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Child of Silence
By Angelwings Sorrow
Chapter 17 "Mind Over Matter"
After the Troll encounter Granger had been popping up whenever he was at the Library for inopportune study sessions. Malfoy sometimes popped up to join them as well. When the three top students start studying together people start to notice. The Professors were surprised to see a jump in their grades to where even Snape couldn't dock points for cheating. He didn't want to admit it but he enjoyed the company of equally intelligent individuals. It was a shaky truce between the houses. There also was a certain lion that did not like the little unofficial friend group and had been very vocal about it.
"Oi! Potter!" Harry had been walking back from dinner when he heard his old name called.
"My Name is Lokison, Weasley." Harry tapped out on Friday.
"Your name is Potter everyone knows it, why dishonor your dad by dropping his name?" Ron asked angrily. Nothing had been going right for him since the start of school. He was tasked with bring the boy-who-lived to the side of the light. Potter was suppose be lost on the train platform where he would bump into him and show him the ways of the wizarding world. It should have been easy but Harry Potter was not following the script. Potter wasn't going by the name Potter and he was way smarter than Ron was lead to believe. Now not only was Potter in Ravenclaw he was friends with Malfoy and the Know-it-all from his house. The fact that the buck tooth brain made friends with the boy-who-lived and he didn't pissed him off evenmore.
"I don't dishonor my dad I lay him to rest and I honor my other parent."
"Your mom was killed the night your dad was, whoever told you that they were your parent is lying to you." Ron snapped. Dumbledore told him that Harry was confused and lied to about his true parents.
"Weasley, you don't know what you are talking about. Lily was my Step-mother; my dad never hid that fact from me. My Blood line has been verified by the Goblins who sent it to Ministry. For the record my Family is none of your business or anybody else's for that matter. Now why do you keep following me? I like my house I don't want to change it so stop trying to get me resorted."
"You were meant for better things then being a bookworm Ravenclaw. Gryffindor is the house for heroes and you are the hero of our world. You need to show our world you are still the symbol of the light. You need to stop hang out with Malfoy, he's from a dark family and he'll turn you dark too."
"Weasley, I am no hero. I just want to be a student like everyone else. I can hang out with whoever I want. All we do is study." Harry was getting tired with the lion's constant ramblings and pressuring him into the hero of the light.
"You are a hero; why are you fighting this?"
"Because I'm not hero. Whatever happened when my Dad and Stepmother died was long ago and has nothing to do with me. I was fifteen months old when it happened I have no memory of that night. I've put them to rest and my other Parent and my Stepfather are my family now and I am trying to make them proud with keeping up with my studies." Keeping his Parents safe from Dumbledore was his top Priority. While he didn't hide his heritage any more he wasn't going offer them up to the Mad Wizard on a silver platter.
"But…"
"That's enough Ron!" Fred appeared behind Harry with Shadow growling at his heels.
"We told you to back off." George appeared behind Ron. Both twins sported angry expressions.
"Fred, George, why are you butting in? I got this; I almost got him to agree to being resorted." Ron argued.
"No you haven't I'm happy being a Ravenclaw, and I am not going to be ordered around." Harry was losing his patience with the Gryffindor.
"Leave Ravenclaw, Lokison, alone. He has made his choice and he agrees with the sorting hat." Fred snapped, the jinx next to him doubled in size.
"Now stop bothering him or else his familiar is going to make you his snack." George ordered. He was fed up with Ron's antics and the constant harassment of their little Firsty Prince. This little first year was cool and their friend so they didn't like it when their friends were bullied.
"Grrrr." Shadow moved closer to make the point.
"Fine, I'm leaving but, I'm serious about Malfoy. He's a dark wizard from a dark family with known Death Eaters." Ron spat before walking off to Gryffindor tower.
"Thanks guys, you brother is seriously stubborn."
"Don't we know it."
"He gets it from Mum."
"You okay Prince Firsty?"
"Your Kitty stopped eating mid chew and ran out of the hall." The twins were speaking as on person again.
Harry smiled at the older Gryffindors. He was tried from having a long day with classes and study sessions and winter exams were coming up. He had left Shadow with the twins so the cat could eat a full meal. Shadow must have felt his anger and brought the twins to help him.
"I'm fine you guys but he is getting on my last nerve. Seriously how much is the Head master paying him, that he is this persistent?" Harry tapped out.
"It's not that the pay that makes him persistent but,"
"The letters from mum that encourages him to chase after you." The twins looked embarrassed that their family seemed to be causing the prince such troubles.
