Chapter 9:

Ralph looked over at Wan as he approached. His eyes widened slightly, the boy was smiling widely. "Hey, Wan! What's up? You look really happy today."

Wan grinned. "Ralph, I can trust you right? Hikari too?"

Hikari came up behind them. "Trust us with what Wan? You know we'd never let you down…"

Wan looked around for a minute. "Um…I slept with Shima last night."

"You did what!" they screamed. Wan glared at them to keep it down. Hikari was the first to speak up. "That's awesome! So you guys are together now? For good? What about Uncle Eiri?"

Wan scratched his head a little. "Eiri doesn't have to know. I really love Shima, guys…I don't think I can stay away from him. Please don't tell on me…"

Ralph frowned. "Wan, what the hell do you mean by that? We're your friends; we would never let you down! Where is Shima by the way?"

Hikari looked a little concerned. "Listen Wan, you have to keep this from uncle Eiri. He'll really hurt Shima. But are you sure about this? Don't you want to talk to him a little?"

Wan snorted. "Like he'd listen to me. I've tried to bring it up as many times as possible, but he doesn't want to tell me anything. He just gets really angry and walks away. Dad knows something but he doesn't want to tell me either. I'm really sick of this, we've always been an open family, but right now when it matters the most everyone wants me in the dark. So please don't tell anyone…not even your parents Hikari!"

Hikari nodded. "I'm with you on this Wan! It's really unfair. Don't worry, nothing will go wrong."

"Thanks guys. I really owe you for this." Wan smiled gratefully. Then he turned around as someone's hand lay on his shoulder. "Shima!"

"Wan. So what's up? Why are you guys looking this glum?" Shima grinned at them. Hikari couldn't help feeling glad when she saw the dark haired boy smile. She could see the way Shima looked at Wan and hoped nothing would go wrong.

Wan grinned at him. "Nothing much. They've been giving us they're vote of confidence. We have nothing to fear from them! And since no one else knows our parents, no one can say anything. We're safe."

Shima nodded. He felt something tighten in his chest. He was betraying Seguchi-san and making Wan betray Eiri, when he knew the truth. He put on a cheerful smile anyway and followed the rest of them to class. He wouldn't give up Wan! No matter what, he'd have Wan! He loved Wan.

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"Hey!"

Eiri looked up as Wan entered. Shuichi had gone to work. He wondered what had made Wan so happy. "Hey, gaki. What's up?"

Wan glared at Yuki. "I am not a gaki! Nothing, school was fun today. I did really well on the test we had, I know it! I can't wait for my grades to come out. Ralph wants me to submit this picture I drew for a contest. The winner gets a prize of a thousand yen."

Eiri nodded. "That would be good. Aren't you going to? Though I wonder what you'd do with all that money. Buy a few CD's and waste the rest on chocolate pocky…or your father would use it to buy strawberry stuff and you'd be broke in a day."

Wan smiled. "Yeah well, I don't think I'm going to do it. I don't need that money and well I don't know, I don't feel like submitting this particular picture though it's one of my best. I had drawn Shima and I together like angels and demons."

Eiri grimaced at Shima's name. But his look softened when he saw Wan's slightly sad look. He decided that it would be nice to spend sometime with his son. "Hey, Wan? You want to go out with me today? Let's spend sometime father to son…"

Wan wanted to refuse but he saw Eiri's pleading look. He was also feeling guilty, about how he was betraying Eiri's trust. Well that's his problem; he isn't telling me anything or giving me any reasons! "Ok then. Where do you want to go?"

Eiri waved his hand, looking a little relieved. "We could just go to the movies and then spend sometime at the mall, get something to eat…"

Wan smiled. "Ok." He walked towards his room to get changed. As soon as he was done, they left. Eiri had informed Shuichi, who had said that he wouldn't join them because he was going to be late.

They watched Memoirs of a Geisha and commented on how well done it was. Though Wan didn't approve of the fact that all the main characters except for Ken Watanabe were Chinese. Eiri said that it was okay, at least the acting was very good and the movie did complete justice to the book. They bickered about it for a while and then drove to Wan's favorite hamburger joint. It was a small place run by Americans. He'd come here when Shuichi's former manager K had taken him for a treat.

