AN: Wow you guys are all so lovely. Thank you for your reviews! Happy Valentines day to you all! SO you actually feel sorry for Tyson? I was hoping someone other then me would! Poor little thing, but maybe he'll be the one to help poor kai huh? Why doesn't Kai realize that if he only talked about his tragic past, if only he would deal with it that he wouldn't have to suffer? Silly boy. Most of this fic is based on things I've read in magazines, well the base ideas were anyway.

Kai leaned against a tree in the park, hidden by some bushes. He couldn't clear his mind. He punched the ground, scraping his knuckles, but not enough to bleed. Still thoughts overflowed, giving him a headache. He closed his eyes, listening to the sounds around him, birds, the wind, every now and then a stray laugh or word floated over from the kids playing. He could stay there forever, alone, in the sunshine, a place where memories didn't rear it ugly head. A place where he was…innocent? A moment later he opened his eyes, it was dark, he'd fallen asleep. He groaned and rubbed his eyes, he really couldn't believe he'd been out this long. That's when he saw a red jacket and blue capped person sitting a few meters away.

"Tyson?"

Tyson jumped startled, "ah! You're awake?"

"what are you doing here?"

"I snuck out to find you but you looked so tired I didn't want to wake you up" he said earnestly

Kai shook his head, "go away Tyson"

"are you gonna come home?"

"..."

"Kai! Please at least let me know you'll come home eventually"

"Tyson you don't even know where my home is"

Tyson stood and pouted, "your home is with us! You act all high an mighty and like you don't need anyone but I know you do! And no matter what you say or think the dojo will always be your home!"

"you're giving me a headache" Kai stood and smirked, "besides isn't it past your bed time?"

Tyson grinned, "what am I a little kid?"

"you sure act like one"

Tyson chuckled as they headed home together. (aww! Uber kawaii moment eh? All you tyka shippers are starry eyed right now aren't you?)

Kai and Tyson walked through the front door, Rei, Max, Kenny and Grandpa all looked up.

"Tyson? Weren't you in your room?" asked Max, eyes wide

Tyson grinned and put a hand behind his head, "ah, about that…"

"are you ok?" asked Rei rushing towards his friend.

"geez Rei it's not like I was doing something dangerous"

Reis eyes flicked up to Kai.

"scared I might have hurt the baby?" asked Kai coldly.

Rei faced Kai his face just as cold, "honestly?"

"I didn't do anything"

For a moment they just looked at each other until Reis face broke into a smile, "welcome back guys"

Everyone laughed out of relief, "well I suppose all you little guys are all staying the night" asked Grandpa

Inside Kai smiled, finally the room felt like it should, his friends were smiling and he could forget that he'd ever been anywhere else but here. He could pretend that nothing else existed but this place.

Tyson yawned, "It's late, I'm going to bed, you guys coming?"

"I bag Tysons bed!" yelled Max racing towards the room

"hey no fair!" Tyson ran after him

"oh brother" Kenny shook his head and followed.

"uh Kai…" Rei said quietly

"yeah?"

"I do trust our captain"

"whatever" Kai shrugged and walked off towards his room but Rei could hear in his voice that Kai had really meant 'you're forgiven'

Kai stared at two tombstones, he couldn't read what was written on them, it was in English for some reason. The sun shone down on him and he put a hand up to shield his eyes from the light. He was glad it was sunny, it made this place so pretty. A hand touched his shoulder, it was his grandfather, dressed in black, just like himself.

"it's time to go back Kai"

"grandfather please, can't I live with you?"

"of course not"

"but I don't like it at the abbey"

"you're not supposed to"

Kai was silent for a moment, "do you miss my father?"

"do you?"

"I don't remember them grandfather, not at all"

"good. Memories of things long gone make you weak. Never look to the past, no matter what happened or what you've done it's the future that you must focus on"

"then why do you bring me here every year?"

His grandfather slapped him, "do not think I will put up with insubordination."

"yes grandfather"

"I bring you here so you remember you are my grandson and therefore you must live up to that. Do you understand?"

"yes Grandfather"

Suddenly he was back at the abbey, hearing that voice yell at him, "You ever try to touch me again and you better kill me because after I'm done with you you'll wish you'd never been born"

Kai sat up sweating; he wiped his forehead with his hand and just sat there, unsure what to do. He wanted to cry, to scream, to go find Tyson or Rei or Max or anyone and ask them for help but he knew he couldn't. He could never do that. He couldn't even cry because he knew once he started he wouldn't be able to stop. He knew if he let just one tear fall from his burning eyes that they would keep coming and if he screamed, if he even let out a little yell that it would just keep flowing out of his body until he didn't have any breath left. He knew if he went to his team mates they would suffer. So he just sat there, facing the window, watching the blank night sky until it began to pale and slowly the sun stretched into to it and he could hear sounds in the house. He just sat there.

Tyson had sat up when he heard that scream in the house, for a moment he thought it might have been from a ghost because the shriek was so terrible, "you better kill me!" it was only after a few moment he realized he'd heard that before, only hours ago.

Max and Kenny stirred on his floor.

"what was that sound?" mumbled Max

"must have been the TV" whispered Tyson but Max and Kenny had already fallen back asleep. Tyson lay back down but he couldn't get rid of the goosebumps. Kai had sounded so scary.

AN: I really don't like this chapter…yup its crap! Take a moment from the plot so as I can explain what's going on with Kai. You see something very terrible happened to him in his past and he has suppressed all those memories (we already know this!) well in my fic they were triggered by Tyson and Max. While that seems a very stupid thing to trigger it we must not forget that in reality it is seemingly insignificant things that trigger this sort of stuff! Anyways now he can't keep all those forgotten things inside, they just keep coming, building up to the worst memory of all. What is that memory? THAT WOULD RUIN THE STORY! Duh! So yeah that's what's happening to our poor hero. Well I'll start on the next chapter…it'll be better I promise!