Not Without

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Thank you to everyone who reads and even more so to those who review! I love you all! I changed the summary because I realized that I hadn't given any type of warnings. (though most of you reading don't consider it a warning, more like a good reason to read. lol)

Chapter 3: Two dirty boys

There were two dirty boys,

They played with their dirty little toys

And thought many a dirty thought

The chains that they'd bought

Were for naughty, dirty deeds

For you see dirty boys have dirty needs.

Shuichi woke up, opening his eyes expectantly. He enjoyed waking up to see his lover on the bed with him, but Yuki wasn't even in the room with him. He told himself that everything was okay. This wasn't the first time he'd woken up alone, after all. Yawning and stretching, he sat up, deciding to go to the kitchen to see if Yuki was making breakfast. Come to think of it, he was hungry. Shuichi didn't want to get dressed before he took a shower so he simply pulled a big t-shirt on that reached mid-thigh. Yuki would probably be wearing a robe, but Shuichi wasn't a robe kinda guy.

As he approached the kitchen he smelled the lovely scent of cooking sausages, biscuits, and eggs. Over all the other smells, enhancing those smells, was the smell of freshly brewed coffee. Shuichi stopped just within the kitchen and breathed deeply of the lovely smells. Yuki was so talented in everything he did. He brought pleasure to all of Shuichi's senses. The pink haired boy sighed, causing Yuki to look up at him.

Yuki had a headband holding his bangs back away from his face, the sleeves of his robe rolled up past the elbows. He looked important, like the head chef. Shuichi fell to his knees, looking up at his blond lover. Yuki smiled faintly, which Shuichi found sexy.

"You look so powerful, Yuki. It's like you're a wizard, you make everything amazing. Everyone should abase their selves to you." Shuichi said.

Yuki smirked.

"Crawl to me you muggle." (A/N: Harry potter term. Yay)

Shuichi got that look in his eyes. That cute, shy, sexy look. He crawled with that feline grace he had sometimes; shoulders and hips rolling. Yuki swallowed and stared, outwardly appearing to remain calm. Shuichi liked crawling to Yuki. He didn't really know why. Shouldn't crawling to someone be embarrassing, insulting, or something like that?

It was amazing how cute and small Shuichi looked in the big shirt. Yuki couldn't remember whose shirt it was. For some reason he thought that maybe it was Tatsuha's. Shuichi kept their eyes locked as he crawled over to his lover. He slowly licked his lips as he got closer. He did a little cat stretch (which arched his back and lowered his upper body to the floor). He looked up at Yuki as if he were waiting for a good fur rubbing.

"Alright, alright get up." Yuki said, his voice giving away his arousal.

"Anything for you, Yuki." Shuichi said and used Yuki's leg to pull himself up.

Yuki felt tempted to attack him lover. He had to know what he was doing! But his eyes held innocence with the heat. Finally, Shuichi got to his feet, with the help of Yuki. The blond kissed his lover before shoving him in the direction of the table.

"Sit down brat so we can eat."

"Oh goody, it smells really good."

Yuki sat in front of Shuichi of the other side of the table after serving their food. He glanced occasionally at Shuichi to see how the boy liked it, but of course he did. There wasn't much that he could give to the boy that he didn't like at least a little. They ate mostly in silence because if they said anything their food would get cold and they didn't like for their food to get cold, though they had ate cold food often enough to be used to it. There were definitely times that they weren't able to wait until after they ate…

Yuki felt grumpy as he ate. This stupid pink haired brat was screwing up his life. Changing him, and whether it was for better or worse he didn't care. It was strange to have things suddenly changing and he wasn't sure he liked it. Especially when one of the things changing was himself. Since when had he begun to have sex so often with the same person? Since when had he let someone get so close to him? Since when had he been nice and caring?—Okay maybe not so much nice and caring… (lol)

Since Shuichi came into his life, that's when.

Shuichi drank juice with his breakfast, unlike Yuki who preferred something stronger; like coffee. Yuki took longer to finish his coffee most of the time, because it was hot. Shuichi tried not to eat too fast but he wanted to hurry up and be finished so he could –hopefully- do something fun with Yuki. (meaning sex, mostly) He wanted to enjoy Yuki's food though, so he settled for somewhere in between fast and savory speed. Yuki simply ate at his normal speed, trying not to think of the way Shuichi had looked as he crawled across the kitchen floor.

When finally they both finished their meal, they sat there looking at one another.

"I'm going to take a shower." Yuki announced.

Okay, so he hoped Shuichi would want to join him. He didn't want to seem as though he needed the boy so damn much. If the boy didn't say anything about joining him, that would be it. No sex for the rest of the day. How cruel, right? But neither of them had anything to worry about.

"How about we conserve water and share a shower?" Shuichi asked playfully.

He didn't really give a shit about saving water of course. But if they took a shower together they'd be naked… they would most likely have sex. Shuichi's thoughts showed clearly in his eyes.

"Whatever. Come on." Yuki said.

Shuichi hopped up and grabbed his lover's hand, running to the shower as if they were two kids hurrying off to the playground. Yuki needed a cigarette but he could wait until after their shower. When they reached the bathroom, however, Shuichi began filling up the bath instead.

"What are you doing brat?"

"I thought that since we don't really have to hurry today we could take a bath... I like baths."

