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Chapter Ten
"How is she doing?" Lorne asked when he walked into the infirmary and took a seat by Jessica's side. It had been three days since Jessica had given birth. She had been in and out of consciousness. He was worried about her. Faith was still in an incubator because of the distress she was under when she was born. He wondered if he should tell Jessica or if he should just wait until Faith was better. He reached out and held her hand.
"She's doing as well as can be expected. She woke up a little while ago, but then passed back out." The nurse said as she checked Jessica's vitals.
"Is Dr. Beckett with Faith now?" He asked softly as he kissed Jessica's hand.
"Yes, he is. She's doing great." the nurse reassured him
" Thanks." he said as she walked away from him." Jessica I know you can hear me so listen to me as I say please pull through this. You're my best friend and I can't imagine a life that you're not in. If it hadn't been for you I wouldn't have Faith now. You are the reason why she is even a live." He rested his forehead on his hands that were fisted around Jessica's left hand. To lose his best friend as well as his daughter would be too much. With the wraith coming closer to Atlantis and the people back home being in danger. This was almost to much for him to bear. Yes, he was a solider sworn to protect his country no matter what the cost. What if that cost was the life of his best friend? Could he live with that? A sudden hand on his shoulder jerked him back to reality. He brought his concerned expression to the concerned look in Col. Sheppard's eyes.
"Hey." John said not knowing what else to say to him as he looked at the woman he once loved more thank anything in his life. He would admit if only to his self that he screwed that one up. He now saw his mistake, but he wouldn't come in between whatever her and Ronon were starting to develop. He could tell that it was strong between them just by looking at them. Now looking at Maj. Lorne's concerned expression he also saw the feelings there to. Damn Teyla for opening his eyes to how people really feel.
"Hey sir." Lorne said as he Turned his attention back to Jessica who still didn't wake up." She's resting now."
"You know she's going to wake up and yell at us for sitting by her side as long as we have." John said as he watched the young major. "I went by to see Faith she's expected to be released from the incubator tomorrow."
"Yeah isn't she beautiful?" The proudness in his voice showed as he smiled at John.
"Yes, she is." he agreed.
"I've got to get back to work." Lorne said as he reluctantly got up to leave." You know sir she really still loves you."
"She loves us both I would think." John said as he took the seat that Major Lorne occupied.
Lorne walked out leaving the Colonel alone with Jessica.
"So, Jessie it's me and you, you can open your eyes now." he paused as if waiting for her to open her eyes." I miss you. I know I screwed up with our relationship, but I thought I was doing pretty well with our friendship. I can't lose you now." he held her hand tightly as he sat there." Do I still love you? Of course I do and I always will." He took his free hand and stroked her hair gently. She was still warm to the touch. That was good at least she was still alive. She looked like she was sleeping. He remembered many times waking up to her beautiful sleeping face right next to his. Her soft breath gently kissing his face. Her hair would be wild and all over her pillow and his. Her small arms curled under her cheek. Her legs tangled in his. He would give anything for her to just open her eyes and tell him to go to hell.
"Hey, Col Sheppard." col. Caldwell greeted as he walked into the room.
"Hey sir." he said as he gently let go of Jessica's hand.
"I was hoping Jessica would be awake." he said
"Yeah, so were we all." John said
"I told this to Dr. Weir and now I'm telling you." He started as he pulled up a chair." Jessica's mother was really sick she wasn't expected to live. I should've told her this when she first came back before we knew she pregnant, but then we found out she was pregnant and there was no way she could go back through the gate. I've kept this to myself until now. Jessica's mom is now out of the woods she's expected to make a full recovery, but she does want to see her daughter soon. The General has requested that she be sent home as soon as she is fully recovered." He saw the regret in John's face at the thought of her leaving. He also knew that Ronon would take this hard as well." He's also saying that she may not be returning."
"You're telling me that after everything she's been through her father is just going to snatch her out of here like it never happened?" John asked knowing that he had to tell Ronon who was not going to like this very much.
"Yes, that's exactly what I'm saying." he confirmed
"Does she get a say in this?" John questioned" After all it is her life."
"Right now no she does not." Col. Caldwell said as he turned to leave.
John turned his attention back to Jessica who was still out. He gently picked up her hand and held it." Oh, man Ronon's not going to like this. You need to wake up so you can keep him calm." He pleaded with her.
