Not Without
Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation (but I do have the manga series and the novels)
To the readers: Thank you, thank you, thank you! So much! I don't know where to end this story though. Maybe it will NEVER end. If I ever get to a chapter 20 I'm gonna start singing "this is the fanfic that never ends". You probably will too. I'll try to make them interesting though.
Chapter 6: Tattoo
Shuichi crawled onto Yuki's lap, not straddling him but sitting on him like you would sit on Santa. His head rested on Yuki's shoulder. They were talking. Mostly Yuki was telling Shuichi about the book signing and about how shocked his editor was. Shocked in a happy way for once. Yuki wasn't the kind of person to talk about his day or explain himself. Hell he barely talked at all. But Shuihi always liked to hear how Yuki's day went and now that Shuichi was Yuki's number one and only one Shuichi could actually listen to everything Yuki said. Yuki used to give hints that maybe he had sex with a woman earlier that day so Shuichi would either put his hands over his ears or tell Yuki to stop.
That was before though. Now, Yuki had no use of anyone else. What is the point in having a meaningless relationship with someone or having one night stands when you can have someone that loves you, someone that you trust. Now it is just the two of them and neither of them complain about that.
Shuichi stared at Yuki's neck. Thinking how much he wanted a taste. After a few moments of resisting the temptation he finally gave in and hesitantly licked the side of Yuki's neck. Yuki shuddered and stopped in the middle of his sentence. Shuichi's lips and teeth joined his tongue on Yuki's neck so that he could feast upon the warm flesh.
"What are you a vampire?" Yuki asks a little breathlessly.
Shuichi pulls away just enough to respond.
"If you want me to be."
Yuki is silent as he tries to think past the feel of his lover's breath on his skin. Shuichi licks and nibbles and kisses the side of Yuki's neck.
"You're neck is sexy." Shuichi whispers.
"You think everything about me is sexy."
"Yea, because it's true. You are sexy."
Yuki closes his eyes and tilts his head so that Shuichi can have better access to his sensitive skin. Shuichi notices that Yuki is tilting his head and he moans slightly, pleased that he can bring his lover such pleasure.
"I missed you." Shuichi says.
"I was only gone for two hours."
"I know."
Shuichi works his way from the hollow of Yuki's throat up to Yuki's jaw. He stops for a moment, about to say something more, his hot breath making Yuki's pulse jump slightly. But he changes his mind and continues on to Yuki's earlobe. He gets a little jolt of pleasure at the sound of Yuki's small gasp. Yuki's ears are uber-sensitive. Everytime Shuichi wants to have sex he usually goes right for the ears. If Yuki's toes reacted the same way Shuichi would do the same thing. Not because he's okay with being a weirdo, but because he wants to make his lover happy.
"Yuuukiiii" Shuichi pleads.
Yuki slides his hand up Shuichi's back and this simple act causes Shuichi to moan. As Yuki rakes his fingernails down Shuichi's back the back arches and Shuichi pulls away from Yuki's ear. After Yuki captures Shuichi's mouth in his he rearranges Shuichi on his lap so that now he is being straddled. Shuichi moans into Yuki's mouth and moves his hips against the older man's, finding the hardness that he knew he would find. His legs wrap around his lover and Yuki's hands slide down over the curve of Shuichi's ass.
His hands ignore the fabric of Shuichi's shorts and move past it, to cup the smooth flesh. With strong hands he pulls Shuichi closer to him, erection to erection. Shuichi whimpers and pulls away from Yuki's mouth.
"Dammit Yuki, take your clothes off."
Yuki chuckled and bit Shuichi's lip gently.
"You take them off if you want them off so badly."
"Fine." Shuichi says.
He begins to unbutton Yuki's shirt, growing hotter with every bit of skin revealed to him. Yuki is amused at how badly Shuichi wants the clothing off yet gets distracted. Shuichi finally gets the shirt off and his hands try to touch every bit of skin that they can get to. Yuki half expects Tatsuha to walk in at any moment and upon realizing this he notices that he hadn't locked the door. So there was an actual possibility that Tatsuha could walk in.
"Brat. Go lock the door."
"Huh? But..."
"Fine, leave it unlocked but if he comes in we're stopping for the rest of the day."
"Yuukii... why do we have to stop?"
"What you want him to watch?"
Shuichi is silent for a moment thinking about this. The question sort of surprised him and for some reason he didn't know what to say.
"No... That'd be weird.. and awkward..."
"Fine. Go lock the damn door."
Shuichi got off Yuki's lap just as Tatsuha opened the door. They all stared at each other. An awkward moment. Yuki stood up and walked past Shuichi to his younger brother. Shuichi thought that maybe Yuki was going to beat up the dark haired boy but Yuki just shoved his brother into the hallway and slammed the door. He locked it and began undoing his pants as he walked back over to Shuichi. The pink haired boy's eyes were glued to Yuki's hands. The pants fell to the floor and Yuki kicked his shoes along with the pants off.
Shuichi stared at his lover, who now wore nothing but boxers. He wondered if they would actually go all the way this time. No interuptions, no sudden change of mind... Yuki pushed the smaller boy roughly onto the bed. He looked as if he might be a little mad but maybe that was just desire. Whatever it was it turned Shuichi on. He liked it when his lover was gentle and slow but he also liked his lover to be forcefull. Forcefullness was just who Yuki was. It would be too weird if Yuki was gentle all the time and did everything the way Shuichi wanted. That wasn't the Yuki that Shuichi knew and loved. Rough, feirce, demanding, forceful... Shuichi liked for his lover to be these things. But did he tell this to Yuki? No.
