Hello everyone I just wanted to warn you that this chapter has dark themes in and is depressing, I originally had a different plan for this chapter but it didn't turn out the way I expected it.
Fyi it also shows that I am quite depressed... so yay, FYI I fell downstairs yesterday and bruised everywhere so I am a little salty
"mama!" the young white hair girl cried to her mother, The mother looked at her with cold eyes her pure blue eyes were glazed with disappointment " Do it again," she said in a frosty tone not caring for her young child.
The young girl a 6-year-old on the floor panting, tears dripping to the floor, her Red and Blue eyes were glazed over with tears, her bloody nose was streaming with crimson red liquid mixing in with the tears.
"Mother! please, I am tired I can't do any more, it hurts..." the mother now seething with hatred.
SLAP
The girl screamed as her mother thrashed her palm onto her daughter's cheek, "You do not have a say when I say do it again you do it Florence... you stupid week girl, your father and I are doing you a favour..." she paused for the moment when hearing her sobs.
Florence the little girl who has her hand onto her now burning cheek, her sobs sound more like screams, she was afraid so very afraid of her mother, she pleaded inside her mind that her mother will one day show her love.
"stop crying, you silly girl, you are going to become the worlds greatest medium, I have no patience for your insolence" she shouted at her Florence bit her lip trying to keep her sobs inside her mouth, she felt her self to breath fast.
the mother sighed in annoyance at Florence's whining, she needs her daughter to be perfect everything had to be perfect, "Do it again Florence" she said not caring at the exhausted child who was crying.
Florence's eyes looked down and state in a hoarse voice " I can't... I'm tired mama, please... " the mother bit her lips and Kicks her in the stomach, the child cried in pain, this time she gave up trying to hide her sobs,
Florence cried her tears were overflowing, as everything hurt, she just wanted to sleep, and never wake up she just wanted someone to help her she always begged for someone to save her.
" Get up! I don't have time for this lift those plates up now Florence, you pathetic girl" Florence still on the floor sobbing, wishing to sleep, but her mother had other plans she lifts her leg up again and kicks her " Get up!"
Florence screams in pain again, she gets up wobbling a little from the abuse she was getting from her mother as she looked at all the plates that were placed in sets of 50 in each.
Florence bit her lips in pain and starts to concentrate, all the plates glow with a faint blue as she lifted more and more plates, now lifting 200 plates, Florence's face was red she was sweating and looked even paler as she kept lifting more plates,
not able to handle anymore all the plates topple to the floor breaking every last one of them, causing her mother to sigh in the disappointment of her child failure " Again"
(in present)
Kuro wakes up from her nightmare again, the tablets weren't working she muses as her tears roll off her cheek into the sheets below her, "why... did this have to happen, why do I have to have these nightmares constantly, I just want to sleep"
Kuro tears were flowing down her cheeks as she sobs, she couldn't hold herself back anymore, she couldn't hold her emotions back anymore, it was too much for her to handle, her mouth begins to open as she sobbed into the comfort of her own bed.
her breaths fasten as her body takes control over her sudden distress thinking that it was being attacked as her body begin to make her breath faster almost taking all the oxygen away, she couldn't register what was going on at the moment as her mind, soul and body was broken in pieces.
she was so tired, so very tired, she hasn't slept properly in years always waking up constantly by nightmares that are real to her, it feels like it all is happening again, the smells, the noise, the pain the way 'she' Shouted it was all their again.
Kuro started to breathe in and out exhaling in... then out hoping to calm down her breathing before it's too late to stop it, she didn't want another massive panic attack again, it too much right now.
Kuro slowly calms down her breathing as her tears drip on to the already soaking bed, her body aches and her mind breaking ever since she was a child, she just wanted to stay in bed she didn't see a point in getting up.
Honestly, she doesn't know she was still 'here' in the first place, as the earth was somewhat bullying her and torturing her for even existing, yes that sounds quite dramatic but it was true to her.
she was holding all her real feelings in, honestly, she just feels sad and cold all the time, she was suffering but at the same time she feels so angry at everything, she just wanted peace for once.
Kuro sighs "I got to... get up, think of Naru and Mai, they need you" Kuro coaxed with her voice trying to trick her mind into getting up, she thought about Mai her best friend the only friend that stuck with her and actually cared for her.
she was lucky, it's rare to find someone like Mai willing to Accept someone who is as dark as her soul, she was her light, she was so bright and sunny and strong as she is still smiling despite losing her parents.
Kuro wished she could smile through the pain, but God did it feel so heartbreaking and painful..." Come on move legs" Kuro shouted at her self-thinking that she was pathetic for not able to get out the comfort of her bed.
Kuro forcing herself out of her bed, her body now out of the of her bed her body chills all over almost like frostbite, her body shivered as her half-naked body was exposed to the cold air.
Kuro gave a long drawn out sigh as she heads to her wardrobe, right now Kuro felt really stressed and upset she didn't have any peace of mind as she had to do so much, she had to sort out her college she has to finish her errand off.
