Conquering the Sun
Summary: Muzan may have not conquered the sun, But he can own that pure Sunshine instead. In exchange of not killing his friends, Tanjiro decided to go with Muzan. Now the Twelve Demons wanted to be friends with him, or because he is the favorite of their beloved Muzan-sama. Tanjiro slowly breaking or actually falling for this Demon?! WARNING MATURE CONTENT/Muzan X Tanjiro! Romance
WARNING DONT READ IF NOT APPROVE OF THIS SHIP. SADISTIC CONTENT. NO REPORTS PLZ/ignore bad english or possible OOC/enjoy. This contains Chap1-5 only.
Kanon58: i publish becuz, i dont know when i will be able to complete the final chapter...cuz of WORK. SO welcome to the climax point of this chapter...! finally a sweet loving smut not sadistic. enjoy while it last~ BTW I MADE SOME MUZANJIRO MEMES PLEASE CHECK IN MY TUMBLR OR DEVIANART. DROP A COMMENT OR LIKE TO LET ME KNOW YOU ARE A FAN OF THIS FIC. Lets spread kibutan or muzanjiro whatever this ship called! DID YOU FEEL THE LOVE TONIGHT? HM? DID YOU FEEL MUZAN'S CONFLICT? HMMM!? HEE HEE
This is a Love Story for Muzan-sama and Tanjiro. Yes, they will actually fall inlove as the story progress.
Lets take a deep breath.
THIS IS A WHOLE DIFFERENT STORY, NO DEAD PILLARS (yay Kyoujiro) AND WE WILL SEE SOME NICE SIDE OF THE TWELVE DEMONS. AND THIS IS A WORLD WHERE MUZAN WILL ACTUALLY GENUINELY FALL FOR TANJIRO. BUT...OF COURSE SADIST FIRST BEFORE THAT DERE DERE ENDING MY GOODNESS.
I know, I have to focus on Tanjiro Vs Nezuko fic I made, btw plz read that it's my first KNY fic with heart, but Muzan x Tanjiro is part of reason why am so hype to type rolf.
I DONT NEED IT...I DONT NEED IT...I NEED IT...!
English not the First Language/No Beta Read/No Flames you are not a Breath Flame User xD
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Muzan's POV
When Rei slap Tanjiro so hard that his face got some bruise. I do not understand why I felt so irate. For me to stop her on hitting Tanjiro, is so not like me.
I mean, I like this brat to be in pain, in shame...because he looks cute. But not this time. It did not look satisfying.
I wouldn't even stop in breaking her arm if Tanjiro, the kind young boy had told me to stop.
I was looking forward to be discovered soon, I thought it would be fun. However am surprise at my own self. It did not leave a better taste in my mouth. Don't get it wrong, I do not care how Rei feels. What am disturbed is Tanjiro's reaction.
He was...he was so sad.
I always wonder why and since when did he had such sad face.
How I miss the hatred in his eyes. His brave speech on killing me and stuffs. Something I cannot quench inside myself...When Rei ask me such thing.
Such human thing...to ask. I should have expect her to ask me about it.
"Do you...do you love me? Or do you love this...boy? This boy that you just met...! You do not even know where he came from!"
I know she will hit me like a cry baby woman they are. Girls are always noisy when heartbroken. I know for I seen that for 1000 years. All I need to do is to dismiss her quickly.
"Rei-san...I really do apologize. But...the boy you are referring to is special."
However Rei is not my 'Rei' anymore. She dared to ask twice, I do not like repeating myself. Really.
"Do you...love him?"
I paused for a moment. Since I was a bit curious if I even do love the boy. My plaything...my captive. Then again I realize, I do not need to hesitate and press the smooth lie I intend to do in the first place.
"Yes I do."
I thought it was my imagination. Kamado Tanjiro, in the corner of my eyes...He looked like he was taken back from somewhere in his mental state. He was...having crystal eyes.
Maybe because he feels the pang of being slap. I decided to pull him out of it. I pulled him to go out with me. Only for Rei to speak again, such questions...such annoying questions!
"Tanjiro-san...do you love my Tsukahiro that's why you seduce him...?"
I did not want to hear it. Whether Tanjiro will answer yes or no. I do not wish to confirm whatever he feels for me. It will get in the way of this charade.
After all, nobody can love myself more than I do. No human can even make me sway...or so I thought.
When we got back to Infinity Fortress of mine, the boy was quiet. I may admit am a bit concern on his mental state. After all he is just a human being, capable of guilt. I was happy that I do not need to do unnecessary killing to ditch my playhouse.
Tanjiro is looking at nothing. His head is lowered, his gaze were glimmering. I believe I got to ask what's wrong or else he might get sick again or what.
"What's wrong...?" I spoke. But he did not respond at all. I went near him and tug him a bit. "Does the slap hurt and the punches?" I mean, it must be it. A physical body pain. But then again, he is a slayer. That should be a scratch, not something so painful.
I waited. I did not want to hit him as he had already got hit so much by Rei.
Tanjiro...finally he opened his mouth, what makes me offended is that he did not look at me at all. Rude as ever...
"Can you...leave me be for a while...?" He sounded so weak. Seriously, human's are too sensitive. Whenever there's like family,friendship,romantic problems, they tend to drown themselves from guilt and pain.
Why can't they love themselves like I love myself? I tap my fingers, I want him to further explain. "And why is that~?"
Tanjiro then he touch his own arms for comfort. He closed his eyes with frowning eyebrows. "I...I just need some time alone..."
I did not response, I want to stare at him. But he isn't opening his eyes at all. I crossed my arms and breath in my nose. I want him to realize to give me a proper summary why.
Tanjiro slowly opened his eyes but he never looked at me. At least I can see his glittery eyes now. They look so fragile. 'Why is he tearful...? Did he felt so much shame lying to my wife and child...?'
How troublesome. "Please...Muzan-sama."
I blinks. I can't believe he will act formal with me so that he can run away. I coaxes him, maybe I was too pushy and uncaring. "Tanjiro-kun, you do not need to add 'sama' for me to let you be..." I softly touch his stiff shoulders. "I'm just curious...Why are you making such face?"
Tanjiro snaps his head and observed my face. I was also able to observe how bad was the slap he got from Rei. I couldn't help but cup his cheeks and apply soft pressure on his skin. "I guess you need some ice."
Tanjiro who had been silent like a puppy, he opened his mouth again. He had a heavy sighs. "Muzan, I...I just need to rest. Please?"
I'm not that dense. I know he need's space. I guess he won't answer why he had such teary eyes...
For some reason my heart felt like it is being squish whenever he makes that face.
I saw him in his negative facial expression...This shouldn't be new at all. Yet it felt alien he was this weak...I know he is pathetic, but not so weak.
"Alright. Go to your room." He shook his head and immediately he walk to the other direction where it leads to his room.
"Such a weird kid~"
When I turn my back, I spotted Akaza happen to pass by. I called him. "Akaza."
Akaza quickly kneels and poise himself. "I did not notice you were back Muzan-sama." I was thinking what to do next, since Tanjiro had been a real good boy...I guess I will leave him for now...
"Akaza, bring Tanjiro his meals as always." I started to walk away. Akaza obeyed as I expect him to do so. "Yes Muzan-sama."
And I went to my room.
I took a bath and changed to my red bathrobe. The white robe is owned by Tanjiro. I sat at my chair and for some reason...My conversations and time I had spent with Tanjiro were flashing before me.
(("Searching for a flower that you cannot even prove of it existing...Is like looking for a medicine to turn back a demon to become human..."))
His face, his voice, his appearance, his scent, his taste, his personality...his everything seems to interest me and drives me crazy. I miss him already but same time I don't want to spend my precious time too much on someone else.
I couldn't unseen his sad face. "Really what is wrong with him?" I talk to no one.
"No actually what is wrong with me?"
Why do I feel like I had to apologize for making him take all the blame from my wife...?
I looked at the mirror in my room. I don't look beautiful by my emotions, but my skin looked healthy. "His blood is actually tasty than Marechi." I touch my fangs. I recalled another memory.
(("L-love is... love is kissing! Muzan! I mean...I noticed it, you don't kiss me much...w-whenever you do it. All you do it humping on me...No! I mean, I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU. You don't even know how kiss works!?"))
"He did not like the way I kiss...is he telling me I suck at kissing...?"
Recalling the definition of love from the distant...
(("...[blank]...It will come to you Hirotsuki-san! You hate each other guts to the point of wanting to ruin the other's life! But then,out of nowhere you will be hypnotize to abide what is right for that person's well being even though you hated it...!~"...[blank...]...))
"Such a headache."
The next day passed. Akaza told me Kamado Tanjiro is lying on his bed. I guess I will let him rest as much as he like.
Another day had went by. I decided to drop by his room. "Tanjiro-kun...?" I knock at the door before I slide it. "I'm going to enter..."
What I found is, he was sleeping soundly at his bed. "You aren't sick right...?" Like an automatic caretaker, My cold hands went to his forehead where his demon slayer mark is very visible. "He's temperature is fine..." I frown as I cannot understand why is he so tired.
"Hey Tanjiro are you awake-Uwaa!"
Behind me was Daki. She stumbled and ended up kneeling. She was embarrass and afraid. "M-Muzan-sama! Forgive my interruption." I was not in the mood to get angry at something so low. I spared her, "Worry not. Nothing is happening."
I walked out of the room, Daki dared to open her thoughts. "Did you and Tanjiro had a quarrel?"
I stop at my tracks and decided to pay attention to her. "What do you mean by quarrel?" I'm not mad...In fact, I wanted to know more about human emotion and pleasure. Since Daki is very well experience in that field.
I decided to talk to her. "Tell me more about it Daki." Daki nods and closes the door to Tanjiro's room so that he won't be disturbed. "Muzan-sama...do you like Tanjiro?"
I cross my arms, but I let Daki know I won't punish her. She can share me her thoughts. "Uhh...you see Muzan-sama. Too much sex can ruin someone's appetite. Or it can make them become a sex addict..."
"Hohh~ is that so?" Well that is amusing. I always thought it was just inborn to humans to be lustful, to breed. So is Daki telling me Tanjiro is experiencing lost moments?
"Then what is Tanjiro-kun is...?"
Daki is now hesitating. I narrowed my eyes. "Talk, I won't be angry. Be honest with me." I commanded her. Daki wipes her sweat drops and told me. "Muzan-sama...I think Tanjiro is in the middle. He is loosing something he previously felt on his body and it disappeared. I mean he always struggle when you guys d-do it right?"
"Yes he did, and then...?"
"And now his body might be aching for it...making him confuse on his heart and mind. I mean rather...his sexuality." She scratch her face a bit as fidgeting. "He is in depression state...He will collect himself, just give him time to realize his inner demons."
I stared at Daki. I think I heard enough. "So basically I should stop touching him for a while till he gets it done?"
Daki nods again. "Y-yes...otherwise he might get crazy."
So...Kamado Tanjiro is a sensitive teenager. I guess that's normal.
"Alright, I will trust your tip. You are now dismiss."
But she added something more. "Muzan-sama you seem to have change."
I shot her a look, "What exactly?"
Daki did not hesitate, she was rather looking happy for a second before she pretended to be emotionless.
"Muzan-sama has become nicer. That is why Tanjiro started to like you than hate..."
My world shakes.
...
Returning to my room. I focus my thoughts...
'If it is true that he likes me...Do I like him back...?'
My demons likes me because I made them. But I do not recall doing anything nice for Kamado Tanjiro to like me.
How did Daki came up with that conclusion?
Should I ask him...?
Should I ask the Demon Slayer his questions...?
"What is love...?"
Thinking about how the boy looks like right now at his room.
"What is again your definition or love..? Tanjiro-kun..."
Will he still love me If I stop being nice?
Only I can love myself fully.
Nobody can...nobody can love me.
Anyone's POV
Beneath the beautiful moonlight. Only the two of them are in this bridge. The moon walker, the demon who can never walk in the sun. The other hand is a Sun of the Breath user, a slayer who vowed to slay him.
But now, tables had not turn at all...instead the table in between them disappeared when the boy said it.
"Tsuki ga...kirei desune?"
Muzan blinks. He faced the lad to hear it one more time. "Pardon...?" only for the young man to repeat himself in a more firm question.
"Ne, Muzan...Tsuki ga kirei to...omou wanai...?" Meant the Moon is very beautiful to night isn't.
Muzan's eyes widen. He lived for 1000 years, and he knew various way to confess someone their love. He wondered if Tanjiro whose no girlfriend since birth would know about it. I mean, is he really that ignorant than Muzan assumed?
'Does he know what it means of 'Tsuki ga Kirei Desune' or is he really asking me if the moon is bright and beautiful?'
The cold wind whispered in Muzan's ears, either the boy knows what he is saying or not. He cannot deny the fact that the moon is indeed the biggest, the loveliest one he sees at this time of year. And so the man replied, "Yes indeed...the moon sure is beautiful," though, noticing the sorrowful features of the boy, Tanjiro seems to be downed on something he couldn't guess.
So he thought to tease the boy by saying,"~However you are more beautiful than the moonlight Tanjiro-kun~" smirking, "You are my sun...my own sun~" he intend it as a tease. He thought Tanjiro would furiously blush like he would always do.
Instead, Tanjiro went closer to his private space and he closed his eyes. Muzan got more confuse when Tanjiro marched his lips forward. That kind of gesture implies that you gotta kiss the other right? "Tanjiro-kun...?" but Tanjiro remained on that gesture. He was waiting for the man to do something. Muzan decided not to think too deeply as it is New Year's eve. Maybe Tanjiro thought to change as a new year resolution?
"Tanjiro-kun," Muzan leans forward to kiss the boy, when their lips met...Tanjiro surprisingly kisses back by smooching to his firm lips. Tanjiro even mumbles while kissing back. "Kiss me more...do it like you usually do." Muzan's eyes were glimmering, he must admit the way Tanjiro requested to be violated was unintentionally turning on. Still though, he wonder what's up with him? "Hmm~" Muzan himself moaned when Tanjiro's hands cupped his cheeks, Tanjiro had himself on tip toes cause Muzan is rather tall.
Muzan noticed it so he adjusted his height by bending a little, "Mmmuzan..." the man snaked his hands to Tanjiro's waist, his right hand crawled on the boy's back to reach the short red hair behind the boy's neck. Caressing them like Tanjiro is a little baby to be took care of.
Kissing sounds.
