Not Without
Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation! (shuici's in my basement though )
Hey peeples! Thank you for making it this far. I love you all! If anyone likes the Taking Back Sunday, yea that's kinda where I got the title of chapter five. Yay.
Chapter 5: Make damn sure
Tatsuha went to the kitchen to find something to eat. Shuichi shut the bedroom door and locked it just be extra cautious. Even though Tatsuha seemed to understand how he felt he didn't trust him. What if he suddenly decided he wanted to try and make him 'return the favor'? Shuichi shuddered and put a chair under the door knob to feel safer. Now that he was locked away he went to the big master bathroom. He let the water that was in there out and began to fill it back up with warm water.
After shutting and locking the bathroom door as well, he dropped the towel and looked at his reflection. He wished that Yuki would hurry up and get home so he could tell him what had happened and appologise. Until then his heart would not feel at ease. Was it wrong of him to feel betrayed by Tatsuha? Of course not... right? They were supposed to be friends. When a friend tells you no, to stop, you're supposed to listen.
The water had filled up the tub so Shuichi turns it off and steps in. It feels better to wash himself, to be clean. At least nothing on him belonged to Tatsuha. Had Shuichi really been Ryuichi that wouldn't be the case. He sighed after scrubbing himself clean and just relaxed in the tub.
In a way, Shuichi wished that Yuki would be furious when he found out what happened. But most likely, he wouldn't punish his little brother like he would someone else. Or would he punish someone else? Just how much does Yuki care?
Shuichi sniffled sadly and upon doing so realized how upset he was. Because of what had happened and because he feared Yuki wouldn't care that much about him. He would still love Yuki of course, no matter how he reacted to the news. But he would be really hurt. Yuki tended to hurt his feelings alot. Never the less, Shuichi loved him.
Getting out of the tub, Shuichi grabbed a big fluffy, fresh towel and dried himself off. His hair had dried earlier. Now it was wet again. He unlocked the bathroom door and went into the bedroom. It didn't matter if he was naked now. No one would be able to get in here to see him or touch him.
Going into the closet he grabbed his boxer shorts and pulled them on. He intended to get dressed but now that he was at the closet he was looking at all of Yuki's shirts. He loved the way Yuki looked in these shirts. He liked watching Yuki when he was typing up a new story or cooking... It didn't matter what he was doing, Shuichi loved the sight of his lover. Yuki was just so sexy in those reading glasses. He could stare at Yuki forever if Yuki wouldn't stop him. Yuki didn't like for Shuichi or anyone else to stare at him. That's why Shuichi liked to stare at Yuki when he was sleeping. He couldn't see that Shuichi was staring at him then.
Shuichi touched the shirts, gently so the shirts wouldn't be knocked off their hangers. Walking away from all the shirts in the closet he went over to the bed and climbed on. Normally, he probably would've jumped onto the bed, but he just didn't feel like it right now. Getting under the blankets, he curled up and prepared to sleep until Yuki returned. The bed smelled a little like Yuki. He tried to burrow into the big bed, closing his eyes so the rest of the world disappeared. Nothing but the familiar scent of his lover and the comfort of Yuki's bed.
Sometimes Shuichi would call this 'our' bed, but most of the time he thought of it as Yuki's. He liked to think of things as Yuki's. Besides, every now and then Yuki would kick Shuichi out of the bed and sleep there alone. Thinking of that made Shuichi wonder if he would be kicked out of the bed for what Tatsuha did. Maybe Shuichi deserved it. After all could he have not tried harder to make Tatsuha stop? He felt horrible.
"Yuki." Shuichi mumbled as he fell asleep.
Shuichi was woken up by the sound of someone knocking on the bedroom door. Groaning, not wanting to get out of the bed, he burrowed further under the covers. If that was Tatsuha knocking, he'd clearly lost his mind. As if Shuichi would let him into the bedroom with him while they were alone. But who else could it be? Yuki? Surely he hadn't slept that long.
"Brat you better open the damn door or this is the last time you're seeing the inside of the bedroom."
Shuichi gasped. Was he really here? Tatsuha and Yuki sounded the same. What if Tatsuha was just immitating Yuki again? He'd sure been fooled before. Something Shuichi wasn't proud of.
"Dammit brat, what the hell are you doing? Open the damn door!" He sounded different now.
Worried?
"Y-Yuki?" Shuichi asked, cautiously peering at the door as if he could see through it.
"No shit dumbass. Open the door." Yuki said, sounding relieved.
But why did he sound relieved? Did he think that something horrible had happened to him?
"O-okay!" Shuichi said, getting out of bed.
He ran over to the door and pulled the chair away from it. He unlocked the door and opened it to see an irritated Yuki standing there. He'd recently put a cigerette into his mouth and still had his glasses on. Shuichi felt better almost instantly upon seeing his lover but he still wasn't sure how Yuki would react.
Yuki eyed the younger boy.
"What did he do to you?" He asked.
Shuichi stared up at the blonde. Did he know already? Had Tatsuha told him? Yuki frowned harder than he was already.
"Tatsuha was drunk in the living room. He mumbled something about how he was sorry and mumbled your name before he passed out. That little bastard..." Yuki said.
He pushed his way inside and sat on the edge of the bed, waiting for Shuichi's response. Shuichi shut the bedroom door and leaned against it. He told Yuki everything.
"I'm sorry I could've maybe fought harder but... I.." Shuichi was crying again.
"Come here brat." Yuki told him.
Shuichi walked over to stand in front of his lover. Yuki removed the cigerette from his mouth and with his other hand he wiped away Shuichi's tears. Yuki's golden eyes were on Shuichi's sad face.
"I shouldn't have left you here alone with him. It's my fault. I told the little shithead not to touch you." Yuki said. His words were actually gentle.
"You did?" Shuichi asked sadly.
"Yea, but you see how much good that did." Yuki said, putting the cigerette back to his lips.
Shuichi didn't say anything. He was glad that Yuki wasn't mad at him. And relieved that Yuki actually did care about him. He saw that clearly now. Yuki reached over to the nightstand and put his cigerette out in the ashtray. Once he'd disposed of the cigerette he turned his attention back to Shuichi.
"You look so pitiful." He told the singer.
Shuichi pouted and lowered his head. Yuki tilted Shuichi's face back upwards and stared at his face from only inches away.
"I don't blame you." Yuki said.
Shuichi's bottom lip trembled. Yuki pulled the smaller boy closer so that he could wrap his arm around the boy's waist. There was nothing more that he liked to feel against his body than this boy. Shuichi rested his hands on Yuki's shoulders. Yuki lay the side of his face against Shuichi's small chest, hearing the rhythmic beat of his lover's heart. He was reminded that he was wearing his glasses. He pulled away and began to take his glasses off.
"You look so sexy in your glasses." Shuichi said softly.
Yuki smirked.
"Do I now?" He asked. Shuichi giggled and nodded.
Yuki pulled Shuichi's face to his and kissed him. When he slid his tongue into Shuichi's welcoming mouth, Shuichi tasted Yuki's cigerette slightly. He liked it. It was all a part of his Yuki. When they parted, he smiled a small almost shy smile at Yuki.
"When that little punk wakes up I'll make sure he knows better than to ever try anything with you again. I guess I have to tattoo my name all over your body. Property of Eiri Uesagi." Yuki said.
"Yea. You should." Shuichi agreed.
"Make damn sure no one touches you but me." Yuki said possessivly.
Shuichi hugged his lover.
"I love you Yuki." He said with feeling.
That's the end of chapter 5 . Tell me if you liked it or whatever. Hopefully I'll have chapter 6 up tomorrow. Love you all!
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