Kuro gave another sigh as she could feel the stress crawl up inside her head causing a pain in the back of her head, Kuro needed a job too to help save for her university costs when she gets there.
It was going to be very expensive, Kuro ruffles her hair in frustration worrying about everything " I am so glad that Mai isn't here to see this." Kuro stated in a whisper, clearly glad that she isn't worrying Mai.
once she was at her wardrobe, she starts to grab whatever clothes she wanted to wear, That was a Blue velvet Top, Grey trousers and Blue velvet Boots.
Kuro slowly gets dressed as she was extremely tired, she just wanted to stay home but she couldn't let Mai down, now dressed she goes to the bathroom and looks into the mirror.
The Mirror showed the reflection of a worn out girl who looked depressed, her hair was messy with strands of hair misplaced, showing she had a rough night Kuro grabbed her comb and started to use it on her messy hair.
The comb goes through her hair perfectly taking her messy hair to clean and neat, she huffs when seeing her eyebags, and grabbed some concealer and started to hid her worn out eyes.
Kuro now has done she heads to the kitchen to grab some food, she looks in the fridge seeing if there were any ingredients in their which there was so she grabbed all the ingredients and starts to get to work.
she then puts the fray pan on while she was making pancake batter once doing that she put it in the frying pan lazily and causes a sizzle.
~Timeskip~
Kuro knocks on Mais's apartment only to be opened by her " Kuro-san! what are you doing here isn't it a bit early! " Mai questioned with her boisterous voice causing her to wince, Kuro gave a sigh "I don't think so... can I come in"
Kuro unmotivational says this causing Mai to give her a concerned look," are you okay Kuro-san" Kuro just nodded as Mai and Kuro went into the apartment.
Mai sits down on her small couch as did Kuro, Mai looked at Kuro in curiosity as she was holding a big book full of messy paper coming out of it, she wondered what it was " hey Kuro-san what are you holding"
Kuro looked down at what she was holding and passes it to Mai causing her to look at her in a confused expression " Its one of my sketchbooks, you said you wanted to look at My drawings since I promised ill show you today I brought it here"
Mai's eyes Lighten up as Kuro speaks this in an embarrassing tone clearly ashamed of her drawings, Mai gently grabbed the sketchbook in glee as she couldn't wait to see her best friend's drawings.
Mai opens the sketchbook noting that there was so much paper that had sketches on them, they were amazing as they were highly detailed drawings she saw a lot of rose drawings " oh my god Kuro-san"
The sketches were either done in normal pencil or blue coloured pencil, there were a lot of sketches of animals, flowers, and mythical creatures after looking through a lot of pages she landed on one she finds.. interesting.
It was a drawing of Kuro being chained to the wall with cuts and bruises, she noted that she saw a child that bore similar features as Kuro suddenly Mai looks up at Kuro seeing that she looked worn out and quite sad.
She wondered what had happened to her that made her this way, Mai had asked before about the Taboo topic that Kuro would not talk about... her family, Mai questioned about it when first seeing her live alone.
Honestly Mai was wondering what occurred to her family or if something happened to Kuro as she never spoken about her family, it worried Mai.
" Kuro please ... will you tell me what eating at you... where is your family" Mai stated in a rather upset tone she was extremely concerned about her people may not notice but she does she could see how tired she always is.
Kuro breath quickens at the mention of her family as her body reacted strongly to the word that she desired the most in her life " Mai I told you before I don't want to talk about it."
Mai bit her Lip in annoyance, and in concern, she always had the same answer she just wanted to know what was hurting her " Then when are you going to talk about it huh! I am sick of the same answer, when are you going to tell me! A hundred year?!"
Kuro winced at Mai's tone, she shook in terror as she remembered her own mother's words why doesn't anyone get it, its too painful to just say it Kuro bit her lip as tears were threating to fall.
"Mai you don't fucking understand! it's too painful to talk about it" Kuro shouted back at her as tears were flowing down her cheeks Mai not backing down yells right back at her.
" then make me understand! how am I meant to understand if you don't talk to me Huh!" Kuro clenched her fists as Mai continued "I told you about my own parent's deaths... I told you about my pain about being an orphan... when are you going to tell me yours"
Kuro clenched her eyes tightening her fists as her eyes were leaking tears " WHY DO YOU WANT TO KNOW SO BADLY" Kuro screamed at the top of her lungs," BECAUSE I WANT TO HELP YOU FOR ONCE YOU ALWAYS HELP ME SO WHY CANT I HELP YOU?!"
Kuro then states more quietly "because I don't deserve to be helped, As a black rose born into a rose garden full of colour, I am nothing compared to all those roses who bloomed into a bright colourful world."
" a Black Rose is meant to be there to rot with the rest of her kind, Mai... sometimes family matters are left to rot like a Black Rose"
Mai sighs as she hears Kurobara's negative words and gave her smile " a black rose doesn't deserve to rot, It deserves love and affection so it may find its colours again, A black rose is beautifully tragic but sometimes it needs someone to help it grow even more beautiful... but with its colours whatever they be."
so this is Chapter 16,I hope you enjoyed it.