"You are..." still exchanging kisses, "A bit..." muffles, "Aggressive right now...Tanjiro..kun-" Tanjiro opened his mouth in attempt to get the kissing deeper.
Since the boy invited, Muzan opened his mouth too. Tanjiro initiated to put his tongue to his, in respond of course...Muzan forward his tongue into the boy's little mouth. They were exchanging their hot tongues into a beautiful french kiss. "Hmmf~"
Muzan is now feeling the heat of moment, he never actually felt it this kind of way. 'What is this...? I feel fuzzy and fluffy inside...? Kamado Tanjiro's way of kissing me back...it's making me out of breath...' he was tempting to step back, only for the boy to snake his hands to his neck. To keep their bodies close. Not to end the kiss just yet.
Tanjiro is actually using a breath technique when he made the first move to french kiss with Muzan. Tanjiro is serious on his resolve, he wanted to understand his own feelings, he wanted to understand Muzan. He wanted Muzan to also understand his idea of 'love making' is not all about thrusting and licking. There should be a kiss, a kind of kiss that is not lustful but with love.
Tanjiro is making him feel love.
How he wish Muzan get it, but the man himself is inexperienced for such emotion. He is a heartless man. It's not like the girls he make out with doesn't love him. It was Muzan himself who couldn't respond back with love.
But right now, he was kinda responding to it. Muzan is feeling the heat of love to give it back to Tanjiro. "Hn~ Tanjiro~" he purred, since the time Tanjiro kissed Muzan, both parties has not even pull out yet. Muzan is starting to feel out of breath. Tanjiro's idea of kiss is killing him. He wanted to pull out, he wanted to stop the kissing. It was getting so long, but same time he wanted to keep devouring the boy, rather he wanted Tanjiro to keep on devouring him whole.
A killing kiss move. Tanjiro is in his total concentration breath, is that why he hasn't run out of breath?
Muzan had given up, he doesn't think Tanjiro will stop by any moment. "Mmff~!" He gently push the boy's leaning chest, causing Tanjiro's snaked up hands to his neck to be remove. "...!" Tanjiro gasp when the kiss was broke. Muzan is surprised, Tanjiro is also out of breath. Muzan and Tanjiro were panting together, they were trying to catch the oxygen that almost dissipate in the air.
"Hahh...hahh," Muzan still panting under his breath, he never felt such intimacy before. He never felt this kind of incident where he was the one blushing and feeling cornered. He gulps down the saliva he got from exchanging deep kiss.
'Who is this? Is this Tanjirou?' Were his thoughts.
Tanjiro who had some saliva dripping from his mouth, slurped it up. Tanjiro look so cute, he had a bashful face. "W-what's wrong Muzan...?" the boy ask, Tanjiro wipes his mouth as he couldn't gulp the rest of their exchanged saliva. "A-aren't we going to continue...?"
Panting.
Muzan is not aware that his cheeks were actually red from the invitation. "You...you don't mind?" he looked around to see if anyone is here. "Were on a bridge." he told him. Tanjiro rolled his eyes, "So what?" Tanjiro grabs his own arm to feel comfortable, the wind in this bridge is too cold.
Baffled. Muzan reach out to Tanjiro, "Then don't blame me if we've been spotted~" he began snipping on Tanjiro's neck as he tries to expose the boy's chest. "Ah...!" Tanjiro moaned. Muzan is bewildered, but he perish the thoughts to point them out and proceed to fully send butterfly kisses on Tanjiro's exposed neck, nape then his collar bones.
Tanjiro is moaning more and more. "Hnn...N-not there- ahh..." were Tanjiro's faint pleadings. Muzan is totally perplex. Previously, Tanjiro will try so hard not to even let out a single dirty sound, sure he will moan time to time he pleasure's him. But Tanjiro never actually moan without controlling the volume.
Tanjiro didn't seem to care on covering up his pleasure. "You...what are you up to?" he stopped on kissing the boy's body. Tanjiro averted his eyes when Muzan's eyes trying to contact his. Tanjiro is still embarrass.
"W-what? Aren't you happy...?" Tanjiro slowly turns to face him, trying to be bold and brave. Tanjiro's eyes were being honest with a written frown in eyebrows. "Here I thought you agree that the moon is pretty..." Tanjiro's lips pouted.
Muzan chuckles, "My~my~ What a naughty boy you had become~?" Muzan pulled Tanjiro's hand's, the boy was startled and obviously had popping question mark. Muzan smiled at the lad and assured him. "Let's go somewhere more private~"
Reaching the forest side, they found a tree. Under the tree, Muzan got closer to Tanjiro's half naked body. "Let's continue shall we~?"
Tanjiro obeyed, he let Muzan remove his haori, his kimono, until his chest is not only expose, also his armpit and arms. Tanjiro slightly covered his nipples though. Muzan laughs at the sight, "What are you being shy now~? When earlier you were aggressive~" Tanjiro glared at him and pointed out why. "Why am the only one naked...!? S-strip too...! I-idiot!"
Muzan blinks. Tanjiro got irritated and charged to strip Muzan's black haori and black kimono. "I said strip too!"
"E-eh, Wait up Tanjiro-kun-" before he could stop the boy, Tanjiro manage to partly strip him naked. Seeing Muzan's bare chest is so pale, Tanjiro unconsciously touched them and leaned to rest as he commented. "You know what...your body is cold." Tanjiro pressed his lips together at the lingering guilt.
'Yes...you had been always cold at me, physically, mentally and spiritually...cold like the winter how I lost my family...'
Muzan is unsure if that is a compliment or an insult. "You mean...because I'm a demon?" waiting for the boy to elaborate. Tanjiro looks up to him with sincere eyes. Tanjiro...actually let out a smile.
A smile he did not deserve as painted in bright day, Kamado Tanjiro had finally shown him a smile appreciation!
"Don't get it the bad way. Muzan, your body is very cold a contrast to my body's heat." Tanjiro caresses his chest to feel the skin of Muzan. "But lately...I just notice you are becoming warm. I kinda like the cold part though..." Tanjiro shrugs,"..but who cares...?" The smile returned.
But the smile at the end was a bit sad.
When Tanjiro said his body is warm, Muzan touched his own chest as Tanjiro's hand's were placed on it. 'Hn? Now that he mention...am warm...? Why am warm...?' every time Muzan is being a sick pervert, he get's turned on but never got a warm temperature. He's a demon, he's infact dead. How weird that doing this with Tanjiro made him warm...?
Or is it cause by consuming Tanjiro's sun blood made some adjustment to his body...? Muzan is about to know sooner what changes happen when he had taken Tanjiro's blood.
"Anyhow..." Says Tanjiro, "Mmm~" Tanjiro sucks onto Muzan's nipples, causing the older man moaned loud. "T-Tanjiro-kun~?!" he did not expect Tanjiro to willingly send pleasure to him. "You.." he decided to watch the boy as he get's the 'pleasure' session.
Tanjiro is massaging his chest, licking and sucking his nipples. Tanjiro's free hand eventually made their way down to Muzan's crotch and started to stroke it. Muzan is getting hard. "You've become good...huh~" he wanted to praise the good boy. But Tanjiro is so busy on pleasuring him. Muzan decided to grab Tanjiro's shoulder's and flips him to turned around, to face the tree.
"Eh Muzan but why-mmff!" Tanjiro's mouth was been invaded by Muzan's finger. Muzan's body rested on Tanjiro's small back. The man whispered on his ears sending shiver's to his spine. "Make it wet...so wet before we proceed~" licking the boy's ear's, and even accidentally licking the Hanafuda earrings. "Make sure to make it not painful for you~"
Tanjiro seems to nod and work's his mouth and tongue to soak Muzan's manly silky finger's with his saliva. "Mmmuzan..." he says his name while sucking. Muzan also kept on kissing the back of Tanjiro's neck as his right hand massaging Tanjiro's exposed chest, then Muzan's left hand's were pleasure the boy's member from the back. "Good~good~ that's how you do it Tanjiro-kun~"
When Muzan received more than enough sticky saliva. Muzan put's the finger's to Tanjiro's anus. "Ghh!" Tanjiro of course arched his back and buried his face to the tree trunk. He moaned in pleasure from a simple fingering sensation. "M-Muzan..." he gasping his name, Muzan is too hungry now. "Why are you making me hard Tanjiro-kun~? You are different tonight~" removing the boy's hakama pant's as he removes his own hakama too. "Not that I hate it~"
He made his penis straight and entered Tanjiro's hole. "Eeff-" Tanjiro whimpered as Muzan's thing were kinda bigger than usual. "W-woah...!" he clung to the tree, "W-why is it so big...?!" he had some sweat drops. Muzan ignored his question and proceed to thrust in and out. "Ah,ah,ah...!" it's not like Muzan was being rough, Tanjiro was just letting his moan more open than he used too.
'I do not want to hide it anymore...I do not wish to reject it anymore...' Tanjiro's eyes glimmered with sorrow though, 'That this man...this monster had become something my body want's...' closing his eyes as he felt tighter when Muzan had started from slow and gentle thrust into faster and hard ones. 'He has made my heart submit unwillingly...so cruel...' Remember he vowed to never submit? It was all a big joke now. "Nnnh..."
Tanjiro used to deny the pleasure, Muzan knows because he touched him many times. But why now? Why is Tanjiro responding back? He wasn't doing all the work this time. Tanjiro is helping him by allowing him to penetrate him properly, a good body posture while the boy is embracing the tree trunk in pain. "Haah, hah, aahh~" Making out in public like this without Tanjiro protesting, how bold. "Muzan...deeper...deeper. make me yours, take my everything..." he even chanted and beg.
Muzan is sweating himself, he was a hard rock. "Tanjiro..." as their panting collide more loud and clear. Tanjiro starts to hiss and squeeze his own breathing pattern. "U-um..."
Muzan can guess why, "You're gonna come soon huh~?"
Tanjiro glanced at him, trying to see Muzan's lustful stare. "I-I think so." eventually he came, to his surprise Muzan also came. He was shock that he couldn't resist his voice to yell in surprise. "Ahh!? Y-you came too?!" Muzan himself is stunned at his own body. Tanjiro flopped like a fish from the rushing fluids entering his stomach. Tanjiro clawed on the tree more, "S-so many...! Why is it so hot...! I-I can't...urgh..."
Getting weak legs. Muzan pulls out, to his surprise once more, Tanjiro turned around and clutches to him with a small request. "Please do it again, The moon is still bright..." Heavy breathing, Tanjiro is clinging to him like his life will fade away if they stop too early.
Muzan decided to acknowledge the request.
"Tanjiro..."removing the 'kun', Muzan pinned Tanjiro to the tree trunk. Tanjiro spread his leg's and made an eye contact to his demon irises. "Am yours Muzan...So don't hold back..." respecting the kid's request. Muzan went ahead to fuck him again. This time, a bit rougher, Tanjiro is giving all his moaning's so turning on, he calls him repeatedly. "Muzann..ahh..Mmuzan ah," he started to whimper with visible tears. Muzan fix Tanjiro's bangs that happen to hide his exhausted face. He was a bit concern on him."Why are you crying~? Does it still hurts? No matter how many times I penetrate you~?"
He was actually feeling worried on this boy suddenly becoming so obedient and thirsty for him.
Tanjiro embraced Muzan in response. "Aaaaah~" He clawed on the man's back as he was hurting. "N-no, I'm okay..just please don't stop now..." Tanjiro buried his flushed face in Muzan's neck. He sniffs the man's scent, in process he was actually crying now. "Just for tonight..."
'Just for tonight love me Muzan. Love me not by my body, but by what I make you feel for this beautiful moonlight...!' He couldn't say it out loud. He was still afraid, afraid what will Muzan do and say if he pushes to have love in intercourse.
It was not a sadistic sex. It was a love for Tanjiro.
"~Tanjiro...Tanjiro...Tanjiro..." huff, huff,
"Muzan...Muzan...Muzan...!" Hump, hump,
Calling each other's name. Muzan is reaching his climax. "Hey~" he turned his head, but Tanjiro is hiding on his neck. "Look at me," because Tanjiro is hugging onto to him. In this sitting position, Muzan leg's were working more hard than usual.
"I-I can't look at you." Tanjiro whimpers. "Please don't look at me..." the finger nails were scratching Muzan's pale backbones. Muzan twitch when he felt the pain, he realizes blood were sipping through his skin.
Tanjiro is having some mental struggle inside him. 'I don't want to be notice...yet I want you to notice. I'm afraid I will go to hell now...I had fallen this far...thinking it was the best night...'
Sensing the boy is trembling.
"Why are you so afraid Kamado Tanjiro~?" He keeps on penetrating the boy, as Tanjiro kept his koala cuddle position. "Why are you making me feel this way~?" Muzan narrow his eyes in a way of huge confusion he get from the slayer. "What is this were doing right now~? Hey..."
Huge heaves, Muzan decided to bite Tanjiro's shoulders to drink some blood. "Ow!" The boy hissed but still had not let go on hiding from the man's sight reach. It was a very small voice...a very small life had stick to him so much.
Muzan warned the boy as he thinks he will reach his climax and pour the lad more of his semen. "It's coming Tanjiro~ brace yourself...!"
When Muzan released his climax, Tanjiro cried out, "Guagh..!" he was really in heat. He sobs as he keep on hugging the man. Muzan too, when he came -he embraces Tanjiro tight, enjoying the very warm body of him. Expected from the Sun of Breath user.
"There~there~" he pat his back. "It's over now. It's getting a bit late...Let's return to the Infinity Fortress~~"
Tanjiro is still sniffing and sobbing, "Um...Tanjiro?" Tanjiro un-clawed the man's skin and made his hands flat to feel the masculine body. "Muzan...I...I like you..."
Tanjiro accidentally says it, that he loves him. 'Eh...?' Muzan froze, but he continued to listen. Tanjiro had stop hugging and he grabbed his shock face. Tanjiro gave him a very sad smile. "This is the shape of my 'love' that I had been referring too..." his thumbs pressing to Muzan's cheeks. "Did you...like it?"
Tanjiro keep his smile on his lips despite the streaming tears and sniffing. "Do you understand it...Muzan?"
Muzan blinks again and his plum red car pupils were widening. "Love..." Muzan shook his head. "So...Daki is right, you do have feelings of love towards me...Is that it...?"
Seeing Tanjiro kept the straight honest face. Muzan gently pulls away, technically pulling out his thing and getting dressed. Tanjiro understood that he needs to get dress.
