Notes: Thanks; Maartjuhhh, ForeverCharmed109, BlueMoonDestiny and VampirePrincess86 for you positive reviews:) And here's chapter 31, enjoy! (Again, may need kleenex Maartjuhhh and ForeverCharmed109 ;) )
Disclaimer; Yeah, this is now Chapter 31 and if you still don't know that I do NOT own Charmed then I think you should consider extra school on saturdays..
Song; I've used the song ''When somebody Loved me'' by Sarah Mclachlan for this chapter. I do not own it I've only borrowed it.
Chapter 31 – When Somebody loved me.
When somebody loved me
everything was beautiful.
Every hour we spent together
lives within my heart.
Five days later Cole was standing in front of his bedroom window. Bags were forming on his exhausted looking eyes and half of his suit was still on the bed.
Today was Paige's funeral and Cole didn't want to go there. He didn't like funerals; never had. They were always so sad and everyone was in black, well except for today. Paige wanted people dressed in white.
She and Cole had once seen a documentary about Chinese traditions. Wearing white clothes at someone's funeral was one of them and Paige had told Cole that she wanted that as well. Cole turned around and looked at the other half of his suit that he hadn't put on yet. He had bought it especially for this day. He picked his shirt up slowly and pulled it on, being somewhere else in his thoughts. Buttoning it up slowly, he walked over to his nightstand and sat down on the bed close to it.
He picked up a picture of him and Paige. It was one of their weddingphotos. Cole had wrapped his arms around Paige's body and she was laughing because Cole had stepped on her toe shortly before the picture was taken. A wide smile spread across Cole's face as he remembered their wedding. It had been one of the most beautiful days of his life. Paige had looked stunning in her dress and their weddingnight had been amazing.
A heavy sigh escaped from Cole's mouth, he picked up his tie and put it around his neck. She wasn't coming back, she was gone foregood this time. Finally Cole put his jacket on, he ran his hands down the soft fabric and looked in the mirror after getting up. Normally Paige would've stood behing him to tell him he was vain, but that he looked handsome in white. Now it was just him alone.
Looking older than ever and his normally so sparkling blue eyes now were filled with emptyness and grief. The eyes of someone who felt lonely, even though he was surrounded by people who tried to support him through this hard time. Cole appreciated that, he really did, but it still wouldn't bring Paige back.
There was a soft knock on the door and Cole looked up. Luke walked in with his daughter Prudence on his right arm. His eyes were red and slightly swollen. Paige's death had done a lot to him. He had truly cared a lot about her, Paige had been the one who had introduced Phoebe and Luke to each other. 'The Perfect match' she had said. Cole didn't understand how all those people could cry about her death, he himself couldn't. It felt as though he was completely empty on the inside. He couldn't let a single tear flow, because he didn't want to let go. ''Hey.'' He said quietly to Luke, with a slightly hoarse voice because he hadn't spoken in a several days.
''We're waiting for you downstairs.'' Luke said. Cole nodded his head.
''I know, I will be there in a second.'' He replied. Luke gave him a brave smile and left the room. Cole took a deep breath and picked up a pink rose from the bed.
Paige's favourite flower.
It made him feel better to carry it with himself today. He looked around the room and then walked out, making his way downstairs and into the livingroom.
Some friends and family were there. Paige's sisters and their husbands of course. But also David, who avoided Cole's gaze from the moment he appeared into the room, Henry and even Paige's biological father, Sam. Cole felt like though he had to smile to him to comfort him, but he couldn't. It felt as though his lips were sewn to each other which made it seem impossible to smile. He took Paris from Piper gently, ''Ready to go?'' she asked him. Cole nodded slowly and stroked Paris' cheek gently.
And when she was sad
I was there to dry her tears.
And when she was happy so was I.
When she loved me.
An hour later Cole looked around the Mausoleum where they would held the funeral. He was sitting on the first row of hard wooden chairs, in between Piper and Phoebe. When he looked around the large space he realised how many people had known Paige and cared about her. Not only mortals, but also some leprechauns, the two Nymphs, some of Paige's charges and even Elders who were for once not dressed in the golden robes they always wore. Cole let out a sigh and looked in front of him again.
There was a beautifully decorated ivory casket, which held Paige's body. The coulor of the casket was almost as shiny and pale as her skin and the top of it held a few pink roses. Cole had placed his own rose on it as well. When he looked up he caught the sympathetic gaze of the priestess. The same priestess who had done Prue's funeral. Cole sighed again and glanced and the program in his hands.
'Paige Matthews ''Turner'' 1977-2006 – Forever young.' It said.
It had been Phoebe's idea to add Turner behind Matthews, though Cole didn't really like it he hadn't argued. He saw Phoebe placing her hand upon his and flashed her a weak smile. Her eyes were red and her face was wet from the tears. He gave her hand a supportive squeeze and looked at the priestess when she started to speak.
