A/N: Here is chapter 30! Thanks for the positive reactions (though I like reviews too hint hint) especially you maartje:P Enjoy the Next chapter (May need Kleenex, It's saad!)

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Song: I used the song ''How do I live without you'' from Leann Rimes for this chapter.


Chapter 30 – How do I live without you.

Paige knocked on the front door of David's house taking a deep breath. He was the first one she was going to say goodbye to she had decided. It took a while, but then a topless, still brushing his teeth, David answered the door. He looked surprised when he found Paige outside on his steps. ''Paige, whad aw youv dowg hewe?'' he said with his mouth full of toothpaste. Paige laughed slightly, ''Can I come in please?'' David nodded and stepped aside, ''Can youv holde own a swecond?'' he asked her in a weird way since his mouth was full of toothpaste, after she had closed the behind herself. ''Yeah go finish brushing.'' Paige told him with a slight smile playing on her lips. David gave her a toothpaste smile back and disappeared into the kitchen.

Paige sighed slightly, she didn't want to leave him either. He was the first real friend she had since ages, someone she could be honest and open to because he knew she was a witch. David walked back into the livingroom.

''I totally forgot hun. Happy birthday.'' He said, walking over to her. Paige smiled slightly when he kissed her cheek, ''Thank you.''

David smiled back, ''So what's it that brings you here?'' he looked at her. Just do it Paige. You're going to die it doesn't matter. She thought to herself and she let her teeth bite down on her bottom lip before lowering his head slightly. David smiled and stepped closer to her, knowing what she wanted. Paige hesitated for a moment and then kissed him lightly.

David kissed back and wrapped his strong fireman arms around her body. Paige put her hand on his cheek and just before he could deepen the kissed she pulled away, but stayed in his arms. David opened his eyes after a few moments and gave her a questioning look. ''I just wanted to know what you kiss like.'' She said. David raised an eyebrow and smiled, ''Don't you want to know what else I can do?'' he flirted, but Paige shook her head. ''No, this was already cheating.''

David's smile faded and he pulled a confused face. ''I don't want to leave Cole as a cheater.'' Paige told him. ''What do you mean Paige? Are you leaving him?'' Paige took a deep breath in an attempt to keep her pain and tears hidden, ''I'm leaving all of you.''

''Huh?''

''I'm going to die David. I have to give up my life. It's my destiny.''

How do I get trough one night without you
If i had to live without you
What a kind of life would that be
Oh and I, I need you in my arms
Need you to hold
You're my world, my heart, my soul

David let go off her, ''What? You're going to.. – Paige. When? Why?'' he faltered over his own words. How could she do that? How could she just be okay with that kind of destiny? ''Tonight. To save my family and give my sisters the power that they will need.'' She explained as calm as possible. ''But Paige.. You're only 28, no scratch that you're 29. I don't want you to leave.'' He protested, placing his hand on her arm. Paige smiled weakly, ''I don't want to leave either David, but you can't change that what is meant to be. You just have to promise me some things.''

''Anything.'' David replied.

Paige put her hand back on his cheek, ''That you won't tell anyone what I've just told you. Plus that you won't stay alone and that you will get married and have kids.'' She told him brushing his cheek softly with her thumb. David gave her a weak smile, ''I promise.'' Paige smiled back and kissed his cheek softly. ''Don't you worry. You'll find someone, there are plenty of women out in San Francisco who have huge weaknesses for firemen.''

''Are you one of them?'' David asked. ''That's something you'll never know, but I can tell you that my adoptive father used to be a firemen.'' She smiled looked at him one last time and then orbed out. David let out a defeated sigh, ''Love you.'' He whispered.

If you ever leave
Baby you would take everything good in my
Life.

The rest of the day Paige spent visiting some other friends for one last time. Those friends included Henry, Katie and she eventually orbed all the way over to Glen. When she finally orbed home it was already pretty late and Cole was sitting on the couch with a glass of wine, listening to his favourite Jazz-music. Paige walked up to backside of the couch and she stroked Cole's hair carefully.