'How could you say it so boldly Kamado Tanjiro...? Are you attacking me? Are you taking advantage of my ignorance of such emotion...?'
Muzan is debating if he feels the same. He was prideful. He wanted to deny his feelings for the boy, because he is unsure. Because all this time he loved himself dearly.
Yet the flamboyant boy seems to erase all rational thoughts inside him.
Emotions.
Muzan is gaining critical emotions.
The two became awkwardly silent as they finish dressing up their naked bodies. Then,
"Ah! I-It's K-Kibutsuji Muzan!" Muzan and Tanjiro turned to the location of the voice. Tanjiro quickly stood, his heart pumped in fear...
Because a Mizunoto Demon Slayer pointed his Nichirin blade to Muzan.
'Why of all times a demon slayer is here...?!' Wanting to calm the guy down. Tanjiro is unsure how, because Demon Slayer are trained that they must kill all demons they spot regardless why and when.
"Y-you must die...!" The slayer shot a look to Tanjiro. "You! You get away from him! This person is a demon...!" Moving forward to Muzan whose just standing still unfazed. Tanjiro raised his hands for attention. He warned him, "Wait! Don't ! He is...he is not on your level!"
But the Demon Slayer was in rage. He charged forward and swung his sword. "I WONT FORGET HOW YOU EAT MY FAMILY...BECAUSE THEY WERE MARECHI EXCEPT ME! SO DIE YOU DEMON!"
"NOO! STOP!"
SMACK!
Blood splattered on Tanjiro's face. "Eh...?" The smell of oozing blood.
Muzan had simply punch the demon slayer and he flew to a tree trunk. His face had become somewhat headless as his eyeballs were on the grass. Then his body was stab by the tree spikes. Tanjiro's eyes gawk. The familiar dread crawled to his skin. He trembled by the gruesome sight. "Y-you...k-killed him..." taking near steps to the dead body.
Tanjiro know whose at fault. It was the Demon Slayer guy. Because Muzan wasn't even doing anything. He just existed here, and him making out with him. If only he told him he was a slayer too with a bit of lie that Muzan is his prey, that he does not need help.
The poor swordsman wouldn't have died.
But hearing the reason why the slayer lost his composure...is because apparently, Muzan have eaten his family directly and he happen to survive.
Tanjiro put his hands together to pray for his soul. "Sorry I couldn't help you...please rest in peace."
There were traces of blood in Muzan's fist. It was dripping. He was silent and did not bother to wipe the evidence of murdering someone tonight. Tanjiro furrowed his eyebrows. He was disappointed. "You...You could have knock him out instead of killing him..." Tanjiro was not planning to be mad at Muzan, he understand he is still a demon. He also relates to the feelings of the dead slayer. What he doesnt get why Muzan killed him. In Asakuza tokyo he did not do that to him. Muzan did not kill him when he could have to. Instead he turned some passer by to a demon to flee. Otherwise,he could have turned him to a demon instead by scratching him.
But he did not.
So why Muzan had to hurt a small fry. Tanjiro assumes he knows Muzan.
Muzan is a man who won't spare his important time to kill you if you are not that of a threat. This slayer was not even threatening. It is really weird why he gave all his strength to punch him that it exploded.
"And why should I hold back? He is the rude one who attacked me. I consider it as self defense." It was been a while he heard such a detach monotonous voice from this demon.
"I can see that...! Still! Why do you have to kill him? You could have allowed me to talk to him, to make him go away! To leave you be...!" The sweet air earlier they shared disappeared instantly. The moment Muzan took a life so quick. Muzan snort's an insult.
"Ok, you will tell him you are keeping me tamed so he does not have to worry? Something like that~" Muzan turned around revealing deadly red eyes, like the color of the blood in his fist. "Isn't that what you thought Kamado Tanjiro~?"
Tanjiro takes a step back, 'Why is he acting weird...? Muzan's scent, it smells like he is...afraid of me...?'
Hostility had become the new atmosphere, Muzan started that presence.
Because Muzan is too sarcastic. Tanjiro yelled at him, scolding the man. "Do you not remember who were the people you have eat and the people you had simply killed...?! If you do not remember or if you do not count at all...Just at least do not add more numbers! He wasn't even that strong to kill you...!"
Muzan walked closer and closer as Tanjiro keep taking back steps. "Tanjiro~You said you love me. Can you even still say that if I do this to you~?"
So fast, Muzan appeared in front of him. Sharp claws to slice his face. "W-WHA-?!"
SLASH!
CLANG!
Good thing the un-used Nichirin blade is within Tanjiro's reach. He duck down and grab the sword to defend himself.
WHOOSH!
Slicing some of Muzan's hair strand. Tanjiro remembered he was a Demon Slayer. 'Wow...my body still remember's the flow of breath swordsman ship...?'
It has been like forever the last time he hold a sword. Amazed at his own reflex. Muzan did not hesitate to attack him only by his sharp extended claws.
WHOOSH!
WHIIISH!
WHOOSH!
"W-Wait up!" Tanjiro blocks all of Muzan's sharp claws by the blade he stole from the dead slayer. 'He is...he is serious on killing me...?!' Tanjiro knew Muzan is a demon lord. But he cannot comprehend what made Muzan attack him like this. Usually he will be rape or smack in the face.
Never like this.
Muzan had visible vein pops on his face and arms. He mocks the boy, "Just because you said your feelings for me, does not mean I will adjust for you further Tanjiro~! Let us see if you can still say the word 'love' in my face if I do these evil things to you~ make sure to carve it to your very bone...!"
CRACK.
Tanjiro was able to block the claws. But not the sudden punch Muzan made at his abdomen. His rib just broke.
"Ack!?" He coughs blood. Tanjiro still manage to land in defense though. "M-Muzan...!" Stabbing the sword to the ground for him to be able to stood. "W-what is wrong with you...?" Spitting some blood. His thoughts were thinking deeply on why is Muzan being a unreasonable jerk. Such mood swing.
Muzan gave him a blank look and spat. "That is my line~What is wrong with you~?"
Tanjiro got triggered yet he wonder why. "What do you mean?"
Muzan licks the blood in his fist. "I killed your family and you say you like me...? Haha, weren't you just confuse~?"
Muzan gave out a evil smirk. It was hostile ones. "Don't think it is healthy to consider yourself as in love to me when you are just some sex addict~?"
Tanjiro felt the rush of anger. 'Why is he saying this...?!' Muzan not long ago was gentle and brute. But then Tanjiro took a deep breath. He must not forget...the scent of Muzan is afraid of him.
Muzan arched an eyebrow as he saw Tanjiro smirks back. Tanjiro gain the power to make a stance for sword fight. "What about you Muzan~? Is love so scary that you couldn't stand it~?" Widening his smirk. "You think you'll die if you receive it?" Then turned into angry eyebrows. "Is that why you want to kill me...?!"
Muzan is in rage with loud voice. "YOU CAN NEVER MAKE ME BOW DOWN TO YOU KAMADO TANJIRO...!"
Muzan transformed.
Tanjiro readied himself with full breath focus. He moved his legs for 'samurai stance'.
"MUZAN...! YOU BIG IDIOT...!"
Tanjiro runs forward, "Mizu no kokyuu-" however Muzan snaps his finger and commanded. "Nakime to the Infinity Fortress."
"Woah!"
As the place changes. Tanjiro falls into the sky. He made a flip, ignoring the broken ribs, he properly landed on his footing with the stance of his Nichirin blade.
Muzan had fully transform to his final form. The albino long haired Muzan with tentacles. Tanjiro gritted his teeth. Muzan's monster tentacles aim to hurt him. He knows the man is serious.
Kokushibo,Douma,Kaigaku,Daki,Gyuutaro and Akaza as well Nakime is present. Out of nowhere Muzan their lord and Tanjiro the kind human is fighting with in-tension to kill each other.
"W-what?! Tanjiro?!" Daki reacted. Follow by Akaza. "He..he has a Nichirin blade...!"
Douma did not put his poker face, he had a serious and observing expression. "This is..."
Kaigaku is confuse. "Did they not love each other after doing so many sex? Why the hell are they fighting now!? Did Tanjiro lie..?!"
Kokushibo answered him. "No...what we saw in between their relationship is not a lie. Muzan-sama happen to just realize it now his feelings..." Gyuutaro nods in agreement and added. "Muzan-sama is threatened by Tanjiro's kindness."
Looking at each other. "Just like how Tanjiro shaped us..."
Akaza frowns and is worried. "Muzan-sama is a higher being who do not wish to be shaped by others...so he is denying Tanjiro..."
There was no command for them to join the battle, so none of them bothered to help Muzan on fighting Tanjiro. The Twelve Demons decided as a group to watch. They wish deeply that Muzan will not order them to fight Tanjiro...
They rather stay out of it.
"You really want to fight...Fine! I really hate you anyway, this body, this tainted me...!" Charging forward once more. Tanjiro played the water swordplay for now. "Mizu no kokyuu! Ju no kata...! Seisei Ruten!((Water Breath: Tenth Form! Constant Flux!))" is a continuous attack that increases in power with each rotation, creating a strong slash.
Gracefully cut all Muzan's tentacles. He did not expect Muzan himself to dash forward in him as he hide from the sliced up tentacles. "Shit!"
SLASH!
"Arghh!"
Muzan just now slashes his left eye. Good thing it was only his eyelids and not his own eyeball itself. Jumping backwards for distance. Tanjiro felt nostalgic in this sensation.
'Why did I forget...? That am still a demon slayer...yet...! Ahh it is no use...I was devoured by the moon...How my light, I want to share it to the hole's of this dark moon...but only at night, only at...night.'
It breaks his heart now, why he had to fight Muzan when he already lost it.
He wanted to talk it out, not violence. So he dared. "Muzan! Why are you afraid of me...?! Don't lie! I...I smell it..! You are in fear!" His voice is breaking from yelling. Because their distance right now is quite far.
Muzan made this distance between them.
Meanwhile Muzan, he was really scared how Tanjiro starts to show love, Muzan is feeling attacked in his comfort zone. He does not want to be a slave of anybody.
Because for him, falling in love is slavery.
Why is it slavery? Because...you will adjust, you will bare, you will give everything for the person you love. It is what the woman said to him, though he forgot who exactly is that...
The words bounces like a broken radio.
"~Listen, True love is that...you are willing to show your bad side to the other person, then your soft side too..It will come to you Hirotsuki-san! You hate each other guts to the point of wanting to ruin the other's life! But then,out of nowhere you will be hypnotize to abide what is right for that person's well being even though you hated it...! If you feel like not loosing that person, despite how you hate to become vulnerable. You will decide to die with her...like the Moon and Stars~"
-chap 2
Muzan thinks the only being deserves that kind of treatment is him, loving himself.
Tanjiro is consuming him.
'It is not like this...not like this...' Muzan thoughts, 'I should conquer the sun, not the sun conquering the moon...!' For him it is illegal.
Sending tentacles, getting slice by the Nichirin sword. '...Am becoming weak because of this love you utter...!'
Tanjiro's phasing in legs suddenly become slow. 'Oh no...I'm still exhausted from the 'activity' earlier...!' Wiggly legs, intercourse caused it. Muzan did not gave him a break.
Sharp tentacles had attacked him. Failing to dodge and slice them to be protected. Tanjiro made a mistake. "Argaaah!" Multiple slices he received.
Nasty cuts in his stomach, arms, cheeks, even legs. Tanjiro was bleeding. "I can't loose...! I won't let you become bad again!" He tried to reach out to Muzan.
'Muzan is still scared...the scent is becoming stronger...! Why can't be honest like I do...?! If you were honest...we won't have to suffer...!'
"~DIE~" Were Muzan's heartless response. Tanjiro cried out in frustration. 'I guess it will not work out after all...'
"How could you...!?" Muzan is now sending the threat to kill. Tanjiro took another deep breath. Changing his stance to the fire sword position. His eyes blazed.
He embraced the situation.
[['Come to think of it...Every New Year's Eve, My dad would perform the Hii No Kami Kagura Dance...haha, and here am...about to use it on the same tradition but...different reason. I'm a disgrace to my family...My prayers might be denied by the heavens as am going to hell...To where Muzan belong's. We'll be together.']]
"Hii no Kami Kokyuu! GEN',NICHI KO! ((Fire God's breath Fake Rainbow!))" Tanjiro uses this technique to evade techniques using high-speed twists and rotations. It works most effectively on enemies with good vision, as they will attack an afterimage of him and not his actual body.
Surprise at the agility of the boy. Muzan focus to capture him next.
Tanjiro successfully evading the killer tentacles. Muzan teleport's again and from behind he appeared. Tanjiro reflex to cut him.
SLASH!
Muzan received a cut in his bare chest, of course it regenerates. He yanked the boy's left arm to make him unable to swing his sword once more. "TANJIRO~I WILL NEVER BE YOUR SLAVE~!" What he says. Tanjiro tried to escape but his left arm was been twisted.
BREAK.
Tanjiro had a bit of late reaction to feel that his left arm had dislocate. He instead focus to flip the tables. He manage to hurt Muzan. "Hii no Kami Kokyuu! ENBU~! (("Fire breath the Flame Dance!))" It is a two-combo strike which starts with a vertical slash and then a horizontal one right after.
Muzan coughs blood. "Grr...TAN...JIRO...!"
When Tanjiro able to hit Muzan, that's the time he felt his left arm had been broken. "Waaaahh...!" Because he kept using breath of fire with such bloody injuries. His lungs almost explode along with the broken rib and twisted left arm. His left eye is covered with blood as early, you know it was been slashed.
He may not be able to use it for a while.
Bleeding. Muzan sent a tentacle whip. Making Tanjiro flew to the wall and hit his head. "Uagh!"
The Infinity Fortress is now spinning in his vision. He saw shapes of the Twelve Demons silently watching him and Muzan on a bloody battle...
Unable to grip on his sword. Muzan pulls his hair and lifts him up. He grunted in pain, but he looked at Muzan's hostile eyes.
Muzan is glaring at him with hallow voice. "~Now tell me, so you still love me after what I did to you...?"
Tanjiro had some blood dripping in his mouth. He must have gained a broken jaw when he was slammed to the wall. He tried to reach out with his right arm. To touch Muzan's face...he was hurt. "Mu..zan...why are you making me hate you...?"
Heavy rasp, "Is it...really that bad that I love you...?"
