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Chapter 5
What the hell? Quickly doing the math, his eyes narrowed and said to her between clenched teeth
"Bones. Is there something you've been meaning to tell me?" He managed to get out in an even tone, trying to keep his breathing even
She paled and glanced down at her attire, which seemed to accent her growing middle, not hide it. She looked back up at him, and ran her hands through her hair. "Booth…."
Pushing past her, he stormed into her apartment, throwing the door shut behind him with a loud bang.
"Okay so you are going on vacation, to God knows where, to do what specifically?" he yelled at her, his hands on his hips, staring at where she stood before him. Here eyes were filled with unshed tears.
"Okay, let me explain…" she began, walking past him, and shaking a handful of antacids from a bottle on the counter, and tossing them into her mouth, following it with a glass of water. She hated having this non stop heart burn, and this crying at the smallest thing!
"Yeah, do that, because right now I can see you were running away and weren't going to tell me you were pregnant with my baby, convince me otherwise Bones" he growled at her, his eyes piercing into her own. "I assume it is MY baby, right?" he added in an angry tone
"Yes, it is yours. Who else's would it be? Booth, I'm going to Minnesota, I'm going to rent a small cabin until the baby is born, and then…" she hesitated a moment, turning away from him, glancing down at her middle. This was hard. She knew she was hurting him. It wasn't supposed to happen like this.
"What Bones, what were you going to do then? Because you know, you uh sure as hell aren't going to do that now you know" he told her
"Clearly I wasn't in the picture here, when were you planning on telling me I was going to be a father again? Or were you even going to do that?"
"I was going to put the baby up for adoption" she said finally, not facing him, tears streaming down her face
"Nice. So you were going to give our baby away to strangers to take care of and never tell me, is that it?" he shouted at her, he was so mad, he cold barley contain his anger, he wanted nothing more than to pick up the nearest vase and throw it as hard as he could against her wall. "Don't you think I have a right to know? That I'd WANT to know? You know how I feel about Parker!" he yelled at her form, from behind, she looked no different, but turn her around and everything changed.
"Temperance, look at me dammit" he said, twirling her around with one hand on her shoulder
Tears were spilling down her cheeks, here eyes bright blue and watery. Her nose and cheeks were red from crying.
She shrugged lightly, and said between sobs "I didn't want children Booth; I told you that, I thought this way, it wouldn't…wouldn't… " She gulped and sobbed "ruin your career, or mine. You wouldn't have to go through what you have been with Parker, and it wouldn't destroy our partnership…what if you and I get killed? I don't want the baby to go through what I did…"she said and hiccoughed. Damn these hormones she thought to herself
"Bones, Parker did not ruin my career, and this baby won't either. You are NOT putting our child up for adoption, you are having this baby and I am going to be stuck to your side until you do. It will not ruin our partnership, and this is not going to turn into a Rebecca like situation, now come here" and he pulled her into his arms, her head nestled into his neck and shoulder, she continued to sob and cry, as if her heart were breaking
"…so sorry…should have told you…" her voice muffled out from his shoulder, her tears soaking through his thin cotton tee shirt material
Looking up at the ceiling, he said a silent prayer of thanks he got here before she left and it would have been too late.
"Bones, we are not going to get killed, okay? Come on. Think about this, even if were both killed, which is completely unlikely, there are lot of friends and family around to take over raising him or her" he said, then after a thought occurred to him "do you know if it's a boy or girl yet?" he said hopefully
She sobbed again, and pulled back from him, wiping her cheeks, she sounded stuffy from crying "No, I thought it would be better if I didn't know, easier when it came time for e to, you know...let go" she said, her eyes skipping guiltily away.
"Okay. So I imagine you didn't tell anyone about this plan of yours then, huh?" he questioned her gently
She sniffed and shook her head "Only Russ. He wasn't happy Booth. He wanted you to know what was happening too" she felt terrible. This all seemed like such a good idea when she thought it up. She hadn't thought she'd ever feel like this. Science provided answers on most things, but parenting and pregnancy was not one of them. This was a whole lot more than serotonin release for the survival of the species.
"Okay. First, you need to calm down, you probably know it isn't good for you or the baby to get all worked up. Second, we are going to figure out what happens next. Okay?" he said, putting his finger under her chin and forcing her to look up into his eyes.
He saw fear in her eyes, and maybe a little relief. He wiped one lone tear that had tracked its way down her cheek. He pulled her back into his arms and kissed her forehead. "Okay?" he confirmed. He felt her nod her head.
