A/N: ok so I'm back from vacation and might I say it was a hard one at that! I got stung by 3 jellyfish and then I went to this go-kart place and burned my leg on the motor but on top of all that it turned out to be one of the best vacations ever because my parents adopted a little boy and all he does is follow me around all day and I have to say he is about the best thing to happen to me in a vary, vary long time!

Oh and I have to say: CONGRATULATIONS TO MARISKA ON HER EMMY WIN and I really think Chris was robbed!

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"She's a beauty ain't she?" The short nurse asked.

Abbie jumped and turned her attention away from the glass window "uh yea" was all she could say until she caught her breath.

The nurse smiled "I didn't mean to startle you" she looked towards the window again "do you want to hold her?" she stated walking to the door of the nursery.

She followed the younger woman "uhh, I don't know. I mean what about her parents, they probably don't want someone they don't know holding there baby" she was staring down at the little girl wrapped in a pink blanket.

"She doesn't have any parents" it was no more then a whisper "they came in last night. They were both in this really bad car crash" she paused remembering the scene "you could tell that the father wasn't going to make it. And uhh. And the mother looked like she was going to pull through but after she gave birth...it just umm, it just all went down hill and she died about an hour later" she looked at the older woman "so, you still wanna hold her?" she waited.

"Sure" Abbie picked the little girl up and swayed lightly "what's her name?" she curled up her pinky and let the baby use it as a pacifier.

"The mother fell out of conciseness before she was able to name her" the nurse handed Abbie a bottle and ushered her over to the rocking chair.

"Does she have any family?" she slipped her finger out and put the nipple of the bottle in "I mean is there someone who can take her home?"

"Careful, remember tunge under the nipple" she got a cloth "we looked, there's nothing and I'm trying to find a good foster home but so far I've got nothing"

"Well, how long can she stay here?" Abbie asked putting the baby back in the crib.

"I don't kn-" she was stopped by a little boy by her side " hey Benjamin, can you say hi to my friend" she knew the boy was shy and didn't think he would do it.

"Hi" the little boy waved and surprised both women when he reached for Abbie.

"Hey buddy" she took the boy from the nurses arms. She looked at the boy and in return the boy looked right back at her "how old are you?" she asked as she walked over to the rocking chair.

"I'm free" the little boy held up three of his fingers "hey wady, you neverd tolded me yourd name" he said with his arms crossed and his lips poked out.

The older woman couldn't help but laugh at the boy in front of her "my friends call me Abbie. What's your name?" she asked the boy.

"My frwends call me Banini" he said "You wanna know someding?"

"Sure"

"You wouke a watt like my mommy"

Abbie was taken back by the confession the little boy had just made.

The little boy started playing with Abbie's wedding ring "why are you here, ard you sick?" he just sat there and waited for an answer.

"Umm, well my, umm" she looked at the nurse for help but found her to be nowhere in sight "umm, well I'm here with my wife and she's not feeling well and so the doctors are going to help her" she took in a deep breath hopping that the little boy didn't push her to explain.

"Oh, okay" the little boy slipped out of Abbie's lap and walked over to the baby in the crib "dats my sistewr" the boy took Abbie's hand "we don't gots no mommy or daddy" a tear slipped out of is eye and he stood there in shock as if it just hit him that his parents were gone.

Abbie picked up on the connection and felt her heart drop "hey buddy. I know it's hard but it's going to be ok" she felt the boy run past her "Banini" she saw the boy run to the other side of the room and into a bed "buddy can I come sit with you" she waited for an answer.

"No" it was plain and simple.

"Ok, well if you want to talk just ask the nurse" she waited for any sign that he herd her, but got nothing. She walked out the door and down the hall to her wife's room. When she walked into the room she saw the lady starting to stir so she just stood there and waited for her to wake.

God Olivia you really fucked up this time. When Olivia woke up she didn't realize that Abbie was there "nice, you landed yourself in the hospital" she tried to pull the IV out of her arm.

"Leave. It. Alone" the voice was think and full of anger and so many more emotions.

Olivia's eyes shot up to look towards the spot where the voice was coming from "go away Abigail" she threw her head back on the pillow and stared at the ceiling.

"Shut Up" Abbie walked towards the window "is there a reason I had to see you sitting in the car with burns and cuts all over you?" before Olivia could say anything the younger woman stopped her "you wanna tell my what possessed you to do that? I understand that were both going through a hard time, but what you did was the most selfish thing I can think of. I know that your hurting and I wish I could take it all away, but I can't! I'm hurting just as much as you if not more. So, if you want to kill yourself be my guest, but I hope you know that your leaving a shit load of people who love you behind" she waited for the other woman to say something.

"You are such a hypocrite" she shot up in her own defense "you think I don't see the way your losing weight and how your hair is falling out or how you don't even let me touch you anymore. And how you go around and act like nothings wrong. Well I can't do that Abigail, I can't act like I didn't just lose my daughter, I can't act like I'm not in pain, I can't act like you" the last part was no more then a whisper. "Look, I'm sorry if I handle my pain differently and maybe I should have talked to someone, but I did what I knew was going to help me at the time" she shifted her body so that she wasn't looking at the other woman anymore.

Abbie walked over to the bed and climbed in and putting her arms around the older lady "I'm sorry, I'm so, so sorry" she took in a breath "I guess I kinda forgot that you lost a daughter to and for that I am so, so very sorry" she started to cry.

Olivia felt the warm tears running down her back through her open gown "don't be sorry" she turned onto her back and pulled the younger woman close "maybe we should get out of the city for a while and maybe see the marriage counselor" she took in a deep breath hoping the other woman wouldn't put up so much of a protest.

"Ok, I think we really need it. I think we both tried to get back to work and on with our lives and it was really all to fast" she smiled a little when she felt Olivia exhale.

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"I met this little boy, his name is Banini and his parents died a couple of nights ago. You gotta meet him Leni, I feel in love with him and his sister is the cutest thing" the doctor had told them that Olivia would have to stay in the hospital for at least another week for observation.

"Is that where you go everyday?"Olivia asked with curiosity.

"Yep, he's having a hard time and I want to help him and his sister" she paused for a minute "I think I wanna adopt them" she closed her eyes not wanting to see the reaction.

"You WHAT?" Olivia yelled.

Abbie took in a sharp breath "lower your voice" she walked towards the bed "I know your thinking that the only reason that I want to do this is so that I wont have to deal with the dea- de, the loss of our child but that's not true I still want to go to counseling with you but I feel like I need to do this. Leni the other day when I was talking to Banini, he told me that I looked just like his mother and right then I knew he was meant for us"

"Abigail, this isn't like buying a pair of pants, you can't just return them if you end up not liking them. I haven't even seen these kids and they barley know us" she saw the tears running down the other woman's face "sweetie don't cry"

Abbie shuck her head "no your right everything's moving to fast and we're just not ready" she got up and started to head for the door.

"Abbie wait, I...I mean we...I'm...I think..."

A/N: haha cliffy but please review!