Chapter 23

The next morning, Jude woke up hoping last night was just a dream. She laid in bed and didn't feel anyone with her. She rolled over and didn't see Speed, but Tommy. Oh god, last night really happened. What did I do? I broke up with the person I love and then slept with the person who caused me so much pain. I got to go.

Jude got up and got dressed and made it out of the hotel without waking Tommy. She walked a couple blocks to the tour bus. She couldn't get on the bus; there was a good chance she would have to see Speed. She walked around for a while then decided to brave it and get on the bus. She went to her bunk and found a letter there. She knew it was from Speed and she didn't want to read it.

Two hours later, Jude saw Tommy drive up and everyone else walk out of the hotel.

"Are you ok Jude?" Mason asked as he walked ahead to her.

"No, I am not Mason. I think I just ruined everything." Jude replied crying.

"Jude, want to ride with me to the next location?" Tommy asked as soon as he saw Speed approach her.

"Yes." Jude said as she ran to the car to avoid Speed. She was also holding the letter in her hand.

"What is that?" Tommy asked after a while, he noticed Jude playing with it.

"A letter." Jude replied distantly. Jude finally decided it was time to open it.

Jude, I know you hate me right now, but please just listen. I don't love Monica because I am crazy over you. You mean everything to me and I thought you knew that. I could never hurt you Jude, never. You are everything to me and I want you back. Monica is sorry, she was misled. Tommy told her to come here because I wanted her back, which was not true. I was happy having just you. Wally said that Tommy came back after you and called Monica to intercept. Please, please forgive me. Jude, I love you, you are my everything. Tell me what I have to do to get you back, I will do anything. Please Jude.

Love, Vincent.

Once Jude read that letter, she looked over at Tommy and yelled, "You bastard!"

"What did I do?" Tommy replied confused.

"You…you made Monica come out here. You lied to her and me." Jude yelled back as she slapped him.

"What the hell are you talking about? I know nothing about Monica." Tommy lied. This was not supposed to happen.

"This letter says different."

"He is lying probably."

"Why would he? This sounds pretty serious, he signed it Vincent!"

"He is a liar, you saw it with your own eyes, and he was kissing Monica."

The rest of the ride was silent. Speed was sitting in his bunk on the bus just starring at the card he had received from Jude only two nights ago. Kyle, Wally, and Mason were out in the main part brainstorming ideas to get Jude and Speed back together.

After three hours, the bus stopped. Jude got out of the car and went to find Mason; she needed someone to talk to. She was confused, who was lying and who was telling the truth?

"Mase, can we talk alone?" Jude asked as she walked up to the guys outside the bus.

"Jude, I need to talk to you." Monica said.

"Mase, please?" Jude asked ignoring Monica.

"Come on, let's go talk." Mason said as he walked off with Jude. Once they were alone he said, "What is it?"

"I am confused, Speed said he loved me, Tommy said he loved me and that Speed was cheating on me. I saw Speed kissing Monica, I freaked and broke up with him because I believed Tommy. Ran to Tommy and slept with him, found Speed's letter and now I feel awful." Jude explained crying.

"You slept with Little Tommy Q?" Mason shouted in shock.

"Yes, I was so upset, he said he loved me and I don't know how, but it happened."

"Monica told us Tommy called her and said Speed loved her and flew her out here last minute. He set this up. Speed is a mess Jude."

"How could I be so stupid? How could I believe Speed would cheat on me?"

"I don't know, but Tommy did this to get you. He hates Speed."

"How do I make this right? I am utterly confused."

"Who do you love?"

"I love Speed. I realized that this morning when I woke up, but I still went with Tommy. I saw Speed standing there hurt and made me feel awful, I am an awful girlfriend, and I don't deserve him." Jude said now crying even more hysterically.

"Let's go talk to him." Mason said as he stood up with Jude.

Jude and Mason walked out of the bus to see Speed and Tommy off talking. They could hear the yelling as Kyle, Wally, and Monica stood off to the side. They couldn't understand what was being said though. Then they saw Speed take a swing at Tommy that ended up with Tommy fighting back.

"STOP!" Everyone started to yell as they tried to break it up.

"Never touch her again." Speed yelled as Kyle and Wally pulled him away. Jude walked up to Tommy and then punched him.

"That is for everything you have done to me and Speed." Jude yelled.

"You have just screwed yourself over Jude. Speed, you better hope Darius likes you because if I get my way, you are history." Tommy yelled as he walked off to his car.

When Jude turned around, she saw Monica, Speed, and Wally off to the side. Speed looked like he was bleeding. She wanted to go talk to him so bad, but she couldn't.

"You should really go talk to him Red." Kyle said as he walked up.

"I can't he hates me and I made a huge mistake last night." Jude replied.

"Breaking up with him? He can forgive you, he loves you Jude." Kyle stated.

"No, I slept with Tommy." Jude replied now looking at her feet.

"How the hell could you do that? Besides being wrong and disgusting, it is illegal." Kyle yelled back.

"You think I don't know that Kyle? I was so furious, I couldn't think straight and it just happened. Tommy told me I cold stay with him. He kissed me once we got to the hotel and it happened. He is hurt enough; just imagine how hurt he is going to be when he finds out that I actually slept with Tommy?" Jude yelled back.

"I understand Jude, let Mason, Wally, and I talk to him tonight, then you try and talk to him." Kyle said as he held Jude, she was a mess.

"Ok, I am just glad there is no show tonight. I am going to go write him a letter." Jude said a few minutes later then walked off.

Kyle, Wally, and Mason talked to Speed and that didn't go well. Speed yelled some things he would come to regret. The guys knew that, and that was why Jude couldn't be there when they told him about what happened with Tommy. Speed stormed off to the bunk and found a note from there. He wasn't going to read it at first, but then decided to.

Speed, I know I messed up again. I messed up beyond believe. I was so furious and hurt when I saw you kissing Monica. I let my jealousy take over and not let you explain. I ran to the first person I saw, Tommy. I didn't want to believe it was true, but I did. Tommy was so believable. You know what happened at the hotel, I know the guys told you. I am so sorry, I know you probably can't forgive me for that, but I want another chance. When I woke up this morning, I felt worse. It made me realize how much I truly love you. How I love the way you kiss me, the way you hold me at night and never let go, the way you tell me you love me and the way you show me. When I woke up this morning, I wanted nothing more then to be in your arms. I woke up feeling used and alone. I wanted to wake up to you brushing my hair as you held me close to you while telling me how much you love me or me doing the same. I am not asking for you to forgive and forget, but to give me another chance. I promise to try my best not to mess this up. I love you Speed, you mean more to me then anything, even my music. Please take me back. I love you –Jude.

Speed reread that letter five times. He wanted to go talk to Jude, but he couldn't. Just thinking of what she did hurt him. He loved her, but he just couldn't deal with it right now.