He felt her relax against him. Her protruding middle was pressing into him, and he felt a hard kick. Surprised, he pulled back, and looked down at where the kick originated, and then at her. "That been happening a lot?" he said with a smile tugging at the corner of his lips
She sniffled again, and looked up at him warily, "yeah, quite often, is very distracting" she remarked
"Huh" was all he could think to say. He was having a baby with Bones. Amazing. He wondered if it would look like her or him, and if it would be as smart as she was.
"Are you mad at me?" she asked him worriedly
"Well, I am not delirious with joy or anything, but I guess I am glad I got here when I did, you would have really gone through with it? Just like that?" he asked her again, in a patient tone
"That was the plan, but to be honest, I'd been going over of scenarios that could have worked, where I….that is we kept it" she admitted to him
"Well, now that you aren't going to Minnesota or wherever you were going, what do you want to do?" he questioned her, watching her walk into her kitchen and pour a glass of milk.
"I guess I don't know. I wasn't planning on you finding out. I suppose I will have to tell everyone at work…" she trailed off, as she reached into a container on the counter and withdrew a handful of cookies. She wandered over to the kitchen bar area, and sat down with her milk and Oreos.
"Ah, so this is why I'd been seeing so many empty Oreo packages in your office" he said with a chuckle "Oreos Bones?"
She looked over at him with an embarrassed look on her face "I eat really healthy most of the time, but I can't seem to get enough of these. Do you know they are really good when you drown them in milk?" she said, popping an entire drenched cookie into her mouth
"Dunked Bones. It's dunked in milk, not drown" he rolled his eyes as he pointed out the correct phrase
"Whatever" she said with her mouth full. God she was cute sitting there eating her cookies and milk. Her hair all messed up in that big shirt. His heart lurched. He may as well put his heart on the line and tell her how he felt.
"Bones, I know my timing is a little off here, and believe me, this is not event related, but I've been fighting my feelings for you for a long time. I guess I didn't know if you felt the same, so I kept my mouth shut. Now seems as good a time as any…" He took a deep breath, "I am falling in love with you Bones" he stared at her, watching her for some sort of indication as to how she'd respond. She was very still. Her expression and body language didn't reveal her inner thoughts at all.
Temperance didn't know what to say. She pulled away from and looked up into his eyes, her tone sober, choosing her words carefully
"I don't know if what I feel for you is love, because I have never been in love before, but what I have been feeling for you is deep and emotional, maybe what I feel is love, I don't know. I didn't want to admit it to myself, because I thought you were with Rebecca, Cam or whoever. I never thought it would come this far, I never thought I'd feel like this for anyone, really" she admitted to him. "I thought I'd always be alone" she said quietly
"Well you know this whole living apart thing isn't gonna work for me" he said bluntly, beginning to pace around her apartment
"Why not?" she said confused "We've lived apart this long, and your being in a closer proximity to me has no bearing on the fetus' development or wellbeing…" she pointed out
He groaned and rolled his eyes "Bones Bones Bones. I want to be with you. I want to make sure you eat what you are supposed to, do what you are supposed to and all that, okay, its normal alright? That's a part of me in there too you know. I didn't get to do any of this with Parker" he answered her, as he paced back and forth in her living room. The dawn light had begun to stream through her windows, casting a shadow from him as he moved.
She was silent a moment, considering what he said. He was right. This was just as much a part of him as is was her. It was a genetic combination of them both. It was only natural he'd want to be a part of the process leading up to its birth.
"Well….what do you suggest?" she said finally, not sure what to say, this was all new territory for her.
"Well why don't you just move in with me?" he countered, walking over to her couch and sitting down; the pacing had been driving her crazy anyway.
"What? Move in? What about you move in with me? Why do I have to leave?" she said in a petulant tone, "just because you're the man I have to do what you say?" she said in a sarcastic tone
"Oh don't pull that alpha male crap with me, I only suggested it, because there is more room, you don't have to give this place up, you can keep it or rent it out, whatever" he offered, trying to be reasonable
"Maybe. Let me think about it" she countered. She stood up and stretched. "I need to take a shower, okay?" she started towards her bathroom
"Yeah, me too, want some help?" he suggested, waggling his eyebrows
She blushed and looked at him and back at the bathroom, "well…"
"Oh come on, if memory serves, the shower is one of the ways you may have gotten into this" he pointed out with a mischievous look on his face
"Yeah, well I was a lot smaller then" she shot back
"Well, we'll make room" he said with a smile, his hand in the small of her back guided her to the bathroom and shut the door.
End chapter 5