Muzan darkens. "Stop." He took Tanjiro's right arm, "I COMMAND YOU STOP SPOUTING NONSENSE OF LOVE!" and rip off the nails. Tanjiro screamed from the harsh pain. "Argh! Why...!" Instead of pleading to stop he was desperate on asking.
"WHY?! IF YOU DON'T FEEL THE SAME-"
Muzan rips off the nails in his left arm too. "Ghh! JUST SAY YOU DON'T LOVE ME! WHY AREN'T YOU ANSWERING MY QUESTION!?"
Muzan froze. A short space of time freeze occurred.
Muzan couldn't reject his confession directly. Tanjiro heard it but he was loosing consciousness. "Tanjiro...I..."
Fragility.
"I don't know."
The darkness consumed the boy. He fainted.
"Tanjiro...he's not dead right...?" Mumbles by Kaigaku.
Muzan held Tanjiro to a princess cradle. The Twelve Demons went to go near their master.
Akaza dared to ask. "What now..? Where are you taking him?"
The monstrous form of Muzan reverted slowly to his humane form. He did not look at his demons. But he did told them his plan.
"I will put him back home. Where 'love' exists..."
He returned Tanjiro to Ubuyashiki quarters.
At Pillar's Hideout...
Kagaya Ubuyashiki and his family who happen to survived the day Muzan had invade their territory. Is fully recovered. Also Zenitsu's grandpa who had performed harakiri survived. Everyone is alive and well.
Not only that, Zenitsu and Inosuke got promoted to become a pillar along with Genya and Kanao.
It's New year's eve. Every year end, to everyone who still survives from their killing demon missions, they get rewarded for relaxation. That is how generous Ubuyashiki is to their slayers, so that tomorrow they can still smile with pride within.
Before 1 year passed. Murata had reported them that Tanjiro is actually alive and well. What made them curious and worried is how Murata said, Tanjiro refused to go home with him. Tanjiro refused to be rescued.
Only thing they can think of, is the deal Tanjiro made with Muzan.
Of course they know, there were present that day. In the Infinity Fortress, Muzan said...if Tanjiro will allow him to conquer him, he will stop bothering the Demon Slayer's.
They had doubt that. To their surprises the demon incident actually decreased...but of course not totally zero.
Thank's to Tanjiro's sacrifice, the Demon Slayer's gain time to bond with each other. Usually they are all busy not dying, busy being serious, busy being matured.
It was a lone-wolf life, yet of course...it varies. Some were happy on what they do like Rengoku Kyoujiro. Not a day he had been bored, not a day he had been worried for his life. He lives as a hero even if the people would never know their existence.
So tonight New Year's eve is a feast. There were sake and grand delicious food. Free massages and sauna.
Everyone is having fun. Maybe you wonder why nobody had become depress from Tanjiro? It's not true. All of them are sad, but it won't make them stop to move forward. They had their mission.
Life moves on, even if one by one they get pluck and rot like the flowers.
Everyone knows they must keep on living.
Not to waste Tanjiro's sacrifice.
They were having an outdoor feast party. The low ranked Demon Slayer's were having party inside the Ubuyashiki mansion, but for special troupe like the Pillar's were being held outside. They do this so that if there's a Demon Attack while they are having fun, they can eliminate quickly the threats.
"It's been a year isn't...?" Shinobu said out of nowhere as Giyuu is drinking his cup of wine. Giyuu glanced at the smaller woman and replied. "Tanjiro...I wonder how is he...?" Then gazed at the moon. "Murata said, he looks well..."
Shinobu fixes her hair strand's and said, "Judging from how Muzan took him in the Infinity Fortress, we can assume he is threaten. Like he might be in blackmail, or basically...Muzan has human hostage." smiling but feeling the anger inside. "Isn't that why they are called demon's...~ Nee! Tomioka-san~!"
Teasing the man. Giyuu did not react. He keep his gaze to the moon. Shinobu fell silent before she spoke. "The moon sure is lovely tonight isn't, Tomioka-san~?"
Shinobu had always like Giyuu deeply. However the man is so dense to notice how she feels. She always say this phrase to him, waiting for him to realize the deeper meaning of it...But to her disappointment. Giyuu's head is nothing but Tanjiro's. He said again.
"Tanjiro, How I wish he was here."
Shinobu hid her expression of hurt, and kept the fake smile. "Hahaha~ Would you rather have the moon time with Tanjiro than I~" clenching her fist. Giyuu now notice something is wrong with Shinobu. He finally looked at her. "Kochou...?"
Shinobu looks away, "Nothing~ I guess you swing that way~! Bye bye!"
With that Shinobu made her escape to hide that she was heartbroken. 'Tomioka-san likes...Tanjiro-kun doesn't he...?'
...
"Drink more! WEAKLING! KYAHAHAHA!" Zenitsu got shove by a bottle with Inosuke's hand. "S-stop it you drunk...!" pushing Inosuke away, Inosuke hics. "JUST SAY YOU CANNOT DEFEAT ME CAUSE I'M STROOONGG~~"
Zenitsu cover's his ears. "So noisy...!"
And made his way to escape the drunk Inosuke. Kyoujiro whose drunk too, drinks up the whole sake. "Hm~! Hm~! Taste good!" noticing Zenitsu escaping. Uzui pulled Zenitsu's arm and choke him. "~oi! ~oi! Flamboyance ninja escaping huh~?" grips, "Ow! ow! Uzui-san let me g-go...! You stink!"
Uzui pokes Zenitsu's face harder. "There~there! Only Ninja can escape! Not coward like you!" he was obviously drunk. "Kyahaha!" he laughs. Kyoujiro patted Uzui's shoulder's to help Zenitsu. "Now, now don't tease the juniors too much." smiling. Uzui hics and release Zenitsu.
"Kyoujiro you are too easy on these new pillars...They should learn to be like Tanjiro, a hard working obedient boy-" Uzui vomits. Kyoujiro jumps away. "HEY!"
Rainbows.
Kyoujiro maybe drunk but he still had control on his feelings. He decided to take some fresh air. Not noticing that Zenitsu followed him.
"Taking a deep breath...?"
Looking behind, it was The Lightning Pillar Zenitsu. Kyoujiro welcomed him of course to join him, despite wanting to be actually 'alone' for a 'me time.' "Yep! Taking proper breathing will always calm your heart down...~!"
Making a sad face. "Kamado my boy...I wonder how is he doing in his captive...?" Kyoujiro looks at the moon, it was so bright and big. "One year...It was that long he had been taken away. Has he become a demon...? Or has he become a slave...?" looking now at his palms, if only he was stronger he could have pulled Tanjiro from Muzan's tentacles that day. "Or is he...having a good time...?"
The way Murata explained how Tanjiro look's like. Tanjiro did look stress, same time he looked normal. There were no visible anguish on Tanjiro's face. Except the 'fear'. "If only we can find him."
Zenitsu crosses his arms to focus as well to the moon. "Murata said Tanjiro refuses to be rescued...It must have been very serious that he couldn't find his way out. Whatever Muzan threatened him, "he looks at Kyoujiro. "I bet it's for Nezuko-chan's safety. After all Muzan intend to eat...her...but he took him in her stead."
The bloodied haori, they thought Tanjiro is dead. Thanks to Murata reporting how he encountered Tanjiro, they had hope to find him again. But one year passed. Tanjiro is again nowhere to be spotted.
Finally the wind blows. Kyoujiro got alert. Zenitsu who instead hears someone's footsteps on the grass.
Kyoujiro unsheathe his Nichirin blade. "Whose there?!"
Zenitsu focused his ears. "This...heartbeat..." he knows the difference of human heart and demon heart.
He heard a demon's heartbeat. "I-It's a demon...!" Zenitsu listened more closely. "I hear...Seven of them! Seven heartbeats of a demon!"
Not realizing that Muzan had seven hearts.
Quickly Kyoujiro alerted the rest. He yells. "PILLARS! THERE IS A DEMON! QUICK! BACKUP!"
Uzui, Giyuu, Shinobu,Inosuke, Genya, Tokito who happen to be nearest run towards where Kyoijiro screamed.
Kyoujiro runs to the direction that Zenitsu points at. "Over there!"
They turned to the corner of the Ubuyashiki wide garden. Suddenly the seven heartbeat's Zenitsu hears disappeared. He stopped, making Kyoujiro stop as well.
"What's wrong?"
Zenitsu's eyes widen. Something...no a familiar hanafuda earrings were at the grass. "N-noway...are you kidding me..?"
He trembled and pointed. Kyoujiro followed where he points and gasp.
Kamado Tanjiro is laying dead at the grass it seems. He had a Nichirin sword placed near him. He was soak in blood. "Tanjiro!"
As they run forward, they had a better view of his body.
"What in the world..." Kyoujiro is furious. "Muzan did to Kamado...!"
Behind them appeared ready to battle Uzui,Shinobu,Giyuu,Genya,Tokito and Inosuke.
"Where is the enemy?!" Says Inosuke, only to also froze. The rest made loud gasp as they couldn't believe to see in Kyoujiro's arms was Tanjiro!
"My god..." Uzui twitch in disgust. "He looks horrible..!"
Giyuu slowly walked towards Tanjiro's unconscious body in Kyoujiro's arms. "Kochou! Do something...!"
Shinobu regained herself and knelt to check Tanjiro.
Genya,Tokito and Inosuke were shaken and frighten. They were waiting to hear if Tanjiro is even alive by how bloodied he looks.
Shinobu checked him and said, "He had a blow in his head, broken ribs, broken jaw, his left arm is dislocated...His nails are gone...Also his left eye, it's been scarred. He might get blind if blood not stitched soon."
Trying to remain calm, Shinobu ordered the men to carry Tanjiro inside Ubuyashiki mansion for temporary proper treatment. "Let us hurry before he lost too much blood...!"
Kyoujiro's POV
Every single day. I thought about Kamado Tanjiro. Wondering why a nice person, a honest and earnest kid like him had to go through so much suffering. When he told us his sister became a Demon and he protects her. At first I was against it...after all I saw multiple times, people...once become a demon looses all rational thoughts. Inshort you cannot trust them anymore as your family.
But he changed my point of view in the train. Truly the Kamado sibling's heart were in ablaze.
Ever-since then, I was thinking of Tanjiro more than I should. Whenever he greets me 'Aniki' with such a joyous tune. I can't help but feel fluffy inside. Maybe I was embarrass...but it continue to grow.
I was able to confirm my feelings for him when Kibutsuji Muzan had molested him in-front of us in the Infinity Fortress.
I was jealous. I wanted to be his first kiss. Who knows if he had a girlfriend before his family was massacred.
Still I was so angry...
When we were teleport back, all in my mind is how to rescue him. How to locate the Infinity Fortress. How to teleport back...
All of my hopes to rescue him shatters when Mitsuri, Inosuke and Zenitsu showed us the bloodied haori Tanjiro wear the last time we've seen him.
My anger had become venomous vengeance. I swore to slay Muzan more than I swear in the first place.
My vengeance quest faded when Murata shared us, he found Tanjiro wearing his trademark haori with a expensive looking black kimono and hakama. He seems to be well bathe and in good condition. Murata said Tanjiro was with a woman who seem to be already married.
Tanjiro insisted he cannot come home with Murata, hinting it is the woman's fault.
According to Oyakata sama who survived, Muzan shape shifts. Possible that is a wife or lover held hostage for Tanjiro to keep the deal of becoming a his property.
Murata said...Tanjiro's eyes were pleading, how Tanjiro sucks at lying that he does not know Murata...something like that.
It breaks my heart. I thought not to revenge, instead respect his decisions to be Muzan's hostage as long as he is well...
But...
The door open from a private medic room prepared for Tanjiro. Shinobu emerge then closed the door.
"How is Tanjiro?!" Everyone stood up from their seats. The party has ended as the morning dew came.
None of us were able to sleep except the drunken Mizunoto Slayers who were not alerted that a demon came by the night fest.
Shinobu look so stern that I had a bad feeling. So I talked to her while everyone listens. "Kochou...No, Shinobu. Will Tanjiro make it...?"
We anticipated the worst that he might die. However, she did not made her usual liar mask. She was not smiling. So we behaved and waited for her to be ready. She breaths in and told us...
"Tanjiro-kun is out of danger. Despite the broken body, whoever done him a fight it missed...or purposely missed his vitals..."
"Ok so he will live right?!" It was Genya whose in hurry. Sanemi tap his shoulder's to calm down.
Yes, everyone of us is present. All Pillars were assembled. Even the new age.
"There is something I'm afraid Tanjiro-kun may not recover..." this time Giyuu pressed. "What is it? Hurry and say it."
Shinobu press her lips then gain the straight face to tell us the horrifying truth what Tanjiro had experience from his captive.
"Tanjiro-kun has multiple bite marks all over his body, almost in strange part of his body too. Like his ears, his finger, his neck, his foot, his ankle, his thighs. Some were old scars...some were fresh. Ah no, the only latest bite mark was his right shoulders. I believe Muzan has been feasting on his blood." Nobody said a word, so was I. "Uhh, well...he had cuts on his stomach and the rest is like you saw...visible battle scars from a fresh fight. Then I checked his...inner private part as I notice it didn't look good."
For some reason my heart pumped. I was in fear. I had a feeling what it will be...judging how Muzan feasted on his body.
"Tanjiro-kun's anus had scars even inside the hole, some white liquid on it. His nipples also had bite marks...His 'penis' also had bite marks. Various old bruises besides the latest hits. His tongue had cuts, and his throat also had them...so, umm...Tanjiro-kun is abused."
Everyone gawk.
One person did not understand it though. It was the wild boar. He was impatient. "SUMMARIZE IT! I DON'T UNDERSTAND! WHAT HAPPEN TO TANJIRO?!"
Shinobu said it loud and clear. "Tanjiro is rape by Muzan for 1 year. Nonstop."
My vision went dark. Mitsuri notice the change of my atmosphere. She called me...
"K-Kyoujiro-kun? Master?" I was her mentor as a slayer when she was assigned as a pillar. She knows me well than the rest.
I shakes my head, wanting to deny what I had heard. "Did Murata lied...? He said during the 'six month' period. Tanjiro is well."
Shinobu kept her frown. "If there is no head injury. Only Tanjiro's face looks clean." Shinobu embraced her anger inside. "Tanjiro bare so much for us to lessen the Demon Attacks...for us to be happy. I would never understand why he did not kill himself. I would have harakiri if that will be my fate."
