Jordan- 14
*Picks up from Party Gone Wrong*
Warning: Mentions of underage drinking, drug use, and self harm. Read at your own risk!
After the party and Damian's assault Jordan kept spiraling downwards more and more. She was at the lowest point anyone could be at. Once again she had cut everyone off, she wouldn't talk to anyone anymore. To make matters worse she had started buying drugs off the streets, she had to make sure she went to places where her father and the others aren't known.
Hank was really worried about his daughter, after the party and the assault she had only gotten worse. She clung to him for a couple of days then cut him off again. The older father knew she'd been drinking and using again, every time he'd confront her about it she'd lie and guilt trip him and it only made him feel worse.
One afternoon Jordan had cut school as usual, she quit going to see Bunny after the old bitch ratted her out to Damian. She was going to a couple of corners with her hood over her head and sunglasses on her face. She had bought a couple dime bags of heroin and some coke. She hid them and the wad of cash she stole from her father's safe.
After she left she started walking, as she walked Antonio pulled up alongside her and got out. "Jordan!"
She sighed in frustration, she was almost sober and she was coming off a recent high. The fourteen year old didn't have the energy to deal with this shit.
"What the hell do you want? I thought I told you all to leave me the hell alone. I didn't ask for help and frankly I don't want help". She spat at him.
The senior detective didn't let what she said phase him but it did hurt, he took the sunglasses off her face and saw her face. It was a mess, her brown eyes were a red bloodshot color. He smelled the little bit of alcohol on her breath and noticed her scratching her arms and messing with her nose. He knew she was coming off a high and coming down from being drunk.
"Jo please this has to stop, we know you're hurting. You need to get help before something seriously bad happens. You could end up killing yourself".
The teen snatched her sunglasses back and put them back on. "I don't care. I know if I do die at least I'll be with my mom and brother again. Why the hell do you care? You're not my father you've been acting like my father since I was 11 quit it! I already have one father I sure as hell don't need another. Just leave me the hell alone, you have kids of your own go be with them. I don't need you just like I don't need anyone anymore. What I need is my mom and my brother and I'll never see them again".
Just as he put a hand on her shoulder as she walked away she turned around quick as lightning a decked him hard, sending him to the ground.
"Never touch me again, you forget Antonio you trained me in boxing. I know all your moves. Never again come near me. '' After that she stormed off.
Jordan went home and Antonio headed back to the District, his niece was somewhere in there. She was built a wall around herself and closed off. The senior detective didn't know if his niece was gone or not. Once Jordan got home thankfully nobody was home, she went straight to her room and locked the door.
She got a little mirror and dumped the powder substance on it and started to cut it in lines, she rolled up a piece of paper and started sniffing it all. Throwing her head back she smiled as she finally got her fix. After she snorted all the lines she pulled out a bottle of oxy and popped about 4 of them and downed them with some hard Whiskey. Pulling out a pocket knife she started to cut her wrist, she was too drunk and high to really care, she watched the sharp blade go across her flesh and she slowly watched as the blood flowed down her arms. Eventually she passed out.
District 21
Antonio was back at the District feeling hurt, a little angry, his emotions were all over the place. As he walked in Trudy saw the shiner on his eye.
"Woah, what happened to you". She spoke.
"I'd rather not say". Antonio said, his voice a bit hard.
He headed up to the squad and everyone saw him coming, Jay was the first to see his friend and saw the shiner.
"What the hell happened to you?" Jay asked.
"Jordan punched me. I trained her too well. '' Antonio said.
Adam went and saw. "That kid has one hell of a right hook".
"I tried to talk to her but she blew me off".
"We gotta get through to her somehow". Kevin said from his desk.
"When Jo's like this, it's hard to get through her. It's damn near impossible. '' Erin said sadly.
"I'm putting Jordan in rehab". Hank said from his doorway.
Hank knew this was probably the only way to get his daughter back, to get her well again. "I'm not losing another child. I won't.
After that he left going home to talk to his daughter, after arriving home he went up and saw his son's door open which mean Jordan was in her room. He knocked on the door.
"Jordan? Sweetheart open the door!" He called through the door.
The teen was out cold, the blood dried on her arms. Hank put his ear to the door and heard silence he rattled the door knob to find it locked. He then kicked the door down not giving a damn. He froze for a second, his daughter on the floor with bottles around her, the mirror that was dusty from the drugs, the plastic bags, and the pocket knife in her hands. Quickly he rushed over and checked for a pulse, thankfully there was one but it was faint.
