Hey guys bad news. I had/am having an anxiety attack.
For about the last two months, I had been worrying obsessively about my health, visiting doctors to try and figure out what was wrong with me, all the while my health seemed to get worse and worse.
Until eventually, I collapsed and had the worst experience of my life. But, on the bright sidee, I know now what it feels like to have your entire body shut down while your heart explodes.
After that, I was committed to a Psych Ward for a couple of days, to help me cope with the fact that I got so stressed by brain convinced my body it was dying. But now I'm out!
I'm still far from well though, right now my body is still trying to convince me that something's wrong, and I have to spend every hour of every day telling myself that I'm not dying, I'm afraid to eat food, sleeping is almost impossible, and I am constantly either extremely uncomftable at best, or flat out in pain at worst.
So yeah, it's rough for me right now. And as you can imagine, this may affect the speed in which chapters come out.
I don't think I'm going to stop working on this fic, because it's not really stressful, and may actually distract me from constant internal panicking.
Although, chapters will definitely come out slower, mainly because my mind is all over the place, it's super hard to concentrate, I have an almost constant headache, and if I don't take a moment to close my eyes and tell myself I'm not going my blind when my eyes hurt, I will actually make myself blind.
I apologize for any possible delays, but please just bear with me, while I try not have another mental breakdown.
I will get rid of this chapter once things improve, and it no longer feels like my body is trying to die.
As always thank you all for reading, and I'll see you when I manage to get the next chapter out.