♫-flashback

♪-scenes switching in the present

Italics-thoughts or important words

----------------------------------------------------------

A/N: I might make a few changes about Eiri's past here…the whole new York incident…well it's a fanfic so I guess I can just write the way I's flowing ne? Just a warning.

----------------------------------------------------------

Chapter 5:

Shuichi pushed his face into his pillow, trying not to cry. He wanted to suffocate himself, just push all the pain out. Why? Why had Eiri done that? Right after he kissed him to…he was sure Eiri was hurting too…Shuichi pushed himself of the bed and pulled on a jacket over his pajamas. Then he slipped out and shut the door. He made his way over to the group of trees in front of his room and sat down under them. He wanted to scream loudly, just let the pain out, but he couldn't.

"Eiri…why? What the hell happened?" he gave in, letting tears flow down his face.

♪(Flash back in present)

Eiri pulled away and looking at Shuichi in something close to panic. Shuichi looked up at him a huge mix of emotions on his face. "Eiri, are you… alright?" he reached out to Eiri, only to have the blonde move away like he'd been burned.

"Don't! Get away from me." The blonde was panicking now.

"Eiri, what's wrong? It's okay that you kissed me…really, I'm not mad…" Shuichi stroked the other man's arm soothingly, only to be thrown off. He'd almost fallen, but Eiri still looking at him with that weird look had made no move to catch him.

"Get out…" the blonde had growled. Shuichi didn't make a move. "I said. Get. Out. Didn't you hear me…?"

"But Eiri, I don't…what's the matter with you? First you kiss me and now you're acting all weird. Just tell me what's going…." He got cut off as the blonde man propelled him towards the door. Then in a low voice he uttered the most first and most hateful words he'd ever said to Shuichi.

"I hate you. Don't ever come near me again."

Meanwhile Eiri wasn't getting much sleep. Gods, it had hurt so much to say those words…how could he have told Shuichi he hated him? but then it was right, Shuichi didn't deserve to be near a murderer like him…he didn't know about any of it. I don't want Shuichi to know about it, I don't want to tell anyone anything about it…he doesn't deserve to have a criminal like me love him…Eiri tried to will himself to sleep again, but that wasn't working either.

If he could have he would have run all the way to Shuichi's dorm and apologized over and over again, but he couldn't. It wasn't that he had too much pride, he never had cared about pride in front of Shuichi, there was a very important reason.

I don't want to be special to anyone ever again…especially Shuichi…

"Who are you always writing to? Ever since you came here, I see you sitting at that desk writing away. You give Tohma letters to mail every single day!" the man smiled at his student who hadn't bothered to look up from the letter.

The boy quickly signed the letter and looked up at his teacher with glowing eyes. "It's to the person I love the most in the world, sensei. It's my younger brother Shuichi…well, he's not really my brother, but he's the only person that ever meant anything to me. You see, he was always there; he stuck for me and all. And I promised him I would write to him every day." He looked into his drawer trying to fish out an envelope and missed the dark look that passed over his teacher's face.

"What about me, Eiri-kun? Don't you love me at all?" he asked with an amused glint in his eyes. It veiled all the possessiveness lurking beneath the surface. This beautiful boy belonged to him and no one else!

Eiri blushed adorably and bit his lip. "O…of course I do sensei, you're the best sensei in the whole world, I want to be just like you when I grow up…"

Yuki couldn't take it anymore; he walked up to the boy and placed his hands on his shoulders. "You know what Eiri-kun? I love you too…a lot." Then Yuki kissed the boy, full on the mouth.

Eiri gasped slightly, opening his mouth a little, giving Yuki the access he needed. His tongue slipped into the boys mouth exploring, the kiss turned hard. Eiri held on to Yuki for support, his knees felt like they were falling off. The kiss got harsher, and Yuki's hands slipped under the blonde's t-shirt, sliding over his chest. Eiri moaned into his sensei's mouth as his nipples got tweaked and pinched. Before he knew what was happening, his t-shirt was on the floor and sensei was undoing his pants. Eiri blushed uncontrollably as Yuki's eyes raked over his boxer clad body. Then Yuki ran his palm over the boy's arousal, lightly stroking him, before sliding his boxers off and baring it.

"My…Eiri-kun, you do want me don't you? What do you want me to do Eiri?" Yuki smirked blowing softly on the tip of Eiri's erection. The boy shuddered and looked at him with pleading eyes.

"Sen…sensei please…" Eiri wondered what he had to ask for…he didn't know if he wanted a handjob, blowjob or if he just wanted to be fucked…

"Do you want me to touch you Eiri? You need to tell me what you want…" Yuki looked into those golden eyes. He loved the lust in them, the boy was his and he wanted to be the first one to possess him utterly.

"Touch me sensei…p…please…it hurts…" the boy almost sobbed. Yuki decided to be merciful and started to slide his hand over the boy's cock. He fingered the slit in circular motions making the boy cry out sharply. His other hand held the boy' hips as he bucked. Never breaking eye contact, he increased his pressure on the boys slit while lightly letting his tongue trace the thick vein on the underside of his cock.