He quickly rushed her out to his car and sped all the way to Med. Breaking every traffic law there is he made it in record time, he opened the passenger door and struggled to carry his daughter in.
"Maggie!"
Maggie heard the older father and saw him carrying Jordan in. "Dr. Halstead! Dr. Choi!" She called.
The two doctors rushed over and helped carry to a trauma room, the teen had become a frequent visitor to the ED. She was brought in a lot more from an overdose, cutting her wrists too deep.
"Pushing Narcan". Will said, pushing the medication.
Ethan had a bucket just in case she puked, a moment later Jordan shot awake looking around frantically.
"Jo, easy sweetie easy". Will gently laid her down.
Her stomach turned and Ethan put the bucket in front of her as she puked into the bucket, after she heaved for a few minutes. Once she finished and they wrapped her wrist, they wanted to wait till she calmed down to talk to her. One lesson everyone knew, never ever talk to a Voight while they're pissed.
Jordan just laid on the bed even more pissed off, they had rid her body of the drugs and took her off her high and got all the booze out her system. Why couldn't they leave her be? It was her life and she's living it the way she wants. Not being able to take it anymore she ripped the IV out and tried to leave till her father stopped her.
"Oh no, get back in that bed right now Jordan Lynn". His voice was firm.
" Oh full name, is that supposed to scare me at all? Get out of my way I'm getting out of here". She snapped.
"Jordan don't you understand that you almost died again?" His voice filled with hurt.
"At least I'll be with mom and Justin again".
" You're going to rehab, you're way to out of control".
"You can't make me do anything I don't want".
" You're a minor under the age of 18, me as your father has every right to do what's in your best interest"
"My best interest? What is that? Oh I know having you and everyone else leaving me the hell alone! It's my life! I'm living it the way I want. Why don't you and everyone else just leave me the hell alone and but out of my life. I'm not a little girl anymore she died the day Justin died. Face it she's gone and she's not coming back so just get used to this. At least I can say this, you do one hell of a job raising screwed kids".
She stormed past her father and left, everyone didn't say a word to Hank they already knew how he was feeling. He left hoping to find her.
Little did Hank know Jordan was on her way to a party. Once at the party she started to drink everything, soon she was drunk. Somewhere during the party she met a guy and they ended up doing a good few lines of heroin and coke. They started making out and he took her upstairs to one of the rooms, Jordan wasn't stopping him or anything. In fact she pulled him in for a deeper kiss, somewhere during there make out session they lost all their clothes and ended up in bed.
By the next afternoon Jordan was waking up in an unfamiliar room, she looked over to see the guy still passed out. As he slept she quickly gathered her clothes and went to change in the bathroom.
The guy woke up and heard Jordan's phone going off with calls and text from everyone on the team. When he saw one of the names he got curious. How'd she know him? Jordan came out fixing her shirt.
" Afternoon ". She said.
" Afternoon to you too, I had a great time last night". He replied.
She leaned over on the bed and kissed him again. "I did too. Maybe we can do it again".
" Maybe. I never caught your name.
"Call me J"
"I'm Kyle".
She pulled out some cash. " For last night and for right now, I need a boost".
"Damn girl, who'd you rob for that?"
"That's for me to know and you to find out".
He pulled out his bag and handed her the plastic bags. " This is the good stuff I just got in".
"Can't wait to try it".
" I'd love to see you again ".
She grabbed his phone and put her number in then input his number in her phone.
" Anytime you wanna see me or do business. Call me. Maybe I'll call you.
"We'll see what happens".
She grabbed her stuff and her phone. She looked at it to see a million calls and text from everyone, she then cut it off. Little did she know Mouse had tracked it and they knew where she was. Erin and Jay had went to find her. As she was walking down the street they pulled up, she sighed in frustration.
" I swear you people are extremely hard of hearing. What part of leave me the hell alone escapes you're brains? What does it go in one ear and out the other". Jordan spat.
"Come on Jordan, we can get you help". Erin told her. " What happened to the girl who wanted to help everyone? Who do anything for her family? Who loved her family no matter what".
Getting in Erin's face she spoke. "That girl is dead. She's been dead for a while. '' Her voice cold.
" Jo, don't do this. Don't go down a path you may not come back from". Jay told her.