"It not your fault you guys so quit taking the blames on your hearts. Thanks again for the help, but I think I'll turn for the night. See you two later."
"Good night Prince Firsty."
"We'll await you call upon the morrow." The twins bowed dramatically to the tiny Asgardian Prince and watched him disappeared through a portal along with his familiar.
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Loki was in the gym with Thor taking great pleasure in beating the crap out of the Thunder God. He had taken to sparring with his brother once a week to vent some of his frustrations out. Spars with Thor allowed him to use his full strength and would not have to worry about hurting or accidentally killing him like he would if he sparred with Tony.
"Brother I am impressed your fighting skills have greatly improved, since you have settled on Midgard." Thor smiled looking up from his place on the mat that Loki had pinned him to. Though Thor was still bigger and Stronger Loki was quick and agile with a sharp mind to maneuver. Odin had taught Thor that strength in battle was all you that needed to win while Frigga had taught Loki that a quick mind was often the key to life or dead during battle.
"I had been training more to keep my mind busy but my spars with you are the only time I can go all out." Loki nodded in agreement before helping his brother up.
"Lunch is will be ready in ten minutes Master Loki." The little house elf appeared and offered the gods each a towel.
"Thank you Winky we shall be there shortly." Loki dismissed the elf after taking the towel.
"Brother, have you heard from Haraldr?" Thor asked as he wiped the sweat from his brow.
"Yes, all is well with him, nothing has happen since the battle with the troll. Anthony has left for Avenger tower this morning as Agent Coulson has uncovered a lead to Mandarin. I wanted to follow but he told me one of us should stay here in case Haraldr needs help. I feel so useless right now and it is not something I use to." Loki said as he sat down at table on the enchanted balcony. The balcony had a lovely view of the grounds with the forest bordering the land and was enchanted to keep the elements out so the could sit and enjoy the winter wonderland.
"Take heart Loki the Midgard holidays is soon upon us. Haraldr will be home before you know it. Mother especially is looking forward to coming to Midgard. Father will come for at least two days for Christmas. Let's not forget our sister promised to come as well."
"Yes I look forward to the Holidays, only because Haraldr will come home even if it is for a short time." Loki conceded taking a long drink of water as Winky set out the food.
"Prince Loki, Master Tony has landed safely at Avenger tower." The AI informed the Gods.
"Thank you Jarvis, tell him I will call him later tonight."
"Of Course, your highness."
"Brother it has been awhile since it has been just us for company; I would like to talk with you, about your encounter with the Chitauri. I want to understand what happened when you fell from the bridge." Thor asked softly. This was a subject not spoken between the two since it happened three years ago. Loki seemed to pale at the request losing what little appetite he had.
"Thor it is in the past what does it matter now?"
"It matters Brother. Hela was correct our trials have shaped us but they also haunt us. Our father had a big impact on how we dealt with these events and it seems that it had hurt you more." Thor often not the sharpest knife in the drawer had stabbed the point dead center. Loki pushed away from the table and stalked to the railing and gripped the stone edge tight enough to crack it.
"Can we not speak of this Thor; it is over and done with."
"It is not over as it still hurts you. What happened to you, Loki?"
"Why do you care, you were the chosen one the prefect heir and son. I was nothing but the Frost Giant Bastard dumped upon the royal family of Asgard. Odin made sure to point that out everyday of my childhood. I did what I could to protect Asgard, I even killed my own birth father to please him and nothing; I received nothing but his contempt. I did not destroy the Bi-frost either as you thought which hurt my frozen heart. You would think that betrayal would hurt less and less as the years pass but I guess because it was you it actually hurt more. I broke out of my cell to stop Laufey from causing the Bi-frost to implode which would have destroyed Asgard. We battled and the Bi-frost was turn on Jotunheim, that's when you caught up to us and after I had killed The Frost King. In that moment you thought the worst of me, just like the only father I have ever known. I thought there was nothing left for me on Asgard as I had lost James when I was forced to return, that I felt I should end it all so I let go. I was falling through the coldness of space slowly dying as my heritage allowed me to survive freezing temperatures. Just when I thought my last breath was gone I was pulled into a ship and revived. I spent months at the mercy of these creatures I came to know as the Chitauri. I was beaten and starved and mentally broken. They preyed upon my weaken mind and raw emotions until I was their mindless slave. Than Thanos came but not in physical form he was powerful enough to project himself into my mind and he twisted everything I held dear, you, Mother, and the Humans of Midgard. I hated you and Odin's favoritism of you. I was upset thinking Mother had rejected me because I was a Frost Giant. Then I thought if I could not make the humans love me like you, then I would me them fear me into obedience. My mind was no longer my own and I was a prisoner in my own body. I watched as I killed people and hurt you and Anthony. I barely managed to save Anthony from being strangled to death. Then there was Barton and the killings I made him do, turning him against his own mind and beliefs. I was broken and I could not find a way to repair myself. The only reason I was able to be free from Thanos's spell was thanks to the beating I took from the Green Beast. Mother was able to repair some of the damage done by the Titian but I was still broken when Odin banished me here on Midgard with you as my keeper. The Sorcerer Strange was giving me bi-weekly magic treatments to try and repair the damage but my mind was not healing well. It wasn't until we found Haraldr that I truly began to heal. My mind is still fragile but I am better than I was two years ago." The Frost Giant looked out across their land trying hard to hold in the pain but it was hard and he felt so exposed. He just admitted to so truths that he had been denying even to himself. Thor's betrayal was the one of the worst pains he suffered before his fall.