Cole looked up and smiled, ''Hey stranger. Where have you been all day baby? You look tired.'' He said, putting his glass of wine down on a side-table. ''Charges.'' Paige lied smoothly, she kissed his forehead. ''Having fun?'' Cole nodded his head, ''More fun now you're back though. Do you want your presents now?'' he asked, sitting up properly. Paige smiled and nodded.

She walked around the couch and slumped down onto it next to Cole. Cole took some present out from under the couch, ''Wait.'' Paige said. She got up and walked over to the play pen. She took Paris out smiling and made her way back over to the couch, ''Want to see what daddy's has bought mommy?'' she asked Paris sweetly. Before Paige could sit down her cellphone rang and she handed her daughter to Cole carefully. ''Hold her for me please.'' Cole smiled and put Paris on his lap gently, he stroked her cheek and kissed the top of her head obvioulsy loving her more than anything else in the world. Paige watched them for a moment and then took her phone out of her pocket, she flipped the lid up and answered it, ''Hello?'' ''Paige, that Source demon thing just took Glen. I couldn't stop him, you have to do something!'' Henry's paniced voice sounded through the phone. Paige bit her lower lip and glanced at the time, it was nearly 10:00pm. That meant it was going to start soon.

Without you there'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my live
There'd be no world left for me
And I,baby I don't know what i would do
I'd be lost if I lost you.

Paige took and deep breath and closed her eyes momentairly before replying.

''Calm down Henry.'' She said, though not being so calm herself. ''I'll go and find him.'' She put her cellphone down and looked at Cole who gave her a questioning look, not noticing that Paris had gotten hold of his shirt and wouldn't let go.

''The Souce has got Glen. We have to save him.'' She told him. ''What.'' Cole took Paris in his arm and gently removed her hand from his shirt, ''No. You stay here to look after Paris and I'll go and get Glen.'' He said getting up.

Paige shook her head, ''You need to take Paris to Henry and then you come and help me. I'll go ahead.'' She kissed Paris' cheek softly, ''Be a good girl Sweetie. I love you.'' She told her quietly. ''But Paige..'' ''Please Cole.'' Paige pleaded. She looked up at him. Cole sighed slightly, ''Fine. Be careful and don't do anything until I get there.'' He said and then shimmered out with Paris. Paige watched him go and took a deep breath before disappearing in a swirl of blue lights.

If you ever leave
Baby,you would take away everything real in my life
And tell me now.

A few moments later she orbed into the Manor. ''Piper? Phoebe?'' she called out.

No answer.

''Paige..'' a weak voice sounded from a corner of the livingroom. Paige raised and eyebrow and turned around on her heels, she made her way over to the corner where she had heard the voice coming from. Leo was laying on the floor, he had a big bruise on the side of his head. ''Leo. What happened?'' Paige knelt next to him and helped him to sit up. ''Piper, Phoebe. The Source took them. I can't orb.'' He coughed slightly. ''It's okay Leo. I'll help them, where's Luke is he okay?'' ''He's at work.'' Leo replied rubbing his head. ''Will you be alright?'' Paige asked him worriedly. Leo nodded his head.

''Just go and get them.'' Paige sighed slightly and kissed his cheek. She got to her feet, ''Tell Piper I want to be buried underneath a tree.'' She told her brother-in-law and then orbed out. Leo pulled a confused face, ''Paige, wait..'' But Paige did not come back.

She orbed into a dark cave somewhere in the Underworld. ''Paige.'' Cole's voice said in the dark. ''Where have you been?'' ''Manor.'' Paige replied shortly. ''The Source has got Phoebe and Piper as well and Leo can't orb.'' She informed her husband. ''Damn it.'' Cole cursed. Paige looked over at him, she had to tell him this. ''Cole?'' she said tentatively. Cole walked carefully in the direction of the Source's cave. ''Yeah?''

''Whatever happens tonight, do not try and stop me okay? I know what I'm doing.'' She followed him slowly. ''Hmm.'' Cole murmered in reply. ''Promise?'' Paige placed her hand on his arm gently. ''Yeah.'' Cole said only half listening to what she was saying.

