Chapter 19: The Worst Experience Someone Could Feel
"Please don't do anything to me!"
"Shut up!"
"Abby! Calm down!"
"John! I told you to run away!"
"I can't leave you here!"
"And I don't want them to kill you"
"I won't forgive myself if they do the same to you" – He fell to his knees, with his hands on the door and crying.
"John!"
She bent over, bit the guy's hand and ran towards the door. She kneeled down and cried.
"You know I love you. I love you more than anything. Tell the girls I love them"
"Abby… please don't leave me! I won't stand living without you! You mean the world to me. Don't go!"
"I remember… the day when we first met. The day when we first kissed. As if it were yesterday" – She kept crying.
"12 months, you know… We're together for a year. We still have a entire life waiting for us and I won't just give it up"
"I need to go. I love you. And always will. Goodbye"
"Abby! No! Don't leave me!"
"Go ahead, kill me. But don't do anything with him, please"
John heard the noise of a gun being shot and cried for his death wife. 10 minutes later, the men walked out of the room. He came in running and saw her lying on the floor.
"Abby! Abby! I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have left you alone. Are you ok?" – He placed his head on her body.
"Yes, I'm fine. You don't need to worry. They didn't shoot me. Look"
She pointed to the ceiling and he looked and sighed.
"I'm so relieved! I thought I was gonna lose you"
"Me too. But here I am"
"Don't worry. I won't abandon you again"
"John…" – She sat.
"I don't wanna feel that again"
She hugged him and cried.
"It's ok"
"No, it's not. I saw my entire life passing by me"
"You're shacking" – He hugged her tighter – "You're just scared. It's ok. I'm here. Nothing's gonna happen"
"You promise?"
"Yes"
She started to feel dizzy and falls down on the floor again.
"Abby! Answer me! Abby! Please!"
She doesn't answer.
She's still shocked. I shouldn't have left her alone.
He took her to bed and put her there. He kept watching her all the time, expecting for her to get better soon.
Abby, please, don't leave me. Don't leave me
Tears fell from his eyes.
"Abby… I love you. I need you here with me"
She slowly opened her eyes and took his hand, which was placed on the bed.
"I love you. More than my own life. More than I'll ever know. I need you"
"Abby… I am so sorry. Really. I'll never leave you alone"
She sat and wiped away the tears that fell from his eyes. He closed his eyes feeling the touch of her hand.
"Shhh, it's ok. I'm here. I'm here. Everything is gonna be ok"
He touched her hand, which was placed on his face. She felt a cold rush running through her body.
"I was afraid… that you… had gone and left me"
"I know. I was afraid too. But nothing happened"
He hugged her tightly. She caressed his hair with one hand and rubbed his back with the other one.
"You scared me, you know?"
"I know. I know. But let's not talk about it, right? I don't wanna remember"
"Ok, sorry. It's just…"
She stared at him, with her hands on his face.
"What?"
"I love you so much. You're my life"
She smiled.
"Oh John. I love you too. I did, I do and always will" – She lied on the bed – "C'mon. I wanna be with you. Just with you"
He lied next to her and stared at her.
"What?" – She smiled, not stopping looking at him.
"You look so beautiful when you smile"
He moved closer to her and kissed her reluctantly. They pull back and she stared at him, serious.
"John, what's going on?"
He didn't even need to answer. He knew that she knew exactly what he was thinking.
"It's ok"
"…"
"John, look at me. Talk to me. I told you it's ok" – She continued staring at him – "You know what? You gotta grow up"
She turned her back to him, who sighed out loud. He faced her back and looked at the ceiling. Then he looked at her again and wrapped his arms around her.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you"
And he kissed her in the head. She closed her eyes. He went down and kissed her cheek. He looked at her face and took a deep breath before continuing. She kept her eyes closed and he slowly was getting his face closer to hers until he kissed her. She hesitated in the beginning, but after she let go of his passionate kisses. They continued kissing and when he was over her and things started to get a little hotter, she pushed him away.
"I'm sorry. I can't"
"What? Why?"
"..."
"Oh... ok" – He got out of her.
"You know, it's always like this. We fight and then you come and kiss me"
"What's wrong with that?"
He looked at her, who was staring at the ceiling.
Tell me. I want you to talk to me.
"You know, that's my way of doing it" – He took her hands – "It would have been easier if you didn't play the hard to get"
"So, now this is my fault?"
"It's not mine"
"Great!" – She got up and changed – "I'm gonna take a walk.
She walked to the door, but he was faster and stopped her.
"Could you get off my way?"
"Where you think you're going?"
"Get out my way!"
"You're not going anywhere!" – He screamed.
"Oh yeah? And how's gonna stop me?"
"I told you that you won't go!"
He grabbed her shoulders with all his strength, shook her and then let her go, making her fall in the bed.
"Ouch! That hurts!"
"Great! Now you know who's the boss here"
"What?"