Thy ordered and settled into a comfortable silence. Wan watched Eiri. The man looked worn out, his eyes had a sunken look and he'd lost a lot of weight. He looked like he had before, when he and Shuichi had just met. Wan wondered what was wrong, feeling really bad about what he was doing with Shima. Eiri turned back to him and smiled.

Wan smiled back. "So Eiri, are you done with that book you're writing?"

Eiri nodded. "But, you know what Wan? I'm thinking of retiring."

Wan looked up a little shocked. He knew how much Eiri loved writing; the man wouldn't even stop writing enough to eat his inner. He wondered what the hell was going on. "Why Eiri…? I thought you loved writing! What are you going to do instead?"

Eiri shook his head. "I really don't know. You know Wan, I love writing and all, but I used to write only for this on person in my past. I'd promised him once long ago that I'd become a writer…then I did become one, but I think it's enough know. I'm kind of sick of writing romance; I'd like to write other stuff like humor or something. But then it's like staring all over again. I don't want to do this full time anymore. This is my hundredth book and it means I've kept my promise and he can rest in peace. I don't what other job I'm going to take up, but I'd like to just work in a normal place now. So I'm going to quit. Two months more to go for this to get published. Then maybe I won't take up another job, I've got tons of money and I want to go do something else I enjoy."

Wan wanted to ask who Eiri had promised. But this was like asking Eiri why his penname was Yuki. He knew because of Eiri's voice, hat he'd never get answers. But Eiri looked so sad; he wished he could just hug him. Their orders came and they ate.

Then Eiri drove home. Wan smiled as he went to get to 'bed.' He turned around and looked at Eiri. Then he gave the man a hug. "I'm sorry for what I said before. I love you Eiri. You're just like a dad to me, I'm really sorry if I hurt you."

Shuichi came out of the master bedroom just as Wan was going into his. "Wan, wait. I have something for you." He chucked a box at Wan who caught it frowning. He opened it and smiled. "A cell phone? You guys are the coolest. Wait a minute, what's this? He held up a pair of keys.

Shuichi smiled, as Eiri excused himself to go to the bathroom. "That's from Eiri and me. Though Eiri paid for it. Look out the window." Wan went to the window and looked out and saw a sleek blue corvette. He looked at his dad wide eyed.

"Thank you! Thank you! Where's Eiri?" Wan looked so happy, Shuichi thought he was going to burst. Wan hugged Shuichi, almost crushing him.

Shuichi laughed pulling him away. "Wan, you're killing me. I think Eiri escaped being choked to death by a hyper teenager. He ran away to the bathroom."

Wan smiled and went to find the blonde. Eiri was already under the covers in bed. Wan jumped on him regardless. "EIRII! Thank you so much! You guys are awesome! I love you!"

Eiri buried his face in his son's hair. "I love you too Wan. You're father and I thought we'd get you something for being so responsible and getting you grades back up and all. I was really happy to hear about your test today. So I called Shuichi and we made plans."

Wan frowned. "So that's why you took me out! It was to get me out of the way!"

Eiri held him closer. "No I really wanted to spend time with you. You know Wan, there are times when I do horrible things and put you through a lot, but then I love you. And I do it for your own good ok? I'm sorry if I hurt you."

Wan snuggled up, trying to ignore the uneasy feeling in his chest. "I know Eiri. I used to think dad was over protective, but it turns out that you are too."

Eiri smiled. "Yeah, whatever kiddo. Go to bed ok?"

Wan made his way back to his room. Closing the door, he called Shima. "Hey, koi. I won't be coming over today ok? I'm sorry but I'll be there tomorrow. Dad and Eiri just got me a cell phone, so here's the number. You can call me anytime! And well I got a car…nice to think of the fun stuff we can do in the back seat, ne?"

He smiled as Shima gave a gasp before flirting back. He seemed to understand which was good. Then he talked for a few more minutes before hanging up. He really needed some sleep, this wouldn't be so bad.

