(Lu is extremely upset about what she had to go through in court.
She continues to keep working at the clinic while spending a lot of alone
time with Marc and talk with Lana and Mariska (her counselor). In the
midst of all this Lu calls one of her old friends Ruth to come up and stay
with her and Marc for a while. Lu does not want to be alone right now with
no one else at her appartment besides Marc. When Lu reads over her own
rape kit report (by accident) how will she feel about it? After Dana discovers
this how responsible will Dana feel about it?) Lu has goes to see Bill and
she surprises herself as well as Mariska and Corina by confronting him
about sexually assaulting her when they were kids.
--Mariska's office--
"I saw him over the weekend and I was alone with him."
"Rand Kilner?"
"No Bill Marc's father."
"Did you two part on bad terms?"
"You could say that, when we were kids and we were dating he raped me."
"Marc's father raped you Lu?"
"Yeah he raped me and a few months later I found out I was pregnant with Marc."
"That must have been difficult for you to decide whether to keep Marc or not."
"Oh, there was no decision I wasn't giving my baby up."
"What else has been going on since the last time we talked?"
(Lu hands Mariska her journal)
5-18-05
I saw Bill today and I had to be alone with him. I'm sure that he
arranged that on purpose to f with my mind. He even was all
touching me and he had the nerve to try to kiss me. I told him
no and to get out of my face. This caused me to start having
flash backs of a night thirteen years ago, the night he raped me.
I felt like I was sufficating, I told Bill to back up off me. He goes
"I just want to talk, can we have dinner Lu?" so I said "Let's be
honest I'm not the type of chick you can use. I don't know
what you been thinkin bout me. Did you think this was
gone be this easy? Hell no. You must be going crazy. Why
don't you get out of my life, get outta my sight, get off of my
back; I know what is going on, you need to get out of my
face. I been through this I been raped I know how it feels.
Did you think this was gone be this easy? Hell no. You must
be gone crazy. Why don't you get outa my face. " Just like he
thought he could pull something on me again. I thought he might
so I left after I said what I just wrote.
I couldn't sleep this evening, I always take a nap around this time.
I kept having that dream again of that night. I saw the damn pink
umbrella so I knew that it was just a nightmare again, he wasn't
with me hurting me again. Marc is with him right now, oh how
I wish he was home with me tonight so I didn't have to be alone.
Bill should be in jail, but since I never told anyone he isn't. Now
I can't tell, that would kill Marc. I can't do that to my baby boy.
Marc is my strength, he gave me the courage and the strength
to make it through medical school. I hate letting Bill take Marc
on the weekends. I am always afraid that Bill may try to hurt
Marc.
5-19-05
When the phone rang I thought my lungs were gonna jump
out of my chest. I was starting to have that dream again,
the one of that night. Seeing the horrible must have triggered
something for me. I am so tired I just wish that I could sleep.
Thank God Marc comes home tomorrow night. I hate being
alone at night. It kills me sending Marc over there. If I ever
find out that Bill is doing something to Marc I will kill him.
That is my little boy and no one messes with me or my
Marc. Plus to top it off it was a guy on the phone, wrong
number. I was super ticked, I mean wrong number at two
in the damn morning? Whatever.
"I'm glad that you got away from him Lu."
"When he touched me I went back to that night."
"Where you able to tell yourself that it wasn't that night?"
"Yeah."
"How did you get through that night and saturday?"
"I just stayed low, I met Corina for coffee at starbucks and waited for sunday so Marc would be home."
"Marc has no idea about his father?"
"No."
"Yeah I would be upset about a wrong number at two AM also."
"I didn't know what to think when the phone rang."
"No one would, something could be wrong at work, with Marc..."
"Exactly."
"Did you go back to sleep?"
"No, I took a bubble bath and read some of my Nickolas Sparks book."
"So... I'll see you next week then?"
"Yeah."