Author's Note:

Ok you guys. For any fans of my other story "the Long Date Goodbye" I am literally sitting here almost in tears because I just finished typing, what I thought was a very well put together-and very climatic-chapter 6 and was going to finish chapter 7 when I lost heart thanks to my piece of crap cpu freezing me out and now I've lost the entire chapter! I was so sad and now I am struggling to push through and rewrite it. Anyway, though I was not planning to debut this for a long time ( I wrote it today). Not sure how long I was going to wait to debut it but I wanted to finish first story first. Sorry for all the talk and I was so psyched to complete it this weekend! I really was! Anyway though, I had to post something kind of like a aspirin for my writing horror headache. So here's...something. It's not that good. It's a Sean and Emma story and trust, trust, trust me it has no resemblance to the what is going to happen in "The Long Date". But I wanted to write a songfic. and this is it. Sorry for the long-windedness but I am truly truly depressed. Please review everybody...I'd feel a lot better.

Disclaimer: I do not not own Degrassi! If I did I wouldn't be crying over a fanfic lost...it would be a script and it would've been written on a cpu that never freezes out Degrassi scripts!

I also don't own the song "Ordinary People" it's John Legend's which is great cuz he sings it so much better than I do.

(sorry guys one more thing, I switched some of the lyrics around I kno so please no1 comment on it kay?)

Ordinary People; ExtraOrdinary Love

Sean:

I've been back from Wasaga 6 months,

We've been dating 4.

I can feel her looking at me

in that same disgusted way, as I ly here flipping channels.

"What now, Emma?"

I ask with a sigh, turning my head towards her from my couch, our couch really; she stays here enough.

Even as she shakes her head at me-

no doubt about to tell me something I've done wrong-

arms crossed,

blonde hair stiffened at her sides,

I stare at her so in love...so amazed that she's mine.

girl I'm in love with you

this ain't the honeymoon

we're past that infatuation phase

Emma:

As usual Sean thinks I'm mad at him.

Why can't he ever just ask me if I had a bad day?

Like normal boyfriends?

Even thinking this I know that I'm fooling myself.

Sean Cameron has never been a "normal" boyfriend;

and I would never want him to be.

"Sean," I say annoyed, "Did it ever cross your mind that I'm not always angry with you!"

I sit beside him on the couch and stare at him waiting for a reaction.

He stares at the tv, feigning thought, and then shakes his head

"No." he says, with his trademark shrug "It hadn't."

Sometimes I hate loving someone who thinks he knows it all.

we're right in the thick of love

at times we get sick of love

it seems like we argue every day

Sean:

No idea what Emma is hinting at.

That she's mad at...my friends?

The way I still hang out with high-school dropouts like Jay?

Why can't she just get over that?

I turn to look at her,

Her lips are puckering the way they always do when she's upset,

And I wanna reach over and hug her;

Say I'm sorry for...whatever.

But I'm too busy being angry at her for not just telling me what it is, in the first place.

"If your not mad at me then what is it Emma? Hmmmph! Something you think I've done, no doubt!"

I say pushing myself off of the couch and staring down at her angrily.

Suddenly, I remember an argument we've had a few times before.

And just the thought of her bringing it up makes me madder.

"I swear, Em, if you bring up drug-dealing one more time..."

I know I've misbehaved

and you've made your mistakes

and we both still got room left to grow

Emma:

Sean Cameron is such an idiot.

"What are you talking about Sean!"

I scream as I stand up glaring directly into his eyes.

"I never said anything about drug-dealing!"

Now he shakes his head incredulously, his smug laughter following.

"Really! You don't remember worrying me for months that you thought Jay was drug-dealing!"

I remember that of course. Jay was dealing. I know...

But I never thought it of Sean!

I'm a little shocked, and kind of hurt, that he thinks I would think this of him.

Am I really so judgmental that Sean thinks...that I think that little of him?

"Sean, I'm sorry..." I say, backing down; angry at myself for making him feel so judged.

I don't wanna argue about this.

We're not little kids anymore.

I wanna just be able to love...who I love.

Just the thought of another argument reduces me to tears.

Sean seems to understand my meaning and walks toward me.

"Oh, I'm sorry for yelling, Em." he says, stroking my hair

and pressing me soothingly against his chest.

"Don't cry,"

but as our love advances

we take second chances

tho it's not a fantasy

I still want you to stay

Sean:

Emma Nelson can be so convincing with her cute little face,

soft pink lips.

Sometimes when I hold her...

I never want to let her go.

"Sean? I never thought that you were dealing."

She whimpers into my chest, ruining the moment unknowingly as

she punctures my guilty conscience.

we're just ordinary people

we don't know which way to go

cause we're ordinary people

maybe we should take it slow

take it slow...ow...ow...ow...ow...ow

this time we'll take it slow

Sean:

I can't take lying anymore;

not to her...not like this

I sigh, and somehow I finally manage to utter the words I've wanted to say for so long. "...I-I was."

The same instant I say it, I wish I hadn't.

I hold my breath. Hoping, praying, that the words were lost, unheard and unaffecting, into the silky blonde hair I've breathed them into.

They weren't.