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He wanted to tell the boy not to go in there. "Don't, just turn around and go back!" but the boy wouldn't listen, he was acting like he didn't hear him. He decided to follow the boy, knowing what he'd see, knowing that he had to follow him, knowing that he'd live this moment over and over again.

The sun was in the west now, its rays not as warm as before. The boy was smiling up at the older man. He looked so excited. The older man smiled. He knew that smile, he could see exactly why it was so crooked, and he understood what the gleam in those eyes was.

He tried to warn the boy again. "Go away! Don't go too close to him!" but the boy moved anyway, oblivious to his warnings. Suddenly the boy's expression changed as the tall man shoved him back against the wall; nuzzling his neck, feeling him up.

He wanted to close his eyes, he didn't want to see what was going to happen next, but he watched it all. He watched the two big men…mostly from the streets offer the tall men the ten bucks. He cringed in the corner, knowing he couldn't look away. he watched as the boy was violated by all three men, he watched as the boy reached for the gun lying next to table.

"Don't shoot! You don't want blood on your hands! DON'T SHOOT!" he yelled, but the boy picked up the gun with a blank look. He tried again. "Let the cops get them! Don't shoot!"

The boy coldly shot all three of them, leaving the tall smiling man for the last. As he watched the bullet speed towards the tall man, he started to scream. He screamed for the boy who could no longer live his life to the fullest, he screamed for the loss of the boy's innocence! "NOOOOOOOOOOO!" "HE'S DEAD! DON'T! NOOOOOOOOO!"

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Wan's eyes shot open as a scream ripped through the apartment. He ran out of the room and opened the door to his parent's room. Eiri was screaming his lungs out; Shuichi was trying to wake him up. Shuichi looked at Wan worriedly.

"Eiri, wake up! Eiri, koi it's a nightmare wake up." Shuichi was holding the older man down at the same time trying to shake him awake. Eiri's had screamed until his voice was raw. His screams abruptly cut off as his eyes snapped open. He scooted way from Shuichi avoiding his touch.

"Don't touch me!"

Wan watched surprised as Eiri cowered against the head board. Shuichi, however, acted like he was used to this and moved towards Eiri holding his hand up, showing Eiri he wasn't going to do anything. "Eiri? Koi? It's me, Shuichi. I'm not going to hurt you…you know that right? Eiri, calm down it was a nightmare."

Eiri flinched as Shuichi placed an arm on his shoulder, before pulling him close. "Shuichi, he was there. I saw it all again, he was there…he didn't listen to me! I yelled, but he didn't listen…" Eiri broke down into sobs, crying brokenly, and murmuring about how he couldn't stop him.

Wan watched wondering what could have happened that Eiri was so scared. He's never seen Eiri cry in all his sixteen years. He moved to comfort Eiri, but Eiri looked at him without recognition, trying to get away from him. Shuichi frowned and shook his head, indicating that he go back to bed. Before he left, he saw Shuichi pull out a bottle of pills.

Wan glared at him, but Shuichi firmly pointed towards his bedroom. Wan made his way back, trying not to feel hurt at the way Eiri was acting. He wondered why Eiri was on medication. He slipped back into bed, clamping a lid on the feelings of guilt that had arisen, when he'd seen Eiri like that. I'm not betraying his trust. If he doesn't trust me enough to tell me why he wants me away from Shima, then I don't have to keep my promises.

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Wan woke up as his alarm trilled. He blinked hazily, wondering why he was feeling so uneasy. Slowly memories of Eiri and his nightmare flooded his mind. He wanted to go see how Eiri was. He stepped out of his room and saw Shuichi at the kitchen counter. The pink haired man was looking tired and haggard. He looked at Wan with a small smile.

"Good morning, usagi. What do you want for breakfast?"

Wan ignored that and frowned at his dad. "Dad, how's Eiri? He really didn't look good last night."

Shuichi's face tightened a little. "Wan; please don't concern yourself with that. I have everything under control."

