Disclaimer : I still don't own the characters...sadly enough. But i'm sure most people around here would like to own the characters of sailor moon.

Well it's me again. Well I know i'm updating kind of fast and most of you were right at guessing who this mystery brunette is. As always a big thanks to all those who reviewed me. And here is the chapter you've all waited for, Haruka's appearance! Enjoy!

X-tra note : Only the inner senshi excist in this story, that's why Minako is talking about being the goddess of love, so no outer senshi will appear here.

Look what you've done

chapter four

You're rude

Just like the whole week had gone slow in Michiru's opinion, so were the last two days before her big day and only chance at meeting Haruka again and make up for her mistakes. But much to her own suprise she wasn't that nervous about it anymore, what was bothering her now was what she could say when she would see Haruka again. She could think of a million things to say to Haruka, excuses and apologies, but Michiru knew she wouldn't come far with them. Maybe Haruka wasn't even willing to listen to her. Maybe Haruka didn't even know her anymore but maybe there was a chance that the blonde tomboy had missed Michiru as much as the other had.

''Ready for the big day tomorrow?'' Minako asked as she switched the television off.''By the way have you figured out already what you are going to tell Haruka when you first see her, do you think she'll stick to the promise she made three years ago?''

''I honestly don't know.'' Michiru replied.''I mean she said she'd wait for me even if i'd stop being her friend. Maybe she just meant...well, I hurt her Minako. She could've changed a lot in three years, maybe she isn't even the Haruka I knew anymore.''

''Now that's the spirit, you always look at things from the bright side.'' The blonde said with a sarcastic tone in her voice.

''Ha-ha, very funny Minako but admit it. Sakura isn't exactly the same from who she was when I met her, even you and I, we changed a lot during these past years.'' Michiru replied while giving her friend a serious look.

Minako nodded at that.''But you know what never changed Michi, the fact you care about Haruka and if that counts for you then i'm sure that'll count for her too. In the end Haruka is only human too. She'll forgive you. I'm sure of it.''

''You just want to cheer me up.''

''Nah-ah-ah.'' Minako stated.''I'm the goddess of love, i'm never wrong when it comes to these things.'' The blonde said happily, until she realised what she had just said.

Michiru looked up at her blonde and now blushing friend with a questioning look on her face.''Goddess of love?'' She repeated.

''Ah forget I said that okay?'' Minako pleaded. All Michiru did was nod.

''I need your advice Minako.'' The tone in the aqua haired girl's voice sounded serious causing Minako to nod and gesturing Michiru to go on.''You see...'' Michiru added.''I've been having these flashbacks about my good times but also bad with Haruka. Why is that happening now, could it be that it's just my mind playing tricks on me or could it be caused by the break up with Sakura, maybe because we broke up I want to go back to the times in which life was..better?''

The blonde shook her head, ignoring her friend's question.''I'm sorry Michiru but i'm not going to answer that. We both know why you are having these flashbacks, we both know why you aren't sad about losing Sakura but most of all we both know why you've changed so much these past few days.''

''I haven't changed at all!'' Michiru defended herself.''And I don't know those answers, but if you know, please enlighten me!'' Michiru yelled back. She didn't know why but all of a sudden she felt like yelling, crying but most of all she felt annoyed with her blonde friend.

''Please don't act so dumb..'' The blonde said with an irritated tone in her voice but when she looked up again she could see that Michiru really had no idea what she was talking about. Was Michiru really too blind to see that the reason for her emotions, her change in her attitude were all caused by...love?

''You really don't know, do you?'' She asked again just to be sure.

''Ofcourse, now tell me, why am I feeling like this?''

''How are you feeling?''

''Minako stop playing games!''

''Answer the question Michi...''

The smaller girl took a deep breath.''Fine, I feel lost, sad, angry, mad, like crying but most of all I feel scared. I don't know why everything is happening to me. Those memories, the break up, Sakura cheating...all these emotions, they're...they're just...too..much.'' Finally Michiru broke down into tears. It was the first time after the night she left Sakura she had cried. Minako shook her head, she felt sorry for her confused but sad friend so instead of going on with her little speech and pop quiz she walked over to the crying girl and hugged her tight.

''Shh, it's okay, just let your tears fall, let it all out.'' The blonde said while stroking the other's back softly.