In the next instant Emma is pushing away from me,

That look of disgust and disappointment, blazing in her brown eyes.

this ain't the movies naw

no fairy tales conclusions ya'll

it gets more confusing everyday

Emma:

"What! Sean! What the hell do you mean 'I was'?"

I scream and back away from him as he tries to grab hold of my arm,

I can't believe this.

This guy I love so much...

A freaking drug-dealer!

That goes every single moral I've ever had!

Everything I thought I knew about Sean.

And even within the boundaries of leniency that I almost always grant Sean Cameron:

Love of my confusingly insane life,

This goes way past too far!

"Emma! Just listen-"

"No Sean! No!"

I shout, yanking away from him as he tries-unsuccessfully-to grab me again.

"Look! You and me?" I say pointing to him then, to me, "We're through!" I say, snatch up my jean jacket, my purse, and my keys, and rush for the door.

"Emma!"

"Sean?" I say calmly, and turn to look at him "Look, I love you, you know that, but I can't deal with...this!

It's too much Sean! I I-I just can't!"

I stammer, as I yank open the door.

I turn glancing at him once more before I leave:

He looks so stunned; so hurt.

He looks around desperately as though trying to literally find something to say.

I shake my head softly, so disappointed in him.

"Goodbye, Sean."

And as soon as I close the door, the tears start to fall.

sometimes it's heaven sent

then we

head back to hell again

Sean:

Why does she always do this!

She always just assumes she knows what the hell is going on!

I am so sick of her bull!

I can't just let her leave like this though,

So, I rip open the door and she's sitting there, crying, just like I knew she would be.

"Emma..." I say, softly kneeling down, and I kiss her softly on the forehead.

She seems to be forgiving me,turning and kissing me a few times on the lips.

I sigh, relieved, ready to explain what happened.

Then, she yanks away from me, as though she just remembered who she was kissing.

"No! Get away from me, Sean!" she shouts, shattering what little hope I had, and rushing down the stairs.

we kiss and we makeup on the way

(Emma, driving down the street)

Emma:

"Sean, I have nothing to say to you," I say into my cell, before I hang up again.

Why does Sean think he can just do anything and then make up for it with a phone call?

I am so sick of this:

This love/hate relationship.

All we ever do is break-up and then make-up...

Just to break-up all over again.

And it's always because of him doing something stupid. Like drug dealing.

A tear rolls down my cheek and I can almost feel my heart breaking again.

I was so happy; I thought we'd make it last this time...for real.

"No," I say to myself, as I stop at the red light,

"This is the last time I'll let Sean Cameron break my heart.-the last time."

I hang up you call

we rise and we fall and we feel like just walking away...

(Sean, slamming his car door and then marching up to Emma's front door0

Sean:

Everything about this shit is making me mad!

Why do I always have to explain everything to her?

Why do I always have to convince her that I love her?

I think, as I stop at Emma's front door.

I knock on the door and roll my eyes at myself thinking,

Because, you idiot,... you love her.

but, though love sometimes hurts,

I'll still put you first

Emma:

I open the door and Sean is standing there, trying to look pitiful-and succeeding.

"What do you want Sean?"

I say robotically, with a tired sigh,

I'm angry at myself for even answering the door, let alone talking to him.

"It was once Em, one time! And only cause

I needed the money really bad!"

"That's no excuse Sean!"

I yell my hair bouncing violently in my face as I do.

I'm not trying to lecture Sean; not trying to scream at him,

But, sometimes, Sean can be so stupid!

He shakes his head, his voice breaking,

"Emma, I'd just gotten back ok? and I didn't have any money,

I couldn't stay with Jay...I was sleeping in my car...

I couldn't even get a job! Jay told me if I went with him a few nights

I could earn the money."

He says gesturing with his arms wildly, as he explains.

I can't believe what he's saying and I close my eyes with a small sigh and say calmly,

"Sean? Are you telling me that you got your apartment with drug money?"

As I speak, tears form rapidly in my eyes.

"No, Emma! No, that's not what I'm saying! " Sean says, a burst of anger in his voice.

"Look...I stopped! I stopped ok! I couldn't stand the thought that I might've-I might've hooked somebody!" Tears are streaming forcefully down his reddened face as he continues, unable to look at me. "I gave the money to some-some charity, Emma. Some drug rehab charity or something."

I stare dumbly at my feet and a few tears fall from my eyes,

Sean Cameron leniency already beginning to kick in.

When I look back at him, Sean is stammering to get the last few words out,

and I tell myself that whatever they are,

they don't matter,

I've already forgiven him.

we'll make this thing work

but I think we should take it slow

Emma:

"I borrowed money from your-from Snake to get my apartment." Sean says staring off into the distance, "I couldn't tell you because I knew-...I knew you'd think I was a failure!"

I can't take anymore and I step out the door

embracing Sean, his tears finding solace on my shoulder and mine on his.

"Never Sean! Never! I love you!"

I say forgiving him and loving him in that moment, more than he could ever understand.

we're just ordinary people

we don't know which way to go

cause we're ordinary people

maybe we should take it slow

take it slow...ow...ow...ow...ow...ow

this time we'll take it slow

Sean:

She's back in my arms, and the world is right again

"I love you too!" I say,

hugging her tightly and then kissing her forcefully.

