An: sorry its been so long but I've lost a lot of inspiration. When I wrote this I was going through some hard times but at the moment I'm sooooo happy!

This is dedicated to my most beloved friend and 'cyber boyfriend' get well soon my dear so we can talk again!

Tysons door swung open and there stood Kai, his eyes blank, his face twisted with hate.

"you!" he shouted and grabbed Tyson. The whole room woke up, Tyson looked sleepily scared.

"what have you done now?" hissed Kai.

"Kai! Kai please come back, don't do this" begged Tyson, he couldn't see his friends and wondered if they were trying to help.

"You went and complained to your Grandfather. He yelled at me! he said I hadn't done my job properly, that you were still a whiney little brat!" growled Kai shaking Tyson viciously.

"no! no we're in my room, Kai, we're in Tyson's house! With Grandpa and Rei and Max and--"

Kai shook him again, "shut up! We'll just have to work harder won't we?" he smirked cruelly.

"please Kai, please you're Kai I'm Tyson, we're in Japan! You're safe!" Tyson was close to weeping.

Kai slapped Tyson, "I'll make you a man if it kills you"

Tyson struggled, "Kai please, please let me go!"

"Kai!" it was Grandpa's voice, "let him go!"

Tyson struggled some more and Kai dropped him, and fell to the floor. Tyson moved back as quickly as he could. Kai glared, "you! What did I tell you?" he went to move towards Tyson but stopped, fear tumbling over his face, "how did you…? Give it back Kai! Give it back!"

The whole room was silent.

Kai lunged forward.

"no!" screamed Tyson shielding himself but Kai was laying on the ground again. Muttering, in a low, childish way.

"he's not getting up…he's not moving…why isn't he moving…Grandfather will be mad…when he gets up he'll be mad…he's not moving…what do I do…he's not moving." He was breathing heavily.

Tyson, tears still in his eyes crawled slowly forward and laid a gentle hand on Kai.

"I'm sorry!" Kai looked up, his face was sad, afraid and open then confused, "Tyson…?"

"Are you ok?" sniffed Tyson.

He shook his head, mute , complete terror had taken over.

"Kai?" Grandpa leaned close, Kai looked up, "you will tell me what happened."

"No...I can't" Kai whispered.

"Kai" grandpa was much sterner, "tell me"

Kai looked away for a moment, "that was my last day at the abbey. After that I left. That was the end."

"where did you go?"

"I ran away, I took to the streets. Eventually I ended up here" he gulped for air.

"so it's over?" asked Max carefully.

After a moment Kai nodded, "there's nothing more after that."

"back to bed Kai, the rest of you too." Said Grandpa, "Tyson come downstairs so I can see if you're alright."

"I'm fine Grandpa." Said Tyson lightly, "I just wanna go back to bed."

Grandpa frowned, not trusting something in his grandsons voice, "very well, good night"

Days passed since Kai had last acted strangely. Things had quickly gone back into their old routines and all the worry and fear had disappeared as the team practiced hard. It seemed as if Kai had suddenly recovered from what ever it had been that ailed him. Tyson still remembered the look on his captains face, it still gave him chills to think about it but he couldn't talk about it with his team mates, it would taste too much like betrayal.

Kai still felt it, that darkness inside him and he struggled to keep it away. He couldn't face it. Not yet. Not ever. So he played a part, smirking at his friends, rolling his eyes and being Kai. At night he tried not to sleep in case something happened but it always took him eventually. He sat there, staring into the darkness, keeping the wolves of his past at bay. Finally sleep took him.

A week later Kai sat tiredly watching TV at night with his friends. They were all laughing at some stupid comedy that made no sense. He yawned.

"tired kai? Maybe you should go to bed?" said Max shoving some popcorn into his mouth.

Kai muttered something unintelligible.

"have you been sleeping properly?" asked Kenny in his serious training voice.

"why?"

"Well sleepiness can drop your performance by 56 if you add that to…" he stopped under kai's glare.

"kai's just being a wet blanket" Tyson stuck his tongue out.

Kai rolled his eyes and stormed to his room.

They all laughed, "you upset our captain again!" said Rei

"well he started it" pouted Tyson, "ands he is a wet blanket, sometimes I think he's proud of the fact!"

they all laughed again.

Kai sat against a wall, fighting the darkness. Endless thoughts of horror filling is mind despite his effort. He was a liar…and worse.

Later that night Kai heard his door open and there stood Tyson.

"kai?" he said lightly.

"What now?"

Tyson moved closer, "you're still awake?"

"so are you" retorted kai.

"ah touché," he sat down, "Kai you haven't been sleeping at all have you?"

"what's it your business?"

"you're my friend. I want to understand you"

"you can't" said Kai closing his eyes, "you can't"

"I have to try Kai, I can't let this go"

"why not?" growled Kai.

"you're face" said Tyson, "you were so scared, you were terrified but…it was afterwards like you had some terrible realisation"

Kai's eyes snapped on Tyson, "you don't know what you're talking about"

"I do." Pouted Tyson, "no secrets between friends Kai. You know about my family, my past, even things I didn't want you to know. I told you because I knew you'd understand."

"you won't understand don't you get it? This is something you couldn't even imagine, you couldn't even consider! This is…" he was rasping for air again.

"Then maybe another of us will understand" said Rei walking in, followed by Max and Kenny.

"eavesdropping is a tad below you Rei" snapped Kai.

Rei shrugged and sat down as did the others. Kai was surrounded.

"Go away, if I didn't tell Tyson why would I tell any of you?"

"so there's something to tell?" asked rei.

"no! stop putting words in my mouth and leave me alone!" Kai growled, "out, out , out! Now!"

"why wont you trust us?" demanded Tyson

"because this is my sin not yours!" snapped Kai

"Can't you see we could help you carry this burden?" said Max softly

Kai pulled away, "no! I can't do that! I can't let you! Just leave me alone!"

"No! never! Not until I know you're ok!" Tyson moved closer

"I'll never be ok!"

"why?"

"because you can't change it!"

"what? What is so unchangeable?"

Kai turned to face Tyson, his face bold, angry and challenging, "death!"

DUN DUN DUN! Heh heh