Summary: Set six months after the third season premier Addison still works at Seattle Grace she is dating Mark and it seems to be going really well. He moved after she refused to come to New York she phoned him and told him she wanted to give them a chance. Derek left town though he said goodbye to Meredith three months ago she had chosen Finn and he couldn't deal with both woman being with someone else. But now Derek's back in Seattle after Richard begged him to come back. Bringing with him Addison's younger sister Keira whose starting her second year internship there. And what happens when Derek comes and finds out Addy's little secret that she's kept from him.
Notes: The first part of this will be set six months before. In a way that I think Derek should have told Addy about what he did. He owed her that much but the writers never gave her that respect. She had to find out by finding those underwear. But apart from that she deserves a whole lot better and so does Meredith. Mind you this may turn out Addek but it could turn out Maddison. Keep this in mind I haven't seen the season 3 premier. I haven't met Mark, Callie or Finn this is just my perception of McSteamy, Callie and McVet. Oh and Addy and Meredith hashed it out verbally when they were held hostage by a dead patients family member five months ago and they are now friends. Burke is slowly recuperating still but he's back at work working on small cases. Izzy is making progress because of all her friends.
Pairings: Mark/Addy, Mer/Fin, Alex/Keira, Christina/Burke, George/Callie and Izzy/OC
Disclaimer: None of them belong to me.
Sweet Sacrifices
Prologue
Addy sat down on the bed she didn't know if Derek would be back tonight. Perhaps she'd been a little sadistic hanging the underwear up on the board. But she deserved a whole lot better than what he gave her. She had her bag packed and she'd sent it to the hotel. She'd found a picture of her and Derek on their wedding day and to her defense she didn't quite rip it to shreds. She held it in her hands or what remained of it anyways all right so maybe she had gone a little overboard. She heard the door to the trailer open and she looked up. He was home she guessed she stood up and walked out and saw him there. He was smiling a big grin like a cheshire cat. "So where did you screw her this time the broomcloset, the elevator maybe or maybe she's not good enough for that backseat of your car?" she asked. He'd never let her explain so why should she let him. Wait she was still here unlike him.
He turned around and she saw the shock on his face the smile wiped right off it she noticed. Wasn't expecting me was he? Thought I'd walk away he could tell she was angry and hurt and he couldn't blame her. Hadn't he done what she'd done. Except all those months ago he'd walked out without an explanation. But here she was standing trying not to show the fact that he'd hurt her. Thats what he could truly say he had always loved about her. She never stood down from what she believed in. "Addy I never meant to hurt you I didn't mean you to find out the way you did," he said. If he'd stayed in New York he would have never met Meredith hell maybe he would have worked his relationship out with Addison. But he'd let it fail he blamed her for as long as he could. Her and Mark but now he was just a big fat hypocrite.
Addison looked at him and felt the tears start to fall she didn't try to suck them in or anything like that. There was no point her very being was being ripped apart because right now he was a pretty big damn asshole. She deserved better Mark had told her enough times after Derek left New York when she'd stayed with him. But she was ashamed of what happened between her and Mark. She'd let that hang over her head. But enough was enough she had enough of feeling sorry for him. "Derek you know what you are your a hypocrite a big fat hypocrite. You made a choice I didn't come running to you and say choose me no I stood back and let you make that choice." She took a deep breath and bit her lip "I wanted you to give me that divorce I wanted you to stay with her but no you were selfish and you hoped that it would sort itself out. But when it didn't when you didn't get what you wanted you hurt me. You slept with her you left me there out on the dance floor and you slept with her." Addison sat down and shook her head. She looked at him. "If she wasn't going to choose you, I would have been second best I have been ever since I came here and I hate it."
Derek sat across from her he had never wanted to hurt her god he had just wanted too much at the same time god he wasn't sure if you could love two woman at the same time but that was his dilema he did. He'd told Meredith tonight that he loved her and that he'd made the wrong choice. And Addison was right he hadn't forced his hand to choose her that had been his choice. And it wasn't that he regretted the choose. Okay maybe a little but not because of why Addison thought. He regretted it because he felt like he had failed that he could never make her happy again. He didn't try to comfort her in anyway. Second best was not a way he would ever describe Addison. "Yes Addy I am a hypocrite I don't know about big and fat but I am a hypocrite." He hadn't meant to hurt her like the way he knew he had he had made both their lives miserable and he actually hated to ask her whether she loved Mark or not. And was that the reason why she had wanted a divorce so that she could go back to him. "Your my best friend you always have been and always will be." He pressed his hand into hers and smiled. "You will stay here wont you and you won't be like me who goes running?"