She kisses me back and we ease our way down her walk and towards my car.

Take it slow

maybe we'll live and learn

Emma:

I'm so ashamed that I'm always jumping to conclusions about Sean.

And on the drive back to his

apartment I don't really know what to say.

I look at him, studying his face, loving his eyes, his smile, his lips.

"Sean," I say finally, determined to fill the silence.

He turns and looks at me,

"Don't ever screw us over again because of your dumb male pride!"

He laughs a little "Ok," he says turning back toward the road.

I hear him scream, and I do too as I turn my attention forward; a big brown pick-up truck barrels into us.

maybe we'll crash and burn

Sean:

"Emma!" I yell my heart rate quickening.

I shake her violently,

"Emma!"

She's unconscious, I think, not dead-unconscious I think, trying to will it to be true. Tears begin to sting my eyes as I shake her harder. "Emma!"

She groans a little, and my hope returns wavering in-between hoping she's perfectly alright, and hoping she's just alive.

maybe you'll stay

Emma:

"Sean!" I gasp, catching my breath and jerking my head up.

I can feel everything; my legs; my arms; I'm not hurt, but I turn towards

Sean, my heart seeming to burn...

Is he ok?

"Sean!" I say, jerking my head in his direction,

He can't die on me

not now!

maybe you'll leave

Sean:

"I'm ok, Em," I say breathing a deep sigh of relief and wiping my eyes with my sleeve, as I reach over and stroke her soft, pale face.

Tears slide down her face as she whispers, "I thought you were-"

"I'm ok, Em." I reassure her nodding, "Are you?"

Emma yanks her face out of my hands,

her sadness replaced by a look of relieved sarcasm,

"Dead, Sean?"

I manage a weak as I say matter-of-factly,

"You know, Emma, you coulda been, cuz if you wanted to come back, I'm sure even the grim reaper himself couldn't stop you..."

She hits me in the arm and we both laugh lightly, glad to be able to.

maybe you'll return

Emma:

The truck smashed the front of Sean's car...head on I think,

A drunk driver I'm sure.

I remember seeing the headlights but nothing else, really.

"What happened, Sean?" I say, staring over the smashed in dashboard at the mangled truck in front of us.

Sean blinks at me and says exasperated, "I'm supposed to know!"

maybe another fight

Sean:

"Sean!" Emma says staring at me with annoyance.

"Sorry," I say, backing down a little, no time to be a jackass, "I just-I don't know. Musta been some drunk."

We both push open our car doors and step out into the street.

Cars whiz past us on either side,

I turn around to stare at the cars for one second...

and Emma screams.

"Emma! Are you ok?" I say jumping onto and over the car.

In my rush, I stumble, falling over the car and landing, legs sprawled, my head throbbing at the rumble of the oncoming cars.

maybe we won't survive

Emma:

"Sean, It's Jay!" I yell, after pulling Sean up off the road and to my side.

There in the driver's seat of the brown truck is Jay Hogart;

Sean's best friend.

"My God! Jay!" Sean says, pushing his arm through the window

and shaking his unconscious friend.

Hospital:

Emma:

Sean paces back and forth

and I sit in the hospital lobby chair crying.

The realization that we both-and even jay-might've

been killed has suddenly hit me,

and I sob at the thought.

"Emma, don't." Sean says sliding into the seat next to me and placing his arm around me.

"Sean? Haven't you ever noticed that something tragic is always happening when it comes to us?" I say staring up at the ceiling with a shudder. "I mean, God! Maybe these are-maybe there some kind of signs."

Sean stares at me blankly, as though what I'm saying doesn't even begin to register.

Then he says,"Yeah, you're right Emma; these are some kinds of signs." He pauses, looking into space and I freeze waiting for what he'll say.

Sean turns back towards me, his eyes full, "Signs that we can handle anything...together."

He pulls me into his chest and I cry a little more feeling so safe in his strong, welcoming arms.

but you never know maybe we'll grow

baby you and I

That Night...

Sean:

Laying on the couch with Emma Nelson,

I thank God that we both survived that crash,

And I squeeze her tightly kissing her hair.

Jay's gonna be ok too,

the doctors said.

But, he is going to be put away for drunk driving, once he wakes up.

That's Jay for ya' poor guy and his dumb luck.

I'm not Jay though

and even though I feel for him

I feel too deeply for the girl in my arms right now

to focus in on his situation...

I sigh with relief knowing that we'll be alright.

we're just ordinary people

Emma:

Nothing is ever perfect with Sean.

But this-this moment feels so...amazing.

Just remembering the panic that hit when I thought he was gone...

let's me know that even if we don't figure it all out right now...

we don't know which way to go

Sean/Emma:

We'll be fine if we can just stick this through...

living...

loving ...

learning...

together...

cause we're ordinary people

maybe we should take it slow

take it slow ow ow ow ow

this time we'll take it slow

(Afterword: Ok guys what did ya think? Pls comment. Pls! It'll make me feel so much better

Love ya!)