A Secret Inside
A/N: Here's what happened... :: sees angry glares:: um... on with the story? ::burries her head in HP and the OOTP which she has already read:: Please remember this story was written BEFORE OOTP
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter or any of the characters in the series. They belong to J.K. Rowling.
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"You heard what she said." James told Lily who was sitting on Remus' bed (which happened to be the cleanest of them) as he packed. Lily nodded, she had heard what the howler had said, well actually had yelled. Who hadn't? Luckily, her name had been left out of it, yet still it was embarrassing and stressful.
The howler had been from his aunt that he stayed with while his parents were off fighting dark witches and wizards. He had told her after Lily had told him the news for supports thinking that she would understand. Boy was he wrong. As the whole school had heard, because James was the most irresponsible person in the world, he would be leaving Hogwarts for the rest of the year.
"There's not much left in the year anyway and I'll be coming back next year." James went on.
Lily nodded and watched as he folded up his clothes. "So what about Gina?" She acted like she wasn't really interested in what she just asked when really she was dying inside.
"What about her?" James asked slowly, pausing his folding and taking a glance at her from the corner of his eye.
Shrugging, she replied, "Well, how are you two? How is she taking this whole you leaving thing?"
"I don't know." He admitted, throwing his dress robes in his trunk.
"Why don't you just use magic?" Lily asked raising her wand to pack for him.
"Maybe because I want to talk to someone that I haven't talked to in a long time." He replied grabbing and unwinding a scarf that she had floating up in the air. "Lily," He started wadding it up and throwing it carelessly. "I'm sorry." He apologized. "I've been such a stupid git, worse than Snape even." James told her. "Please forgive me." He begged.
Lily was taken back by this. It just wasn't expected. Of course, she had every right to not forgive him if she wanted and to just walk out of there right then, but there was something in his eyes that told her to do it. "Of course I forgive you, James." She said softly, wanting to be in his arms. He smiled and hesitantly took a step forward. They looked at each other for a moment, just a moment but a magical one without their wands. "But stop acting like such a prat!" Lily yelled quickly and surprisingly.
She was getting so caught up in that one magical moment she hadn't realized her and James' faces were just an inch away. He jerked back suddenly and shocked. "Lily," He started taking a step towards her.
"You know what, James? I've really got to go. You know, Leanne. So um... when exactly are you leaving?" Looking at the ground, she was determined to avoid eye contact at all cost. He didn't like her like that anymore. He didn't love her like she did to him and she did not want heartache.
James went back to his trunk and was really uncomfortable. "The next train out of here. Tomorrow around noon." He replied.
"Oh." She said tucking a strand of loose hair behind her ear. "Ok." She opened the door to go out but James grabbed her arm gently.
"I'll see you before then, Lils, wont I?" He asked. Still looking at the ground, she nodded. "Promise?" Another nod. He lifted her head up and looked into her eyes and she gave a soft smile.
"James, can I confess something?" She asked turning away from in walking back into the room.
He looked a little confused but told her, "Sure, you can tell me anything."
"James, I'm always thinking of you." She admitted, not looking at him. Her face was turning red thinking about what she was going to say. She was going to tell him, she was going to tell him at last that she loved him. "I don't know if I can be just friends anymore." Just as she said that, Remus, Peter, and Sirius entered the room.
Remus went over to his bed and sat on it, Sirius jumped on top of whatever was growing on his, and Peter went over to Remus' bed, too. "So you're really leaving?" Remus asked.
"Why? What did you do?" Peter asked.
James looked at Lily who was walking out the door. "Nothing." He told them.
"Lily flower, Lily flower, where are you going?" Sirius sang following her out of the room.
"To my room." Lily replied. "I just need to be alone now, Sirius. Ok?" She asked. He nodded understandingly as she went on without him.
'What will he say tomorrow?' Wondered Lily when she got to her room. 'And did we almost kiss?' They were after all just an inch away... 'No.' Lily concluded. 'He loves Gina, remember? He said so a long time ago...' Had it been a long time since James' had said he wanted to have Gina's baby? It seemed like just yesterday to her.
Leanne peaked into the room a little while later. "Want company?" She asked. "Corrina's getting on my last nerves." Smiling Lily waved a hand letting her friend know that it was ok to enter. "So... what's new?" She asked conversationally.
"Well, after James left the Great Hall and I followed him, I told him that I didn't think we could be just friends." Lily told her.
Leanne's eyes opened wide and she giggled. "Seriously? What did he say?"
Raising an eyebrow, Lily told her that everyone decided to come in right at that moment. "It's not like you to get all," Lily searched for a word to fit. "Girlie."
"What? I'm not entitled to be girlie?" Leanne asked.
"You know what I mean." Lily glared. "I'm sorry." She said after a minute of silence. "My feet are killing me as is my back, I'm worried about this baby and if I'm doing everything right and then there's the stress of James..." Lily heaved a frustrated sigh.
Suddenly, the door burst open revealing a happy looking Sirius. "Guess what!" He yelled.
Leanne and Lily exchanged looks. "What?" Lily asked, raising up on her elbows.
"James just told us what you said..." He began.
"WHAT?!" Lily yelled. Leanne jumped up to make room in case she wanted to get up. "That wasn't supposed to be for anyone else to know but him!"
Sirius ignored her and went on with what he was saying. "Then he started saying how much he missed spending time with you and everything, boring stuff really, but then he said that he was going to break up with Gina..." Lily was amazed at how much more girlie Sirius was. Leanne was even laughing at him gossiping so excitedly. Then something that he said started slowly registering in her head. He was going to break up with Gina!
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A/N: I'm sorry for it being so late and I'm not going into excuses either. Well, just one more chapter to go!