When she finished, everyone let out their own emotion. Some cried like Mitsuri,Gyomei,Genya,Zenitsu.
Some were silent or down to earth like Obanai, Kanao,Iguro. Some face were darken like Giyuu and Sanemi.
Some cry in anger not tears , it was Inosuke.
And I was...none of it. I was too shock that I cannot produce emotions how to react at the disgusting idea of torture Muzan had.
Truly a demon!
About to walk out, Shinobu drawn our attentions once more. She warned us. "If ever Tanjiro-kun wakes up...if he even wanted to wake up at all. Expect him to be distress, confused, angry, bipolar, worst would be him becoming mute and emotionless. Try not to touch him, he is a rape victim...He might be suicidal too...please visit him with 'space'. You cannot treat him like you used too. But sometimes, maybe he might pretend nothing ever happen is also a sign of mental break...now excuse me."
After all that note. Everyone went back to what they must do.
For now we let Tanjiro rest.
The very next day, Oyakata-sama held up a meeting. We were discussing about the sudden arrival of Tanjiro.
When we talked about the cruelsome torture he experienced from Muzan, Oyakata-sama's face were feeling the boy's pain. He suggest to Shinobu to move Tanjiro somewhere Muzan cannot locate.
The Butterfly estate.
The kakushi had gently put Tanjiro to the medic bed and manually brought him to the Butterfly Estate.
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1 week has passed, Kamado Tanjiro has not woken up. Shinobu said something about his mental state when some of us had the free time to visit him.
"I believe Tanjiro-kun does not wish to wake up...It would help if all of you can give him encouraging words while he is unconscious."
'Inspiring words...to make him want to wake up...?' I was a bit lost. The only words I can tell him is to set his heart ablaze.
However that may no longer work if his spirit is broken along with his physical body.
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I entered the room where Kamado my boy is sleeping. "Excuse me for visiting...~" As I paid my respect. I sat at the free chair. I took the chance to stare at him.
Tanjiro is wearing the hospital gown. He had bandages and patches all over his body, his head, his jaw.
According to Shinobu, despite the injuries...It should actually only take 3 days for him to gain consciousness before collapsing again.
However it was been one week. "Kamada my boy..." I whispered, I decided to place my hand to his chest, I wanted to make sure that he is alive and breathing.
His heartbeat was so faint. I frowns, "Set your heart ablaze...If you do..." But I did not sound confident enough when I said it.
It is not like am not used to talk to unconscious people,I did this to my mom when she fell so ill that she couldn't open her eyes anymore.
It just doesn't sit up right to Tanjiro. Maybe I should call him by his first name...since it is just him and I right now in this room.
I put the courage to, "Tan...jiro..." as I moved my hands from his chest to his broken left arm, aiming to comfort the left hand itself with bandages. Knowing there are no finger nails on it.
It breaks me so dearly. "Hurry and wake up...please wake up for Aniki. Please show me your smile that never wavers..." I was crying inside, but because am a man. Tears are not necessarily needed to be shed so easily.
I had to be strong. "We will wait for you...Once you do, let's have a private time together.. "
'How I wish to tell you of how much I love you.'
Anyone's POV
One month has passed. Tanjiro's comma state has not change. Everyday the butterfly caretaker's will bathe him, feed him by tube, clean him if he had toilet issues, dress him up, replace the bed-sheets. Then watch over him sleeping like he would never plan to wake up.
All of Tanjiro's friends take turns to visit him. Sometime they go as group. As advice by the insect pillar, they talk to him for him to wake up.
Tokito visits Tanjiro
"Tanjiro-kun I came to visit you...how are you doing? Do you feel anything strange to your body?" Tokito asks the sleeping Tanjiro. He kneel's and cup Tanjiro's right hand with same bandages. Tokito purr and whimpered on him. "Tanjiro-kun...it must have hurt a lot...I-I'm sorry I wasn't able to stop Muzan on taking you away." Tokito sobs, "I will be a good boy...I will be nicer especially to the sword smiths...so just please comeback. Do not leave me like my twin brother did..."
As he was done sending prayers for Tanjiro. Tokito left the room.
Sanemi visits Tanjiro
Even though he and Tanjiro had some bad relationship, Sanemi is thankful to Tanjiro. Because of him, he and Genya had come to understand their terms and beliefs. They had made up. Sanemi had flowers for Tanjiro.
He thought the nice smell of flower may wake up the boy. Knowing the boy had such keen of smell. "Here." He was a bit nervous what to say. Shinobu warned him not to say stressful things to the kid. It might affect longer trauma.
"I-I got you some flowers. Though I do not know its name but...they are very pretty. They consist color of white and p-pink. I mean...like your sister Nezuko." Clearing his throat. "I'm not sure if anybody told you already...but your little sister is alive and is no longer a demon..."
Placing the flower in the vase. Sanemi actually wanted to touch the boy's forehead. He wanted to check his temperature since he looks dead. "Hey...Tanjiro," he touched his forehead then proceed to pats the boy's hair. "Thank you for being friends with Genya. I owe you for making him smile again. As we are both big brothers...I want you to go back here. Don't pass on yet without seeing Nezuko...Okay?"
With that Sanemi left.
Shinobu visits Tanjiro
Shinobu is always present in the butterfly estate if no demons to kill. But it does not meant she is always available to take care of Tanjiro as there are other patients as well. Like a mother she would connect her forehead to the cold forehead of Tanjiro. "Hmm~ good you do not seem to have any fever." Shinobu is in her usual happy tune. Checking Tanjiro's pulse.
'He is still alive...but such faint pulse.'
"By the way~ It is time for body check up! I hope you do not mind me stripping you..." gently raising up the hospital gown.
Revealing his manhood. Shinobu puts an ointment to it and the anus. "You...you are really a kind person. I can no longer compare your kindness to my sister...to think you will make demons and slayers in peace due to your captivation. It is really admirable." She proceed to replace the bandages to the hands as well. "Your finger nails will grow after 6 months...Hopefully by then you are awake~!" Washing her hands. "I have to go now..."
Then she recalled something important. Glancing back, she let him know. "Tomioka-san is waiting for you. So make sure to wake up!"
Shinobu left the room.
Kanao Genya visits Tanjiro
"Tanjiro...today the sun is very bright. How we wish you can see it now." It was Kanao who brushes some hair locks from Tanjiro's getting longer hair. "I think you need a haircut soon..." Kanao made a sad smile. Genya was waiting for his turn and let Kanao express her feelings. "You know...ever since you toss the coin for me, I had a wider look at the world." clutching at her heart. "You gave light to my world where I had stop thinking. When something snaps..." closing her eyes and opening them with such emotions she never portrayed out. "What I'm saying, even if you are broken...You had to wake up, you had to come back. We are waiting for you."
Kanao left the chair and gestured for Genya's turn.
Genya sat and touched Tanjiro's hands. "Tanjiro, It's me Genya. Uhh..." a bit embarrass, "Hey! Uhh, I wanted to tell you that I miss you. For one year without you was really lonesome. You were such a great friend. To think I deserve to be friends with you..." scratching the back of his head. "I really wanted to apologize for being rude when we first met, and the second time we met...everyday I wanted not to be rude. But even so you smiled and accepted who am. I'm really grateful."
then Genya's face went serious. He was a bit angry at the invisible enemy. "Muzan...I won't forgive him for doing this to you. So hurry and wake up, tell me...tell me how horrible it is. So that I can eat that bastard."
Kanao hush him though. "Shh, Master said do not stress him."
Genya apologizes and leaves the chair. "S-sorry! Um, so see you later Tanjiro!"
So then Kanao and Genya left the room.
Uzui, Murata visits Tanjiro
Tanjiro's long hair were cut to shorter ones.
"Tanjiro...I sometimes blame myself for not forcing you to go with me." Murata says as he was feeling guilty. "How I wish did not respect how you feel to save you from further torture he made." sniffing, "Please wake up man, Do not die like this...w-we need to you again. Your smiling face! It really encourage us you know..."
Uzui patted Murata's back as he spoke to the sleeping brunette. Seeing how he was almost like a mummy. "Tanjiro, you really are hard working. I would never forget you and your sister Nezuko saved my life from the Red light district. To think a newbie will save a Pillar's life. Not once...but twice...That's why you are in this hideous state."
Uzui paid respect to him. "If ever you do not wake up, I swear in my clan. We will protect your sister no matter what...In further danger if, demon's would never disappear."
With that Murata and Uzui left the room.
Gyomei,Obanai and Mitsuri visits Tanjiro
"Tanjiro-kun...P-please, please wake up! Don't die on us! We haven't had time to know each other fully...! I..! I..waaa!" Mitsuri cried, and goes to Obanai. "I can't! I can't say anything cheerful...! Tanjiro will hate me! I'm stressing him! Wuu!"
Obanai sighs and pat's Mitsuri's head. "You do know Tanjiro is not that kind of person." as he approached Tanjiro's bed. "Hey...I do not know if you can really hear this or not. But don't be a burden. Don't burden us the guilt of being unable to help you that day..." clutching his fists, "Muzan will pay. We swear that to you..."
Gyomei coughs and commented. "You are also stressing Tanjiro, Iguro."
Flustered, "W-Well! That's all I and Kanroji to say...!"
Gyomei prayed with his beads. "May Budda bless your soul...I'm sure there is a reason why this happen to you. You may not see the light...nothing but darkness, but remember this well Tanjiro. I Gyomei had never seen the light in a literal way of speaking. But even so, I found the light. So come back to us, were your friend's awaits...Especially for Nezuko's sake."
As the trio prayed, they left the room.
Giyuu visits Tanjiro
Giyuu had put so much effort to keep Tanjiro alive, to be spared. He spared his sister, he help him to be approved by Oyakata-sama and the others by putting his life on the line. He even swore to demon's if anybody wanted Tanjiro's head, they had to go through him first.
However, Giyuu is angry at himself for being weak. 'Because I'm a fake pillar. I was not strong enough.'
How he wish to turn back time just...just even just for that little moment before Tanjiro had told Muzan he will become his. 'Time will never go by...but time may heal itself.' He hoped so. Frankly he was not cured from the sense of lost and dread when his big sister Tsukato and Sabito died.
All because of him.
Opening the door with a soft creak...
CREAK~
It was nearing midnight. Giyuu was busy, he knows his job is important. But he wanted to pout how Oyakata-sama gave him too many jobs. Good thing the demon attack's have lessen. Making them have all various of free time for friends, self and other people they wish to talk with.
'But the person I really wanted to talk with is asleep.'
"Tanjiro..." sitting at the chair, Giyuu mesmerize Tanjiro's brand new bandages. "It's me, Tomioka Giyuu." he wanted to convey his feelings but is having a hard time using it by his mouth. "I hope you do not dislike me like Kochou had been telling me...that nobody likes me."
His hand's made it's way to Tanjiro's broken left hand. How pitiful. How...how messed up. "You must be the only one who said it so loud and clear that you like me." feeling emo now, Giyuu moved closer, he wanted to feel the boy's warmth. He connected his forehead to Tanjiro's light weight hand's proving he was really asleep. "Tanjiro...I swore to protect you even if my life on line. And yet look at you...I failed to..." for the first time, Giyuu cried.
The last time he cried was Sabito's death. Ever since then he had the blank eyes with pure isolation confinement to kill and destroy demons. "I failed to protect you...I hope you forgive me..." Giyuu silently sob. "I love you too Tanjiro. I love you so much that I wish it happen to me instead of you..." clinging to the boy's frail hands. "I want you to wake up...Tell me you like me still, tell me you do not hate me for leaving you all alone in Muzan's hand."
Oh Giyuu, if only you knew he was actually having a good time.
Not that they will know yet...but soon.
Fixing his composure, Giyuu wipes his own tears. "Well then. I got to go now...I'll see you when you wake up."
The lonely Giyuu left the room.
Zenitsu and Inosuke Visits
A bright morning once more. Zenitsu and Inosuke were behaving themselves in front of Tanjiro. They were told not to touch Tanjiro once awake, so Inosuke and Zenitsu taking their chances to hug their friend as they plead him to wake up.
"Tanjiro...when will you wake up? It has been 3 months of your comma. Shinobu-san said the head injury is not something to put you unconscious for so long..." sobbing as he tighten the embrace to Tanjiro's body. "We need you Tanjiro!"
Inosuke too, he was having teary eyes visible in his boar mask as he was hugging Tanjiro's on the other side. "Tanjiro..." sniffs, "I remembered your name...I properly say it...so why won't you wake up...!?" cursing, "Damn you...!"
As much as they love Tanjiro.
Tanjiro is unfortunately in love with someone else...
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While everyone making their visits. Tanjiro had been trapped in the realm of red spider lily field. He was all alone.
"Am dead..?" looking around as darkness had become his 'new normal'...Tanjiro had a sad smile for himself. "Haha, I guess I died."
Only then he heard some voices...Some familiar voices.
Not realizing the faint mumbles and whispers in his ears were his friends and the pillar's encouraging words.
Not knowing these voices did not happen in the same day, but many, so many days had passed. Random voice he will hear it, someone would try to connect with him. But he was too deep in the abyss to even realize it were his friends.
"Who...?"
Looking above the dark sky with no stars, not even a moon. The Higanbana field, it's petal starts to wave and fly all around. "Someone is talking to me...?" He had to think who could it be. "Is it...God...? Or..." before Tanjiro confessed his love for Muzan, he did thought of it a million times.
The heavens will surely punish him.
Surely he cannot come to heaven anymore.
"To think even in death...All I can ever think of is Muzan." mocking himself. "Just Muzan." he gave himself a hug as he was falling apart. Falling to his knees, wondering why are there even Red Spider Lilies here.
"They say this flower...represent's 'hell'." plucking one of them, he took a sniff and smell the scent of 'death.' "I see...It is indeed a hell flower." until a voice called him more clear than the thousand whispering ghost in the air.
'~Tanjiro...~'
"W-whose there!?" standing up. When he scan around, the dark scenery had change. There was one spider lily that was not glowing in red. His eyes widen. "Is that...the Blue Spider Lily...?!"
When he went to it's location, the Blue Spider Lily magically got pluck itself and fly to someone's hand. It was.
"M-Muzan! You were here!?" the man was smiling at the blue spider lily in his hands. Muzan had start to turn his back and walk away. It scared Tanjiro to be left alone. "Wait!" he starts to run and chase him. "Wait! D-don't...! Do not go Muzan...!"