"Loki, I am truly sorry. You are right I failed you as a brother. I doubted you when I should have had faith in you. I was so happy when I was found worthy of Mjolnir I thought I knew better and that believe my eyes rather than my heart that you had tried to start another war like I had but I was wrong. When you fell I mourned you and my heart broke from the lost of my little brother. It was not just All Father that hurt you but I as well. I beg for your forgiveness even though I know I am undeserving of it. You are my brother no matter what has happened between us. It does not matter that there is no blood between us I shall stand with you until the day we fall together whether it be in battle or we die as old warriors at the end of our lifespan. I promise not to doubt you ever again, Brother. It has taken me a long time but I have learned at long last that you are my equal if not more worthy than me." Thor placed a hand on the shoulder of his brother expressing the sincerity of his words. The Raven haired god stood still trying to wrap his thoughts at The Thunder God's words but he couldn't hide his feelings as his heart ached with the love he was feeling from his brother. Tears slid down his face unbidden and he could not stop them. Soon he was pulled in to strong arms of the brother he thought he lost long ago. He could not respond only grip on to his big brother and cry out the pain he had been holding in for centuries.
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Harry was going stir crazy being indoors for so long. He was use to having Uncle Tony's Training room on hand for all his exercising needs. He needed to call Aunt Tasha to see if she could modify his training for close quarters. He tried to train in the snow but Professor McGonagall caught him in the snow in simple track pants and a long sleeve sport shirt and she had a fit. She banned him from his morning outdoor exercises because she though he would freeze to death. He had to obey the order because he couldn't tell her he was half Frost Giant and he could withstand such temperatures. Last thing he needed was everyone to freak out when he turns blue because he's outside for a long period of time. His father was surprised last winter when his skin changed to a light blue and his eyes turned blood red when he had been outside in a snow ball fight for hours.
Flashback
"Anthony have you seen Haraldr?" Loki asked poking his head into the lab.
"Yeah, he went with Legolas and his kids to the park for a snow ball fight. They must be having fun they have been gone for at least three hours." Tony remarked not looking up from his work.
"That is a long time to be outside I shall go fetch him."
"Okay I'll order lunch." Tony replied as the God disappeared in a flash of green light.
At the Park
"Harry its okay, you look fine." Clint tried to sooth the crying Blue Child. That was how Loki found them in the park. The archer held a blue Jotun child in his arms as his two children were repeating his reassuring words.
"Barton what has happen?" Loki ran up to the group.
"Harry was getting cold but he still wanted to play. Slowly while they were playing he started to turn blue we didn't notice as we were running around. Then Cooper notice his eyes were red and asked him if he got something in his eyes. It was then we all stopped and saw the changes. He got really up set over the changes and we tried to tell him it was alright but he said you would hate him being blue." Clint explained.
Loki felt his heart constrict at these words. He had made the same mistake Odin did, something he swore he would never do. He had not told Haraldr that they were frost Giants and now his son thought he hated him. He closed his eyes and slowly shifted from his Aesir form to his true Jotun Form. His skin turned a darker more royal blue and his eyes darken to the blood red that he shared with his son.
"Haraldr, my little prince, please look at me." Loki opened his eyes to see his son shake his head no hiding in Barton's neck. "Please you need to see the true form of your father."
"Come on Harry your dad has something important to show you." Clint encouraged as he was surprise at Loki's new form. Hesitantly Harry peeked out from where he was hiding his face to see his daddy. His Daddy was blue just like him slowly he calmed his tears and stared at his blue father. They were the same and different. They were blue but he was a lighter shade of blue than his father. They both had marking upon their skin but in different patterns. And while both had red eyes his father's were a deeper red than his own.