"Sen...sei…" Eiri's face was flushed. He moaned at ever single touch. He moved in slow bobs, his hands slid up Eiri's thighs and pressed them down. Eiri's coherency flew out the window. "Ah…Yuki…nnh…" Yuki smirked around the boys cock and hummed a little, the boy's jerk would have throttled him if he hadn't been holding on to those beautiful pale hips. Being as young as he was and this being his first time, Eiri didn't last long.

Yuki sucked a little longer drinking in all the cum, the very essence of the boy. Then he moved back and Eiri slumped forward in his arms. He picked the sixteen year old up and slipped him into bed, sliding in beside him. Eiri snuggled up. "I love you, Yuki sensei…"

Yuki thanked the god's that Seguchi Tohma was out of the city. Now he could just get this boy and make him his. "I love you too Eiri-kun."

Tatsuha watched Eiri enter the restaurant with yet another woman. Nervously he glanced at Shuichi who was staring at his plate oblivious to everything around him. He wondered what had happened between the two. Shuichi hadn't mentioned Eiri since yesterday. God he left them alone for a day and things had already sky rocketed out of control it seemed.

Then slowly Shuichi looked up and caught sight of the couple. The woman was giggling a little blushing slightly. And Eiri…Eiri was suddenly being all charming and nice. Almost like he'd been made of chemical X, sugar and spice.

Shuichi looked at Tatsuha with a frown. "You never told me Eiri had a girl friend now." To his surprise Tatsuha burst out laughing, stifling his laughter with the napkin.

"Girlfriend, Shuichi-nii? Are you crazy? Eiri doesn't have girl friends, he just has a good fuck and then leaves it at that. If she clings too much, he tells her to fuck off or chucks her out."

Shuichi's eyes widened. "What do you mean? Hasn't he ever been in a relationship all this time?"

Tatsuha nodded. "After he came back from New York after all he's been a bloody ice cold bastard…I'm sure you've noticed. He just uses the women to rid himself of sexual frustration. I haven't seen one shred of emotion apart from annoyance or anger on him, since that day he came out of his room after he got back. I don't think he's capable of emotion."

Shuichi looked over at Eiri in concern. They're eyes met…after a long moment Eiri turned away and refocused on the girl in front of him. Shuichi sighed, every way he turned he heard of New York. He was getting pissed of, he wished he could just find out all about it. And now Eiri was acting like he didn't know him.

He wondered what he should do. Then it came to him. He stood up. Tatsuha looked at him surprise. "Niisan? What are you doing?"

"Sorry Tatsuha, but just give me about fifteen minutes will you? Go ahead and order dessert…" Shuichi left.

Eiri looked up and almost feel off his chair. Shuichi was coming this way with that look on his face. When Shuichi had that determined look nothing would move him from his purpose.

"Hello, Eiri…" the pink haired boy smiled. Eiri looked at his companion who looked a little surprised.

"What are you doing here brat?"

"Oh nothing. Oh I'm sorry Ma'am, my name is Shindou Shuichi, I'm Eiri's best friend." Shuichi gave her his best smile. She smiled back; no one could resist that smile. "Really sorry about this but can I borrow him for a while. It's urgent…"

The girl nodded. "Of course, I'm Emma by the way."

"It was nice meeting you Emma…thanks." Shuichi waited for Eiri to stand and then walked out with him. He steered Eiri into an alley behind the restaurant.

Eiri glared at him. "What do you want?"

"I need to ask you why you said something that I know you didn't mean. I can't keep avoiding you, you know…" Shuichi looked into Eiri's eyes deciding that eye contact was the best thing.

"I meant every word I said. I thought I told you never to come near, brat." Eiri couldn't look away from those accusing purple eyes.

"Oh, really bastard? Lets test that a little shall we?" Shuichi pulled him into a kiss, still not breaking eye contact. Eiri tried o struggle a little, but finally had to give in kissing the boy back. They looked into each other's eyes as Shuichi's hand slid under Eiri's sweater and shirt sliding up his chest. His other hand lightly brushed Eiri's ears. Eiri involuntarily moaned into Shuichi's mouth. That being done Shuichi suddenly moved away.

"Yes, I'm sure you hate me very much, Eiri-san. I have to go, Tatsuha will be waiting. I'm glad we sorted this out." The boy straitened his slightly mussed hair and walked back, leaving Eiri standing there dazedly staring after him.

He suddenly turned to face the blonde when he reached the end of the alley. "Don't pull anymore nonsense with me Eiri. I expect to see you after class tomorrow, so please some to my dorm okay?" he gave a brilliant smile and disappeared from view.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------

A/N: So how was it, I'm sorry about the sudden lemon between Yuki and Eiri. And I like calling him Yuki here cos I'm too last to type Kitazawa. And if the lemon wasn't too good, I'm sorry. It's hard to write with Arashi drooling over the screen as you write lemons. There will be more lemons between then soon and a few small ones between Eiri and Shuichi too. By the way all lemons depending up on my mood ok? Cos I have a job now and it's hard getting into a lemon when you're trying to think up a plan for the next day! Ja! Thank you for reading!

Taka

Arashi: I did not drool over the lemon! It's not like butt head here has any talent! (suddenly gets suffocated and dies!)