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Chapter 6-Eyes Wide Shut
Emma:
Two weeks after the break-up
and the first time I see Sean is at the store
I can't tell if he's looking at me
Or just staring in my direction
Um...
Yeah, he's definitely looking at me
I don't think he'd be burning holes into the Broccoli behind me...
It's so strange how in only two weeks
We can be so...apart
I mean, I still love him,
But now? even just the look he's giving me…?
It is so crazy to think that just 2 weeks ago
I was laying beside him
Holding him
Knowing that we'd be together forever...
Kinda funny how a break-up really does break you up huh?
Actually, it's not funny at all.
You used to be my closest ally
In this cold, cold world of deception and lies
Sean:
There she is...
Just as beautiful
Just as amazing as always...
I can't believe she was mine...
I think,
And I can feel my face getting hot.
Just the thought about how we got screwed up this time?
It's enough to make me sick...
It's a good thing Jay is in jail now
Cuz otherwise,
Man, I don't know what I'd do to the guy...
Emma is looking at me now,
She looks so hurt
I wish I could just go over and tell her that I still love her.
Beg her to take me back.
But that's not exactly something I'd…well, it's not like it'll work anyway.
And 'sides that, Emma is the one who broke up with me anyway...
She should be the one apologizing.
If she would just listen to me for once, instead of always just thinking she knows what's going on.
Anyway, you'd think that putting your life on the line for a girl would be enough...
I'd do anything for her...
She knows that,
I usta think she'd do anything for me too...
We would defend and protect one another
But I guess anything isn't enough for Emma Nelson.
If its not perfect, even love isn't enough.
But still I wonder, as I look over into her eyes
This can't really be it, can it?
Now I can't tell if we are enemies or lovers
Emma:
Yeah, Sean Cameron is standing just a few feet away from me
And we can't take our eyes off of one another.
But it's not because we're in love
It's because he broke my heart
And maybe I broke his
But what does that matter now?
Does it?
After all those days…weeks…months
Years if you count before
We're still here
All over again
And I don't think either of us has what it takes to do it over again
So who's gonna rescue us from ourselves
When are we gonna wake up
Baby, it's time for loving
When are we gonna wake up
My baby, before it's too late
Sean:
Naturally, she's in the produce aisle
So there's no way I could just happen to be over there
Buying that crap
Which is cool cuz I don't wanna go over there anyway,
She's staring at me nastily now.
Like she's the one who has the right to glare
Whatever, I think
And I turn my back to her so she knows it too
But I can't help feeling evil
Like a dog,
When Emma Nelson is the only girl I love
How did we come to this…?
Oh baby
Where did we go wrong, baby
Did this cold, cold world turn us in a stone
Emma:
Classic Sean Cameron!
Real mature.
He turns his back on me like I really care
See? That's why we never could work out.
He such a jerk.
His pride always overrides his sweet Sean side
And I'm so sick of having to deal with it
Now all I battle
Is your ego and your pride
Well I don't anymore
I think as I turn around rustling angrily through the broccoli
God! Even when I'm not dating him Sean makes me sick!
Sean:
She's rustling through through that broccoli bin like a maniac
I guess she's supposed to be so angry at seeing me
That she can't stand it.
Whatever!
Sometimes Emma makes me so sick.
We're ticking like a time bombReady to ignite
Sean:
But it still hurts that I'm the one who made her so angry…
Emma:
I wonder what he's thinking of me…
It hurts to think of it so I don't.
But it still hurts…
Hurtin' me to fight
So who's gonna rescue us from ourselves
Sean:
I wish she'd just come over here…I'd tell her I'm sorry.
When are we gonna wake up
Baby, it's time for loving
Emma:
Even if I was going to
Sean would never listen to me if I went other there and tried to talk to him
So what's the point? In thinking of it…?
When are we gonna wake up
My baby, before it's too late
Sean:
I guess it's just a waste of time
But still, everytime we break up
After the fight,
And the stupid crap
I always wonder
What if we'd still been together?
Like right now,
What would she be saying to me?
What would I say back to her…?
I turn and look at her,
Not sure but knowing that I'd probably feel a lot better
Then I do right now…
When the smoke clears
What will be left for us but tears and pain?
Emma:
Sean is looking at me again, I can feel him.
I don't turn around, my makeup is probably runny.
I love him so much
How come he has to be so bad for me?
I know that he's stupid to do things like he always does
But still, still even once I go over everything that a good boyfriend wouldn't do in my mind?
I still love him
And I still want him
And it hurts to have to keep doing this
This Make-up/Breakup/Makeup/Breakup thing like we're just stuck…
Why must we argue over the same things
Just to make up go back again
Sean:
She's tapping the side of the stand or whatever
She won't turn around
I wish she'd just look at me.
