Title: Sound And Fury

Authors: Sara And Lizzie

Rating: T for language, mild sex

Disclaimer: we don't own grey's anatomy, or any anatomies but our own at that.

Author's Note: Ok.. Set after Derek picks Addison and Meredith sleeps with George. Review. No matter how you feel about it, review. Chapters will get longer. We tried to step it up with our grammar, but we still suck. REVIEW, PLEASE. Check out 'A Little Something Called Forever' and 'The Best Laid Plans'. We need reviews to function, so help us out.

"I just came to say goodbye love." -Rent

Three Days Later

The door to the trailer opened and Meredith stepped in tentatively. Addison was sitting listlessly in the dark.

"Oh, sorry, sweetheart." She said, her voice dripping with malice. "Lover boy's not here. He was on call."

"I didn't come to see him." Meredith said quietly. "I came to see you."

Addison was clearly surprised at this, but she said nothing. Meredith waited for her to give her some kind of indication that she could speak. Sensing this, Addison gave her a slight nod.

"I'm not going to insult you by saying that I'm sorry, Addison."

"Well thank God you won't insult me."

"Addison, what happened between Derek and I? It wasn't meant to hurt you."

"Well it did, Meredith? Okay, it really did."

Meredith bit her lip. It struck her just now that Addison was a person who had feelings, who had feelings Meredith destroyed. "I'm sorry." She whispered.

"Well, now I'm insulted." Addison said quietly.

"I never meant for this to happen."

"What did you mean Meredith?" Addison shouted. "To sleep with him forever and never get caught?"

"Of course not! I never meant to sleep with him. After I found out he did my surgery-"

Addison cut her off. "You didn't know?"

Meredith shook her head. "Not for a month."

Addison put her head in her hands for few minutes then slammed her fist onto a table next to her. "Jesus Christ, Meredith! It's not just the sex. He didn't even care enough about me to try and save my life. Your life was more important to him than his wife's!"

"I had no control over that."

"You had control over what came next. It's bad enough that I had to watch my husband be miserable and make moon eyes at you since I've been here. It's bad enough that I've had to deal with the fact that he loves you and not me. But then I find out he's sleeping with you, and that's the last straw."

"I love him." She whispered, more for her own benefit than Addison's.

"I don't care Meredith. You love him, so you get to sneak around with my husband? You really wanted to be the other woman? Look how far it got your mother." She spit out.

Something inside Meredith snapped. She just snapped. "Stop it!" she shouted. "Just stop! You're the victim here, Addison. I had sex with Derek, and that's unforgivable. But you have no right to talk about my mother, and you can't pretend I just woke up one day and decided to engage in an affair!"

Addison recoiled, but said nothing, so Meredith just continued. "I fell in love with him, Addison! I fell in love with an amazing man, and then all of a sudden, he's married. He told me he was going to divorce you. And then he couldn't."

She laughed at the irony of it all. "You know I begged him? To choose me? I begged him, Addison. And of course he didn't. And then he was tense, and distant and removed, and then I come back to work, and oh, he saved my life. I'm broken, Addison. I begged him and he broke me. So judge me all you want. That's my story."

"Meredith…."

"I'm sorry Addison. But you'll be glad to hear I'm leaving."

"Leaving?"

"San Francisco."

"You're quitting Seattle Grace?"

"Just taking a leave. Chief Webber cleared it. I can't stay here right now."

"Have you told Derek?"

Meredith looked down and shook her head. Addison didn't know whether she should be relieved or upset by this information.

"If I tell him, and he asks me to stay, I won't be able to say no. But I need to get away for awhile. Figure out what's going on in my own head." Meredith reached into her bag and pulled out a letter that had Derek's name on the front in her loopy scrawl.

She extended her hand to Addison. "I know I have no reason to ask you for favors, but please, give this to him."

Addison nodded and took the envelope in her hand. "I will." She said. Meredith smiled and nodded, and turned around.

"I hope you find what you're looking for, Grey." Addison whispered after she shut the door.

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Derek came back into the trailer several hours later, to find Addison, still awake, with an envelope in her hands. She reached out and handed it to him without saying a word.

"What's this?"

"It's from Meredith."

"She was here?"

Addison just nodded. Derek opened the letter and ran the paper over in his hands.

Dear Derek,

I don't know what I was thinking these past few weeks. I'm not going to say they were a mistake, because I don't think that's true. I love you, but you're married. And Addison deserves better. I'm not going to be around for a while. I don't know how long, but I'll be back. I'm not going to beg you this time, but you need to make a choice. And I need to figure out how I'll ever be okay again if that choice isn't me.

Meredith.

He read it at least five times over and over, and then stared at it until the words blurred. Together. He saw only three words. Love, leaving and choice.

It didn't take Addison long to realize that Derek was crying. She got up and walked to the bed, picked up her cell phone and dialed Mark.

"Hi." She said.

"Hi Addie."

"I'm getting a divorce."

"What?"

"I'm getting a divorce. I'm moving into a hotel tonight."

"I'm confused."

"Do me a favor." She whispered. "I'll buy you a plane ticket to San Francisco. I need you to find Meredith Grey."

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She took one last, fleeting look at the Seattle skyline, not knowing the next time she would see it again. George squeezed her right hand and Izzie squeezed her left. Cristina stood next to Izzie, and put a hand on Meredith's shoulder. She hugged them all, including Cristina, and got into her car.

She drove away, the skyline in her rear view mirror, tears streaming down her face. She drove through the night, and didn't stop until she reached San Francisco.