Chapter four
Bam had Missy pull over to the curb and then he got out of the car. He pulled out a stack of money from his bag and walked up to the nearest guy he saw. He quickly grabbed the man's hand and held it open. The man tried to pull his hand away but before he could Bam had placed a stack of money in it and closed his fingers over it.
"Don't ask just take it!"
Confused, the man looked at Bam as Bam rushed away down the sidewalk. Bam did that to a few more unsuspecting people along the way. A couple people tried to question his actions, thinking it was some sort of prank, and a couple people simply thanked him as happily as they could be. But Bam paid no attention to anything that anyone he passed said to him. He ran around a corner and threw a stack of money behind him, not caring where it landed.
As he ran and got rid of the money from the bag, he allowed tears to flow from his eyes. Right then he hated everything in his current life that involved his fame. He wished that he could strip away all his fame and just live a normal life. However that was going to be impossible to do so he felt at that moment the best thing he could do was get rid of some of his wealth any way he could think of. He didn't want to simply spend the money because that would have given him a bunch of things that he didn't want or need. With his fame he had become able to frivolously spend large amounts on money on anything he could want, even if it was the most foolish and unnecessary purchase he could ever make. But now he didn't want to be able to do such a thing. He had to change this part of his life and he had to change it fast.
Once the bag was empty he stood against a wall catching his breath. He then slid down to the ground, shaking and crying. He pounded his fist against the ground beside him as he sobbed. Missy pulled up to the nearby curb and got out of the car. She went right up to him and sat beside him. Out of instinct he leaned against her and cried into her shoulder. She placed a hand on the side of his head to pull him a little closer to her and kissed his temple. As she wiped some of his tears away he looked at her. His lip trembled and he tried to choke back sobs so he could speak.
"Take… take me home… now."
Missy nodded and helped him up onto his feet. She opened the car door for him and helped him inside before getting in on the driver's side. As she drove she kept glancing at Bam. Bam bit down on his knuckle and sniffed occasionally. He still shook but he wasn't crying nearly as much as he was before. She sighed a little, looking away from Bam, and continued driving back home.
….
Missy waked Bam inside and sat him down in one of the leather chairs in the lounge. He sat there with his hands on his legs and was looking down at the floor. A deep brood was resting upon his face as he sat there gazing at nothing. Tears had stained his face but he had no intentions on cleaning the tear stains off.
He sat there for a little while, not even noticing that he was alone. When he finally looked up he looked around the room and his eyes widened. He started to go into a panic until Missy came into his view. She approached him with caution and sat in the other chair by him. He calmed down and looked away from her. The two of them sat there in silence for a little while. Bam sat there and stared almost fiercely as a million thoughts seemed to be running through his mind at the same time. Missy looked over at him.
"Bam are you alright?"
His eyes widened and he slowly stood up. He shook slightly as his eyes wildly scanned the room. Missy sat there watching him closely and waited for him to snap. He closed his eyes for a brief moment before opening them again. When he opened them they weren't nearly as wide as they were before and they appeared strangely calm.
"Missy… I…" He sighed and ran his fingers through his hair
"What's the matter?"
"I…" He shook his head "There are so many voices going through my head right now… and not one of them is my own."
"What… what do you mean?" She gulped
"I don't know." He paused "Actually I do know but it doesn't make sense to me at all. These… these voices are telling me all kinds of things but I can't figure out what to listen to or if I should listen to them." He closed his eyes and held his head in his hands
"Bam you're scaring me."
He opened his eyes and looked as though he was about to cry again "I-I'm scaring myself right now." He collapsed to his knees, still holding his head "I have no idea what's going on!"
Missy went down beside him and put her arms around him.
"Shh baby… everything is going to be alright."
