Warnings and Disclaimer: okay it still remains the same go check the epilogue for that. But anyway I'm determined to make this an mpreg fic that's the whole reason why I created the epilogue.
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"Go get Hephaistion!" Alexander bark the order to the guard, it was very late and most probably Hephaistion is asleep and resting. But Alexander needed to see his face, needed to touch him, feel him.
Few moments have passed and in came a very tired and disoriented looking Hephaistion, but still there. He knows that whenever he desired, Hephaistion would be there no matter what. But most of the time, especially right now, that is what scares and disturbs him the most.
Looking at the cerulean eyes, he wanted to cry. Hephaistion is the one person that would give him everything and yet in every step he takes, Hephaistion was the one who is hurt the most and most of the time the one left behind. Hephaistion understands, and since he understands, he gives, stands aside and makes dear sacrifices of the heart.
How he wished that his Hephaistion would be selfish even just for once, that he would clung at him, instead of giving him to the world when it tears him apart.
One look at his slightly sober face and still Hephaistion knows that something is wrong. There is some sort of trouble that bothers Alexander. Though tired he walked towards the king and sat beside him, enveloping him in his arms and whispering a quiet Alexander. But at that moment that silent whisper was all that Alexander heard.
Shifting, Alexander moved to kiss him with such passion, as if asking for forgiveness.
"Hephaistion, I need to tell you something." He breathlessly told the other.
"Do tell me then." As usual the cerulean eyes that assured him so.
"I'm going to marry somebody." He said, abruptly than he expected. But at least he told his Hephaistion before any other.
There was brief moment of silence and a dark cloud that Alexander always fails to see whenever he looks at Hephaistion, was quickly covered with a fake reassuring smile given to his king.
"Is that it my king? I wish that the gods may bless you and your wife." Hephaistion said fully trained at this kind of hurt. Voice soft though his heart is breaking.
"You're the first one to know." Alexander said.
"Oh. When will the wedding be? I expect it to be grand! Haven't you told the companions they will be surprised?" Hephaistion babbled, distracting himself of the inevitable pain that he is feeling.
Very much like Hephaistion. He is not even asking why, who or if he even love the person more than he. Alexander sighed and answered.
"Tomorrow I will be there will be a meeting and there I shall tell them. Then the day after it will happen." He said glancing at Hephaistion's eyes yet can't look at it for he is afraid of what he will see.
"Right then, I shouldn't be here right now. Heath to you, my king." He then kissed Alexander at his cheek.
He had known that this day will come. And yet it was still hard to swallow. He knew that one day or another he had to let go. And yet it is still as painful as it is. How many times had he hurt like this, but every time the pain is far worse than the other and a thousand times more arduous to bear than any wound he ever had.
Bowing, Hephaistion then started to take his leave. But Alexander stopped him.
"Stay with me Hephaistion, especially tonight. Stay with me." He said, as he wrapped his strong arms at his firm waist.
"You know I can't Alexander, especially tonight." Hephaistion avoided his eyes, the eyes he badly need to look at.
Alexander then cupped his chin forcing him to look at him. One look and Hephaistion sank to his knees, mentally crying and war waged in his mind. He doesn't know what to do. But before he knew what was happening, Alexander was carrying him to the bed, deciding for him and leaving him not much choice.
When they were both settled in the bed, Alexander wrapped his arms around Hephaistion as he crawled to be on to of him. He then whispered at Hephaistion face.
"If I just can, I will choose you. If I am not king I would trade everything I have without hesitation just to be with you. But…" he started to whisper, hoping to ease the pain that they both feel. But Hephaistion cut him of with a cry.
"Don't! Don't say that. Please anything but that." Hephaistion then felt all the tears that he is saving to cry when he is finally alone spilt. All of it racing to get out, and for that he cried more. "It hurts much more when you say that. Please!"
"Shhh…" Alexander reassured him with the assurance that they both don't feel.
And so he took Hephaistion, with all the passion that he knew, trying to ease the pain they both feel. He did it while tears still spilt from his eyes, yet he did not do it because of the wine that courses his body, but because he needed to. He needed to feel.
And as he slept out of exhaustion and of wine, the bearer of the cerulean eyes that he loves so much cried still as and no sleep claimed him. He then stood putting on his discarded clothes and took a leave, wiping the tears but knowing that it still flows inside him.
Hephaistion Amyntor hated so little but right now he hated himself. For in his eyes he felt like the most selfish person that ever existed.
I know it's slow paced but I will speed it up, I swear! But right now I'm mostly sleepy and I need to go to an internet shop after I wake up just to post this. This is my first ever fic for Alexander, I mean the authors are all intimidating at this category. They are all so good and I don't think that I can be that good. Sorry if the fic is so melancholic that's just the way I write.
Plus I think that Hephaistion more than any other had sacrificed a lot. I mean the position that he's in. He was isolated by the company and by that he was one that never betrayed Alexander. I admire that someone can love like him, Hephaistion is real, we may never really know him, but we know that he loved Alexander dearly. Think about it, he loved so much that he gave him away.
Have you ever loved that way? I once have and boy was it painful. And to tell the truth I still love that person. You know to the point that since you love that person you'll go away just so he can have the best. You'll have to give up your heart so that he'll have what he needs. A rare love that one can stand.
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