A/N: i don't know why i didn't think of this before, but here's my disclaimer now: the only characters that are mine, are liz, christina, and any future characters that weren't on the show. in this 'chapter,' i finally get to the tragedy.

January 12th-late

Diary, you are not going to believe the terrible thing that I found out when we got to Cheers. I haven't been able to stop crying. I can't believe that this happened!

As soon as Diane and I stepped into Cheers, I knew something was wrong. There was not a single customer, and it was only nine o'clock! Dad came out of his office, and I asked him what was going on. He told me that something important had come up, so he closed early. He then asked me to come into his office. He said he had to talk to me about something.

Diane took this as her cue to leave.

As I walked into Dad's office and sat on the couch, i couldn't help but feel scared. I just KNEW it had to be something really bad. Why else would Dad close so early?

Dad knelt down beside me and took one of my hands in his.

"Liz," he said to m, "I'm afraid I have some bad news." I could tell he was having a hard time saying this, which made me even more freaked out.

"I got a phone call from the police not to long ago. Your Mom was found dead with an empty bottle of sleeping pills on her nightstand. An autopsy has to be done before it is official, but at the moment, they are saying that it was a suicide."

I sat in shock for several moments. I kept thinking that it was my fault. If I had been with her today, she wouldn't have killed herself.

I think Dad could sense what I was thinking, because he said that she had been mentally ill for a long time. This wasn't her first attempt at suicide. He also told me that she had been in and out of mental hospitals for most of her adult life.

What I can't understand is, if she's tried this before, why didn't someone keep a closer eye on her? This could have been prevented, right?

Well, I guess now I know why she never tried to get custody of me.

The funeral is in two days. I don't know if I'm going to be able to handle it.

I'm going to stop writing now, Diary. I really don't want to think about this anymore. I should probably try to get some sleep anyway. Though, I'm not sure that's a likely possibility.

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