, her lack of a mother.

But she wouldn't take it anymore.She was tired of not living, not experiencing things,she was tired of letting everyone else do whatever they wanted with her life.

That would certainly change.

She walked to the nearest caffe sat down and ordered the strongest coffee they had.She wouldn't cry.Not anymore.She cried while he slept in the plain, she cried everyday when he wasn't home.What happened with them?

And it wasn't something recent, no, it had been going on for a while now.She actually couldn't remember when was the last time he took her out to dinner and looked at her in that passionate kind of look.

"Excuse me miss"-someone said.Her coffee arrived.She was about to thank the waiter but when she looked at him , it was…

"Touya?"-she smiled.Even tough it was weird since he was her last boyfriend, he was also her friend.And God how she needed a friend now!

"Kaho?Hi, How are you?"-he asked her, and reminding her of Eriol, he gave her that look.The look that he knows something is wrong.

"I fine…"she answered trying to lie.

"No you are not.Are you in a hurry?My shift is almost over,if you could wait…"she nodded and he went back to work.She drank her coffee slowly.Observing the couples near her.

One couple was completely and totally out of love.They were married because both had ring on their fingers.She was reading a book and he was listening his IPod.Not looking at each other , not talking.

The other couple was also married but they were completely different.She was laughing at his jokes and he looked at her with passionate look she wanted from Eriol.She felt the tears coming again and looked away. She wondered which couple she and Eriol would become.And unfortunaly she knew the answer and it scared her.Apparantly she looked so scared that when Touya arrived , he said.

"Wow…it must be worst than I thought…I brought you another coffee"-he said and put the hot coffee in front of her.She took a sip and avoided eye contact."Come on.Tell me what's going on.You know you can trust me."

It must have been the coffee because she completely lost her mind and told him everything.How she thought it was all over and she was being persistent when she was supposed to give up, how she thought they would be miserable for the rest of their lives, how she was unsure of the upcoming wedding but she wouldn't cancel…everything.

He listened to her and not said one thing.After telling him everything she cried.she tried her best not to sob since anyone could see , and hear her.He put a hand on her shoulder and offered her a tissue.

He waited until she calmed down, remained silent for a while so she could put herself together and think straight.

"I know you don't want to hear this…but why don't you postpone this wedding?Just for a couple of months, until everything is settled.If you are lucky you won't take more than 3 months to work things out."he said like it was the most normal thing ever.

"3 months!If I am lucky!"-she asked not believing him.What kind of advice was that?

"Unless of course that you feel secure enough to say I do in front of your family and friends a month and a week from now."-he said and she knew he was right.

She walked looking angry and confuse at the same time.She looked straight in his eyes and said.

"We are postponing this wedding."-he didn't know what to do or to say.Should he be happy or sad?

"What?Why?"-he asked in shock.

"Because I am not ready to say I do , Eriol.Are you?"-she asked and he hated her for asking.She always asked questions that he didn't have an answer for.

Flashback

"Will you marry me,Eriol?"-she asked.He swallowed,what would he say?no?She always asked questions that he didn't know the answer but he couldn't ignore this one.

"Yes..."

End of Flashback

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