Elliot felt a hole, staring at her empty desk. It was just there still empty and still haunting him.

There's three in the Hall from those pictures in the closet
Two in the bedroom from that night I lost it

Cragen wouldn't tell him if she was still working the eco-terrorist case. Oh but he knew. He knew and it hurt that she didn't say goodbye; she had just left. She left him with an empty desk and no explanation.

And one deep inside me determined to stay
They don't get any bigger but they don't go away

It wasn't fair. He had just gotten her back. She had just come back to SVU, and suddenly she had to help the FBI. He wondered how long it would be until she came back this time. Four months, six maybe?

Holes in and around me I keep falling back into
Holes dig in and surround me
God knows what I'm gonna do
To fill in these holes left by you
Left by you

But he knew Olivia wouldn't turn her back on this. She was committed completely to everything she did. She was a strong-willed person and he loved her for it. Oh God, he was in so deep. This was barley scratching the surface.


I pour drink after drink but nothing hit bottom
I've been on my knees admitted my problems
The love that we made still barely an echo
I'll try anything in these vacant hollows

He should be with her; should have her back. He was involved with this case too. He went against his captain's orders to help them. And while he was lying in a hospital bed, she was packing her things and leaving. Stupid rock.


Holes in and around me I keep falling back into
Holes dig in and surround me
God knows what I'm gonna do
To fill in these holes left by you
Left by you

His new partner. He thought. I don't want a new partner, I'm happy with the one I have, thanks Don. Would his new partner a woman? Another rookie like Olivia had been? Or would it be an age old veteran? So many questions, he thought. So little answers.


There's two through my hands and one through my feet
From this cross that I bare to the day that I see
Its guilt and its blame its shame and its love
Seeking the truth I dug them myself

"Come back," he whispered to the empty room.


All these holes dig in and surround me
God knows what I'm gonna' do

He looked up at the ceiling looking to the God he had been taught to always believe in. "Please let her come back to me."

To fill in these holes left by you