A/N: Konnichiwa! Sorry for no author notes in the two previous chapters...heheh, whenever I updated I was usually in a rush. So I never remember to put in notes. Anyways, if you haven't already noticed, I'm writing in Yukiko Kasakura's point of view. Personally, I think this is my best story by far.

"Sometimes, I take it for granted, that this can't be the person I want to be."

Morning dawned on me as the warm golden light poured in a window. Without speaking, I dressed into my school uniform and causally walked out the door to school. Unaware of my surroundings, I did not realize that I was alone. It was those childhood memories, the untouchable memories that keep haunting me. They are the source of all my pain , then why? Why do I always remember them? One day does not pass unless I remember them as if haunting me of my mistakes."Come on Yoh!" On the mention of that name, I abruptly halted.Yoh? I turned to witness a small blonde boy pulling another half-asleep teenage boy. His face sparked an enormous familiarity inside me. Merely smirking, I continued walking, hiding my surprise. Then I had to resist the temptation of speaking to the two. Finally, I could stand it no further.

I felt a bubble of hope form inside me wanting to burst. "Excuse me, but do you two attend Shintra(me:Not sure) Private Academy?" The other boy, Yoh I assume, immediately stood up straighter, apparently fully awake now. "Yeah, I go to that school,you new?" he answered grinning at me. I was immediately taken back by his friendliness to complete strangers such as myself. "Hai, I'm afraid I don't know the way..."My voice trailed off with a ingeniune smile on my face. She's pretty cute and...I can't let Anna know! I carelessly found myself reading his thoughts. "Anna?" I repeated and quickly caught myself. Fortunately, he did not seem to have heard me. I sighed in utmost relief."Sorry, shouldn't we be going now?" I reminded politely. He nodded and started to walk alongside me. Maybe I'm hiding too much...is it really necessary? Yoh looks innocent yet he has potential. Potential to become Shaman King.

School was practically a bore. The teacher kept lecturing on and on until there was no point in listening any further. Watching Yoh as slept soundlessly reminded me of those days back then. I know that it is not good to be sentimental, but sometimes I can't stop it from overflowing me. It's just my feelings and past that hold me back. "Kasakura! Read the next passage!" This was unexpected. "Yes sir." I stood up, holding the book. "'What is the meaning of life? The sole purpose of our existence? We live only to achieve our far-fetched dreams and the dreams that keep getting out of our grasp once we draw close.'" I eyed the teacher with a trace of annoyance. He told me to stop as I intended to. Far-fetched dreams? As in dreams one cannot achieve? Then again, they are just...humans. It's hard. We must understand this.

School ended hours later and when it did, I was the first to rush out the door. I hadn't realized that Yoh was chasing after me. "Yukiko-san! Wanna stay over my place today?" I turned around with an faint smile on my face. "All right,then, I'll stay over." Then I asked him if he lived alone. He replied no with a side comment about his merciless fiancee. Then came the most intriguing question."Do you believe in ghosts?" My eyes widened in disbelief. Apparently I do, but I obviously had not told him yet. Sighing, heavily I thought of lying to him, I wanted him to tell the truth first. "Obviously," I answered in an almost disappointed tone,"Why do you ask?" Yoh hesitated but did reply. "'Cause my place is haunted." I smirked, "Why do you live in a haunted house?" Again, he hesitated, "It was cheap and I'm not afraid." I looked at him with thoughtful eyes,"You're not afraid?" He shook his head."Why aren't you afraid?" He looked the other way. Then he gulped."Well I can see them.I'm a shaman." I grinned then it disappeared. I had vaguely recalled something that made me regret lying. This brought back tears.

I was at the Asakura household, and had cautiously stolen my favorite food from an altar.(me:Yukiko!You bad girl!)Unfortunately, I was unexpectedly caught eating it. "Is that from our main altar?" I shook my head,"Iie." The Asakura slapped me straight across my left cheek leaving a swelling red. "Nani? I didn't steal it!" Another slap, this time on my right. "You are a disgrace to the elemental masters of the Kasakuras." With that, I dropped the bread, quietly sobbing. When my parents came home, I greeted them with a cheerful welcome only to find myself slapped again. This time even harder...it bled. "How dare you steal!" my mother slapped me again even harsher than before. "Mother...? Why? I'm your only daughter..." I was knocked off my feet and fell crashing to the wooden floor. "You are no daughter of mine.No daughter of mine would insult my original family." I did not get up on my feet and my mother bypassed without even glancing down at me. My mother and father left and I remained there...silently sobbing, not even moving an inch. They streamed now, even harder than before. Why? My blood parents... I don't understand...is it for lying? To an Asakura? They always were like that, after that day. I don't belong to them anymore.Or was I ever.

"I'm sorry. I truly am." My eyes brimmed with overflowing tears. "You did nothing wrong, why are you crying?" he asked. I shook my head and bowed low. My words choked as I tried to speak. "I'm s-sorry...I can't lie to an Asakura like yourself. I'm extremely sorry." More words caught in my throat. "I can see ghosts. I know you...and most importantly, I'm a shaman. An elemental master." They streamed now, quietly, however. "Sumimasen, onegai...please forgive me, Yoh-sama." In truth, deep down, I had this feeling that if I had been able to lie and commit misleading deeds, I would have pleased him...Hao-sama. Now, I can't see if that ever would be possible, I'm not that kind of person to switch my nature, my personality just to satisfy someone. Hao-sama, I'm an utter failure. "Hey, don't cry, you have your reasons right?" I nodded weakly,"Thanks, Yoh-kun, I appreciate it entirely.I acted that way on my own risk," I gave him a regretful smile, "You think we can still be friends even after what I did?" He smiled, "Yeah, you look lonely." A lonely heart among many souls. In this world I don't belong anywhere. "Let's go." "Sure." Then I realized that there are people out there who are truly caring.