Wan glared at his father. "What do you mean don't concern yourself? He's my father too, you know! I'm really worried dad; please tell me what the hell is going on!"

Shuichi frowned now. "Listen Wan, Eiri has specifically told me not to tell anyone! So will you please not ask me to break a promise, he'll tell you when he's ready. And don't bother him about it, he'll only get worse."

Wan sighed. So there was something else his family didn't want him to know. He got dressed for school and left. He brightened up as he remembered that he had a new car now! He pushed aside the guilty feeling he got again.

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Shima was tapping his foot; Wan had said he'd be here half an hour back. Ok so he had a car now, that didn't mean he had o make Shima wait! He turned to see a sleek blue corvette and Wan at steering wheel. His jaw dropped.

"Wow, Wan, this is so awesome! I love it! You seriously want me to ride in that? Next to you…Wan…everyone will get to know! You know we can't let them in on our relationship!" Shima was suddenly really worried.

Wan shook his head. "Hikari is at Ralph's place. So we will pick them both up there and then drive to school. We'll be a bunch of friends arriving together." Wan smiled and gestured.

Shima got in and they drove off. Shima clutched the dashboard… "You sure know how to drive. But slow down a bit, Wan…please. I really don't want to die right now."

Suddenly Wan stopped and looked at Shima. "Tell you what; I don't want to go to school today. I'll tell Ralph and Hikari, I just want to do something with you! After all tomorrow is a weekend so we won't get into any trouble."

Shima tired to protest but Wan began to drive off. They went into a store and bought some swimming trunks. It wasn't too cold so they could swim. They drove to the beach and laid out the sheet they'd bought as well. Wan lay on his back and smiled at Shima.

"So you stopped worrying yet?" Wan asked him. Shima wondered how he thought he could have stayed away from the other boy.

"Yes." He lay down next to him and watched the clods.

Wan propped himself up on one elbow and looked down at Shima. "What's up koi? Something's bothering you…tell me will you? Is it money again?"

Shima looked away. "Um…yeah it is. I'm going to have to go job hunting. Two jobs aren't going to help me pay this months rent. I would do anything to be able to pay…well not anything…I could never sell myself."

Wan frowned and kissed him. "Don't ever think that! I'll help you Shima…I'll find a way to do it without Eiri's money coming into play ok?"

Shima nodded. Wan got them some drinks and they had an awesome time at the beach. They swam out to sea and Shima beat Wan at a race. They had lunch at a sea food shack which made amazing shrimp. Then Wan went out and bought Shima a stuffed toy which got thrown back at his head.

Shima glared at him. "You idiot! I'm not some woman here! A stuffed toy? You want to give me a stuff toy? The next time we're in bed I'm going to show you just how male I am!"

Wan smirked. "Oh yeah? I didn't think so…you seemed to like being bottom." He got thrown backwards as Shima crawled on top of him. Thankfully there weren't too many people on the beach…and most of them seemed to couples.

"Maybe, we should break in the backseat of your car?" Shima murmured seductively, licking Wan's neckline playfully. Wan moaned softly, pulling him down for a long kiss.

"Yeah the back seat sounds good." he almost picked Shima up and dumped him into the back seat. They walked back and Wan slid in and Shima slid in with him. Thank god for tinted windows.

Shima's hands roamed his body, lingering to rub and pinch his nipples into erect little buds. Wan moaned. "Come Shima, stop teasing…cant we forget the foreplay?"

Shima smirked. "One more word out of you and I'm going to punish you so bad….you wont know what hit you." He licked every inch of the bare toned chest that was presented to him, avoiding the waistline of the trunks. He kissed Wan softly, before sliding his hand slowly into the tented trunks. Wan tried to buck into his touch, but Shima lightly caressed the tip, not allowing Wan to move.

"Poor, Wan-chan…I'm in power now…I'm going to dominate you so bad…" Shima purred into his ear. Wan whined with need. Shima smiled and let the tips of his fingers massage the slit, smearing the precum leaking off it. Wan mewled. "Nnnnhhhnnnn, Shima please…just do it all ready!"