"Haraldr I am sorry I did not tell you sooner. I am a frost Giant as are you, well half Frost Giant. We are from the Realm of Jotunheim a land of ice. Jotun are naturally blue but our magic allows us to shape shift. You will turn back to your human form when you warm up but right now your Jotun Form keeps you protected from the cold. I love you my son this is just a part who we are. I would never hate you for being part Jotun because I am Jotun as well." Loki held out his arms and Harry left Clint's arms for the comfort of his blue Jotun father. The God of Mischief carried his little Jotun Prince home never once shifting to his Aesir form accepting his son and himself as Frost Giants.
End Flashback
There was a sudden noise and Harry had an ice dagger in hand. He had to stop himself from throwing at the noise but that didn't stop him from confronting the noise with his dagger to the student's neck.
"Lokison it's just me Draco Malfoy!" The intruder exclaimed. Harry let out the breath of relief and let the dagger turn to snow that fell to his feet. Scratch the call he needed see Aunt Natasha right away he almost stabbed the Slytherin in the throat.
Harry took out Friday and began tapping rapidly. "Malfoy what the hell are you doing sneaking up on me? I could have killed you."
"How did you do that thing with knife; you turned it to snow." Malfoy asked ignoring Harry's question.
"Malfoy what do you want because I am not in the best of moods right now." Harry rolled his eyes. He needed Aunt Tasha right now; he didn't have time to deal with this nosy kid.
"Are you staying at Hogwarts for Christmas?"
"No, I'm going home. My parents have been missing me since I left home. They really didn't want me to come to Hogwarts for my schooling they wanted to home-school me."
"Really? I was home school since I was five and I hated it. No one to talk to no one to interact with and tutors were boring." Malfoy complain and Harry began to walk away not wanting to hear the blond whine. He did feel for the blond and the loneliness but he couldn't think about it right now. "Hey, Lokison, I wasn't finished talking."
"Well I'm finished listening. I need to get out of here before the cabin fever makes me crazy." Harry kept walking looking for a secluded place to portal Kamar-Taj.
"If you have a fever you should go to the hospital wing." Malfoy replied keeping in step with the Ravenclaw.
"Seriously, you Purebloods don't know any expressions? I don't have a real fever I just don't like being confined in one place too long." That was an understatement, after HYDRA he hated being in one place for too long. He was always moving in the tower whether it was to the Labs or the gym. Sometimes he would make pop up visits to Aunt Pepper at the office just to get away from that locked in feeling.
"Oh why don't you go outside in the courtyard for a bit?"
"McGonagall banned me from going outside for safety reasons." He was Jotun and he would over heat if he wore all the winter outer wear that the Transfiguration teacher wanted him to wear.
"So where are you going then?"
"Someplace else, why are you still following me?"
"I'm curious about you. You don't seem to have any friends but your cat and the Granger girl. Although I have seen you briefly with the Weasley Twins but that's it. Why is that?" The Slytherin asked.
"I don't trust easily Malfoy. The twins have earned a bit of my trust as has Granger and I guess you have a bit which you stole." Harry was trying with out success to ditch the blond but the kid didn't seem to want to take a hint.
"How can one steal trust, it's not tangible."
"No, it's not but you force me to share something personal when we met at the Owlery, remember? All because you were curious about me and you just had to see what I was up to." Harry typed out rapidly rolling his eyes picking as he picked up his pace but Malfoy matched his steps.
"Oh you mean your Locket. I haven't told anyone like I promised. So does that mean were friends?"
"No, we are not just acquainted because I don't trust you enough yet. Your constant following me is not earning you any trust points."
"That's rude. I am trying to be your friend here."
"Don't you have your house mates to keep you company?"
"Not really, they are chosen pure bloods that my father has picked to be my so called friends. Crabbe and Goyle are more like guard dogs and Nott is jealous of my family's station and wealth. Then there is Zabini, he okay but he watches me for something he can use either against me or to benefit him. It's a cold place to be right now and I decide to come out to warmer climates."
"Sorry I but I can be colder company that your housemates." 'Literally' Harry thought before he stopped and turned to the Slytherin. "What's it going to take for you to leave me alone and not tell anybody where I have gone?"
"Oh are we trying to bribe our way out of my company?" Malfoy asked arching his eyebrow.
"No, I am not bribing anyone. My Stepfather taught me that to get anywhere with people you have to negotiate. I am Negotiating for my freedom of this castle and your company. So what do you want?"