Tears formed in her eyes. He hated when this happened. He hated when they fought. He hated to see her so hurt. He hated when she cried. He wanted to comfort her, but his anger was bigger. She kept crying and his anger was slowing down, watching her. He didn't mean to say all those horrible things to her. But now it was too late. He sat on the bed and stared at her.
"Abby..." – He gently held her hand – "I care about you so much to let you be hurt like this"
She put her other hand over his and sighed. He regretted even more about what he just did.
"You know, I chose you. Because I wanted to make you a mother. Because I wanted to start a family with you. Because I'm drawn to you. Because" – He took a deep breath – "...I love you"
She smiled, but he couldn't see because her hair was covering her face. He slowly took her hair away from her face, lifted it and turned it so she could look at him. Now seemed easier to say all he wanted to.
"I love you. I hate fighting. Seems like that's all we do. Seems like we can't get along with each other anymore"
She gently put her hand on his cheek, making him close his eyes.
"I'm sorry. I'll try to be more understanding. I promise"
He smiled and they hugged. They face each other, each one waiting for the other to get closer to the mouth. They got married, they have two daughters. Things couldn't be better for him: wife, kids, work, a decent house to raise the girls. The only thing that he should work out is the conversation with Abby. He was willing to live the perfect life he lived when he found out about the pregnancy of the woman of his life. Noticing that she didn't get any closer, he decided to get closer to her. He calmly pressed his lips against hers and, in the other minute, they were kissing each other passionately, although he was going a little fast. She tried to slow him down, but it didn't work. He gently lies her down in bed and puts his hand on her belly, under the t-shirt. She lets him touch her more deeply, allowing him to lift her t-shirt and take it off, revealing her sexy and red bra. She let out a sigh when she felt his fingertips contouring her breasts. They pull apart to breathe and to him take his pants off. He leaned over her again but she put her hands on his chest, stopping him.
"We forgot the condoms"
She tried to reach them, but he grabbed her arm.
"No. Don't ruin"
"But John... you can..."
"Get you pregnant?" – He looked at her, still on her – "You know I want to"
Before she could answer, he was already kissing her again. She was leaned on her elbows and he gently laid her down on the bed and she rested her arms around his neck. And they continued kissing some more. He looked at her and kissed her intensely again. And again. Then he hesitantly pulled away from him and looked her up and down. He was amazed. From that moment he realized that, no matter how, she got him. He couldn't stay away from her. He loved her with all his strength. She had let herself become part of his life. She had let herself become part of his dream. She had let herself become the mother of his children. She had let herself be loved from him. She had let herself be his wife. He loved her even more for that. They discovered the loved that they felt for each other, that made them be together. And he wasn't determined to lose it.
"I... I'm not sure" – She said.
But he saw that her eyes said she wanted to become a mother again. She wanted to carry more kids. She wanted to be with him.
"I love you"
"I love you too. I wouldn't let this happen if I didn't really wanted"
"I know. And I promise I'll help you. I promise to not take so many shifts and spend more time with you. I wanna help to raise my kids"
"I know. And I want to be a mother again soon"
"You're the best. Aren't you scared on passing on the disease anymore?"
Her face went white. She hasn't thought about it.
"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that"
"I'm not. Because I'll love them in the same way"
He was relieved to hear that. Glad, actually. Glad to know that she had overcame the fear on passing on the disease.
"I'm not afraid because... because they're my children. And a disease won't change that"
He looked at her. Even she tried to hide, he knew she was still afraid.
"You're still scared"
"No, I'm not. I mean, I'm the only one normal in my family" – She looked at him – "Me, my mother and Eric, of course"
She smiled but he remained serious. Her smile faded away a little. She looked away.
"I'm sorry. I blew it again"
She tried to get rid of him but his arms were around her.
"What are you doing? We'll go to the end this time"
"But... you're pissed at me"
"I'm not"
He let his mouth touch hers. He wanted to let her know that he wasn't mad at her. He was crazy for her. Since they first met. She helped him so many times. And now that he had her, he wouldn't let her go this easily. He wouldn't pull her away from him. And they sleep, his arms wrapped around her. 6 days later, they travel to Hawaii.
"I love hot weather" – She smiled.
"We can go to the beach"
"Oh... I liked that"
He laughed.
"Then we can have a romantic dinner and take a walk on the beach, under the moon light"
"You're really romantic. I love you"
And they kiss. He picks her up, takes her to bed and lies her down. He lies by her side.
"John..." – She got up – "Not now. Later"
"C'mon"
They had a romantic dinner and then they walked on the beach, where they kissed some more. Later, in the hotel...
"Any chance?"
"Of what?"
"Of being pregnant?"
"I don't know. Maybe. I haven't felt nauseous yet. I'm still in doubts. I'll do a test later"
Meanwhile, in Chicago, Susan was going to take a look on Abby and John's twin girls when she sees they're gone.
Oh my God! The babies are gone!
"Gallant, have you seen Abby's babies?"
At the same time, Abby felt a pain in her heart and woke up, scared.
"Yes, her mother came and took them"
"What?"