Shuichi looked so cute. He looked nervous and unsure, no matter how long they stayed together Shuichi never really changed. He never just did something drastic without first checking with Yuki.

"You just don't want to get fucked against the shower wall again." Yuki said.

Shuichi's jaw dropped a little. He didn't know if he wasn't going to defend himself or what but he was shocked. Was that true? No not really, he didn't mind his back against the wall as Yuki made love to him. He didn't even mind having his front pressed against the shower wall... In fact just about everything he could think of that involved Yuki appealed to him. Yuki shook his head at how Shuichi just remained speachless for so long.

What really hit Shuichi was that Yuki planned to have sex in here. Just him saying so made Shuichi shiver in anticipation. As soon as the bath was full, as soon as they were naked, they were going to have sex. All sorts of feelings went through him. Good feelings. Extremely good feelings.

The bath finally filled and Shuichi bent over to turn the water off. Yuki slid the shirt up Shuichi's back, licking the boy's spine. Shuichi shivered.

"Y-Yuki.."

Yuki continued to slide the shirt off his lover's small frame, licking along the spine until he reached the base of Shuichi's skull. He tossed the shirt to the side and began undoing his robe. Shuichi turned around, his eyes going to the skin revealed by the robe opening. Yuki tossed the robe to the side, too, the cupped his lover's face in his hands and bestowed a kiss upon Shuichi's slightly parted lips.

Shuichi moaned as Yuki's tongue welcomed itself into his mouth. Pushing Shuichi away, Yuki got into the bath. Shuichi followed his lover and sat down on Yuki's lap, in the water. They washed each other between kisses and caresses. Yuki stroked Shuichi's sensitive lower body, causing the boy to rock his hips. The water sloshed ever so slightly against their bodies and against the sides of the tub. Shuichi pushed Yuki's now wet hair back from his face, staring at this different look as he always did when he had the chance. He loved the way Yuki's hair hung feather-light against his face, but he also loved seeing all of Yuki's face. He gripped Yuki's hair a little tightly, but Yuki didn't complain, as Yuki repositioned their bodies and entered Shuichi.

Shuichi buried his face in Yuki's warm neck. He liked it when Yuki was slow and gentle, taking his time with this as if he could do it forever. But it always felt like too much. That was just Yuki. He was too much for Shuichi. Too much pleasure, too much feelings within his heart... But he couldn't live without Yuki. Wouldn't.

The way the water moved against their bodies as they made love added to the feelings. Yuki had one hand on Shuichi's hip, one on his back.

"Are you going to be still this whole time?"

"No.. I'm sorry Yuki, it just feels so good..."

He began moving his hips with Yuki, making the water slosh more. He added to the rhythm but managed to keep the same pace. Yuki leaned his back against the tub and sort of relaxed. There was no need to rush things, no need to get this over with anytime soon. Shuichi moved so that they could see each other's face. Yuki captured his lips and simply enjoyed all the feelings his lover was giving him. His hand moved from Shuichi's back to encircle the younger boy's erection. Shuichi moaned into Yuki's mouth. After a few more moments of this Yuki broke the kiss.

"We can't stay in here forever."

"I don't want to ever stop."

"We're going to suck up all the water."

"Nah-uh."

"I'm getting out brat."

What Shuichi didn't realize was that Yuki meant he was getting out to continue this elsewhere. They got out of the bath, no longer one. Yuki pushed the sad Shuichi to the floor of the big bathroom, onto the big throw rug. Shuichi looked up at the blonde in surprise.

"Oooh, I thought you wanted to stop."

"Hell no."

Yuki lapped at the water droplets on his lover's small chest. He breifly thought about simply continuing where they left off, but he wanted to lick off the water. He moved up to Shuichi's neck, then back down to Shuichi's hip. He licked over to Shuichi's erection, then licked that. Shuichi gripped the rug in both hands as Yuki pleasured him. Yuki took his lover into his mouth, rolling his eyes up to see Shuichi's heated face.

"Y-yuki..."

Yuki answered by making the boy's back arch. The phone rang but they ignored it. Shuichi's moans and whimpers were intoxicating..

The answering machine picked up.

"Yo, it's me Tatsuha. I don't have anywhere to go really... so ... uh.. I'm coming over. See you bro."

Yuki stopped what he was doing and stared down at Shuichi. He wondered how long it would be before Tatsuha came. He bit his lip. Damn. Shuichi looked up at him, wondering what was going on. There was a knock at the door. Double damn.

"Yuki, your editor says to tell you that you need to go see her. So if you aren't dressed you might wanna get dressed and ready to go." Tatsuha called, helping himself inside.

"When'd you talk to her?" Yuki called back, getting up; much to Shuichi's disappointment.

Yuki walked into the bedroom and began getting dressed.

"Oh damn, I forgot I have a book signing today." He grumbled as pulled on his pants.

He got dressed pretty fast and grabbed his stuff. Without telling Shuichi bye he left.

Shuichi sat stunned on the bathroom floor.

Okay, sorry it took me so long to get that chapter up. I hope you like it. You may not like me so much for what I'm planning to do next chapter but you'll be okay. I'm appologising ahead of time for all my mistakes and whatnot that I will make with this story. Love you all, thanks for reading.