''I don't understand!'' Michiru cried. She was finally letting her anger and confusion flow.''I don't understand, why did Sakura do that to me? Wasn't I enough? Why did she cheat on me Minako ? Was this girl better than me, why did she do it?'' Michiru was now crying so loud it was almost impossible to hear what she was saying.It seemed like Michiru was having a hard time crying, breathing and talking at the same time.

''Shh Michi, she was just foolish, she didn't know what she was doing. Now she lost you she knows what a fool she has been. Please don't cry over her, weren't you the one who said she wasn't worth the tears after all the betraying she has done?'' Minako asked as Michiru pulled back.

''That's what's bothering me.'' The aqua haired girl replied with a sob.''I'm not crying over her...it's Haruka...I..she...we...'' But before she could continue she fell down on the couch, burying her face in the soft pillows.''I hate her!'' Was all Minako could understand out of all the words Michiru was saying.

''Who, Haruka or Sakura?''

''I don't know!'' Cried the smaller girl feeling completely depressed and confused about her own feelings. She really hoped that her meeting with Haruka tomorrow would fix her confusion.

After a few more minutes of conforting Michiru, the smaller girl had calmed down and was able to talk again.''You never answered my question.'' Michiru whispered causing Minako to give her another questioning look.''Why do you think i'm feeling like this?''

''What do you think yourself?''

Michiru strugged.''I don't know, maybe because I miss her or...''

''Or...?'' Minako knew she was pushing her friend but she needed for Michiru to figure this thing out by herself.

''Or maybe...I don't know! Maybe you were right, maybe I love her!''

''Maybe?'' Minako asked.

''Yes...no...gods Minako, you want me to say it, here i'll say it.'' The aqua haired girl yelled.'' I love Haruka Tenoh, I'm in love with her and I regret pushing her away! I LOVE her! And I want her back so badly...'' Again a tear fell down the smaller girl's face but this time she didn't break down like before.

''Now that's honest Michi, please don't hesitate to tell her what you just told me...'' Minako said with a bright and honest smile on her face.''Now go to bed Michi, it's late. You don't want to look bad in front of Haruka Tenoh tomorrow now do you?'' She added smirking. Michiru just rolled her eyes. It was only 6pm in the afternoon, it was obvious Minako wanted her gone for some reason.

''Is that raven haired girl coming over again?''

''Her name is Rei, any why are you asking?''

Michiru lifted an eyebrow.'' Don't act so innocent, you wanted to send me to bed and it's only 6pm.'' Minako blushed at that. It was obvious she was having a hard time thinking of a way to talk herself out of this one.

''Ah...It's just.'' The blonde started but Michiru just shook her head, the expression on her face was telling Minako she didn't have to tell if she wanted to. The blonde, ofcourse was very greatful for this. She didn't know how she would explain to Michiru that she actually was a heroine of justice, Sailor Venus.

The next morning, Michiru was already up early. She hadn't been able to sleep the pervious night. Flashbacks kept haunting her as well as the words she wanted to say to Haruka. But even though she had spend over one whole week trying to figure out what she could say to Haruka, she still hadn't come up with the right ones. It didn't really matter though, she knew that the moment she would see the blonde tomboy again she wouldn't be able to say anything.

Much to Michiru's suprise, Minako was still asleep. Last night she went to bed early just to do Minako a favor and after a few more minutes she had heard the door bell ring and heard voices come from downstairs. Familiar voices, but she couldn't quite place them. Ofcourse when she realised she was practically eastdropping on Minako she had stopped listening to the sounds that came from downstairs and concentrated on the wind outside, the wind that reminded her of Haruka so much.

The smaller girl shook her head while walking to the kitchen to fix herself some breakfast. It was now that she finally noticed the note attached to the fridge. Curious about what was on the little note she quickened her pace until she was standing in front of the fridge and started to read what was on the note out loud.

Hi Michi,

I'm sorry to say this but i'm afraid I won't be able to go with you to that Race thing to meet your beloved Haruka. I know you might be mad or upset with this but I had some really important stuff to do, please go to her and make up for what's been in the past between the two of you.

-xx- Minako

ps. No I am NOT with Rei at the moment and don't forget my signature!

