He helped me beat my father, he saved me from my own dreadful destiny and I believed he held my heat till that day. I fell in love with him, our mental bond that we shared was nothing more to him but to me I thought it was something more. He's not the sort that'll fall for the prettiest- that she was, he always seemed to be into someone more practical- that I was. For once I fell for the cliché ness of the situation and that one time I did it betrayed me. He fell for the pretty one, not because she was pretty but for unknown reason we're still trying to find.

I was an idiot to think he'll like me- I wasn't even close; he fell for the opposite. She always represented light; she was so predictable everything she did was written on her face before she did. He was so mysterious, always wanting to crack every mystery out there, figuring everything out; it was his life, his thing. I've represented the night; everything to do with me was clouded in dark, I was ultimate mystery to crack and he was so close, he opened my shell but before he got me out he went away. Us three met at the same time, lived in the same place and believed for the same thing, maybe except the love choice.

I usually wouldn't care, I normally didn't even know what love was, but still he showed me that and then left me- no wonder he's the great "boy wonder". I'm not jealous prone but why her, why something so easy to figure out or does he see something more about her than we do. After this incident, I wonder maybe she isn't as naive as I thought, maybe she was just playing a trick that everyone fell for but him, maybe the mystery about was more than I was, maybe that's why she's so happy. The more I think the more I figure out. She's like me actually; hiding so much about her but instead of just hiding it she covers it with a permanent emotion.

How ironic is this, I thought I was complicated but as soon as my emotions past the mono stage I'll just explode, whilst if she feels an emotion she can hide it till she's alone or maybe with him. I don't anything I just want to say all this to make myself feel better I really don't want to be chosen over a pretty girl and no more.

Tokyo, I hate that place, so many lights and so many girls that actually think that Beast boy is… umm…. Is…. Datable is that even possible! But it isn't that, it's finally realising that the teammate that I usually look so down at is actually the one who captured his heart. Look at her, so happy, so not his type, it really shows that opposites attract doesn't it. I've asked for tapes at when they were kissing, and in everyone it was him who started it, she never provoked him in any way. I've decided to break our mental bond it's useless now, he's taken and not by me.

Then there was Beast Boy, that trip made me hate him more than usual but it also made me think more about him as well. I just have to listen to every single word have to follow his every step and then find a reason to but in his life, like the time in the commanders office and the comment about his shirt being dyed. I also wondered why he had to drag me with Cyborg; why not star she's been the centre of attention. Why did he have to annoy me of all people all the time and what's so important about seeing me smile and why was he so angry when I did but to robin. So let's just say Robin is off my list, but maybe Beast boy can replace him…. Got to be kidding myself so who?…