A/N: Whew! It's been awhile since I updated! I had the document in my computer but I never had the chance to put it ; Oh well..ENJOY!
"I surrounded myself with lies and lived in my own fantasies...never realizing that I was alone."
That final distance between my dream and me seems to be never ending. Maybe this "dream" is only meant for reason, a reason to keep me going. My feelings for Hao have slowly eroded over my years of isolation, but some of it still remains buried deep down inside...within my darkness. That single ray of light that glows for eternity lies and shines with my lonely heart. My solitary life, my vague memories are the source of all my fears...and all my lies.
As I lay in bed awake, the strips of my tattered memories arose. Back to the day when I met him and to now. I want to remember the memories of the days when I was falling. I want to chain back the scattered memories and make everything fall into place. Make everything fall into place and realize why I chose him.
I never thought we would meet again after so long. Did you forget about me all this time? I want to ask you on that destined day and find if it was really true. I didn't forget you...not yet, not ever. These days are like a living fantasy for me and what I want ahead of me...is you.
Tomorrow is the last day until summer begins and I'm not entirely sure if Anna will allow me to stay at their inn for long. She despises me for the silly reason of competition--competition for Yoh's love or rather..liking in my case. Besides Yoh and her are engaged and I have no reason to interfere willingly.
Morning arose, pouring radiant light into the white room. My eyes squinted and I shielded them with my hand. Groaning slightly, I dragged myself out of bed and hurriedly dressed with alarming speed. Downstairs, I was 'greeted' by Anna, Yoh's unexpected fiancee.
"Look, you stay away from my Yoh or you will suffer very harsh consequences," she warned icily. I stared, smiling knowingly to her.
"Is that so? And perhaps if I caught you and Yoh together, you would think I would be angry?" I smirked faintly, "Personally, I wouldn't. " With that last sentence, I left the haunted inn.
Of course, I had waken up earlier than Yoh, but I can't afford to arrive at school in the nick of time. Last night, I had this feeling that I couldn't explain. Nostalgic memmories arose wanting to burst. Burst and disappear.
At school, only a handful of students were present. Some yawned immensly,others simply sat on the nearby benches with half-lidded eyes. Did I come too early? I glanced briefly at my silver analog watch. Not that early..a quarter 'til eight. School starts today at nine forty-five due to the fact it was the last day. I have plenty of time to spend, so why not? Smirking, I walked causally to the nearby park.
The birds were chirping their love songs while the trees swayed in rhythmn. A lovely harmony. My hair blew along with the wind, and fell on my face. Brushing aside my hair, I settled in a small wooden bench and laid my black school bag next to me. Maybe...sometimes, I live too much in the past. Everyone should have regrets, no one is perfect. If I could, I want to go back, go back and leave that shrine. So, that promise would be gone forever. I sometimes ask myself:Do I really care? My fate has been set, my destiny is decided. Now, I simply need to walk the path...to good?To the light? To the darkness? Or perhaps both? I could know...but I don't want to. The future is supposed to be unexpected. And we as people must expect the unexpected. And accept the unexpected.