Crying, panting, sweating, getting tired of running. Slowly the pain of broken bones is actually returning to him. He was feeling now his wounds. Still pathetically he reaches out to the man who kept going far away from his. "Muzan! Don't leave me alone...! I'm sorry for being a jerk...! I have something else to tell you! Come back...!"
'Please do not dump me.'
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It was an abrupt consciousness. The oxygen that Tanjiro knew has returned to him. He gasp loud. His body ache even so he jerks to sit up while his hand's moved to defend himself. He thought he was still fighting with Muzan.
"WuaAaah!" screaming. Zenitsu and Inosuke couldn't believe their eyes. Tanjiro had finally broke his slumber. They wanted to rejoice, "T-Tanjiro! Thank God you are awake-" however seeing Tanjiro had panic and thrashing in the bed. "waaauhh!" Inosuke and Zenitsu quickly grabbed his arms and toes to refrain him on reopening some wounds that has not healed and some broken bones that is not fully healed.
"T-Tanjiro! Calm down! It is us...! Zenitsu and Inosuke! Calm down...!" Says Zenitsu.
He looked like he isn't seeing them properly as his eyes were moving left and right repeatedly and fast. "Stop now! Tanjiro...!" When Inosuke called him. He stopped. His eyes begun to focus to the image or the faces he had not seen for almost like forever.
"E-eh...? Huh..." he was visibly shaken and confuse. As they released on restraining their friend's movement. Zenitsu waved his hands to caught his attention.
"Tanjiro do you remember us...?" Tanjiro shot him a look, a kind of look that is not interested for questions. He is up to ask back. "W-Where is he...?"
He clutch at the bed-sheets, he was anxious. Zenitsu did not understand so he asks back. "Who...?" Realizing that the latter is not getting his point, Tanjiro shyly pulled the sheets to cover his chest with intertwined shy hands.
"...K-Kibutsuji Muzan...he's suppose to be here right? I mean...he and I were..." Tanjiro is visibly traumatize as they were told.
But Inosuke is a bit brute, "What's with that face? Aren't you happy that you had been freed from Muzan's captive? Look at you! You had lots of nasty wounds...to think you are alive. I knew it! You are not weak! You are strong!" Inosuke thought it would cheer Tanjiro some confidence, instead he sank further to the hovering white sheets.
"Inosuke...am not strong as you used to think." He mutters under his breath. Zenitsu thinks it is his turn to flip the awkward reunion by saying, "Worry not Tanjiro. You are safe now. You are here at the Butterfly estate! Please relax and rest...!"
Tanjiro did not look at them, he kept his gaze at the bed sheets. Specifically his bandage hands. "Zenitsu...Inosuke...?" Both tilt their heads.
"Yeah?" Tanjiro frowns. "How did you guys found me...?" Zenitsu can hear the impatience of Tanjiro's heartbeat so he immediately told him the story. "Um, during the New year's eve. I heard seven heartbeat's of a demon in Oyakata-sama's garden. When Kyoujiro-senpai and I went to chase, we found you instead. No demon at all. It was weird but at least you are back!"
After explaining, Tanjiro narrowed his eyes and thought deeply. 'Seven heart beating...that is Muzan right?' frowning more, Zenitsu and Inosuke is wonder what's up with him. 'ohh I see...he dumped me. He returned me back to my friends...only to make me feel miserable...' Observing their red headed friend, 'H-how could you...!' Tanjiro started to sob and curled his legs close to his chest. "E-eh!? Tanjiro...?"
'After all everything I have gave you...My body, my soul...my heart...you will just throw me like toy you got tired of...?!' Gritting his teeth, he was shaking. Tanjiro tried to hold his tears not to went out but they did anyway. 'I'm such a big idiot...! To think the moonlight is beautiful...! Am the one to blame right...? Right?' He couldn't control it. "H-he's crying just like Shinobu said...!" Inosuke who rubs his head in panic. Zenitsu also panics as he isn't sure how to comfort a rape victim. "T-Tanjiro! We will protect you this time...! For now please forget what happen!" Tanjiro furrowed his eyebrows as he is still tearing up.
'Forget...? I cannot forget it. There is noway I can turn back time...Muzan he, he toyed my feelings...I cannot forgive myself for thinking he loved me back.'
But somewhere in his mind debated it. If Muzan does not have any feelings for him he could have let him bleed to death. But he instead returned him for proper treatment. Which is why he survived. And technically, Muzan did not answer him straight of yes or no during his confession.
"Tanjiro..." Zenitsu did not mean it, his hand reach out to touch Tanjiro's shoulder. Tanjiro got startled and moves at the corner of the bed. "W-Wait! D-don't touch me. I-I'm sorry...I do not feel comfortable to be touch!" Hearing how much Tanjiro's heartbeat from the faint ones into louder and rapidly beating ones. Zenitsu pulled off his hands away. Away from the rape victim Tanjiro.
"Y-yeah...I guess.." thinking about opening up the issue, "Muzan...he, he really did raped you didn't he...?" Inosuke meanwhile kept his sweat-drops as he is afraid of Tanjiro. Tanjiro muffled in the sheets that he was protecting himself. "...sort of."
Zenitsu press his lips then showed his teeth gritting in anger. "Dammit! Why does this have to happen to you?!" scratching his own head, "What would Nezuko-chan say if she finds out...!" this time Tanjiro snaps his head up, he look at Zenitsu. Bemused.
"Eh? Nezuko...what do you mean she will say? Nezuko cannot speak yet." at loss. Zenitsu look at him straight in the eyes. He was not lying or making things up.
"Nezuko-chan had reverted back to human Tanjiro, during your absence...she was looking for you and we couldn't find you. Everyday she tried to be happy even though she was really worried about you if you were even alive. Now we know you are alive but...regarding the abuse and torture you had. We can't show you to Nezuko-chan like this..."
Tanjiro shook his head, he was really feeling so emotionally injured. He agreed with Zenitsu on not wanting to see Nezuko yet..."Yeah...I agree." but Inosuke got angry and stomped his feet and fist in the air.
"What!? But Nezuko-chan has the right to see her brother Bakamonitsu!" pulling Zenitsu's collar, Zenitsu got shake violently.
"Ow! Ow!"
Having a short smile before it faded into sad ones. "Inosuke..Zenitsu...I'm happy to see you guys alive and well...But I...I think I need some space." Crumpling at the bedsheets.
Zenitsu pulled Inosuke hand. Inosuke jerks away. "What you doing?!" Zenitsu gave him a annoyed look. "Tanjiro wants to collect himself! He needed to rest okay!"
"Please Inosuke. I know you are a good boy." Is Tanjiro's forced smile, it made Inosuke lost the hype and obeyed. "Fine...if that is what you wish Tanjiro..."
Sad like a child rejected to be hugged, Zenitsu and Inosuke left the room.
Silence...
Tanjiro touches his own chest. "Muzan..." clutching at his heart. "Mu...zan..."
Sobbing.
"I want to see you...please come back..."
Tanjiro drowns in the pool of tears.
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"Do you feel anything strange Tanjiro-kun~?" Asks by Shinobu. It has been 2 days when he gained consciousness. Seeing how Tanjiro have drastically change starting with his face. He doesn't smile like he used to show them. The sunshine smile is gone. Tanjiro is staring at the wall as he looked so melancholy.
"Is...there something else happend that we are not aware...?" Shinobu have seen lots of traumatic patient. She will know if they were afraid, disoriented, or...heartbroken.
It is weird how rather than in trauma. Tanjiro looks like a heart broken person. Shinobu wanted the boy to confess of how he was been abused. Because if Tanjiro will let out his feeling's...He may see to step forward.
How she hoped.
"Shinobu-san..."
"Yes..?
She did not expect Tanjiro to asks her such sensitive topic. Tanjiro was not looking at her at all. "Is it hormones to feel pleasure in sex...?"
"E-eh?"
Shinobu couldn't believe her ears. Tanjiro whose usually polite and conservative would ask something like that. "Umm..." she can sense she has to answer soon or else Tanjiro might stop speaking again and close any further communication. "Tanjiro-kun...you are 16 yrs old now right?"
A nod, Tanjiro continued to blankly stare at the wall. Shinobu gave him a honest and serious reply. "Then yes...It is possible hormones. At your age, having an intercourse most likely will be just a puppy love in heat. But not necessarily you were in love or something.."
'Hold on, why is he asking this...?' Realizing it has something to do of his 'abuse'. Shinobu cleared her throat to keep on explaining. "Uh yeah, As I said ...Not necessarily needed. In short, only 19 yrs old and above can be considered as serious 'in sex' because their hormones will mature. Because you see...kids these days, just because they had sex they think they are in love with the other person. Not knowing it is not the right ripen age to do such intercourse..."
Feeling confident that it would be understood by the boy. Tanjiro turned his head and finally looked at her directly.
"Then I will be frank. Shinobu-san...I wasn't hurt when Muzan raped me."
Shinobu stoned stiff as she hears him speaking so lightly of the incident. "What hurts me is that...He did it because he wanted to destroy me. Not because he wanted to do it with me."
'Wait,wait...Is Tanjiro-kun perhaps had liken the intercourse with a man?!' Shinobu massages her temples. 'Tomioka-san must not find this out! Or else...he and Tanjiro might become...! B-but... they will eventually find out...uhh...I'm so angry.'
Coughing and showing a soft smile. "Ahh~Tanjiro-kun. Please do not confuse your experience with making babies. I know you are unstable, I know you are wondering if it was hormones made you get used to the abuse or were you actually liking it..."
Shinobu kinda get it now what is Tanjiro's problem.
Tanjiro is a heart broken virgin boy who was fooled by an elder, whose already well experience in such things and toyed him. Now he must bee aching for the man's touch. How Muzan corrupted his body to feel pleasure. She can already imagine Tanjiro might masturbate to ease the desires.
"I see."
She watched at Tanjiro who absent minded touch his own chest, in the heart spot. "I...I cannot feel my heartbeat Shinobu-san...will I be okay...?"
Having those crystal eyes. Shinobu is deeply hurt for him. "You will be fine...I may not have experience your tragic fate. But am sure you will heal..."
Ending the awkward conversation. Tanjiro obediently laid at the bed as Shinobu left.
When Tanjiro has been left alone. He breaths in and breaths out. 'Hormones...so am not in love...? Really...?' Under the covers...his working right hand made it's way to tease his own nipples. "Mnn~" moaning. 'Muzan...' biting at the covers, "Nnn...~" Tanjiro is pleasing himself. 'I guess It was not love...because I'm only 16 yrs old...' Playing with himself. 'Yet...I miss you...I wonder if am doing it right...? Is it like this...?' Crying, his right hand continued to pull his own nipples. Sucking his fingers and applies it to his chest before grabbing his own crotch and stroke it. "Nnnhh...~!" Putting pressure on it. 'I wonder how will you react if you see me masturbating about you...? I want to know it so much...like I will decay...' He ignored the broken ribs and sunk further to his hospital gown, his finger's reaches his own hole and begun fingering himself.
'Yes...I want to be touch. I do not want to be alone...I want you Muzan...'
Sniffing and yearning about the demon lord, Tanjiro had such lustful eyes, sadly he had never got the chance to see himself at the mirror. 'It is not enough...not enough...deeper...deeper...!' Spreading his legs as he kept his naughty activity covered by the white sheets. 'Muzan, Muzan...please do it harder...' his toes stretching from the air entering him. The bed started to creak...
Inside his imagination, Muzan is with him. With him in the moonlight. Tanjiro didn't care if he was a kitten. 'I can't come...why? Why...?' As he was actually...abusing himself. Yes he was masturbating and thinking of Muzan.
'I need Muzan...he is the only one who can ease my body...aaahh~'
Restrained erotic moaning.
'Wait...?'
Tanjiro gasp. "What am doing?!" Stopping and fixing his hospital gown. Tanjiro cursed himself and talk out loud. "You got abandoned already...! You...you are no longer a captive...!" Punching his legs. "Pervert!"
Shaking. 'Hormones or not...my heart feels so much void that I do not care about the bright sun, the blue sky...' whenever his eyes are closed, the beautiful moonlight retracing it's memories before they had become a heart breaking departure.
Even though he is out of being chained. He was truly Muzan's property now. "Dammit...Damn me...!"
Tanjiro curled himself like a yarn ball.
A few moment's later... Hearing the Great news.
"Kamado my boy! I heard you are awake!" Kyoujiro rushed inside Tanjiro's room. He found Tanjiro curling himself like a ball in his bed-sheet. He looked dis oriented.
'Calm down Kyoujiro...remember what Shinobu said, must give him private space...!' Nervous on how to approached a mentally traumatic boy. Kyoujiro kept his steps slow and careful as he tried to greet him with a assuring smile. "I'm glad you finally woke up. It felt like forever..."
Tanjiro who is avoiding any eye contact, he hug himself for protection and moved an inch away, trying not to be so close when Kyoujiro reach the chair and sat on it. "R-Rengoku-san, I'm glad you are also alive and well..."
Trailing off. Kyoujiro know how must have been awkward to talk as if nothing happen to his body. "It's alright Kamado my boy," he wanted to make him feel comfortable. "We will never let Muzan touch you ever again..."
The boy silently eyed him.
Kyoujiro actually proposed to Oyakata-sama to make Tanjiro retire from being a Slayer. As it looks like Tanjiro wouldn't be recovering soon, unless the hatred flares inside the boy, definitely he will be back as a Demon Slayer, most likely the 'Fire Pillar.'
So he dared to discard Tanjiro's opinions. "Say, how about quit as a Demon Slayer. Just...live a normal life."
'Eh..?' Tanjiro is confused. Kyoujiro stared at him intently. "From what happen to you... I think it is better if you live normal and away to a place where there is no reminder of that day." softening his face for the boy. "What do you think...?"
However Tanjiro was acting mute. His eyebrows were knitting together. Kyoujiro immediately apologizes as he finally notice that he had been dictating him. "S-sorry! If you still want to fight...after what happen, I r-respect that."
Tanjiro simply had a sorrowful face.
Then, "R-Rengoku-san, I...I really appreciate every single words of concern you had with me. I...I really do..." and so he begun to tear up again. "E-ehh...?" Kyoujiro wondered why. It felt like it wasn't the 'abuse' the reason behind the boy's tears. He had to know.
"Why are you...making such a heart broken face..? What else happen...? Tell me...Kamado my boy..."
