Wensday Night Clinic Chapter 2

--Lu takes Dana back to her apartment & got some much needed sleep. Later that night Lu wakes up from a nightmare & writes a couple pages in journal.--

(Lu's Journal)

4/1/05

Tonight was a tough night for me at the clinic. Dana came in beaten up.

I did a rape exam on her and I'm waiting for the results. From the evidence

I would say she was raped. Maybe I should get some hot tea or something.

I had another nightmare about that night. Kilner was just so strong and he

wouldn't stop. When I was doing Dana's exam I started remembering how

I feel that night. My body was remembering I had to get to the bathroom

before we left Rittenhouse. I had started my period three weeks early.

Possibly the stress from helping Dana threw me into it somehow.

I need to stop at the grocery store tomorrow to pick up some more

maxi pads for me and get Dana a few packages. Tomorrow I hope

I don't have anymore sexual assault exams to do. Come on Lu

get it together. I'm feeling like I did that night. I need to go see

Mariska soon.

--Lu checks on Dana to find her awake so they talk to a while.--

Dana: "Lu do you have some 7 Up?"

Lu: "I'll get you some Dana. Is that STD medicine still making you feel sick?"

Dana: "Yes, Lu I'll be back I need to go to the bathroom."

Lu: "I put the pads out on the sink for you."

Dana: "Thanks."

--A few minutes later--

Lu: "It's probably a good idea for you to get ya a journal."

Dana: "What from the drug store or somewhere?"

Lu: "Sure, even one from barnes and noble."

Dana: "Lu you look tired go get some sleep don't stay up on account of me I'll be fine."

Lu: "If you need me wake me up alright."

Dana: "Night."

Lu: "Night."

(Lu's Journal)

4/2/05

Corina wrote me a letter a couple days ago I need to call her. I can't sleep tonight.

I guess the whole thing w/ Dana is getting to me for than I thought it would. When

she came in tonight I had flash backs of when I went to the clinic. I'm always afraid

to go to my car wondering if it will start or not. Lana suggested that maybe I move,

that's not really an option for me right now. The nightmare was of that night. I watched

from across the room as the horrible hurt me with his penis. The woman lying on the

couch being raped, violated was me. I had done everything I could to stop him, he

wouldn't. I just watched & waited for him to stop. I just wanted it to be over. I was

so afraid Marc would come home in the middle of him raping me. That would have

killed Marc. During the exam I didn't feel like being messed with. I gave Dana a

hard time. I was real angry at the horrible for what he did. No matter what I did he

wouldn't listen.

--Early the next morning--

(Lu slips out to go to the clinic to cover her patients & Dana's.)

Lana: "Lu it's pretty slow in here today, just do the rounds and go take care of Dana I'll call you if we need you."

Lu: "Thanks."

--Lu stops to pick up a journal for Dana & goes home to shower.--

Lu: "How did you sleep?"

Dana: "Not bad after I finally went to sleep."

Lu: "Here I got you this today to start out & I picked us both up a copy of Healing Trauma by Peter A. Levine PHD."

Dana: "Palm trees nice thank you Lu."

Lu: "Don't mention it I told you that I'm here for you."

Dana: "I think I heard Marc leave for school."

Lu: "Yeah he won't be home until about three 'oclock."

Dana: "Do you think I could try to eat some pasta?"

Lu: "You can try it I'll go fix us some."

(Dana's Journal)

4/2/05

Last night I had Lu do a rape exam on me. I didn't remember anything. I had a nightmare about it.

Lu told me that she found signs of sexual assault on me. I don't even know the horrible who raped me.

In the nightmare it felt so real, when I woke up I thought it was reoccurring. I kept thinking about when

I did Lu's rape exam a few months ago. She didn't even give me the opportunity she told the SANE

nurse to bring me scrubs. Lu & I are a lot a like I guess. I feel like it was my fault, what happened.

I need to try to sleep. I am so mad that this happened to me. I don't even remember talking to the

detective. All I remember is telling Lu that I was raped.