A/N: Here's what happened... :: sees angry glares:: um... on with the story? ::burries her head in HP and the OOTP which she has already read:: Please remember this story was written BEFORE OOTP
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter or any of the characters in the series. They belong to J.K. Rowling.
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"You heard what she said." James told Lily who was sitting on Remus' bed (which happened to be the cleanest of them) as he packed. Lily nodded, she had heard what the howler had said, well actually had yelled. Who hadn't? Luckily, her name had been left out of it, yet still it was embarrassing and stressful.
The howler had been from his aunt that he stayed with while his parents were off fighting dark witches and wizards. He had told her after Lily had told him the news for supports thinking that she would understand. Boy was he wrong. As the whole school had heard, because James was the most irresponsible person in the world, he would be leaving Hogwarts for the rest of the year.
"There's not much left in the year anyway and I'll be coming back next year." James went on.
Lily nodded and watched as he folded up his clothes. "So what about Gina?" She acted like she wasn't really interested in what she just asked when really she was dying inside.
"What about her?" James asked slowly, pausing his folding and taking a glance at her from the corner of his eye.
Shrugging, she replied, "Well, how are you two? How is she taking this whole you leaving thing?"
"I don't know." He admitted, throwing his dress robes in his trunk.
"Why don't you just use magic?" Lily asked raising her wand to pack for him.
"Maybe because I want to talk to someone that I haven't talked to in a long time." He replied grabbing and unwinding a scarf that she had floating up in the air. "Lily," He started wadding it up and throwing it carelessly. "I'm sorry." He apologized. "I've been such a stupid git, worse than Snape even." James told her. "Please forgive me." He begged.
Lily was taken back by this. It just wasn't expected. Of course, she had every right to not forgive him if she wanted and to just walk out of there right then, but there was something in his eyes that told her to do it. "Of course I forgive you, James." She said softly, wanting to be in his arms. He smiled and hesitantly took a step forward. They looked at each other for a moment, just a moment but a magical one without their wands. "But stop acting like such a prat!" Lily yelled quickly and surprisingly.
She was getting so caught up in that one magical moment she hadn't realized her and James' faces were just an inch away. He jerked back suddenly and shocked. "Lily," He started taking a step towards her.
"You know what, James? I've really got to go. You know, Leanne. So um... when exactly are you leaving?" Looking at the ground, she was determined to avoid eye contact at all cost. He didn't like her like that anymore. He didn't love her like she did to him and she did not want heartache.
James went back to his trunk and was really uncomfortable. "The next train out of here. Tomorrow around noon." He replied.
"Oh." She said tucking a strand of loose hair behind her ear. "Ok." She opened the door to go out but James grabbed her arm gently.
"I'll see you before then, Lils, wont I?" He asked. Still looking at the ground, she nodded. "Promise?" Another nod. He lifted her head up and looked into her eyes and she gave a soft smile.
"James, can I confess something?" She asked turning away from in walking back into the room.
He looked a little confused but told her, "Sure, you can tell me anything."
"James, I'm always thinking of you." She admitted, not looking at him. Her face was turning red thinking about what she was going to say. She was going to tell him, she was going to tell him at last that she loved him. "I don't know if I can be just friends anymore." Just as she said that, Remus, Peter, and Sirius entered the room.
Remus went over to his bed and sat on it, Sirius jumped on top of whatever was growing on his, and Peter went over to Remus' bed, too. "So you're really leaving?" Remus asked.
"Why? What did you do?" Peter asked.
James looked at Lily who was walking out the door. "Nothing." He told them.
"Lily flower, Lily flower, where are you going?" Sirius sang following her out of the room.
"To my room." Lily replied. "I just need to be alone now, Sirius. Ok?" She asked. He nodded understandingly as she went on without him.
'What will he say tomorrow?' Wondered Lily when she got to her room. 'And did we almost kiss?' They were after all just an inch away... 'No.' Lily concluded. 'He loves Gina, remember? He said so a long time ago...' Had it been a long time since James' had said he wanted to have Gina's baby? It seemed like just yesterday to her.
Leanne peaked into the room a little while later. "Want company?" She asked. "Corrina's getting on my last nerves." Smiling Lily waved a hand letting her friend know that it was ok to enter. "So... what's new?" She asked conversationally.
"Well, after James left the Great Hall and I followed him, I told him that I didn't think we could be just friends." Lily told her.
Leanne's eyes opened wide and she giggled. "Seriously? What did he say?"
Raising an eyebrow, Lily told her that everyone decided to come in right at that moment. "It's not like you to get all," Lily searched for a word to fit. "Girlie."
"What? I'm not entitled to be girlie?" Leanne asked.
"You know what I mean." Lily glared. "I'm sorry." She said after a minute of silence. "My feet are killing me as is my back, I'm worried about this baby and if I'm doing everything right and then there's the stress of James..." Lily heaved a frustrated sigh.
Suddenly, the door burst open revealing a happy looking Sirius. "Guess what!" He yelled.
Leanne and Lily exchanged looks. "What?" Lily asked, raising up on her elbows.
"James just told us what you said..." He began.
"WHAT?!" Lily yelled. Leanne jumped up to make room in case she wanted to get up. "That wasn't supposed to be for anyone else to know but him!"
Sirius ignored her and went on with what he was saying. "Then he started saying how much he missed spending time with you and everything, boring stuff really, but then he said that he was going to break up with Gina..." Lily was amazed at how much more girlie Sirius was. Leanne was even laughing at him gossiping so excitedly. Then something that he said started slowly registering in her head. He was going to break up with Gina!
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A/N: I'm sorry for it being so late and I'm not going into excuses either. Well, just one more chapter to go!