Shima snickered. "Do what Wan…blow you…fuck you…give you a hand job…you're going to have to tell me what you want." He let his fingers curls around Wan's member, loosely. Wan jerked a little, but it didn't do him any good. Wan gasped when Shima pumped lightly. "Anything Shima … anything you want, just get this over with…" Shima complied, pulling Wan's trunks down to his ankles, exposing the straining erection to the humid air. Then he blew on the tip, smirked when Wan bucked his hips. He grabbed Wan's hips and held them down. Then he slid his tongue slowly down the tip.

"SHIMAA!" Wan cried out, between a lot of pleas. Shima took the head into his mouth, prodding the tip with his tongue. Then flattened his tongue against the underside and moved it up and down covering the underside of Wan's cock with lots of saliva. Just as Wan's pleading turned to soft panting, Shima swallowed the erection, his nose buried in the brown curls at the base. Wan yelled and clutched his hair in a tight hold. Shima bobbed his head up and down, first going torturously slow and then picking up the pace. Then he stopped and Wan's erection slipped out of his mouth with a smacking noise. Wan watched with lust filled eyes as a thread of saliva connected Shima's mouth and the tip of his cock.

Shima looked at Wan, who looked wanton with his legs stretched out and his wet cock, reaching up for more. He couldn't take it much longer either. He pulled of his own trunks slowly, making sure Wan was watching. Then he pulled the lube out of Wan's boxers which were in the floor. He smiled a wolfish grin. "Spread your finger's Wan-chan you're going to prep yourself." Wan's eyes widened, but he extended his hand and spread his fingers. Shima was never one to waste, so he slathered Wan's three fingers with just enough lube. Wan reached behind and into himself slipping on finger in. it looked so erotic, Shima thought he would come right there. Wan's hair was spread out around him and his hips were raised like a yummy treat, while his fingers slipped in and out of himself. He watched as Wan added the other two fingers. Wan took them out and stared at him with a puppy dog face…well a lusty puppy dog face. "Shima…"

Shima offered his cock. "Lube me." He hissed as Wan spread the slippery substance all over his cock with sure strokes, pulling at his base a couple of times. Then he positioned himself t Wan's entrance. He knew that Wan had never been uke before, so he pushed in slowly. The head slid in with a pop. Wan's eyes widened at the pain, he bit his lip.

Shima kissed him softly, pumping him to get his mind of it. Then he slid in slowly until he was buried up to the hilt. "Wan, you have to relax now…I won't be able to reach you if you don't." Wan nodded, tears leaking out. He relaxed and let Shima in deeper. Then he suddenly gasped, as Shima moved.

Shima grinned. He'd found it. He waited for Wan to nod and then slipped out, so his head was the only bit inside. Then he slid back in again, keeping the pace slow. Wan impatiently, moved down, swallowing Shima again. Shima didn't know whether he wanted to close or open his eyes. Watching himself sliding in and out of Wan was mesmerizing, but the sensation was urging him to just close his eyes. He made sure to alternately hit Wan's prostate. Wan was whimpering now, Shima was aware that he was making a keening noise, to match Wan's whimpers. He picked up his pace moving faster. Wan started to cry out, clutching him in a death grip. Shima reached down to kiss his neck, but ended up biting down where his neck met his collarbone. He licked the bit of blood that seeped, leaving a red hickey. He rocked into Wan, feeling himself reach the edge. One more thrust and he felt himself being thrown over it, just as Wan screamed his name and spurted all over him. Shima cried out too, spraying himself into Wan.

He fell onto Wan, both panting. He pushed Wan's hair out of his face. "I love you…" Wan nodded and whispered the same. Shima then carefully pulled out and they wiped the seats. Which had only gotten specks of cum on them. They used their boxers to wipe each other clean and pulled on their clothes.

Shima smirked at Wan. "Convinced I'm male enough?"

Wan nodded breathlessly. "Yeah, that was seriously mind blowing. I'm beginning to like this car a whole lot more! So what do I get you instead of a stuffed toy?"

Shima considered and then looked at Wan his eyes gleaming. "I always wanted a tattoo…they're expensive in the hygienic places though. So you can get me a tattoo."