Tanjiro's eyes got some fright. He starting to breath heavily. He was in his hysteric mode. It just triggered on it's own, Tanjiro did not want to remember it anymore...but the sensation of being rejected. Getting heartbroken.
Broken.
Simply been tossed, been dump.
Vexing.
"I..I...!" clutching at his heart, "I can't breath...!" Tanjirou started to catch for air, "-coughs!-!" Kyoujiro stood and quickly grabbed some water. "C-calm down! Take a deep breath...!" forcing Tanjiro to drink the glass of water. The water was been gulp, but some excess liquid made it's way to wet Tanjiro's hospital gown and the pillows.
"T-thank you..." wiping his wet lips. Kyoujiro...Kyoujiro gulps as he wanted to kiss those lips. 'D-damn, Kyoujiro not today!'
Composing himself as he return to sit. "I know I'm being pushy..But..Tell me someday, what else happen between you and Muzan." this time he had a stern look. Tanjiro felt guilty on it. "I wish to be able to ablaze your heart...But I guess it won't be today." wanting to cheer him up. "By the way, Kamado Nezuko is on her way here...She had been in care of Urokodaki Sakonji in Mount Sagiri. She should arrive by the third day," glancing at the calendar, "It's April 3rd...so she will arrive maybe April 6th." grinning.
Tanjiro let out a weak smile, he wanted to respect back Kyoujiro like he always do. "Thank you Aniki."
Deeply he doesn't even want to see Nezuko anymore. 'Ahh...I'm a terrible Onichan. I must be a 'oni'...'
~When I finally woke up, only to find myself back at my friends and the pillars. Spotting no Twelve demons nor Muzan.
Something stung my heart.
I felt such emptiness.
Even though my friends are all alive and complete. I was a broken glass.
I was a charcoal that was not sold.
I was toss.
I was un-needed.
Recalling how Muzan broke my heart- not only spiritually, he even manage to broke me mentally, socially and especially my physical body.
I was not feeling close to my friends when It should be the happiest 'freedom' day of my life.
I was being mean to them, I was being cold to them.
They pointed out for me how bad I looked, how I had change so much.
I had hideous wounds. A scar on my left eye, no finger nails. Broken left arm. Bite marks.
Ahh...no, these bite marks had always been here. I simply ignored them and drowned myself in ecstasy of being abuse.
I guess am indeed a masochist.~
I love Kibutsuji Muzan so much, I can't bare this loneliness.
I gravely miss him.
But I can no longer...see him.
I must not.
It is wrong.
Very...sinful.
Another 3 day's had passed. For some reason Nezuko had not arrived yet.
Within those days, Tanjiro was greeted and visited by the pillars and his friends. Everyone pretended that things are normal. They expect Tanjiro to smile, but Tanjiro is tired of smiling...He wanted to dig a hole and bury himself. Too bad he had no finger nails to do so. He also begun doing therapy. Like how to walk again, to eat and use his hand's to grab a spoon.
Frankly he still feel the body pain, but the pang in his heart...is more painful that he no longer knows how to concentrate his breathing. Sometimes his heart would stop beating...as if it is gone. Times he will be hysteric, battered and beaten compulsive stress.
Tanjiro is glad to see them all, but he was not joyful as he should be.
'Because my head...is nothing about 'Muzan'...always him and the beautiful moon. He and I shared...'
Looking at the windows. His bandage has decreased. He no longer had the broken jaw, no longer had the broken left arm,no longer has the broken rib, no head injury.
But...there was a mirror. 'This is...?'
He touch his own left eye. He was scarred in his face other than his slayer mark in forehead. 'It is when Muzan slash out my eyes...'
Getting sad once more. Tanjiro covers his left eye scar. 'He really wanted me gone...' Soft sobbing. 'How I wish he just gouge my eyes out...For me not to see how much broken I had become...'
"Oniichan! I'm sorry for being late! I had to quit the Final Exam Training...!"
'T-that voice...!' Moving his head fast to spot Nezuko at his doorway, Tanjiro was in his bed in sit up position. He unknowingly teared up. "Ne...Nezuko...!?"
When Nezuko came close to embrace her brother, "Oniichan!" Tanjiro started to sob...Tears had become his usual routine. Ironically he was suppose to be a heir to a water pillar. But that would never happen. Tanjiro hugs back to his little sister. So tight...so tight he clings to her, his trembling hand's clutching to Nezuko's back.
"You are back...! I'm so happy...! Oniichan~!"
"Nezuko...I'm, I'm really sorry. Please...please forgive your big brother..." Nezuko is confused, she already heard the news how his brother had been violated so violently that she had to expect him to be mentally disturb.
"Oniichan...?" feeling the tighter embrace they exchange, she pats his head to send comfort to her broken brother. She tears up when her brother cries. Sniffing, "W-Why...? Why do you always have to apologize...? Why does good people had to suffer like you did...? You did nothing wrong at all...! So please do not apologize...!" not really know what else to say beside to boost his brother's confidence.
Tanjiro confessed to his sister, the issue he had not told anyone at all.
"No,Nezuko ... I'm a bad big brother..because I..." pulling away from the hug, facing her sister with such sorrowful face etched like a scar, beside the visible scar on his left eye. "B-Because I had fallen in love to the person who killed Mother, Shigeru, Takeo,Hanako and Rokuta...the man who turned you into a demon you know...? Do you have any idea how I have anguish these thoughts? These feelings...am no longer your brother Kamado Tanjiro...who...who swore to kill Kibutsuji Muzan even in the depths of hell.."
Nezuko jawdrop. She cannot produce any sense on what her brother had said. 'W-what..? But..Muzan raped him, why would he fall for him...? He was tortured right...? Then why does he look more tortured now? When..he is free...here and safe.' Not wanting to stress Tanjiro's unstable self.
"But Onichan...that's..." trying to pick up a good comeback, she couldn't. She was really shock actually. 'I always thought Oniichan likes Kanao-chan...what is this...? What Muzan did to my poor big brother...?' Tanjiro kept his glassy eyes into Nezuko's, he may not face the others, but he want to built the courage to face Nezuko. Yes, he never wanted to see her again due to the shameful act he had done. But she is here now, might as well be honest.
"See? I told you...That is why am sorry, Nezuko-"
Nezuko cuts him off with a forced smile as tears streaming down. "Forget it! Let us go home! Okay...?"
Tanjiro shakes his head, "...I can no longer go home with you. My tainted body, to step inside our loving home...it is the biggest insult. I has to...I has to settle things..." Nezuko is worried what will her brother do. She has no idea, because all this time...Tanjiro is hard working and bear so much...So much that he was always look well equipped. However that seems to be fading....'Oniichan...Have you reach your limit to be the Eldest...? If so...'
She grabbed his hand's and press comforting touch.
"Oniichan...I, I do not want you to go. Let us just start over...please, you and I...with Inosuke and Zenitsu-kun?"
Tanjiro decided to close his eyes. "..."
Nezuko puts her forehead into his. Nose touching, she spoke under her breath. "I'm sure our family will never curse you to hell Oniichan. After all...you did so many things for us...for me. For everyone...So please don't say such things as being sinful."
"Thank you...Nezu...ko..! Wuu..!" Tanjiro cried like a baby. Nezuko hugs him again as if she was the elder.
Nezuko hope..her brother comes back a whole.
Not piece by piece.
...
2 weeks had passed. Tanjiro is now able to get out of bed. Like, he will be in the garden looking at the butterflies. But the shine on his eyes were gone. He looked blind but he is not.
Tanjiro had become still doll. Nezuko stayed here as Kanao,Shinobu told her that it is fine for her to stay. Her brother need's her. Nezuko decided to help on chores so she isn't really there for Tanjiro in 24hrs straight. Tanjiro does not mind, he wanted some space for himself as his yearning lust of love for Muzan get's stronger.
Some other time, Tanjiro was told by Kanao that they found him with a Nichirin blade. Tanjiro forced himself to talk about how he got the sword and how he and Muzan fought. But he did not share the part how he and Muzan had sex with Kanao as it is something not related to the fight and the murdered demon slayer.
His love for Muzan, nobody knows except Nezuko. Since Shinobu is not really getting the part that it was not hormones for Tanjiro's point of view.
'The sun is so bright...' It makes him irate. Tanjiro had ask Kanao where was the sword he had with him. Kanao showed him where they placed the sword. It was placed as a display. 'Kanao...I'm sorry for lying...I cannot believe I would learn to lie properly.' Tanjiro took the samurai sword and went into the garden.
The sun sure is happy, but not Tanjiro.
Tanjiro knelt on the ground. 'I must end this nightmare...Like the dream demon, I must end it.'
Raising the katana near his neck. 'Just...just the tip, It will be over soon...!'
Sweating, Tanjiro suddenly felt the urge to hesitate. 'No! Why...why am doing this...!? I...I can't...do this, Nezuko will be sad...!'
His grip on the sword remained. His heart wanted to hide, his physical body wanted to kill himself, his mind was debating by the two feelings he had for himself.
Then the voice of pony tailed Tanjiro whispered in his ears, like a ghost in the past.
~Just accept it. Remember? You had the resolve of your knife to wield...Why hesitate now?~
In his field of vision, it was dark, he was facing the 'old' him. "You...Tanjiro..." he called his own name, the pony tailed version of him had the gentle smile. The imaginary winter emerge from the background until everything was in the field of the snowy day.
Tanjiro breaths in his mouth, smoke were there...Even though it was not real, it felt cold.
~When you decided to confess to Muzan, you planned to end yourself right? That's how you wanted to end it...to bury yourself in secret without anyone getting in the way...So why hesitate now? It's not like you had not done this before...? Remember, remember...in the Dream Demon. It released you...Let's stop working so hard...~
Trembling.
Tanjiro shut his eyes. 'I-I can do this...! This sword is sharp...! I won't feel pain! Ready set-'
On the count of three.
Kyoijiro saw Tanjiro attempt to cut off his head by the Nichirin blade. "HEY!" Kyoujiro stops Tanjiro, he snatched the sword and threw it far. The sword stab the nearest rock display. CLANG! Aggressively he shakes him. "What are you doing Kamado my boy?!" But Tanjiro glared at him, trying to break free...he struggled from the stronger hands.
"R-Rengoku-san! Let go!" pushing the man's face. "L-Let me die...!"
"Why!? Why! Say it! What is your problem...!? Is it because what happen to your body!? We don't mind! We don't!" trying to convince Tanjiro that everything is still normal. Tanjiro started to have hysteria. "NOOO! I-Im dirty!" he couldn't hide anymore what else is bothering him. "I-I betrayed the demon corps...!" having the red cheeks, Kyoujiro's eyes widen when the boy confessed. "I had fallen for the demon lord...! I can't be with Nezuko or anyone else..I have to disappear!"
'What on earth...Is he saying?!' Tanjiro was abused right? Why would he say he fell in love with Kibutsuji Muzan? Is that it?!
Tanjiro bite his arm, "Let me be...! Please!" Ignoring the biting, Kyoujiro pulled Tanjiro close to his face, and showed him his clear and straight forward eyes.
"If that makes you go to hell then so do I! Because I have feelings for you Tanjiro!"
Tanjiro eyes jawdrops. "Eh?"
Kyoujiro proceeds to embrace him, so tight, tighter than what Nezuko did.
"I like you more than you could imagine...! I didn't let you know for it is a shame in my family. But I really like you to the point of wanting you! ...I hate Muzan for taking your everything, how I wish I can put it back...! Tanjiro you set my heart ablaze...!"
Tanjiro gawk...a new set of frustrated tears went down. "Aniki..." He buried his head in Kyoujiro's chest. 'Why did you not told me earlier...Aniki? If you had...you could have been my first...'
Tanjiro is so broken that he was such a mess. Not caring anymore...'If it is hormones...anyone can do it to me. Will I be happy...?' He wanted to rebel on himself. He want to experiment, to test it out...what is the truth inside him. 'If I happen to like doing it with Rengoku-san that will prove as only hormones...!'
In terms of sexuality, Tanjiro actually can tell now that he was both onto boys and girls. He had a puppy crush on Shinobu and Mitsuri, but he also liked a lot Kyoujiro and Giyuu for unknown reasons, his heart is always excited. His hands that no longer had any bandages, you can see his finger nails are slowly growing, but still half of the inch. 'If I respond to you...am gonna forget Muzan...? If Muzan remained in my very being...it will not be hormones then!'
Because Muzan taught him to sin, taught him to cheat. A crazy idea passed by his lips. He whispered.
"Then make love with me Rengoku-san...burn away his scent to becomes yours..."
Kyoujiro's ears went hot and he became stiff. 'E-excuse me...?' He stopped the embraced and wanted to look at Tanjiro's puppy face. Tanjiro is just heartbroken that's why he says such things.
"Are you sure...? I mean...it just happen to you." he meant about sexual abuse. Tanjiro whimpers, "It...doesn't matter. It's too late to even think about that..."
Kyoujiro really wanted to make love with him. He argued inside his soul to be in control, but Tanjiro is being pushy. Should he respect it...?
Sweat drops. "Then..." Resigning to the boy's request.
Hiding in a tree. Kyoujiro kisses Tanjiro. Tanjiro kisses back and purred... "Aniki..."
Pulling away from the kiss, Kyoujiro caresses his cheeks, to his lump shoulder's then going down to his waist..."Call me by my name Tanjiro."
Shivering. "O-ok...K-Kyoujiro...san...?" Tanjiro closed his eyes and tried to focus on the pleasure he was receiving. "Yes...yes...touch me Aniki. It's right there...I mean...Kyoujiro-san...~" panting. Kyoujiro is sending butterfly kisses to his neck to chest as the free grown up hands to his temples then...his buttocks. "Tanjiro...you taste so sweet..." heaves in his nose, Kyoujiro is so turned on that he wanted to go in already. The sun is thankfully very bright that you cannot spot them doing something dirty early in the morning.
"Tanjiro...are you really sure...?" Grabbing the boy's thighs as Tanjiro's hands grabbed the tree trunk to help Kyoujiro on carrying him. "Do it...Kyoujiro-san, do me...Make him go away...Muzan...that monster...!"
Kyoujiro nods and thrust himself inside Tanjiro's. Tanjiro bit his lips. "Nn!" The penetrating was sweet and nice.
'Aniki is inside me...his thing is large...It is hitting me inside...!' Continuing to bite his lips, Kyoujiro is still sending kisses to calm his nerves. "I love you Tanjiro...I want to hold you forever." He was kissed. Tanjiro tries to put his tongue to Kyoujiro whose actually bewildered how Tanjiro is wild. "Mmff?!"