Addy scowled at him she currently hated and loved him if that was even possible. She wanted to knock him a shot but she couldn't. Though not that she didn't feel like it because goddamit she did. I mean how many times had she said sorry over the last few months since he'd made her choice. But no he didn't listen stubborn assed man. But she wouldn't admit it but Mark was right their marriage had been over long before Meredith Grey had shown up. "I won't run thats your choice of transport mine is to stay and have as much fun being a single woman as I can." Oh all right for maybe a short little while until I can get someone to sweep me off my feet. But I wont throw it in his face. Addy stood up and smiled at him. "You don't throw her in my face like you have been and I wont shove anyone else." She grabbed her jacket and her purse.
Derek looked at her and nodded, "I promise I wont we will be discreet," he said. Thats if she chooses me of course she may not she may go with the vet. But I did just declare my love for her that has got to mean something right. Hopefully I'm right. He wondered what Addy meant by shoving someone in his face nope better not ask yea thats it better not ask. Though mind you it was his business whether she walked out with a stranger. I mean even Mark would be better than that. Suck it in Shepherd and say it you know you can. "I forgive you and maybe thats the wrong thing to say but I guess I subconsciously forgave you a long time ago about Mark and Addy I want you to be happy and hell even if its with him."
She crossed her arms and tapped her foot but she was only joking she didn't mean it like that. She hated the fact that he knew her so well. And so what if she'd heard that the Head of Plastic Surgery was now open and Richard had offered it to Mark. He'd told her but she wouldn't say anything. She smiled though "I want you to be happy too even if its with her." She kissed his forehead and put her jacket on. She went to the door "she'd be a fool to choose him over you. I wont say goodbye cause it isn't its a see you later." She walked out and closed the door. He watched her go and sighed it wasn't a happy sigh it was a things are changing and I'm happy about it.
Outside Addy stopped and breathed in she got in her car and she drove off she almost yipeed she would never have to live in that trailer ever again. She sighed she heard her cell phone ring she had a feeling she knew who it was and it brought a smile to her face. She pulled to the side of the road and took it out and the caller ID flashed Mark. She flipped it open "hey you," she said.
Six Months Later
Addy's POV
I brush my red hair away from my face as I come out of the on-call room god I feel like I'm back to being an intern. I smooth down my rumpled clothes and I feel Mark walk out behind me looking less rumpled than I do. I glower at him when he comes out its not fair that he can look so good after what we just did. Maybe it has something to do with the fact he's a plastic surgeon and it comes with the territory. I turn and look at him and he looks quite pleased with himself. Quite smug. I shake my head I have patients and I still haven't had lunch thanks to him pulling me into that room. Six months have passed since Derek and I ended it. As usual after Meredith broke it off with him he ran I shake my head gone back to New York the last time I heard. But he's on the way back or so Richards told me. "I'll see you later baby," Mark whispered kissing the side of my neck before walking off.
I watch him go nearly five months since I decided that I actually wanted a relationship with him. Its our anniversary in two days he feels the need to make me feel like a princess. I finally bought myself a house and don't ask I bought myself a dog. I won't admit it to anyone but myself but I loved Doc. Okay so I did admit that to Meredith. Thats the biggest surprise I'm actually friends with her now. And freakishly enough I'm friends with Christina as well. Though that had more to do with helping Burke who I am happy to say is making good progress. Reminds me of Richard and being too stubborn to actually admit when he's down. And Izzy finally forgave me and we work a lot more together now than before. She's decided that she wanted to go into pre-natal. She's still Baileys intern but she works a lot more with me.
Speaking of I see her standing talking to one of the nurses and giving instructions no doubt. We have a mother nine months pregnant coming in with complications. She'd come into see me before and we hadn't found anything wrong but it had only shown up a few days ago when the baby had moved. It had an abnormal growth on its back but it was probably nothing. I walk over to Izzy and smile. "So how's she doing?" I ask.
Izzy smiles and looks at the woman I roll my eyes I know what she's thinking and I can almost predict what she's about to say. Well okay I said almost. "She's fine she's much calmer the husbands finally shown up which is something good." Yes I'd heard about this her husband had left as soon as he heard about the growth typical man but at least he was back now and I hoped it was for good for the womans sake and their baby. I see Izzy looking at me and I nod as sort of acknowledgement that she can rip me off. She'd told me about the many times she had felt left out with Meredith and Christina. And now we were just as close which I'm glad I have a friend in her. "So how was your liasion with Dr.Sloane?"