Suddenly fire torches lit up the cave. They had entered the Source's property. ''I knew you'd show up.'' The Source's heavy voice said. He moved forwards, not walking but not floating either. Paige let out a small gasp when she noted that he was holding Glen. ''Glen.'' ''Paige don't let him get to you. You can't trust him!'' Phoebe's voice sounded. Paige and Cole both spun around. Two demon entered the place holding Paige's sisters, threatening their throats with an athame.

How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever,ever survive
How do I, how do i
Oh how do I live.

Cole placed his hand on the small of Paige's back, ''Baby I think this is a trap.'' He whispered near her ear. ''Of course it's a trap he's the Source. What do you expect?'' she whispered back. ''I'm giving you two options Paige.'' The Source spoke. ''You can either get your beloved little baby boy back or you can have your sisters back, but you can't have both.'' He told her. Paige took a deep breath. Oh god, oh god oh god. She thought biting her bottom lip so hard it started to bleed. ''Your sisters.'' Cole hinted quietly. ''Then you can vanquish him.'' ''This is Paige's decision Belthazor, if she chooses for her sisters they will not be able to vanquish me, because Glen's forcefield will protect me.'' The Source said barely even glancing at Cole. Paige looked at Cole and then took a few steps towards the Source.

''I know what I'm going to do.'' She said.

Cole watched her anxiously. ''You can have me and do with me whatever you want, but only if you let my sisters and my son go, unharmed and if you give me the chance to say goodbye to them. If you kill me, you will leave my entire family alone.'' She said, making eye contact with the large demon. ''Paige, no.'' Cole said. ''Remember the promise you just made, Cole.'' Paige reminded her husband. The Source grinned, ''I believe we have a deal.'' He moved towards Paige. Paige looked up at him, trying not show how scared she was and how badly she was shaking. The Source handed Glen to her, ''Say your goodbyes'' he told her. ''You have 10 minutes.''

Paige took a shaky deep breath and walked back over to Cole with Glen. The two big demons let go of Phoebe and Piper. ''Paige.'' Piper said, running towards her younger sister with Phoebe following. ''What the hell do you think you're doing?'' Paige smiled weakly, ''Don't stop me please. This is just the way it's meant to be.'' She kissed Glen's cheek softly and then handed him to Cole. Cole looked at her, but Paige purposely avoided his gaze. She hugged her two sisters tightly. ''I love you both so much. Don't worry about the Power of Three. It's all going to be okay.'' She told them quietly. ''Sweetie, we're not worried about the Power of Three. We're worried about you.'' Phoebe replied a little choked up because of the tears that she could feel beginning to form in her throat. ''Trust me.'' Paige simply whispered.

She let go of them and took Glen back from Cole, handing him to Piper this time.

She turned to Cole.

He gave her a hard look, ''Paige. Why are you doing this?''

''I need to fullfil my destiny and protect my family.'' She replied putting her hand on his cheek. ''You're going to be a great dad. Paris and Glen will both love you so much.'' She told him. Cole put his hand on hers, ''You're not really leaving me, are you?'' he asked, a tone of hurt in his voice.

Paige smiled weakly and shook her head, ''I'll always be with you in your heart.'' She told him placing her hands on his chest. ''Paige..'' Cole started, but Paige cut him off with a soft kiss on his lips. Piper bit her lip to fight her tears back. Cole returned Paige's kiss and wrapped his arms around her body, pulling her closer to himself. She deepened the kiss for a moment and then pulled away carefully. ''Remember my vows?'' she asked while looking into his deep blue eyes. Cole stared back at her, ''You'll always even after your death?'' Paige let out a sound that held between a sob and a laugh, ''Yeah.'' She brushed his cheek with her thumb.

''I'll love you too.''

"Time's up.'' The Source said. He nodded at a tough looking darklighter that had appeared earlier and he made his crossbow appear. Cole glanced up just as the darklighter aimed and shot one of his poisonous arrows into Paige's back.

Paige gasped and took a few steps forwards, Cole supported her. ''Hun..'' ''You can take her home if you want. You can't heal her anymore this poison works fast.'' The Source told them with a smug smile on his face. Cole bit his lower lip and lifted Paige up. ''Cole..'' Phoebe started. ''Glen will orb you.'' Cole replied shortly and then he shimmered out holding Paige. Shortly after he had disappeared Glen orbed out with his two aunst like Cole had predicted.

