Well GUESS WHAT! I decided to be like hell screw sleeping I will write more! I AM ACTUALLY UPDATING A CHAPTER! WHAT IS THIS MADNESS! I DON'T EVEN KNOW! I am rather excited really. I am guaranteeing you this will not be as good as it was before, and I am sorry it has taken me 5 months. My life has gotten like depressing then ultra happy then like BLAH! Then there is homework on top of that, so I think you get it but yayayayyaa more chapterness! REVIEW PLEASE!

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I walked up to the clinic and closed my eyes before I opened the door. But before I opened it I heard "Babe". Maybe I was just dreaming. Then I heard it again "Babe"

I turned around to see Ranger standing on the curb.

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"Babe, you look terrible." In essence he was right I was pale, shaky, and worn out looking. Normally I would have gone psycho on his ass, but I was to tired for that.

"I am pregnant remember?" with that I started crying again. This was all too much for me to handle.

"Babe…please don't cry. I am here for you"

Yea right I thought as he said that. Ranger was never really there. He is always out taking care of business catching guys for Vinnie. He's here one day and in France the next. That was not how I wanted to live.

"Ranger, this is all a mistake, maybe you should go," I said. I didn't really want him to go.

"No" he said flatly.

"Wow the courage it must have taken you to say that must be immense" Does he have nothing else to say on this matter but no?

"Ranger why are you here? It's clear that you don't want me in your life, so why does it matter what I do with mine?"

With that I turned around and walked into the clinic. Knowing that this could be the beginning of the end for me. I walked up to the counter told the nurse my name and she said they would be ready for me in about 15 minutes.

I sat down in the chair with my back to the door. I had no clue if Ranger was still out there or if he just left me, again. So I let my mind wander. I thought about times of the past, all the times I got locked in garbage cans, or blew up cars. Those days are over I told myself.

I let my mind wander to that night on the dance floor, the emotion I felt. How Toni held me and cared for me. He talked to me as a real person, and didn't just look at me like I was dinner. He actually spoke what was on his mind, and listened to what I was saying.

Then I thought of the night with Ranger, how he made me feel like the most beautiful person in the world. How he would come running every time I would call, no matter how late. How he would cook me dinner when I was sick, or come over just because I was alone.

Then to Joe. The good times we had were some of the best times in my life. But I was never enough for him, when I didn't put out, he would find someone else. Although in the long run I think he did care for me. He would always open his house to me when I was in need, always knowing we would get in a fight and I would leave him again. And How was I repaying him? By killing a piece of him. Killing the child Joe had always wanted, was that the right thing to do?

I was so spaced out that I didn't hear the doctor calling my name. When he finally came over and tapped me on the shoulder, I snapped up and followed him back to the room.

I was preparing for a solid white room, empty except for some big scary vacuum looking machine. Instead when I walked in the walls were painted a bright shade of yellow, there were a few pictures hanging crookedly from the wall, and three red chairs filled with three of the hottest men I had ever seen, Ranger, Joe, and Toni.

"What…I….um" I stuttered and that is all I remember for a little while. I guess I fainted. I remember waking up to 4 heads staring down on me.

"Babe?"

"Bella?"

"Cupcake?"

"Ms. Plum?"

I sat straight up wide eyed staring at them all. Why were they all here? Did they want to ruin my life yet again?

"Explain" I said. I learned the art of 1 word sentences from Ranger.

Joe stood up, walked over, and kneeled down next to me.

"Stephanie, Manoso called me and kinda briefed me on this situation. He thought it would be a good idea if I came down hear and talked with you, preferably in a place where you might not kill me."

I shot this look of pure death at Ranger. I know he was trying to help me here, but I was confused the way it was and this wasn't making it any better.

"Joe, please just leave, go wait outside or something." I barked at him. I was still angry with him, blame me? Naturally by this time I was crying yet again. I don't understand how I have this many tears to shed. I swear I drained the Indian Ocean by now.

So Ranger, Toni and I sat in silence. The Doctor was long gone by now. He was probably busy aborting someone else of all their problems. If only it was that easy.

I figured when I woke up this morning by now I would be rid of this attachment to Joe and maybe just maybe Ranger would come running back to me again. No matter if it was a "relationship" or just a friendship. All I ever wanted was to spend my life with him. I knew that the day I walked down the aisle with Joe, but was I smart enough to back out, no. I want that look Ranger gave me every time I walked into the bonds office again. I want that feeling like I had with Toni on the dance floor again, except this time, with the right brother. I didn't plan on having to walk into an Abortion Clinic room looking at the man that started all of these problems. Nor did I think I would have to look into the face of the only man that I have ever loved, who thinks of me as only a sex toy, and not even that anymore.

"I have never thought of you as a sex toy" Ranger said.

I think I have a disease about saying everything that I think out loud, maybe I need a muzzle.

Toni got out of the chair winked at me and went outside to keep Joe company.

"You sure act like it then." I said bluntly.

"I have done quite a few stupid things in my life. Like sending you back to Joe when all I ever wanted was for you to be in my bed every night. I want to wake up with you every morning, to eat breakfast together to talk to you on the phone. To share in those little things, that to normal people mean nothing, but to us it's the world. I want to keep you safe and protect you."

I was crying so hard by now I couldn't even see. But if he cared so much, then why did he freak out when he found out I was pregnant.

"I am sure that you are wondering why I freaked out when you found out I was pregnant." It's the ESP I swear.

"And to answer your question, I don't really know. I guess I just figured that you would yet again run back to Joe now that you had another reason to stay, and I didn't want to get hurt again. That is why I brought him here today. I wanted to see if you would go running back into his arms and back to that burg housewife formula he pushed you into."

"I-I-I never wanted Joe, I wanted…… you." I sobbed violently.

With that Ranger came over to me and wrapped his two big arms around me and pulled me into his chest. His warmth and smell overtook my body; this was all I ever wanted. To be wrapped in his arms, safely. Maybe not in an Abortion Clinic, with Joe's child ever growing inside me, but I will take what I can get.

He held me in his embrace for what seemed like hours, until all the tears I could cry dried up. I looked up into those two chocolate brown eyes, and they seemed a little more watery than normal. Was batman being emotional? He softly kissed my forehead and whispered "I love you…period." In my ear. I started crying again.

"Ranger, what about the baby?"

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OHHHHHHHHHHHHH LOOK CHAPTER DONE! I AM SOOOOOOOO HAPPY! GAHHHHH THAT TOOK ME FREAKING 2 HOURS AND IT STILL SOUNDS HORRIBLE, BUT I DON'T CARE I UPDATED! WOOT WOOT WHAT NOW! YESSSSSSSSS!

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