A/N: ok this wasn't meant to be more then a one shot…but everyone was so nice in asking me to continue.i only have two conditions 1) please don't be mean because I will be writing this at night when im totally out of it so it may be nonsensical prattling. 2) I may run out of ideas so don't ever be afraid to offer ideas advice or anything, you really cant upset me and I think highly of those who are so kind as to give ideas! Really! Ok lets go! Ps this is gonna be short!

Nobody knew Kai had been feeling…well feeling anything. He was just Kai, just solid. It wasn't until that 'unpleasantness' as Kenny so hurriedly called it that they knew that he might actually know what it was to suffer.

Kai lay on his bed not knowing how he would face them. He couldn't stand questions, constant questions, questions asked before he could even wrap his mind over what had happened. No, he preferred when they pretended it never happened, as people had done before, his team mates in the abbey, even the nosey Ian never asked, just ignored. He didn't trust that this would happen with his current team mates. He was considering leaving for the night. Unfortunately there was a soft knock on his door and Max peeked in his head.

"uh…Kai?" he inquired but it was met with no response, "dinners ready, if you're hungry that is"

"I'll be down in a minute" he said in his usual authoritative tone

Max nodded, "ok, but Kai please know that we're here for you" he made his way into the room.

Kai turned over, hoping to make the boy leave.

"I just don't know what to say to you Kai" he smiled slightly

"I will be down in a minute" Kai replied loudly.

Max's smile dropped, he nodded and left.

Slowly Kai sat up; he ran a hand through his hair. If only he didn't have to deal with it, if only he knew…but he didn't. He made his way to the dinner table.

That night dinner was a somber affair, Tyson still seemed a little frightened of Kai while Rei sensing the silence tried to fill it in with inane babble. Kenny had left and Max mentioned that he had to leave too, after dinner. Rei of course lived with Tyson, as did Kai. As Rei stood to clear away the dishes Grandpa spoke.

"Kai, I think you need to have a little chat with me after dinner, in the dojo ok?" his voice now carried the tone of an adult. Kai's stomach leapt.

"I can't" he said quickly, "I have to meet someone"

"Who do you have to mee-" Tyson began to question but Grandpa held up a silencing hand.

"Quiet little man, it'll only be a moment Kai."

His shoulders slumped, more then anything he wanted to jump up, shout, yell, run away, but he knew this would only case more trouble so kept his self control and gave a small nod and left to wash his face ((ok this might be weird to you but a lot of people wash their face and hands after a meal…or maybe just the hyper clean ones?))

The night was so cold, Kai was sure there had never been such a cold night here before. Jaw tight with cold and stress he opened the door of the room where Tyson and his grandpa practiced their martial arts. Sitting in the dimly lit room was grandpa, looking like he was meditating or something. An eye opened when Kai stepped in.

"Have a seat" he pointed to the floor in front of him. Kai obediently sat. His face as expressionless as a rock, "Kai what happened in there?"

"I don't know" he had formed perfect answers with the little time he washed his face during, "It was probably a seizure, it runs in the family"

Grandpa didn't look pleased, his brow was suddenly far more wrinkled, "Kai, you know that even thought I'm an adult I'm not here to distrust you, I can even help you"

"No thank-you, I've been having these ever since I was a child, I can take care of myself" he was still.

Grandpa sighed, "I want the truth"

"that is the truth"

"who was it Kai? Tyson saw the scar, when you were ripping at your shirt in pain, who did this to you?" he was leaning forward

"I don't know what you're talking about. Tyson is a child who likes to make up stories." Kai said in a sneer, trying to fool himself as much as Grandpa.

"You don't have to be afraid Kai"

With this Kai was up, "I fear nothing, nobody!"

"how did you get that way? What did you go through to stop feeling?"

Kai glared, "foolish old man, don't speak of what you don't know" he stormed out, out of the building, out of the gate and down the street. Freedom.

End note : ah huh…that was weird, took a lot of linkin park to write! Ok, so this is what I want (please!) for you to say in ya reviews ok?

1)if I misspelled, got soemthign wrong out of the series ect.

2) idea ideas ideas! For plot ect would be wonderful coz I write for the readers!

3) I want to know what you think of it being all Kai sorta pov, wanna hear what Rei, Tyson Max or even Grandpa is feeling? Let me know!

4) any questions!

And ya know tell me ya love me and im wonderful as well, my head could do with some swelling!