''Her young spirit that was taken away from us, will forever be there in our hearts.'' She said, though Cole was barely listening to her. He just stared at the casket, fiddling with the program in his strong hands. He breathed deeply and closed his eyes, not wanting to see this all anymore. Not wanting to be here anymore, it hurt too much. The Priestess extinguished the first two of the three burning candles on the table in front of her. The candles that stood for Paige's birth and death. ''Blessed be Paige. May you find your new destiny and may you watch over us in everything we do.'' She extinguished the last candle, the candle of Paige's rebirth. ''Farewell.'' She said, turning her full body towards the casket.
After the priestess' speech they all went outside for the burial. Cole had found the most beautiful spot to bury his wife. Underneath a big old chestnut tree. When the casket was lowered into the grave a small basket with rose petals was placed on the ground next to it. Each mourner could take some and throw them on top of the casket while sending his or her last personal message to Paige. Cole was the last one to step forwards. He ignored the stiffled and strangled sobs behind him and took a small handful of rose petals out of the basket. ''I love you.'' He simply said and then let the petals fall onto the casket one by one.
Through the summer and the fall
we had each other, that was all.
Just she and I together,
like it was meant to be.
Later back at the Halliwell Manor, Cole tried to avoid all the mourners and walked into the kitchen. He walked over to the counter and picked up a glass. He poured himself an alcoholic drink and leant against the table. He remembered Phoebe's and Luke's engagement party. Paige had been doing the dishes right over there at the counter and she had complained about having to do it all by herself. Now she never had to do them again.
Cole actually wanted to leave, but figured that he couldn't leave Piper and Phoebe alone like that. So in stead he took a big swug of his whiskey and closed his eyes.
He opened them again when he heard someone walking into the room, it was David. ''Hi.'' He said. Cole nodded slightly at him as in a greeting. He had never liked David, but now he felt as though they'd always been friends, because they probably felt the same. David walked over to him and took something out of his pocket. ''I meant to give this to Paige on her birthday, but she didn't give me the chance when she came to see me so I think you should have it.'' He said, handing a small present to Cole.
Cole took it, ''She came to see you?'' he asked cocking an eyebrow. David nodded, ''She told me she was going to die and then she..'' David didn't finish sentence realising he was talking to Paige's husband. Cole looked at him, ''She did what?'' he insisted. ''She.. kissed me.''
Cole looked at David, he was lying. Paige hadn't kissed him. ''She would never do that.'' Cole said, his voice shaky. David shrugged slightly, ''It was nothing special Cole. She just wanted to know how I kissed before she died. She didn't even give me the chance to deepen it anyway.'' That was where Cole lost it. He couldn't bare the thought that Paige had told David, but not him that she knew she was going to die. He grabbed David's shirt and pushed him against the wall. ''Don't talk about Paige like that.'' He said in a threatening voice. David grabbed Cole's wrists, ''She said it herself. She came onto me don't blame me for that.'' ''You're lying!'' Cole shouted when Piper and Leo rushed in. ''Cole stop it!'' Piper said. Leo pulled him away from David. ''He's lying. Paige never kissed you. She loved me, she was my god damn wife.'' Cole spat.
''Calm down Cole.'' Leo told him ''Cole why would he lie about that?'' Piper asked him. ''To hurt me more. To see me suffer.'' Cole shook Leo off and narrowed his eyes at David. ''You didn't deserve her.'' David replied. ''You left her alone when she was pregnant to go to the Underworld!'' ''To protect her and the baby!'' Cole yelled. ''But it didn't work did it? She was killed to protect you.''
''Enough!'' Piper yelled tears running down her cheeks. ''David you can't blame Cole for Paige's death. He loved her and would never do anything to hurt her and Cole if Paige really kissed him you can't do anything about it anymore, can you?'' She looked at him and Cole looked away when he saw the hurt in her eyes. ''I'm sorry.'' He murmered. ''David maybe you should go.'' Piper told him gently. David nodded his head and walked out of the kitchen.
Cole took a deep breath and sat down on a chair. Leo handed him a glass of water, ''We all miss her Cole.'' He said. Cole nodded and took a sip from the water, he could actually use another whiskey more, but decided it was better if he stayed sober tonight. Piper sat down in front of him, ''You can bring Paris and Glen here if you want some time alone.'' She suggested, but Cole shook his head. ''I just want to kill the Source.'' He said looking up at her. ''Cole..'' Piper started but Cole interrupted her, ''No piper. I haven't slept in days because he's still alive and I will not rest before I have got my revenge.'' He said putting the glass of water down on the table starting to get angry again. Some of the water was spilled in his movement, but none of them noticed. Piper let out a small sigh and looked up at Leo who nodded. ''Alright.'' She replied. ''Tonight we will go after him.'' Cole smiled weakly, ''Thank you.'' He said, knowing that he couldn't kill the Source without the two sisters.
And when she was lonely
I was there to comfort her.
And I knew that she loved me.
