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January 13th-9:40 PM
I haven't left my room at all today. Thankfully I have my own bathroom and some candy bars in my purse. Otherwise, I would have to go out and face Dad. I don't want to hear anymore about how this isn't my fault. I KNOW it is.
Well, not entirely, but I am partially to blame at least. I should have been with her yesterday. Maybe seeing and talking to me would have changed her mind about killing herself.
If anyone is more at fault than me, it's those dumb ass doctors. Isn't it their job to make sure people DON'T do things like this?
Dad has been knocking on my door and trying to talk to me practically all day. I think he is pretty worried about me.
Well, I don't care if he is. I just want to be left alone. Is that too much to ask for?
I don't think I want to go to the funeral tomorrow, Diary. Dad won't like that though. He'll probably say something about how I'll 'regret not going later.'
Maybe I should go, but I hate the thought of dealing with all the pity I would surely get from everyone.
I wish there was some way that I could get away from all of this, Diary. Not just the funeral and Dad, but...well, everything. All my thoughts about Mom, all my sadness...everything.