He felt a little scared at the thought of liking pain and rough sex. He wasn't a masochist or anything, he only liked for his Yuki to be that way with him and only sometimes. Shuichi didn't really know why he was scared. Maybe he just didn't want to admit the fact that he may be a little weird to anyone, himself included. Being thrown onto his back was one of the most amazing feelings! He loved it when Yuki proved his dominance.
Yuki kissed Shuichi feircely, hungrily, not missing the desire in his lover's eyes. Shuichi moaned and pulled Yuki to him greedily. Yuki growled low in his throat when Shuichi's hands slid inside his boxers to cup the erection he found there.
"It can't be too healthy to be aroused for this long." Shuichi said, breaking away from Yuki's lips.
"Haven't suffered from anything but frustration yet."
"Frustrated?"
"Duh. I had to leave this morning, so I was pissed off all day at everyone."
"I was surprised you left so soon instead of making everyone wait."
"Yea... me too..."
"It's okay now. Let's have hot sweaty sex while we can!"
Yuki chuckled and stared down at the bright, happy face of his lover. So beautiful. He moved and pulled the boy's boxers off, then pulled his own off and tossed them in the same general area. His hand encircled Shuichi so firmly and quickly the boy's back bowed and he gasped. Yuki smirked. His eyes roamed over the body of this ink haired boy. If this were any one else it wouldn't be the same. The feelings being felt now wouldn't be felt with anyone else. Because he didn't love anyone else.
Yea, he'd loved someone else before but that was kind of a long time ago. It wasn't fair to Shuichi for him to pine over someone who was dead. Shuichi loved him much more than Kitazawa ever had. He was much different. And Yuki enjoyed being dominant. Whether he would admit it or not, he also enjoyed having someone who was so loyal, excitable, caring, emotional... He loved Shuichi. Before he'd said it but wasn't sure he meant it and he didn't want to do that again. But if he said it right now would he feel as though he meant it?
He stared down at the violet eyes that were now staring up at him lovingly. Yuki hadn't gotten that look from Shuichi merely because he'd turned the boy on. Shuichi could be easily pleased by him but if they somehow were to remain celibate, Shuichi would still give Yuki that look. Most people could fake it. Most people could get that look in their eyes just because at that moment they felt it, and only that moment. Shuichi loved Yuki and no one had any doubts what so ever about that. Maybe they had before but seeing the way Shuichi looked at Yuki, seeing the way Shuichi gained that look of adoration and joy at the simple mention of Yuki's name had assured everyone that Shuichi did indeed love Yuki.
Yuki slid a finger into Shuichi's warm tight entrance and watched the boy's face. Even though they'd done these things so many times, Shuichi remained just as tight as he'd always been it seemed. And Yuki knew that his attentions had to hurt Shuichi just a little bit if not more. Yet Shuichi didn't complain, he instead seemed to like it. He'd cried on more than one occasion but it was mostly silent tears and he had a flushed face and appeared to be in pleasure as well. Pleasure and pain combined. Shuichi seemed to like it but wouldn't say anything about it so Yuki just did whatever he felt like. He planned to one day discuss this with Shuichi. What if Shuichi really wanted it rough and Yuki wasn't giving him everything he wanted?
The two boys stared into each other's eyes as Yuki continues to finger Shuichi. He moves down to lick the length of Shuichi's erection. He listens to the sounds that come from his lover and feeling as though he'll die if he waits any longer he removes his finger from Shuichi and crawls over his lover. Shuichi wraps his arms and legs around his blonde lover as Yuki enters him, his head tilts back, lips parting.
Suddenly Yuki feels like telling Shuichi he loves him. But he remains silent. Telling someone you love them while you're having sex makes it seem as though you are simply caught up in the moment. Plus, it was such a movie-novel thing to do. Did he really have to tell the pink haired boy that he loved him? Doesn't Shuichi know? He'd done so much for the boy, put up with so much. He'd even came out of the supposed closet with Shuichi. Had told millions that they were lovers.
Shuichi bit Yuki's neck. He felt as though he was having a pleasure overload. Yuki's strong body was pressing his into the mattress, his strong hips pumping, all causing amazing sensations. Shuichi would never tire of this. It would always be amazing and never boring. He'd heard of people who would cheat on their lovers or leave them because there wasn't enough excitement, because it was getting to be too routine, too predictable. They obviously didn't love that person. Shuichi felt as though, even if he didn't love this man as much as he does he would still want to stay with him. Yuki made him feel too many good things to just leave him. And why whould he want anyone else?
The pleasure finally hit climax and Yuki came inside his lover, which in turn caused Shuichi to come. His eyes rolled back in his head and he bit down a little harder on Yuki's neck before releasing the flesh. They lay there sweating and panting.
"You bit me." Yuki accused.
"Sorry." Came the breathless reply.
"I don't give a shit brat. But if I get a lovely tattoo, so do you."
Hope you liked it! Sorry it took me so long to write this chapter I had a lot of projects to do at the same time. That sucked but hopefully it's worth the wait. Please review and maybe they'll be more chapters. Did you like the sort of tattoo in this chapter? Next chapter Yuki gets his revenge on Shuichi after seeing his reflection. -gasp- Shuichi bit him really hard. He liked it, but bites hurt no matter how good they feel. Will Yuki be grumpy? May-be. Yay!