A/N Here is the next chapter. Warnings are language and sexual references, and violence. You have been warned please do not read if it you are offended by this sort of thing. I own nothing of CM but my own characters.

Victor Hugo (1802 - 1885), Les Miserables, 1862 Dreaming permits each and every one of us to be quietly and safely insane every night of our lives.

Chapter 4

Lily, he shouted again, even though his throat was raw and what came from his tortured vocal cords was barely more that a whisper. Mists swirled around him in every shade of gray and white he had ever seen. He did not know how long he had been trapped in this, well what ever this was. The mists thinned a bit as they had a hundred, a thousand times before and just as he had a thousand times before he turned and ran to the opening. This time the mists did not close when he approached the opening. Suspicious now he stepped slowly through the opening into a dark room. "Oh this is much better than the fog" he thought sarcastically. He was afraid; there were whispers all around him. "Hello, who's there? Is that you Lily?" A figure approached and stepped into the lingering light of the mist.

"Mom, what are you doing here?"

"Spencer, when will you learn? I told you not to trust them."

"Trust who mom?" What do you mean?"

"Why the government thugs my sweet boy."

"Mom, what-?"

"Don't interrupt mother, I taught you better than that Spence. Now listen to me. You didn't really think you could have normal life did you. I mean look at you. You are a geek of the highest degree who has to chase psychos around to make himself feel superior to others. Sure you have a beautiful wife, but they took her away from you. Don't cry my sweet boy don't you see it is better this way. That baby would never be normal. I mean look at its parent's one a shy virgin who takes pictures for a living and never had a real boyfriend till you. And you well as I said you are a nerd with no experience with women. How did you ever get her into your bed? Surely there were other men with more experience she could've chosen-"

"Stop it mother!"

His mother faded out of view to be replaced by Morgan.

"Some agent you are you can't even protect your own family." That's why I hit you because you disgust me. You belong in a library not in the BAU and we all know it.

"Your not real Morgan just go away and let me find Lily."

Yes Reid I am real this is the real me underneath the mask of civility and friendship I am forced to wear around you. Oh, by the way Reid you will never find Lily because she doesn't want you anymore.

"That's not true she loves me and I love her!" he shouted, tears streaming down his face.

Morgan laughed and disappeared.

"They are right you know" said a voice from behind him.

He spun around and there was his beautiful Lily. A huge bruise bloomed over the left side of her face. She carried a bundle in her arms.

"Lily, sweetheart. Where have you been I have been looking for you for hours?"

It's too late for me Spencer. She stepped closer to him and he could see the baby she carried in her arms.

"Lily give me the baby, you're not yourself."

"That's why I can't stay Spencer; you never had any faith in me and look where it got me. I would have been home when the bank robbery happened but I couldn't stand to be in our house after our fight. It's you fault I have to go and take our baby with me." She moved her hand and placed it over the baby's mouth and nose smothering the child.

"Lily no!

Gideon's office BAU.

Gideon and Hotch were discussing Reid and the hostage situation at the bank.

"Jason do you think Reid will be alright or has he finally been broken by this latest blow?"

I don't know Aaron, but I won't lie to you and tell you I'm not worried for her sake and the baby's as well as for Spencer."

Hotch looked over to the couch where they had placed Reid after Morgan had hit him. He was angry that Morgan had hit him but if he was honest with himself he had to admit that he had been thinking the same thing at the time and he was sure Gideon had as well, Morgan just acted before either one of them did.

"I know Jason; we have all become very fond of Lily. She has changed him for the better. He is a better agent and certainly a better man because of her and the baby."

Gideon smiled to himself "I have to admit I never pictured him as a husband and certainly not as a father. Everything happened to them so fast. I wonder if it was too fast. Eight months ago Lily is kidnapped by a revenge driven mad woman. Reid is shot. And then they find out their expecting and the get married. That is awfully fast. I sometimes wonder if they will make the long haul."

Hotch began to respond to this when Reid began to moan in his sleep. He called out for Lily but they also heard him talk to his mother and to Morgan. Then he began to thrash and scream Lily's name. Gideon rushed to his side and put a hand on his arm. Spencer's eyes flew open and Gideon's heart broke at the anguish he saw. Then Reid eyes cleared and he said.

"W-what happened?" He looked around him and then at Gideon and Hotch. "Where am I?"

Then his brain succeeded in getting through the adrenaline fueled panic and he said "Lily, I have to-" he stood up and Gideon blocked his path.

"Reid you need to calm down, we are on the problem, and we will go after her when we have the proper plan to get her out safely." Sit down son, please?"

Memory flooded his mind and he said. "Morgan hit me?"

"Yeah man I thought if you broke away from us it was either that or shoot you." said Morgan from the doorway.