Yet. 'Aniki taste good...he feels good...his hard cock is really better than Muzan...but why...?' Tearing up again, the tree leaves are falling every time he get's push to the corner. 'Why am unsatisfied...?'
More like he was not happy on doing it with any other guy. It got to be only Muzan, the master of his body.
"Tanjiro...! It will come!"
"Yes come at me Aniki...!"
Hugging, Tanjiro erotically trembles as Kyoujiro felt so hot.
"Hahh... You okay...?" Kyoujiro gently pulls out as Tanjiro slide down the grass and so did he.
Tanjiro is wiping his tears and said, "I'm sorry...When we did it, my head is still about Muzan...I'm so sorry for being horrible..." Kyoujiro actually was not surprised.
'I know Tanjiro...no, Kamado my boy, I did not felt any connection when I pushed myself to you...' Patting Tanjiro's head as he fix his hakama pants. "You know what, just forget it. Let me help you to walk..." smiling and offering his hands. Tanjiro sniffs one more time before accepting the hands of his aniki.
"Thank you for the love Aniki."
Still Tanjiro was unhappy.
Noon came.
Tomioka Giyuu knocks at the door of Tanjiro's room.
'Sunset...I wonder if Muzan is preparing to stroll later on...'
Tanjiro was standing and dozing off at the window, he was waiting for another moonlight. If Muzan wanted the sun, Tanjiro misses the moon.
Knock,knock.
Finally noticing that someone is visiting him at this hour. "C-come in...?" to find The Water Pillar. "G-Giyuu-san..."
Giyuu gave him a soft smile, Tanjiro thought he was imagining it. But when Giyuu got closer, he was indeed smiling. "Tanjiro...finally you woke up~" Giyuu went to embrace him...Tanjiro is startled. "W-wait...Giyuu-san-"
Giyuu realize that he must not touch him as he was traumatic. Pulling away with proper distance. "S-sorry. I got excited."
'Giyuu-san...I always wonder why he put his life on the line for someone like me..? If he founds out how he wasted his life on some traitor like me...he will surely me don't he...?' Pressing his stress to his lips. The orange shade sending nostalgic moment in between. The two was silent on observing each other. Not knowing what else to say...it was simply dejection.
How...how something missing yet partly existing.
"I actually had a talk with Kyoujiro, Shinobu and Nezuko." Giyuu says.
Peeking at Giyuu's usual emotionally detached eyes. Tanjiro wonders at first before he had a hunch what it could be. "Umm...is it about me...?"
Gulping.
Giyuu shared him the information he got. "You...you were looking for Muzan aren't you?"
Guilty. Tanjiro averted his eyes, he cast them down. "Ahh...I've been exposed is that it...?" Giyuu snaps, he had a louder voice. "Don't be foolish!" he was angry at Tanjiro for even thinking he was in love with the devil who took everything away from him. His home, his family, his friends and even his ability to live normally.
"Tanjiro...this isn't you, You are maybe confused-"
Tanjiro got triggered, he was so stress that he yells back, "I LOVE MUZAN! OKAY?! IT IS MY PROBLEM! NOT YOURS...! GIYUU-SAN LEAVE ME ALONE!"
Eyes widens.
'W-what did I just do...?! Why am like this...!'
It was too late to take it back. He gasp out and quickly kneels to the floor. He made a dogeza 'like how' he pleaded for Nezuko's life. "I-I'm very sorry Giyuu-san! I got too emotional! Please forgive me...! I did not mean it ...! I swear!"
Giyuu was hurt and he calmly asks the kneeling boy. "Do you dislike me...?"
"No...! Of course not!" Giyuu frowns. He did not wish to see Tanjiro being submissive again. "Then raise your head... Didn't I told you begging doesn't work?"
Because he said it, Tanjiro was reminded how he pleaded Muzan not to take his virginity. Tanjiro burst out in tears. "G-Giyuu-san..." Clenching his fist and slams them to the floor as he remained dogeza.
"You are right Giyuu-san...it does not work...!" Giyuu is now panicking inside how he made the boy cry. He did not intend to. "Tanjiro...I..." He was cut off by the boy. Tanjiro really wanted to share it to someone else how he was abused. "The first day I was kidnap...I thought of you Giyuu-san...! I know begging is useless but I beg to him anyway!" Runny nose. "I pleaded him not to take my first time...I pleaded Muzan to pull out of my body...but he went inside anyway! It hurts...my butt hurts...! But you know what...? He done it everyday, every single day, every minute...every chances...before I know I was addicted to it...!"
Having an awful smile, Giyuu's heart broke. "How else am suppose to handle these feelings Giyuu-san ..? How...please, please help me...!"
His thoughts flooded for the redhead. 'Ahh...what is this? Tanjiro reverted back to his old self. The one who sells charcoals and doesn't know how to fight back. Muzan has broke my Tanjiro. The one I protected so much with my life on the line yet...yet he was still harmed.' Giyuu think's of himself as a irresponsible adult.
Giyuu kneels down and touched the boy's frail hands. Cupping them as he confesses,"Tanjiro...I love you. How about you start loving others? Forget about Muzan..." because Giyuu sucks at comforting people, he thought to be just honest no matter how selfish it sounded. Giyuu wanted to let Tanjiro know that he put his life for him because he loves the boy. More than anyone else...He was basically betraying the Demon Slayer corps if not with Oyakata-sama approval.
So he understands, but he would not tolerate it. "Want to start a life with me...? Let's live peacefully."
To his dismay Tanjiro rejected him so fast.
"I don't...I can't. I do not deserve you Giyuu-san."
Giyuu had teared up but wipes them. He bowed down and kisses Tanjiro's hands. "Tanjiro, even if you dislike me...I will continue to put my life as your shield. No matter what storm comes."
Tanjiro looks straight at Giyuu's reverted stoic face yet his voice was like the ripple of water. Soothing. It makes Tanjiro's heart sunk further in the abyss of guilt and regret. "Thank you Giyuu-san! I will never be able to repay you...but please, Take care of yourself...!" Tanjiro decided to hug Giyuu as one last time. 'Just let them in your space...let them touch you...let them be...because it will be the last...the last Tanjiro...the last...'
Tanjiro mentally thought to savior the moments with being able to feel his friends, while he is still warm. Giyuu hugs back and they were just standing still till the clock position itself for end of visiting hours.
2 months passed
[It is currently around 12pm.]
Tonight will be his discharge from the Butterfly Estate.
They decided to leave at this time, since it is much safer to walk if the sun will rise soon, they had done this before when they search for Sagiri Mountains.
Tanjiro has completely shut himself from everyone even to Nezuko.
Even so Nezuko adjusted for him.
"Nezuko..."
"Yes...?"
"I would like to go to Oyakata-sama's head quarters."
"Ah yes, great idea Oniichan! Let us say our goodbye to them properly."
Nezuko has quit the Final Exam, yes, she planned to become a Demon Slayer to save her brother. Since Tanjiro is now with her, it was no longer needed.
Tanjiro had wore a white kimono. There wasn't any spare clothes for him to wear except the hospital gown made by Kochou Estate. Temporarily it will be his clothes the white common kimono.
Nezuko said they will travel back to Kumotori Mountains, but before that Nezuko planned to visit Mount Sagiri to thank Urokodaki. Tanjiro didn't say anything just the usual blank expression. Nezuko had gotten used to it, how his big brother is acting like he had some bamboo gag in his mouth when not.
"Wait up Oniichan, I need to look where I put my haori! Sorry!"
"Sure."
Glancing at the cabinets...
🎵~I close my eyes and remember when,
That time which has passed by...
I can't turn back, I can't return home
There's a deep, yawning darkness~
(("Oniichan lets go home together"))
In the cabinet he was staring, there was a 'tanto' display. It was a short samurai sword. Tanjiro had been wanted to grab that, he was just not having enough resolve. "I'm sorry Nezuko but, Oniichan cannot return home anymore...I'm really sorry..."
Stealing a small sword from Shinobu's cabinet. Tanjiro hid the sword in his pockets and went ahead to go on Ubuyashiki quarter's without waiting for Nezuko at all.
"I will go to hell. I must end it, before it goes more sinful."
🎵~I can't turn back, I can't return home...
There's a deep, yawning darkness.
A tender sound that makes you want to cry
No matter the pain~
Kagaya Ubuyashiki is currently having a meeting with the Pillars. They were planning to set out each of their own district as the sun will rise very son.
Only to be interrupted by a loud voice greeting them.
"PLEASE EXCUSE ME! I'M KAMADO TANJIRO FROM MIZUNOTO RANK! I HERE BY TO SET A TRIAL!"
"What..?" Kagaya and the Pillars started to go outside to find-
Tanjiro in kneeling position,
wearing a white kimono
with a tanto sword in his hands.
Immediately they can tell what the boy is planning. He is gonna commit a harakiri to properly put a judgement to what happen to him.
"Tanjiro-kun?!" Kagaya barely can walk more than he should as he was still ill.
"Tanjiro! Don't do this! Stop being a fool...!" Giyuu scolds him.
"Yes nobody is asking you to commit sepukku stop!" Kyoujiro pleads, he saw this before...!
He was outside in the garden, sitting posture of a proud chest. The moon is slowly fading. 'Ahh...the moon is no longer beautiful.'
Audible gasp from other pillars and the new pillars. Basically Zenitsu,Genya,Kanao are also here. "T-Tanjiro...?! Where did he got that weapon?!"
Kanao realize the sword. "T-that's our tanto display!"
Genya shouts at Kanao with 'blaming'. "You guys said to keep Tanjiro from harming himself yet you guys had such display!?"
"W-we got to stop him...!" Mitsuri said. Shinobu dashes forward since she is the fastest. 'Restrain him...!'
🎵~Cut away the despair
Even with all I've lost, even with all I've lost
Even if I am beaten down~
Time seems to feel slow that when Shinobu dashes, Tanjiro who made up his mind, quickly unsheathes the small samurai blade pointing at them. Shinobu stops as she can feel the dark aura Tanjiro had produce. It is not like the sword is long to reach her to get stab, Shinobu fears if she dares to come more, The anxiety of Tanjiro to commit suicide would be stronger.
She wanted to talk to him.
"Tanjiro-kun..No. Don't do this."
"Don't Come near me...!"He threatens them with visible tears. "Nobody shall come near me, ever! Or else...!" He pause when he saw Nezuko his little sister emerge from his audience.
"Oniichan!" She cried out, she knew where to find him since they both agree to go here and properly say their departing to the Demon Slayer Corps. She thought Tanjiro agreed to go back home.
Tanjiro whimpers as he held the blade still pointing at them. "I'm sorry Nezuko...you do not have to see this. Please sleep like you always do. Let me be..."
"WHY ARE YOU BEING UNFAIR TO NEZUKO-CHAN TANJIRO!?" Everyone is stunned when Zenitsu yelled so loud, he was furious. "CAN YOU NOT HEAR IT? CAN YOU NOT SEE? ARE YOU BLIND?! ISN'T LOUD AND CLEAR THAT NEZUKO-CHAN WANTS TO RETURN HOME WITH HER BIG BROTHER! HOW CAN YOU MAKE HER SUFFER LIKE THIS!? YOU ARE A TERRIBLE BIG BROTHER! YOU WEREN'T LIKE THAT BEFORE!"
Tanjiro cried as he was shaken from what Zenitsu said. He knows it is a fact. "But I can't go back home...! I cannot!" Sobbing. "Kamado Tanjiro died the moment he had fallen in love with the person who murdered his family...!" Furrowed eyebrows and trembling lips, he faced them. How ashamed he was. "I can't be Nezuko's brother if I had such feelings for Muzan...! Who took everything for us...! I'm the worst...!"
All of the Pillars who did not know Tanjiro had such feelings for the demon king, gawk their eyeballs and shakes their heads. It is insane revelation!
🎵~If there is nothing but this fate for me, I will be prepared for it
Even if I struggle and claw through the mud
There's a thin thread that can't be seen
And a tender sound that makes you want to cry
No matter the frustration~
Nezuko yells back. "Oniichan! Who cares about that?! Cannot we start over...?! Come on! It will be fine, I will support you...! Slowly...step by step we will meet the sunny spot together and live peacefully...till we grow old...!" Tears too many tears is being exchanged from the siblings.
Even with all the pain, even with all the pain~🎵
"I'm Kamado Tanjiro the eldest son, and this is my song the story of my life.
I will now rest."
Tanjiro clutch at the blade. "Nezuko...Oniichan will go to hell. Live long for me."
STAB!
Tanjiro just now have went ahead and stab himself in the belly with a short sword, slicing open his stomach, then he turned the blade upwards to ensure a fatal wound.
Blood emerges from his mouth and coughed them out.
"NO! TANJIRO!"
Everyone screams in horror.
Tanjiro fallen from his face first, he continued to bleed.
Kibutsuji Muzan had teleport-ed to Ubuyashiki quarters.
"Eh...Tanjiro...?"
Only to see how Tanjiro have sepukku.
Blood...
Bloody...
Too much blood, it crawls to his skin.
Muzan's world shatters. Eclipse is coming.
To be Continued.
Kanon58: OOPS... any violent reaction? Oh ok...ufufu~ *sips tea* REVIEW...!
btw kindly check my dying chicken Gurenge English Cover! type in youtube, "Gurenge English - Kimetsu No Yaiba 【JeanaSama】" advance thankies.
if you did not notice
night- muzan
mornng - kyoujiro
noon - giyuu
PFF...OK I'LL STOP.
Yes I used Kamado Tanjiro no Uta and removed the positive lines. HUEHEHE I suggest you play it while reading the last part of this fic HURT YOURSELF...
Tanjiro source of mental breakdown is the Train Arc. Come on you saw him slice off his own neck...like...I can never do something so crazy! He almost slice his neck outside the dream if Inosuke did not stop him rolf. Make sure to review hehe!
Next: The sun's warmth had faded. Muzan realize now how much he wasted his time on debating if he loves Tanjiro back. Memories are eternal. The memories they had for one year is never a lie. It will never fade. Muzan just wanted to Conquer the Sun. He just wanted...to live in the sunny place where 'love' exist. Where he is accepted that getting born 'the him' in this world was never a mistake. His strive to live from his death bed as an infant. For the first time...he wish to turn into ashes. As long as, the Hell Flower will make him and Tanjiro together...For all Eternity.
