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Summary: Ron becomes deaf as a result of the war, Snape is sent in to help him, will friendship blossom or maybe stronger feelings can grow in the shadows of hate?

Pairings: SS/RW BW/NL more to come

Warnings: SLASH, future MPREG, really bad language and slight self harm.

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Angel With The Scabbed Wings, Jaded

Chapter V: Leave It Behind

Ron didn't know why but he was extremely nervous. After packing and eating breakfast he couldn't take the looks his family was throwing him so he ran, and now sat hiding just outside his room waiting for the time to speed up or stop, he didn't really care just didn't want to be where he was at the moment. Ron wanted too get out of there before he got more odd looks from Bill, tearful glances from his mum or the hollow searching looks from Percy.

He was startled when he felt a small hand on his knee. Looking up into two pairs of water blue eyes he couldn't help but smile. Before him stood the mini-twins Miriam and Veronica looking at him with big curious expressions.

Miriam and Veronica always sneaked up too his room when they where at the burrow, they had helped him learn some BSL, not much but some so they could talk the words they didn't know how to spell or weren't able to draw in form of pictures. The three of them shared a secret language.

All the rest of the Weasley-family had forbid them to visit Ron as they thought he might hurt the girls in one of his tantrums, so they met in secret and Ron loved it when the two came up for a visit. The rest of the family had backed of when he started to scream and rant, giving him his space they said. They didn't know he didn't want space, he wanted the support of his family and friends. He wanted them to help him when he felt down and his mum to lecture him when he behaved like a selfish git.

The only one besides the twins that tried was Bill but recently he was busy moving in with Neville, they had been together for a year and was thinking about starting a family soon, which led to Ron being even more alone.

Harry came over sometimes but he too was busy with his new job as a mother too his and Blaise's miracle baby girl. Hermione was busy arguing whether to have children or not with her own husband Draco, she wanted a job he wanted a child or maybe it was twelve, Ron wasn't really sure.

Luna came by once a week but didn't say much, she wasn't the same girl he went too Hogwarts with, she had hurt her back in the war which made her paralysed from the chest down, when hearing this her boyfriend at the time, Terry Boot left her and married Lavender Brown instead.

She didn't speak much at all anymore. Being in a wheelchair left her unable to live a normal life, nowadays her assistant Emma Dobbs, was always nearby in case Luna would need anything. Ron knew Luna hated it, not being able to even get out of bed alone.

Seamus came by once in a while but usually never too see Ron, he often talked with Fred and George though, about what Ron didn't even want to know but he was a little hurt that his friend didn't even come up to say hi.

Dean kept in touch through letters, kept telling him Ron that he should get over his stupid pride and learn BSL instead of moping around doing nothing. Dean lived in France after moving in with his wife Gabrielle Delacour and her parents in their manor.

Parvati and Padma Patil struggled with their own life, he only knew Padma had been a prisoner in a Death Eater's Manor for more than six months, everyone knew she had been sexually abused and had become pregnant because of it, but it wasn't something anyone talked about. Parvati struggled to help her sister and her nephew, last he heard she had gotten Padma too hold the baby boy in her arms for a moment.

Miriam and Veronica always found some way to sneak up too him when Stan and Charlie were at the Burrow or when Ginny babysat, too tell him all about what the grown-ups said, that's how he knew so much about what happened outside the burrow.

"Nunnu, why you crying?" Veronica asked in their special language.

"Are you scared Nunnu?" Miriam asked sitting down in front of him. They had called him Nunnu since they where able to talk and he never objected. The adults always thought it was some kind of imaginary friend or that they had somehow befriended the ghoul in the attic.

"I'm scared of leaving." He said wiping away his tears. He wasn't scared of leaving the Burrow or all the people not caring enough to speak with him, he was scared to leave Miriam and Veronica, to go too Snape Manor and live with the git, he was scared because the only one believing in him was a man that hated his guts and two three year old girls, he didn't know what to make of it.

"Wait here!" Veronica said and ran down the stairs while Miriam placed herself in her Nunnu's lap. Miriam sat tracing their "I love you" sign on his arm over and over again making Ron calm down a little.

Their language had no rules, it consisted in written words, spoken words, signs, looks, making faces, touching, drawings and gestures, and as long as they all understood the meaning of it there was no need for rules.