Reid sat down and said. "I can't believe you hit me!"

"I didn't know what else to do. You went off the deep end for a minute and would have done more harm than good if we allowed you to leave and go after Lily."

They were interrupted by Garcia. "I found out why these guys got cornered at the bank."

I was reviewing the 911 tape from Anne's call and its coded priority 1." She grinned like she had just divulged the greatest secret since the wheel.

"That's great Garcia, but all bank robberies are coded that way how does that help us?" Hotch asked patiently.

"Oh right I forgot you don't know what has been going on with the other robberies. She sat down and said. I was able to cross reference the silent alarm triggers from the other 4 robberies and I found that the signal was being blocked from proper coding at dispatch."

Hotch stared at her, "you mean to tell me a dispatch operator deliberately downgraded a panic alarm on these robberies preventing the proper response?"

"Yeah the programming was brilliant, well almost brilliant I could've done it better with-"

"Garcia? Gideon said quietly I'm sure you can do anything you put your mind to but can you stick to our problem?"

Garcia blushed and said "Oh right, sorry sir." So anyway after the robberies took place on some kind of signal from the robbery team the operator would change the code on the silent alarm and then the boys in blue would arrive but always too late."

So why hasn't this been discovered, I mean someone had to be suspicious as to why the cops were always late to these hold ups?" Morgan asked.

"Two reasons different jurisdictions, and when the call would originally come in the operator was able to delete the call and replace it with the new code after the fact."

She smiled wickedly, "but I was able to reconstruct the original calls. No one ever realizes that deleted records can be retrieved if you're a goddess or god of the information superhighway as I am."

"So what does that tell us, can we trace it back to the operator?"

Garcia handed Hotch the file she was holding with a flourish. "I have her info right here."

"Her?" Gideon asked.

"Yes, her name is Danielle Rogers and she lives not 5 miles from the first bank robbed a month ago. She didn't stop the call this time and I couldn't figure out why so I called dispatch and talked to her supervisor. She called in sick this morning. Her address is in the file."

Hotch said "I'll call Detective Gutierrez he owes me a favor. He can bring her into Quantico with out raising questions with the media."

He turned on his heel and strode out of the room.

"I want to be in on the interview." Reid said.

No I want you to stay from Ms Rogers. We don't know what her loyalties are or how long we will be able to hold her. If we can't hold her till this is over she may contact her partners and as I said before we can't risk them finding out your wife is one of their hostages." Gideon said.

He walked over to Reid a squeezed his shoulder. I know how much this is hurting you but we have got to be very careful. So far these guys aren't talking to the negotiator which makes them dangerous because they aren't saying what they want."

Reid left Gideon's office his shoulders slumped he wouldn't make eye contact with any one he passed. Gideon watched him go with a heavy heart

"How much more of this can he take?"

First Household bank

Lily opened her eyes. She hurt all over and groaned as she tried to sit up. The young man who had given her his place in line was lying next to her. He looked around the said quietly "mam are you ok."

"I think so what happened."

"One of the Neanderthals knocked you down."

"Oh right, what's going on."

"Apparently we have been taken hostage. I don't know why."

"Hey, you over there shut up! one of the masked men shouted. Stop talking now or your dead."

Lily gasped as another much stronger contraction gripped her body. She looked at her watch and realized she had been out for an hour. She didn't know how far apart the contractions were now.

"This isn't good; this isn't good at all she thought. Oh Spencer where are you do you even know what has happened. I am sorry we fought baby. Please forgive me."

Lily pulled herself over to the front of the teller booth to rest against and she closed her eyes. She focused on Spencer's face, his eyes.

She closed off her mind to the sobbing and the conversation of the hostage takers and thought of Spencer.

Accepting all I've done and said
I want to stand and stare again
'Til there's nothing left out..
Oh, it remains there in your eyes
Whatever comes and goes
I will hear your silent call..

She remembered the first time she saw him. He came into the internet café and walked to her table. She had a red rose on the table in front of her to signal to him who she was. He stopped in front of the table. "Lily St John" he said nervously clearing his throat and pulling at his collar. He told her later that he hadn't realized she would be so beautiful. She had nearly chocked on her coffee when she saw him. He was dressed like a 15 year old on his first day at an exclusive prep school. She had wanted to laugh until she looked in to his chocolate brown eyes and realized that behind the scared rabbit look was the most beautiful man she had ever seen.

In your eyes the light the heat
In your eyes I am complete
In your eyes the resolution
In your eyes of all the fruitless searches
In your eyes I see the light and the heat
In your eyes I wanna be that complete
In your eyes I wanna touch the light,
The heat I see in your eyes..