"Back off pretty boy just because you're screwing Erin doesn't mean a damn thing. What just because you two are sleeping together that makes you family to me? Please. You don't know jack shit about me, you only know about me. You have a brother go worry about him, I'm not your concern". She shot at Jay.
" I know what you're feeling Jo. I know what you're going through. '' Erin told her as tears fell from her eyes.
Jordan scoffed and chuckled dryly. "No the hell you don't! None of you do and you'll never know what I'm going through. I lost my big brother! My best friend. You don't know what that's like none of you do. You have Teddy, Jay has Will, Antonio has Gabby, Kevin has Vanessa and Jordan. WHO THE HELL DO I HAVE?! NOBODY!"
"Jo that's not true. You have us, everyone over at 51 and Med". Jay tries to tell her as tears fell from his eyes.
" Yeah, I don't give a damn. Just leave me the hell alone. All of you. I don't need anyone anymore. I'll do just fine on my own".
She shoved past them roughly heading home. Hank was back at his house waiting, he stayed there hoping Jordan would come home. He had his team searching the city for her. As he was about to call Alvin the front door opened and slammed shut. He went over to the front door.
"Where the hell have you been?" Hank asked sharply.
"None of your damn business that's where I was. I don't have to answer to you". Her voice just as sharp.
" You're 14 years old and my daughter, I have a right to know where you are, who you're with, what you're doing, I have a right to know!"
"You have a right to know jack shit! It was no wonder Justin stirred away from you at times. You're too damn overprotective. I'm old enough to make my own decisions. I don't need anyone anymore. I don't need babysitters anymore. I DON'T NEED ANYONE! JUST LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE!"
Jordan knew she needed a fix and a damn good one, she stormed out of the house and went somewhere private. She pulled out the new drugs Kyle had given her, after snoring them she felt a rush. She had never felt more alive.
Meanwhile
Kyle was getting a weird feeling from this J, girl. How the hell did she know Adam Ruzek? Could she have been one of his CIs as well? He didn't know and he didn't care. Something wasn't right. He called Adam and a little while later the young detective showed up.
"Whatever you have better be damn important, my boss is in a very pissy mood". Adam said.
" I was having a party the other night and I met this girl-" He was cut off.
"I don't give a damn about you're hook ups".
" You're number was in her phone ".
" What?"
"Yeah. Yours and other members from your team. I don't know if she's a CI or what. Something ain't right.
" Did she say her name?"
"She told me to call her, J".
Adam was getting a funny feeling in his stomach. No way in hell he was talking about Jordan.
" What she look like".
"Medium build, brown hair, brown eyes. She was the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. I.. I think I'm in love with her".
Something still wasn't settling with Adam, he was getting a very bad feeling about this.
" Call J, tell her you wanna meet up. Do a buy whatever.
"I'm not helping you set her up".
" Did I mention my boss is in a pissy mood? Do you want me to sic him on you".
"Fine. Fine".
He then called Jordan. " Hey, J? It's Kyle.
Elsewhere
Jordan was coming out if another house as her phone rang. It was Kyle. She smiled.
"Miss me already?" She answered.
"I have. Listen, J, I wanna be honest I have real feelings for you. Meet me tonight and we can get out of town. Just us together. We'll run away together".
" Sounds like a plan. Where are we meeting.
"My place outside. Be there at midnight.
" I'll be there".
"I love you J".
" I love you too Kyle".
She hung up and headed home to pack.
Meanwhile
Kyle got off the phone and looked at Adam.
"We're meeting outside of my place tonight. Midnight. '' He told the young detective.
"Me and my team will be there".
Adam headed back to the district and quickly informed everyone. When he said the letter J, they all got the same gut feeling. There wasn't a chance in hell it wasn't Jordan. They were all in for a surprise that night.
It was approaching midnight, Jordan had some stuff packed, she had stolen money from her father's safe. She had the other drug packets from Kyle along with some bottles. Little did she know that her father and his team were there.
They all sat in their cars waiting and watching. Kevin saw someone going up to Kyle. Jordan wore a hood to cover her face.
Kyle stood a bit nervously as he saw her coming up, he calmed down and smiled at her.
" You made it". He then kissed her.
"I did. I'm ready, let's get the hell out of here". She said, then kissing him.
" J, I want you to know I love you and I'm sorry.''
Just then the cars moved in and she glared at him. "You son of a bitch". She then bolted.
Jordan was a pretty fast runner and managed to go halfway down the street. Adam and Kevin chased after her, she was blocked by a huge fence and just as she was about to climb it they came up.
