Notes: is it just me or does anyone else notice the fact that Addie is the only attending that the Chief wont shout at. He shouts at both Derek and Preston but never her thats what I like about him.

Disclaimer: None of the ice cream names belong to me they belong to Ben & Jerry's the best ice cream in the world.

Chapter 2 ; Everybody's Fool

Addie's POV

I pout and walk out of my bedroom damn him and damn her to hell and back. And damn Keira as well why couldn't he have found someone else to date. Anyone else in the whole entire world he had to find her in New York. She probably did it on purpose. Though at least I don't have to see her ugly face I have the day off god bless Richards soul the man is my savior. He and I had a heart to heart the other day I'm generally glad that he's still around to order us around. Even though Adelle has made him cut back on certain things like how many hours he spends at the hospital but he doesn't mind too much it could be worst. But here I am its 11am and I'm only getting up now I haven't ever slept in this late in well god knows how long. I don't like days off I don't know what to do with myself. I used to but now I'm not sure.

And last night has made me think I hated last night because I had a fight with Keira over Charlie yes I may hate the woman but I still use the nickname. She used to be the person that I could tell everything too but that was a long time ago and I hated the fact that she still makes me feel guilty. She said I had too much time for other things. Hey I wanted to become a surgeon so sue me. I had to work my ass off to where I wanted to go but no one especially her and him didn't even notice that fact. It's amazing that Keira even got through medical school. I never thought that she would even go through with her ideas. I guess I have always wondered what would have happened had she and I been still friends. Derek and I probably would have never gotten married thats for sure. I would probably be Dr.Addison Forbes Montgomery-Evans his name my boyfriend yup he was Michael Evans some say I should have married him anyways.

I shake my head and pop some bread into the toaster and take out some orange juice. Mark sort of understands though I guess no one understands what certain things I have gone through. I hear the doorbell ring and I sigh who would be hear at this time in the morning. Everyone I knew would be at work I walked to the door and opened it. And there stood Meredith Grey. Some people would actually laugh but we're best friends now if you'd told me six months ago that she and I would be friends I would have laughed myself silly, I would have been rolling on the floor in hysterics. But no even our friendship had shocked Christina. But even she and I had come to some sort of agreement anytime the two of them needed to bitch they could come to my house and eat ice cream we had each learnt early on which each of our favourite flavours were. Mine's Karamel Sutra, Mer's is Mint Chocolate Chunk, Christina's is Dublin Mudslide, Izzy's is Marsha, Marsha Marshmallow and George's is yes even George comes Cherry Garcia. The weird people I have associated with. Mark doesn't like ice cream so he doesn't join in. "Hi I guess you've heard about my hate for the new resident," I say. I step back to let her in.

She gives me a sympathetic look now I know how she must have felt when I turned up that night. I take the ice cream from her and grab spoons from the drawer forgetting the toast for now. Though I popped it up just to make sure it didn't burn or anything. I sit down on the couch while she sits down beside me. "Hey yea Izzy told me everything so what exactly happened between you two I think the story got a little distorted you know after being told a few times," she says. I laugh yea as usual the hospital gossip you have a confrontation in the lobby and by the end of the day the whole hospital knows.

Wait that was probably why Richard was looking so concerened and offered me a shoulder to cry on. I mean he's a good friend but not that good. He even offered Adelle's services I chuckle she and I talk a lot nowadays I remember that night that Derek left town. She came over to my apartment and practically screamed at me for an hour. Yea and the woman's mouth is nearly as bad as Baileys. I eat a scoop of ice cream. "We'd been friends since kindergarden we'd done everything together there was no secrets between us. But then he transferred Michael Evans he was from Ireland and had that beautiful Irish accent it was our sophmore year and he took an interest in me." I brush my red hair away from my face and take another bite of ice cream. "We started dating I didn't realise how jealous Charlie was she never said anything but then in our senior year I'd heard rumors obviously that he'd been cheating but I didn't listen prom night I found them in bed together. She was pregnant and I fled. I left town as soon as graduation was over."

I laugh to myself I critisize Derek for running and I'm pretty good at it too. I feel Meredith put her hand over mine and I smile. "Its not your fault she was a sucky friend maybe it was for the best that it happened you know I mean I know you didn't think of it at the time but maybe in the long run. I mean where would you be if you were still with this Michael guy?" I guess I'd never thought about it that way where would I be I certainly wouldn't be sitting here in a nice house with Meredith as a friend and being a surgeon. Nope wouldn't have any of that. I'd be stuck exactly where my mother said I would have been stuck if I had stuck with Michael Evans.

I shuddered at the thought of the fact that maybe I would have been stuck in a small town for my whole life being a paedatrician. I knew I'd always wanted to be a doctor of some sort and work with children. But I had made sure that I had gotten out and made my other dream come true seeing the world. If I'd stayed with Michael I'd never have met Derek yea and for everything we've put each other through I wouldn't change that for a million dollars. "I'd be leaving in my hometown yeek working as the paedatrician because I'd always wanted to be a doctor I'd have the normal married life with the kids and I'd be bored out of my mind," I say. And that was the truth.

There was a time I would have given anything to have that. Back in high school I would have given an arm and a leg to be normal and make things for my perfect little life that would be there. But that never happened because I had been planning to move away and give Michael an ultimatum. "I think your life is a whole lot better for the fact that Michael cheated on you," Meredith says.

I nod and take another scoop of ice cream she's right I know she's right but it doesn't make my life any easier. I mean here I am pregnant only a handfull of people know and the fact that I don't even know whom the father is thats whats scaring me the most. I mean okay truth be told I wouldn't mind either one of them but it would kind of screw things up if it turned out to be Dereks. But is it small of me to wish some part of me it was his. But thats small I mean I want it to be Marks. And I hate me even more. "I know your right but just seeing her has brought so many things up it hurts if you know what I mean I never understood why she did it I thought she's my best friend what type of person does that?"

I see Meredith shrug her shoulders and I almost feel like saying see exactly not even you know the answer to that question but anyways I wouldn't say anything.

To be continued...

Yea that was short and its not even very meaningfull but there will be a bigger update with a big surprise.