If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything
Need you with me
Baby 'cause you know that you're everything good in my life
And tell me now.

Cole shimmered onto the top of the Golden Gate Bridge with Paige.

''Cole, what are you doing?'' she whispered. ''Shh. It's okay.'' Cole said. ''I'm going to pull the arrow out of your back okay baby?'' Paige nodded her head almost invisably. Cole moved her slightly and pulled the arrow out of her back in a quick movement trying not to make it hurt too much. Paige closed her eyes, but she didn't flinch. Cole threw the arrow down and lowered Paige to the Bridge as gentle as he could.

''Cole.. letter.'' She said. ''It's okay. You don't have to talk. Can you see the stars?'' he asked. Paige smiled slightly, ''Yeah. My present.'' She whispered quietly. Cole nodded his head and stroked her hair. ''You know I always thought I'd die before you would.'' He said, taking her hand within his own. ''Hmm. I'm sorry.'' Cole smiled and kissed her cheek softly, ''Don't be sorry, we've had an amazing time together Paige. I wanted to grow old with you, but I guess I didn't deserve that.'' ''No. Cole don't say that please.'' Paige closed her eyes. ''I'm a demon Paige. I've killed innocent people.'' He reminded her. ''You're not. You're good now. You're not evil anymore.'' She breathed. Tears formed in Cole's eyes, ''Don't leave me.'' He told her, but Paige didn't reply anymore. She breathed her last breath.

''Paige? God damnit Paige don't you die on me please.'' Cole begged when he felt her hand lose it's strength. ''Paige..'' he murmered. Cole fought his tears back and kissed her forehead gently, ''I'll kill him Paige. I will get my revenge. He did not have the right to take you away from me.'' He told her, though he knew she couldn't hear him anymore. Cole picked up the arrow that had taken her life and then her body and he stood up straight. He let out a heavy sigh and shimmered to the Manor with her so that Piper, Phoebe, Luke and Leo could have their last goodbyes.

How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever,ever survive
How do I,how do I
Oh how do I live.

At 3:00am in the morning Cole was sitting in the backyard with a sleeping Glen and Paris in his arms. Paige's body was still at the Manor, in her old bedroom. Leo had told them Paige wanted to be buried under a tree and the funeral would be held later that week. Cole looked down at the two sleeping babies, they had no idea yet, but Piper had offered to help him when they'd realise their mommy wasn't coming back because she was sure they wouldn't stop crying for a long time.

After Paige's death, earlier that night Piper and Phoebe had felt a powerful energy entering their bodies and an Elder had came down to explain what had happened. They had became invincible and no demon would any longer be able to hurt them. They'd be able to take out the Source and many other upper-level demons, forever. Cole sighed deeply, he couldn't imagine that she was really gone. He glanced at his weddingband, but couldn't even bring himself to thinking of taking it off. Glen moved slightly in his sleep. Cole looked at him, a slight smile played across his face, at least he had two parts of Paige that were still alive and he was going to raise them as well as he could. He was going to make Paige proud, because he knew she was watching them from above.

Just like her mom, Patty , her sister, Prue and her grams, Penny. And he was going to kill the Source for murdering his wife brutally like that.

Cole looked up when it started to rain. He got up carefully, hoping not to wake Glen and Paris. He went back inside and upstairs slowly. After having put the two little ones to bed Cole left the nursery.

He paused before going into his own bedroom. Cole took a deep breath and opened the door. The sight of the empty bedroom made the knot in his stomach tighten, but he still walked inside. Cole closed the door and walked over to the bed, he sat down on it and ran his hand across the neatly made sheets when he noted something underneath Paige's pillow. He pulled it out from underneath it raising an eyebrow curiously. It was one of her slipdresses, Cole smiled and held it against his face inhaling the scent. Ralph Lauren, the perfume she always wore. Cole laid down down on his side still holding the deepblue slipdress and closed his eyes. It was now 3.30am and Cole was so tired that he gave in and let sleep take over his body. Only seeing Paige still alive in his dreams.

How do I live without you
Without you baby...


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