Michiru rolled her eyes. Somehow she had already realised that Minako wouldn't go with her. But still she didn't believe what was on that note. She was sure Minako was at Rei's place at the moment. It would make sense, after all it was obvious that Minako was deeply in love with the raven haired girl who worked in the Hikawa shrine. When the aqua haired girl stopped to look at the clock she noticed it was already getting late. Haruka's race had started three hours ago, Michiru wanted to be there when she would have time to talk to the blonde so she had decided not to watch the race and just wait for Haruka in the locker rooms.

While taking another deep breath, Michiru walked over to the hall to put on her coat and shoes. And all of a sudden it came back to her. That nervous feeling, the fear of rejection. The flashbacks. Michiru didn't know what came over her but at this point she just froze, unable to do anything. Who was she fooling? Haruka wouldn't want tot alk to her, Haruka probably didn't even know who she was anymore.

For a moment Michiru actually started to get afraid. She didn't even want to go anymore. It seemed reality was finally kicking in but then she remembered Minako's words. She had promised to make up with Haruka and if not, she would just do it in order to get that damn signature from Minako. With that she bend down to pcik up her coat which she had just dropped and put it on.'Come on Michi, this isn't like you...gather all your strenght. It's Haruka we're talking about. She's the nicest person I have ever known in my whole life...'

(The race track)

The race had just ended a few minutes ago and already Haruka was dressed into her normal clothing again. She had managed to escape from all the fans who were able to do almost everything to get her signature. Next to her stood a couple of the other racers, they were talking about the race while others were scolding their cars for being too slow. Haruka laughed at those guys. In the end it wasn't the fault of their cars they lost, but it seemed everyone was always trying to blame someone else for their mistakes and loss.

(flashback)

''Haruka I don't get you sometimes. Why would you want to become a racer when you know you're putting your life at risk? I mean it's a dangerous sport!'' Michiru, who held the blonde's arm, said. She sounded worried.

''Ah come on Michi, you're overreacting, I mean it isn't that dangerous besides we both know i'm too good to crash, lose or anything like that.'' The tomboy replied while putting her hands in her pocket.

''I've heard that one before.'' The smaller girl replied.''A lot of people claim that but how many of them eventually crashed anyway?''

''Oh give me a break, I'm not 'a lot of people' I am the great Haruka Tenoh, nothing will get me down!''

Michiru rolled her eyes while smacking her friend playfully.''I know someone who could get you down easily.''

''And who's that?'' The blonde asked.

''Well it's not one person, actually a lot of people could get you down. All I need is a couple of men who are willing to kiss you and you'll be unconscious for the next couple of years.''

''Nah...iewl, okay maybe there is something that can get the great Haruka Tenoh down but atleast it's not racing which would...'' Haruak was cut off by Michiru who placed her fingers on the lips of her friend.

''Don't even bother Ruka, we both know that you know i'm right and you're wrong when it comes to racing being dangerous. Now I have to go home before my mom starts to worry about where I am. Don't forget to pick me up tonight ah? We're going to the movies and after that i'll convince you that racing isn't the carrier you want to...''

This time it was Haruka cutting of her aqua haired friend.''Now it's your turn not to bother Michi, i'll pick you up at seven, be ready by then.'' She said while adding a wink to that before Michiru finally released her arm, muttering something about stubborn blondes before running off, screaming her goodbye's in the maintime.

Haruka had asked Michiru out to the movies the previous day, she knew Sakura and Michiru were having a fight at the moment, for the blonde this felt like the best time to tell Michiru about how she felt for her. She just hoped the smaller girl wouldn't take it the wrong way.

(End flashback)

Haruka smiled in amusement. She didn't know where that came from all of a sudden. It was the first time in a long while she had thought of the aqua haired girl again. Why now? Ofcourse the fact she had tried to forget about Michiru didn't mean she had actually succeeded but it had been quite a long long time since she had remembered the event of that night, the last time she had ever heard of the smaller girl she had loved so much.

''Haruka...?'' Suddenly an unknown but familiar voice said.

When Haruka turned around to see who just called her name she went wide eyed. 'So that's why I remembered her all of a sudden.' For a few more minutes she just stood there looking at the girl in front of her before finally being able to say something.

''Michiru...''

To be continued..

And that was chapter four, I hope you liked it. I promise i'll update soon, until then..let me know what you think of it so far!