"Are you always this rude to people or am I just lucky?"
"Malfoy you are seriously stepping on the last of my patience."
"Fine, I want to have your undivided attention for one whole day, preferably before we leave for the holidays." Malfoy seemed to get quite at the mention of the holidays. Harry had a feeling it had to do with Lord Malfoy.
"Fine I'll owl you when I am free, I promise." Harry held out his hand and Malfoy shook it sealing the deal. "Now if you'll excuse me I need to leave."
"Of course, I'll await your owl Lokison." Malfoy nodded before turning on his heel walking back to the dungeons. The blond turned back to ask one last question but found that he was alone and the Ravenclaw had vanished without a sound or trace of magic.
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"So, because of the stress of being confined indoors you found yourself slipping into HYDRA mode?"
"Yeah, I was this close to stabbing a fellow student." Harry held his finger and thumb together to illustrate how close he felt to almost hurting Malfoy to his Aunt. As soon as Harry reached Kamar-Taj Sanctum he called Natasha in a panic. It took her ten minutes to calm him down before telling him to open a portal for her to Kamar-Taj. Once she stepped through the portal Harry opened his locket and bombarded the Spy with all his worries and stress he had been under the past few months.
"I see. Well Harry I think you have been neglecting your meditation exercises. They are really important to balance the target re-identification practice." Natasha explained watching the boy slump in guilt.
"I'm sorry, I've been busy with school and my housemates don't make it easy to have quite to calm my thoughts."
"Well you are going to have to find time and a quite place for these exercises. Without a calm mind your instincts can over take you at any time. I know this from experience from my transition from being a Red Room Assassin to being a SHIELD agent."
"Yes Aunt Tasha." Harry sighed as he bowed his head in shame.
"Hey, you did the right thing in calling me here. I'll always be here to help you when you need me мой маленький брат." The red head pulled Harry in to a hug. The little wizard hugged back soaking up the affection he had missed these past four and a half months. "Okay starting positions let's get you centered again."
"Да мадам, Ready when you are." Harry took up his fighting stance. Natasha took her fighting stance waiting for the boy to strike. It was less than a second before she was blocking his punches.
"Defense of others or are you attacking?" Nat blocked another hit before striking back watching Harry dodge.
"Defense of others, to attack without reason is to be selfish."
"Good. What are you feeling right now?"
"Frustration." Harry rolled out of the way of a back kick.
"Why?"
"I am unbalance in my emotions." Harry back flipped to avoid another kick and counter with a kick of his own.
"What is unbalance?" The Spy asked as she blocked kick but grabbed the leg and tossed him to the ground.
"Unbalance is a threat to myself and those around me." Harry panted as he stood again.
"Correct. How do we gain balance?" Natasha then threw he electro disc at him which were block by an ice shield.
"To be calm and centered with my emotions and not to dwell on things I can't control." Harry let the shield become snow and blocked the fist aimed at his face and using his small body as leverage he flipped his Aunt but she landed on her feet.
"Correct. Are you calm?" The Widow asked still gripping Harry's hand.
"Yes, I am now." And he was calm the stress he was feeling early had melted away with the spar.
"Good, now you are going to sit and meditate like Strange has showed you but you are going to focus on the breeze that is flowing around us like water flowing down stream." Harry let himself be guided to a peaceful spot under a shady tree. He sat listening to his aunt's words and feeling the breeze wrap around him pulling into a peaceful state of mind. "Harry it's time to came back."
"Aunt Tasha, How long have I been here?" Harry blinked coming out of his deep meditation
"Almost seven hours Harry. You look more at peace then when I got here." Natasha smiled as she help Harry stand up. "It's time we return to where we were."
"Yeah, thanks for coming I know you were on a mission."
"I will always come when you need me Harry. Besides it was Clint's turn to put in some actual effort into our mission. Now give me a hug so I can make him super jealous." The red head smiled as Harry wrapped his around her in a hug. She missed her little brother and it saddened her that he should still suffer long after his escape from HYDRA. IT will be year before he has total control over his HYDRA mode but for now she would be there for him mission or not. She could wait for the Christmas because Harry's sanity was hanging by a thread and he needed family more than ever.
A/N: Another chapter complete. Now the plot bunnies have been getting treats from your reviews but they need a full meal to keep them going. Being confined inside makes them restless and they need reviews to keep me working. So thanks for reading Keep Reviewing.
PS: мой маленький брат means My Little Brother in Russian and Да мадам means Yes Madame.