Chapter five
The reporter stood outside Bam's house with the camera man, waiting for someone to come outside. Missy opened the door and looked out at them. She talked to the reporter, trying to explain that Bam wouldn't be up for an interview but the reporter insisted on getting an interview anyway. Missy nodded her head and told them to wait there while she returned inside. Moments later she had coaxed Bam to step outside to talk to the reporter. He took one look at the camera and instantly his nerves acted up. Even though Missy had informed him about the camera and even though it wasn't on at the moment, he still did not feel ready to stand before it.
At the most part during the pre-interview Bam tried his hardest to ignore the camera and focus on the reporter. He did not hold eye contact with the reporter while speaking to her and he often looked down at his feet. He was alright for a little bit until she made him look directly at the camera when it was on. His eyes widened and he gulped, trying to swallow a forming lump in his throat. He also suddenly found it difficult to let any words come out.
"I'm standing here just outside the home of Bam Margera, talking to him about his very surprising act of generosity he pulled off yesterday when he gave away large amounts of his own money to random people walking along the streets of downtown West Chester. Bam could you tell us about this good deed of yours?"
Bam stared at the camera timidly and began to stammer.
"Bam?"
"Uh… I uh…" He swallowed and tried to steady his growing nerves "I… I… oh God…"
All he could focus on was the camera. He hated seeing the camera right then to the point that he wanted to cry. He tried to look away from the camera but he just couldn't.
"Wha-what was your question?" He asked with his voice almost cracking
"Could you tell us about this good deed you've done? Why did you give your money away?"
Bam shook his head "No… no it wasn't meant as a good deed! I-I…" His lower lip shook and his eyes began to fill with tears "I can't deal with this shit! Please… Please leave me alone!"
He pushed the camera away, nearly causing the camera man to drop it, and ran away. The reporter was stunned as she looked at the camera.
"Shut it off. Let's just leave."
After she saw what had happened from inside, Missy ran outside and went after Bam. She found him out in the driveway sitting down in front of Vito's car that was cemented into the ground. He had his face covered as he cried intensely.
"I can't take this!" He sobbed "I never want to see another fucking camera ever again!"
Missy bent down to put her arms around him. But unlike other times when he would have allowed her to hold and comfort him, he pulled away from her.
"No!"
She sat back and watched him as he sobbed. She wanted so much to hold onto him or to say some soothing words to him but this time as Bam cried, she felt as though she would only make him feel worse.
Bam suddenly stopped crying and looked up. Everything was completely silent as Bam and Missy sat there. Bam just sat there looking straight ahead of him and Missy looked directly at Bam. After a couple minutes of staying in that state, Bam slowly stood up and began heading back to the house. Missy stood up as well and called out after him, but he ignored it and continued walking. Missy, though keeping her distance from Bam, followed him all the way back inside the house.
….
Bam lay in bed with is hand tucked neatly beneath the pillow. He was perfectly still and calm but his mind was not able to be at rest. His eyes were open but they didn't appear troubled or upset at the slightest bit; just relaxed. In his mind flashes of the scene from earlier with the reporter and camera man played over and over. The same voices he had heard the night before began speaking to him again, but this time there weren't nearly as many voices and they were easier to understand. Bam lay there trying to make sense of everything that he had been experiencing the past few days.
Just downstairs Missy sat in the dining room talking to April on the phone. She explained to April everything that had been going on with Bam since April last came by the house. They talked about different options on what should be done about Bam and the state that he was in. Once option that was brought up, that made the most sense to them, was checking Bam into the hospital.
After hanging up with April, Missy went upstairs to the bedroom to check on Bam. She quietly knocked on the door to let him know that she was about to enter the room. Bam didn't respond like she expected so she stepped inside. She froze in her spot as she looked around the room. There was no trace of Bam ever being in there except for the fact that the window was wide open.