" Chicago PD! Don't move!" Adam shouted.
"Don't reach for anything, slowly turn around". Kevin spoke next.
"You won't shoot me". Jordan's voice lowered a bit.
The voice sounded familiar to them when it hit them. Jordan then turned to face them.
" You wouldn't wanna shoot you're boss's kid, would you"
"I'm gonna kill him!" Adam yelled.
"Look just let me go. You never saw me.
" We can't do that Jo". Kevin said.
"What are you gonna do arrest me? You wouldn't.
" What's in the bag Jo?" Adam asked.
"None of your damn business that's what".
They were gonna hate this so much. They never thought they'd have to do this. Kevin went over and grabbed the bag.
" Hey! That's my stuff!"
He searched the bag and found the plastic bags and bottles. Kevin looked at his partner. This was about to kill Adam, he pulled his cuffs out and cuffed her.
"Jordan Voight, you're under arrest for possession. You have the right to remain silent anything you say can and will be held against you in a court of law, you have the right to an attorney if you cannot afford one, one will be appointed to you. Do you understand these rights as I explained them". His voice filled with pain.
" I know my rights you incompetent jackass uncuff me!"
They brought her back to the others, Kyle was there. He tried to steer clear of Voight, the man scared the hell out of him. Adam and Kevin brought Jordan back with the bag.
Hank's eyes widened. This was a sight he never thought he'd see. Jordan gave her father a snug look.
"Something wrong dad?" She asked.
Kyle just about choked on air when she said that. "Dad?! Hank Voight is your father?!"
"Unfortunately he is".
Adam glares at him. " You're a dead man".
"What he do?" Antonio asked.
Jordan had a grin, she figured Kyle ratted her out she was gonna rat him out. "We slept together. It was one time but still".
Hank grabbed him. " YOU WHAT?!"
"I… I swear I didn't know she was you're daughter". Kyle stammered out.
" You ratted me out, only fair if I rat you out" Jordan told him.
"Hank let him go". Antonio told him.
After letting him go Hank then turned to see his detectives holding his daughter. Jordan looked at her father.
" You gonna tell them to let me go or what?"
Taking a deep breath he was gonna say something he thought he'd never say.
"Put her in the cage".
Everyone looked at him in shock, Jordan looked at him in disbelief.
" You don't mean that. You're joking. You wouldn't put me there".
"Hank isn't that a bit extreme". Erin said.
" She doesn't deserve to go in there". Jay spoke.
Giving his detectives a stern look he spoke again. "Put her in the cage".
" I hate you! I hate you! I will NEVER forgive you for this!" Jordan called to her father.
Kyle ended up running out of there like a bat outta hell and didn't look back. Hank needed some time to think and calm down. Adam and Kevin had taken her down to the district and put her in the cage.
"You guys suck ass". Jordan spat at them.
They didn't know what to say, Kevin just closed the door and they walked away while Jordan was screaming at them. The two partners went to the stairs and sighed sadly.
"I can't believe we actually did that". Adam spoke in disbelief.
"You're telling me". Kevin said, his voice filled with hurt and disbelief.
A few minutes later Hank had came down after thinking and calming down he took the keys from Kevin and dismissed his detectives. Jordan glared evilly at her father when he went over to her.
"Why the hell are you here? You've done enough. I can't believe you let them put me here!"
Hank opened it and went in sitting next to her. "If you stop yelling and calm down, I can tell you why I had them put you in here".
"I know why you don't trust me anymore and I'm nothing more than a criminal".
He sighed sadly. "The trusting you part is true, I can't trust you anymore Jo. You gotta earn that back. The second reason is because I couldn't have you put in a holding cell. Not with all those criminals, they take one look at you and that's it. You being here was for your safety, something I still take into consideration". He paused taking a deep breath. "Sweetheart, I know losing Justin was hard but this isn't what he would want you to do. He'd want you to live your life, not destroy it. He'd want you to honor his name not taint it. I know you're hurting and I'm hurting too, I'm still mourning over him and I'm hurting because I was close to losing you many times. Jo Jo, I can't lose you. You're all I have left".
Tears fell freely from her eyes and she choked on a sob when her father had called her, Jo Jo. Nobody was ever allowed to call her that, the only one who was allowed to call her that was Justin.
"I...I just wanted the pain to stop. All of it. I didn't wanna feel anything. Losing Justin, what happened with… Damian. I wanted it all to stop". She cried.