Then she was remembering the dark room and how he had come in and the relief and love so evident on his face to see her alive before it all closed down again making it possible to do what he had to do to save her.

Love..I don't like to see
So much pain so much wasted
And this moment keeps slipping away
I get so tired working so hard
For ours to have
I look to return one day
To keep me awake and alive
And all my instincts
They return
And the grand facade so soon will burn
Without a voice without my pride
I reach out from the inside

She remembered their wedding and how beautiful it was. They had gone to visit his mother afterwards and she thought of how hard it was for him to let her see that side of his life. It hurt him that his mother was only coherent some of the time in spite of the medications and he was overwhelmed with guilt for staying away from her. And even though Lily had been frightened of his mother's condition she didn't let it show for his sake and had been as kind as she could be to Diana Reid.

Love..I get so lost sometimes days pass
And this emptiness fills my heart
When I want to run away
I drive off in my car
But whichever way I go
I come back to the place you are
And all my instincts they return
And the grand facade so soon will burn
Without a voice
Without my pride
I reach out from the inside

Then without any warning she was yanked roughly to her feet. "Get up bitch, everyone get up move to the windows and sit down and shut up!" He shouted shoving her away from him so that she almost fell. Another contraction. She bit down on her lip to keep from crying out. She felt panic welling up inside her as she awkwardly sat down with the others. The contractions were coming too fast.

Quantico-The gun range.

Spencer picked up the safety goggles and put them on. He put on the ear protectors and drew his gun out of his holster. He checked the clip to make sure it was full and he pushed the button for the target. He took a two handed stance and thumbed off the safety. He concentrated only on everything Hotch had taught him about shooting and he was going to get it right this time or be damned. He squeezed the trigger and felt the recoil. He squeezed again and again reloading and emptying another clip. He pushed the button again to bring the target to him. The head of the target was destroyed as was the area of the heart. Every shot had found its way home.

Garcia's office.

Gideon and Hotch watched as Garcia brought up a new image of the interior of the bank.

"How did you do that I thought the cameras were destroyed."

"Oh I have no doubt the think they took all the cameras out but they missed one."

"Howis that possible? These are organized individuals they probably have a security expert who would have know where every camera is in the room."

"I don't know Gideon maybe a recent upgrade I only know it isn't in the most recent security schematics."

"How are you accessing it?" Hotch asked.

That is the beauty of this little baby. Instead of conventional tape or even disc, the signal is wireless and protected by an encryption code, which I broke pretty quickly. The signal would go straight to the bank managers lap top. He could keep track of everything going on in the lobby. I have hijacked it for our use."

"Excellent work Garcia. Gideon said smiling "I think we just caught a break."

"Good Hotch, said because Ms Rogers is clammed up we can't get anything out of her except she has been very well paid for her expertise."

"Where is Reid? Gideon asked. "We need his eyes."

Garcia turned another monitor on. "He's in the gun range I have been keeping an eye on him. I was worried."

They all watched as he emptied clip after clip into a target and were astounded by his improvement in accuracy. Gideon didn't like what he saw on the young agents face. He looked dead in the eyes and it badly scared the older man.

The Gun Range

Spencer put down his gun it was almost too hot to touch.

"When did you get so good with a gun?" Hotch said from behind him as Spencer removed his goggles and hearing protection.

Without turning Spencer said in a cold voice. "I could always shoot Hotch I just never had the stomach for it until now."

Hotch didn't like what he was hearing in the young agents voice. And he wondered if the young agent was contemplating crossing a line he shouldn't. But he didn't have time to get into it with him. He needed him to look at feed from the bank.

"We have a live feed from the bank Reid." he said

"Garcia I presume, how did she pull that off?"

"I'll explain it later we need you to look at the feed if you can."

"I don't want to Hotch but I must for her sake." he said in that same cold voice.

Garcia's office

They watch as Lily woke up and spoke briefly to the same young man in line with her. Spencer had been so relieved to see her awake and seemingly ok that he began to weep again. They saw her go through another contraction and then they watched her sit up against the teller's booth. Spencer watched her close her eyes and completely ignore the others around her. He had always envied her ability to shut out the outside world. She loved to meditate. She claimed it was very relaxing.

She's shutting out the pain and the stress." Gideon said.

Then abruptly one of the masked men hauled her to her feet and shoved her in the direction of the windows where everyone was sitting. They saw her grimace in pain again barely 15 minutes had passed since the last one.

Hotch said, "we just ran out of time we have to get her out of there now."

A/N I have no idea if the tech stuff I mention is even possible so if you're an expert don't flame me. Also the song lyrics are from "in your eyes" by Peter Gabriel. Also I am accelerating Lily's labor for story purposes. More later loyal readers. Please reivew:)