Wan nodded and took him to the tattoo studio. They decided on a nice tiger tattoo…o9r Wan decided on it, though Shima didn't particularly like it. it was big and Shima got it don't on his right shoulder, the tail curling down his right arm. It looked really cool. Though it did hurt, Shima grit his teeth and kept a smile on his face, rather than worry Wan.

Wan looked down at his boyfriends smile and frowned for a minute. He had to get Shima some money…then he remembered the place he'd seen earlier. He smiled at Shima and excused him self and ran off.

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Shima wondered where Wan had run off too. it had been forty five minutes and the boy hadn't returned yet. The tattoo artist was almost done. At last the tail was finished and the tattoo artist began to cover it incase it got infected. It would take a day to heal at the most. He heard someone come in.

"Oh you're done." It was Wan's voice. Shima turned around to greet him but found that the boy had already gone outside and was waiting for him there. Shima stepped out and almost dropped his jacket, his jaw dropped as he stared at Wan.

"Wan…what did you do? You really are Wan right…?" Shima stared at the boy in front of him.

Wan nodded. "Here I got you some money…it's not all that much, just about forty dollars, but I'll get you more."

Shima walked up to him and kissed him. "Wan, how did you…why did you cut you hair?"

Wan smiled. "Well, there is this crazy guy out there, and he's paying forty dollars for cutting anyone's hair. It's an awesome bargain…you know. And anyway it was getting so bothersome…and I figured hey why not?"

Shima stared at him before enveloping him in a hug. "Thanks, Wan…I really appreciate it…" he said a little hoarsely. "I really love you…"

Wan shrugged. "I love you too, Shima. I'm just happy I could help." Shima nodded. He knew just how much Wan loved his hair…he was really vain about it. He just linked hands with his lover and walked back to the car.

They decided it was time to get home. Wan dropped him off at his apartment, got the car cleaned thoroughly at the car wash and then got home.

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Wan looked around…there was no one at home. Oh well, he sat down and flicked through the channels on TV. He missed his hair, but felt really happy he could give Shima money he had earned himself. The money he'd used for everything else was his father's and Eiri's. it seemed so much nicer to give something that belonged to you. He heard the front door open and Shuichi and Eiri walked in. Eiri still looked pale.

They stopped in shock and stared at him. Shuichi was the first to speak. "Wan, what happened to your hair?"

Wan smiled. "Oh well, I cut school today…I wanted a day off and…" he saw his parents frown and hastily added. "It's ok…no need to worry, I had nothing to do today…I've finished studying for those classes. Well my hair has started to be really bothersome…so I chopped it off on the spur of the moment! Just went to some barber down town."

"Oh…" Shuichi wondered at his son. Wan was acting so unusual nowadays. Eiri said nothing just gave Wan a small smile.

Wan noticed that he was staggering a little and using Shuichi for support. Shuichi led the blond man into his room and tucked him in.

Wan looked at his dad. "What's up with Eiri?"

"Nothing actually. That dream freaked him out so much that we went to visit a shrink. She knows us quiet well. So she just drugged him a little, he should have a good night's rest today." Shuichi explained.

Wan wanted to ask more but again Shuichi stopped him with a look. "I have to go shower, Wan. Just make sure Eiri doesn't need anything ok? He shouldn't wake up in a long while, but if he does, then you'll have to take care ok?" Shuichi slipped into the bathroom.

Wan went in to look at the sleeping man. He watched as Eiri breathed in and out, wondering what was wrong. Slipping in beside his 'dad' he hugged the older man and fell asleep too. Shuichi came out of the shower half an hour later and smiled. They looked so sweet together. It reminded him of the first time Wan and Eiri had fallen asleep together…it had been at Eiri's fiftieth book celebration. Shuichi lay down next to them, just enjoying the feel of being close to his family. Hopefully nothing else would go wrong…

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A/N: each chapter gets longer than the other! Anyway how was it guys? Thank you loyal reviewers for waiting so long for this chappie! I love you all!

Taka