Title: Family Portrait
Author: BlazeorFade
Rating: T
Summary: Dean, Sam and Jack ruminate on each other. Told in the first person.
Disclaimer: I own Jack, but not the boys but y'all knew that already.
Dean-2
Sam is my brother. Sam is my hunting responsibility. Sam is my best friend, even if I'm not his. I was proud of him when he got into college, he was the first in our family to manage that, and the Ivy Leagues no less. I was proud, but it hurt like hell to watch him go. It hurt that he didn't feel like he could tell me until the night he was leaving. I guess he thought I would tell dad or something, but I wouldn't have, I swear. And I've never broken my word when it came to Sam. That's probably the only area where my word means a damn.
Sam gets people. He knows how to be calm and sympathetic and the shoulder to cry on better than me. People just like Sam naturally as soon as they see him. The bastard doesn't even take advantage of the fact that chicks love brooders. They want to take you home and feed you cookies and cuddle. I tried it once, not my thing, I ended up hitting on her room mate and that kinda hurt my sad, good guy disguise, the room mate was great though…wonder if I still have her number?
Okay I'm getting off topic here(you would to if you'd seen her).
He's still too in love with Jess to go after girls and even if he was ready he was never the one night stand kind of guy. Don't know where I went wrong with him. (Jack: " Hypocrite." Me: "Yup, get over it.") I was hoping when he kissed Sarah that meant he was getting closer, you know becoming okay, but going to Jess's grave just brought it all right back to the surface. He's workin through it. Believe or not its a good thing we haven't had time off between hunts, it keeps him from going back into t hat head of his, that's never a good thing, trust me.
Between you and me I wonder if it'll ever be over for him. You can put up your guns and never look at a demonic text again but visions? Those aren't going to go away. Neither is the whole moving things with his mind stuff, but I don't want to tell him that.
He's been working with Jack on controlling those abilities, its slow going. I know he gets frustrated, I know Jack gets frustrated too. By the end of their lessons I usually have to stop them from killing each other. (Jack: "Are you sure you got into Stanford, cause you can't seem to learn." Sam: "This isn't Math genius, its moving things with my mind and at least there I had qualified teachers. Jack: "Ass." Sam: "Bite Me." Jack: "You wish.") But you can tell that underneath the arguing and aside from the headaches they're having fun. It's pretty cool to watch actually.
Sam worries about losing it one day. I can tell you right now that's not gonna fucking happen, not while I'm still alive and kicking. Of all of us I think he's probably the least likely to lose his mind, no he'll get his revenge and then go on get his life back. His life; law school, a wife and 2.5 kids that he won't tell about the big bad because he won't want them to be afraid and he'll keep a loaded .45 in his night table just in case something decides to go for him and his new family. He should really rethink the whole lawyer bit though. He's too good for that shit. I always thought he'd be a journalist or something, if he wasn't hunting. Don't know why, I just did. Maybe cause he was always so good at the research side of what we do. He can handle Normal, he's been there before, so he knows how to go through the motions. And he'd be good at it too.
Assuming he doesn't get himself killed while getting his revenge. I could have beat him senseless when he said he didn't care if he died. I care enough for the both of us, no one in this family is going to die again.
The demon said that Sam was Dad's favorite. Well, news flash fucker, I already knew that. I don't think Sam knew that though. Weird. But I guess even when you've grown up like we have its hard to get 'I love you' from 'Get your ass in the car and don't ever do that again.'
The thing that killed mom said it has plans for Sam and the other kids like him. Not sure what those plans are yet but I will and I'll stop it from happening.
Sammy gets obsessed. He gets consumed by the search for the demon and hates that we have to bat clean up while Dad is chasing down leads. I know he stays up late sometimes and searches for any scrap of information. I wonder who will find it again first, him or dad.
"Dean?" Sam is stopping in his tracks on the way to the car after casing a house that might be haunted. He stiffens and my hand goes to my gun and I step in front of him.
"What is it Sam?" I ask. Jack takes a place on Sam's other side. Sam puts a hand on my gun hand and on her shoulder.
"I thought I felt…" He squints, steps forward a few feet, looks in some vague direction in front of us before stopping, rubbing his forehead.
"Felt what?" Jack asks.
"I thought I felt…I don't know how to describe but I thought I felt dad." Sam said turning around looking at us with a perplexed expression.
"Dad?" I ask.
"I think I'm not getting enough sleep." Sam says shaking his head. He gives a small smile.
"Or your just crazy." I tell him. He punches my arm(damnit Sammy that hurt!) and climbs into the front seat.
Sam is my brother. And yeah…..that's all.
-Fin