Words like crying was stroking your index finger from under your eye too you jaw line. The word why was a shrugging of your shoulders but the same gesture could also mean that you didn't know something, like what time it was or when dinner was served. New words was almost always written or drawn before they got there own gesture.

Ron felt Miriam move in his lap and looked towards the stairs to see Charlie and Neville come up the stairs with Veronica in the lead. He looked at Veronica with shock, the mini-twins weren't allowed to be with him so he was surprised and a little scared to see their father, his brother and his healer coming up the stairs, they both looked as shocked as he felt.

"Veronica, why did you bring them?" He asked her looking at the young girl with big eyes.

"I wanted daddy too promise that we can visit you when you leave and he started said that the ghoul wouldn't leave 'cause it had been here forever so I bring him here so he could se that you not a ghoul, uncle Nev came because he wanted to see the ghoul!" She said very fast with a triumphant smile on her face after proving too her father that Nunnu wasn't the ghoul in the attic.

Ron smiled uncertainty speaking again holding his hands low so Miriam sitting in his lap could se too. "And what if they forbid you to come here ever again?" Miriam looked up with big teary eyes then looked at her father and Neville that both stood watching with big eyes.

She stood up and stomped over too Charlie all the while shouting something Ron whished he could have heard. Charlie didn't have time to defend himself before Bill and Stand came running up the stairs probably thinking Ron was trying to kill the girls.

Then Veronica stared crying and ran over too Ron throwing herself at him and hiding in his shirt, she was soon followed by her crying sister. The four adults standing by the stairs where obviously trying to coax them away from him afraid he would harm them, but the girls kept shaking their heads.

Ron raised his hand to Veronica's back lightly tracing the sign that meant; calm down, it's going to be alright. Over and over again and doing the same on Miriam's back, both stopped crying and looked up at him with big eyes. Miriam raised her fist and tapped him three times on his arm wondering if he was sure he smiled at them and nodded before turning back too the gaping adults by the stairs.

He frowned when he saw their expressions. Bill collecting himself first conjured a notepad and pen writing with shaking hand.

"You talk with them?" The paper said and Ron nodded.

"Miriam could you tell them what I say?" He asked her seeing as Veronica was hiccupping against his chest. He didn't feel weird speaking their secret language in front of others, he didn't want to talk orally since that felt awfully wrong somehow.

She nodded and turned towards the now whispering adults and said something, probably that he had asked her to translate. The four, especially Neville looked at them with awe nodding.

"I'm not going to harm them, they are new my best friends now. We created this way to talk over the year." He had to breath before saying "Please don't forbid them too come and visit me!" He was on the verge of tears, Miriam looked sad when she told the others what he said.

Surprisingly enough it was Stan that smiled at Ron while saying something.

"Dad said we can visit all we like as long as Snape doesn't explode." She told him grinning.

He laughed in relief before smiling at Stan with gratefulness. "And he says we will be here every weekend and see you then too!" Her eyes were shining with happiness.

"Thank you so much" He said smiling at them all and holding a whole new sort of respect for Stan. Miriam again told them what he said all the while smiling, Veronica to had stopped crying and now started smiling too.

He saw Neville say something while looking at Ron with an excited grin on his face. Ron looked at Miriam again. "Uncle Nev said we're fascinating and that he wants to learn our language." She said with a frown replacing the smile. "But it's secret so he can't right?"

"I think that the fare thing to do is help them talk like we do because they let you visit me, what do you think?" He asked them, Veronica nodded slowly with her thumb sticking out from her mouth. Miriam looked thoughtful for awhile before nodding.

Ron knew she already planned how to make the others say stupid things to make him laugh and Ron smiled when he thought about it oh the fun that would soon come.

TBC

The lyrics for this chapter:

Leave It Behind

Rage burns can't push it aside now
Can't forgive this grudge is alive now
All the rage eats you up inside
Can you leave it behind
What a surprise --
You're fucked with again yeah
It's a way of life you need to get over
All the rage just eats you alive
Can you leave it behind
I don't know where it'll end
The sun has set
And I can't be friends
I don't know if I can forgive
The day is long
But you were so dead wrong