I smirk and look at her, "quite enjoyable though my backs a little sore from the thump he gave it against the door after he locked it," she said. I shake my head while she laughs figures no sympathy whatsoever from interns. I look in on the patient I see she's crying oh god what the hell has her husband done now. I shake my head I wish things were simpler for woman like her. But nothing was simple and it got worst because no one cared enough about anyone else. I smile at Izzy and and walk over to the room and walk inside. She looks up and gives me a teary smile. I sit down beside her. I wont push she always tells me.
She swallowed and blew her nose, and turned her head towards me, "his secretary's pregnant I mean god she's nineteen he impregnanted a woman half his age what kind of person does that," she said. She looked down at her hands god well okay Mer wasn't half his age and he hadn't gotten her pregnant but Addy knew what Amanda Ford was going through. I don't know how an older man can go for a younger woman. I had just about collapsed in grief when I found out about Derek and Meredith. But I'd come back stronger and I'd even gotten a friend out of it. What more could I ask for. Though I knew where Derek was living with my sister Keira in New York no I don't mean like that my sisters always had a soft spot for him and gave him a place to stay. And I was excited she was doing her second year of internship here. "He's left me for a little girl after sixteen years of marriage what kind of man does that?" She looked at me and I was drawn in. "Your lucky to have a handsome looking man like yours who treats you like a queen."
Addy wasn't sure what type of man did that. I mean Derek wasn't even that type of man. "I don't know what type of man does that Amanda I really don't know at all," I say. I'm amazed that anyone would want to stay with a man like that. Though I can probably say I'm amazed at a lot of things. In the time that I've known this woman her husband has walked out on her at least four times and he's come grovelling back each time. I was hoping this time would be no different but maybe Amanda would be better off as a single mother you never know. I had thought about it many a time. But I smile when she mentions Mark she had met him the other week there when he'd walked in and given me a rose. "I am but you will find your one true love too."
I see her shrug her shoulders I know she doesn't believe me cause she turns her head away and looks out the window I sigh and start walking out the room. "When you know you found out how did you feel did you feel happy and as you are getting nearer do you feel safe in that love that he'll always be there always treat you like a princess?" she asked. I stop and turn and see she's looking at me again and I don't know how to answer that because I don't know the answer I have few doubts that Mark would ever leave me for a younger model but I suppose you never know anything could happen. But he'd proven six months ago that he was in love with me when he came here gave up everything in New York to be with me. "Will you love him forever?" she continued.
I went back and sat down on the side of her bed and took her hand and I look at her, "no I don't know what will happen in the future no one knows that because thats exactly what it is, its a mystery waiting to happen," I say. I look up and I see Izzy standing outside the room presumably she's waiting to take her temperature or make sure the baby was fine. I shook my head and she seemed to understand she walked off but not to far in case I needed her for something. "I'll tell you a story about someone I used to know well I still do know him I used to be married to him well it wasn't that long ago we divorced six months ago well less than that actually. Once he made my heart flutter with glee but he hurt me badly but I forgave him and I found someone who was a true love."
God I hoped this helped her and she didn't ask me how he hurt me that hadn't been my intention. She seemed to understand what I was saying. "He must have been one crazy man to let you go," she said. She gave me a small smile yea back then lady I thought that as well. I thought he was even crazier after he left the bloody state. I smile and leave the room I watch as Izzy goes in and Amanda seems much calmer now and thats what I wanted.
I look down at my stomach and I smooth my hand over it the bump there is evident since well I am nearly six months pregnant though very few people in the hospital know that and I want to keep it that way. Even when Derek comes I wont tell him all he'll know is, is that its Mark's child and he'll accept that. I mean it wasn't okay that it could be Derek's child Mark knew about the one night stand I had with Derek back then but I'm pretty sure it's Marks he says he'll bring it up either way. Yes very gentlemanly of him but it doesn't help me to figure this out. I press my lips together and look at the file in front of me. I'd have to face the music one day and today wasn't that day. I hear someone come up behind me I expect its probably one of the nurses. "Hey Addy," someone whispers in my ear.
I turn around slowly and oh yes that voice is recognizable from miles away Derek Shepherd neurosurgeon was back at Seattle Grace. And looking hotter than ever if I do say myself. Oh stop having thoughts like that she almost hit herself but he probably thought I was mad or something. "Derek," I say.
To be continued...
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