If she did maybe she could tell what I'm feeling
And I wouldn't have to say anything
She'd just know and smile at me
And I could rush over and hug her
And we'd be back together again.
Turn around!
I think,
Turn around!
It's never too late
Emma:
No.
No more I'm so tired of this
I think and I wipe my eyes-
Over the broccoli which is really disgusting
But I don't really have a choice-
Turning back around to my cart.
I love Sean Cameron
But I don't want him
I don't want to go through this again
It's already been six years
And if Sean doesn't love me enough to realize that I'm worth more than drugs or whatever the heck else
I guess he doesn't want me either…
But it's been too long
Sean:
She turned around back to her cart
But she still won't look at me
She still won't even act like she ever knew me.
I shrug it off.
I don't really care
I think
"I don't care," I mumble
But it doesn't work cuz I still do…
I just pick up the orange juice that I was supposed to getting in the first place
Turning away from her.
I feel bad, but it's not like it's my fault
She broke up with you
I tell myself
She's the one who would have to make to make the first move,
If you even cared
Emma:
Sean is trying to figure out which kind of orange juice to get
He always gets the kind with pulp and then I always have to drag him back over there
And tell him to get the kind that says "Pulp-free"
Then he does this stupid wide-eyed look and goes "when did they start making that kind?"
He is such a dumb boyfriend
Ex-boyfriend.
I look at him now
I can feel a smile on my face but I quickly remove it
Wouldn't want him to get the wrong idea
He might go all psycho…
Thinking that I still want him
I feel so bad about us,
Even though I'm through for good
But it's not like it's my fault
I wasn't the one dealing drugs
I wasn't the one who lied.
If anyone should feel bad it's Sean.
But I still do….
Can't get it right when no one thinks they're wrong
Sean:
Ellie is walking towards me
She offered to come with me to shop
Which is kinda funny when you think about the fact that she's the one who needed a ride.
"Aren't you ready to go yet Sean?"
She says rolling her eyes at me looking at my pretty much empty cart
And the orange juice in my hands
"What it is this? You get pulp-free?" She asks taking it out of my hand
"Why not?" I ask shrugging
"Nothing it's just not as…pulply."
She says picking up the kind with pulp.
And setting it in the cart along with the other kind.
She laughs and then she pulls the hair out of her face staying at me with a strange look
"What's eating you Cameron? You look like you've just seen a gh-" she starts and then looks to her left seeing Emma…
"Oh," she says nodding, like this explains it all.
"The ghost of a girlfriend past."
"Shut-up, El." I say not bothering to look at Emma.
"Sean, you obviously miss her, why don't you just apologize to Mr. Simpson already?"
"I did."
"Again?"
"I did!" I say getting mad, Ellie needs to mind her own business.
"Then why don't you over there and talk to her?"
She says pushing me, but I don't move
She has no idea why… and she won't
"I don't miss her." I say
Staring at the orange juice label
"Well then, Cameron, you must really be in love with pulp-free orange juice." Ellie says poking her finger at my eye and then holding up a tear.
"God Cameron, get a clue."
Gotta get out of the bed
And take a look what's going on
Emma:
Manny walks over to me smiling
She was probably on the phone with Craig
"Em, you ready?" She asks as she steps toward me but then she stops
"Oh, sweetie, what's wrong?" She says touching my shoulder.
"Nothing," I say softly but I can feel the tears stinging my cheeks and Manny sees them I'm sure.
She glances over and sees Sean standing with Ellie
"Honey, they're just friends." She says touching my shoulder comfortingly
"Huh, oh I don't-I don't care about them."
Ilie and Manny just stares at me
"Emma, please, there's no need to lie to me…I can see it in your eyes."
I just shrug feigning disinterest
I wish Sean could see whatever Manny sees.
I really do.
Oh when are we gonna wake up
Baby, it's time for loving
Sean:
"Well, if you're not gonna go over there then let's go…"
Ellie says after a moment.
And I nod.
I love Emma and walking away from her
I wish I coulda just went over there…
Emma:
Sean's walking away.
He doesn't look at me
He just walks away
Oh well,
I think
But I break down crying…
When are we gonna wake up
My baby, before it's too late
Sean:
"Sean? Are you sure you don't wanna just go back ov-": "El, I said drop it alright?" I say trudging ahead of her.
I'm too busy being mad at myself for not going over there
To pay her too much attention…
Wishing I coulda just said something…
Said I need you baby
Oh I need my baby home (wake up)
Emma:
He's gone and I'm crying and Manny's comforting
And I wish I could go back just two minutes ago
And tell him what I really feel…
Bring my baby back to me (wake up)