Taking the cuffs off his daughter, Hank wrapped her in a tight protective hug and held her as they both cried. Once they both have calmed down, the older father had pulled his little girl back and wiped the tears that fell from her eyes. She had dark circles under her eyes.
"You need help Jo, more help than what I could give you. I got you into a rehab for teens. Take as long as you need to get well and better again. I know you'll be you're old self again".
"I'm so sorry daddy, that wasn't me. None of it was.
"I know it wasn't. Were gonna work on getting you better and well".
"Can I go see everyone? I have some serious apologizing to do".
"Let's go".
They headed up to the squad, everyone was dead quiet. They couldn't believe what happened. Hank had brought his daughter up to the squad. Alvin saw them coming and got everyone's attention. Everyone looked over at the father and daughter.
Jordan had held her head down then lifted it back up. "I know lately I've been a royal pain in the ass, I've done things, said things". She wiped her eyes as tears burned in her eyes. "I just wanted to say how sorry I am, I'm truly sorry. Instead of asking for help, I pushed you guys away. I've become consumed with anger and grief that I turned into something, someone, that wasn't me. I turned into a completely different person. I turned into someone that I'm not proud of. Done things, I'm really not proud of. I know you guys probably won't be able to forgive me now or any time soon but maybe once I'm better and well, I can work on making up with you guys and maybe one day you'll forgive me".
Without a word Erin was the first to move to hug her tightly, Jordan hugged her sister tightly. Soon enough everyone got up to hug the teen.
"I know I have a lot of making up to do and I can start after I get out of treatment".
"We'll be here for you kiddo always". Erin said, her voice cracking.
After hugging and constantly apologizing to everyone Hank had taken his daughter home so she could get packed for rehab. She had packed some of her clothes and some of Justin's. She had taken his blanket and pillow too. Picking up a picture she looked at it, she had been 7 years old and one summer day Hank had taken his children to a lake house for a week. Hank and Justin were teaching Jordan how to swim and fish.
The picture was of them three, it was the last day of their vacation. Jordan had managed to hook a huge fish with the help of her father and brother. Justin helped her hold the fish while Hank stood next to her they all had big bright smiles on their faces.
Hank was looking into the room and saw. "You ready?"
Putting the picture and a couple others in she zipped up her suitcase and grabbed it. "Ready".
They headed out to the rehab facility, Hank rather do it now so nobody would know or find out. He didn't wanna have his daughter's name ruined or dragged through the mud. After about a 20 minute drive they arrived at the facility, Jordan looked at it with a bit of fear in her eyes. She had felt her heart racing a bit, looking down she wiped her eyes.
Hank had put a gentle hand on her shoulder. "I'll be with you every step of the way. I'll never leave you to do this alone".
"C-can you walk me? To make sure I go in? I don't trust myself right now"
"Absolutely sweetheart".
They got out the car and Jordan grabbed her suitcase with one hand and she reached out for her father's hand with the other. Hank gently took hold of her hand and glanced at her smiling.
"We'll get through this together as a family". Hank assured her.
"I know we will". Jordan took his hand.
The father and daughter walked inside, Hank had registered his daughter they allowed him to walk with her to her room. When they got to the room it was a simple room the walls were painted a blue color, there wasn't anything on the walls, there was a desk in there, and a bed. Jordan quickly got set up, one of the workers told Hank he had a couple minutes then he had to leave.
The teen wrapped her father in a tight hug and buried her face in his shoulder and held him tightly. Hank just held his daughter tightly and protectively, he kissed her head and just held her.
"I'll get better dad, I promise. I'll try and go back to being my old self again". Jordan said into his shoulder.
"I know you will sweet girl, I know. I promise to always be here for you no matter what. You can call me anytime day or night I'll be there by the phone".
"I love you daddy"
He kissed her head one last time as tears fell from his eyes into her hair. "I love you too baby. I love you more than my own life".
There was a soft knock on the door Hank knew he had to go he held her for one more second and kissed her forehead. He gently wiped her tears away.
"I'll check on you as soon as I can".
"I know you will".
"Get better and get well".
"I will. I promise".
Hank smiled and then left. He went out to the car and just sat in the driver seat and started crying. Jordan was in her room laying on the bed as she was thinking. Her father was right. Justin wouldn't want her to destroy her life, he'd want her to live it to the fullest. She was now gonna honor his name instead of tainting it. As she closed her eyes she was sure of one thing, she was gonna be on the road to recovery.