That night Cole shimmered into the Manor with a sleeping Paris in his arms. Glen was at Henry's. ''There you are Cole.'' Phoebe said, looking up. Cole nodded and handed Paris to Leo carefully. ''Do you have everything?'' he asked. Phoebe nodded her head, ''Potion, spell, athame.'' She showed them to Cole. ''Good.'' He said. ''Are you sure we can do this, Leo?'' Piper looked up at her husband. ''According to the Elders you two and Cole can vanquish the Source, because Paige gave her heart to Cole.'' Leo replied, rocking Paris gently. ''And does the Source know that as well?'' Phoebe informed.
Leo shook his head, ''Otherwise he would have tried to kill Cole so he clearly doesn't know. He thinks no-one can harm him anymore.'' Cole let out a slight laugh, ''Not as smart as he thinks he is, is he?'' No one replied to that so Cole picked up the athame, ''So lets go then.''
Phoebe nodded her head and picked up the vial with the dark green liquid. ''Cole we knot the spell off by heart now, but do you know it?'' Piper asked him. Cole nodded, ''You've vanquished me with it, how could I forget?'' he told her. Those words were literally burned in his memory forever. Piper grimaced and put the note with the spell in her backpocket, ''Better to be safe than sorry.'' She said. Cole nodded in agreement, ''Ready then?'' he held out his hand. Leo kissed Piper's cheek, ''Be careful.'' He told her. Piper nodded and took Phoebe's hand who had already taken Cole's. ''We'll be back before you know it.'' Phoebe said. Leo smiled slightly and watched Cole shimmering out with the girls. He took a deep breath hoping that they'd come back unharmed and looked at Paris. He smiled, she looked so much like Paige when she had been a baby. Leo decided to look up a babyphoto from Paige and give it to Cole, he would probably be very happy with that. Leo placed Paris in the baby carrier gently and then made his way upstairs.
So the years went by.
I stayed the same,
but she began to drift away
I was left alone.
Still I waited for the day
when she'd say "I will always love you."
Cole shimmered into the Source's cave with the two sisters. The Source just vanquished a demon that had failed him. He turned around when the fire had disappeared. ''Well well. What do we have here?'' he said gazing and Cole, Piper and Phoebe. ''Came to kill me? Oh wait you can't, there's no more Power of Three.'' He let out an evil laugh. ''Doesn't mean we won't try to vanquish you.'' Piper said, she joined hands with Cole and Phoebe and she nodded towards Cole slightly. They started chanting.
'Prudence, Patricia, Penelope, Melinda. Astrid, Helena, Laura and Grace. Halliwell witches stand strong beside us, vanquish this evil from time and Space.''
The Source felt himself weaken when they said the spell, but he didn't get vanquished right away as paige wasn't with them. He realised, though, that they could still kill him, even without Paige. ''She vowed her heart to you.'' He said, looking at Cole. Cole grinned, ''That's right.'' He replied. ''No.'' The Source formed an energyball and hurled it at the three in front of him. Cole shimmered out in time, but Phoebe and Piper got blasted into a wall and Phoebe dropped the vial with the lethal potion. The Source moved to get it, but it disappeared before he could even stretch his tall pale fingers out to it. ''I don't think so.'' Said Cole's voice behind him.
The Source spun around.
Cole was leaning against a rock, his fingers playing with the small vial in his hand. ''You wouldn't betray me again, would you Belthazor?'' he said, his eyes fixed upon the potion bottle. ''You're wrong.'' Cole said, he threw the potion and caused it to smash at the Source's feet. The Source looked up and grinned when it didn't vanquish him, ''What now Belthazor? It didn't work.'' He said. Cole walked towards him, ''Oh I know just what to do to finish you off.'' He replied, his voice full of extreme hatred. He showed the athame to the Source, ''See?''
As in slow motion the Source made eye-contact with Cole and Cole could swear he saw fear flicker in the demon's eyes. He pushed him against the wall with one hand and stabbed him in the gut. Never losing eye-contact the Source managed to smile.
''You're no good whatsoever Belthazor. You're pure evil and that will never change.'' He told him. ''No.'' Cole said his voice shaking with anger, ''I have just vanquished evil.'' He pulled the athame out of the Source and stepped back. The Source's body erupted into flames and he cried out in agony before getting vanquished with a large explosion that knocked Cole off his feet.
When the explosion had subsided Cole sat up, his chest still heaving. He was gone. He had killed him and he wasn't coming back again. Cole let out a laugh, his first real laugh in days. Next to him Piper and Phoebe started to come round.
''Cole?'' Phoebe said. ''He's gone. Forever.'' Cole replied getting back to his feet. Piper and Phoebe got up as well, ''He is? Did you kill him?'' Piper walked towards him and Cole showed her the athame that was covered in blood. ''Yes.'' Piper smiled, ''Paige would be proud of you Cole.'' She told him. Cole nodded his head, ''Shall we leave?'' Phoebe joined them, '"Good idea.'' She took Piper's and Cole's hand. Cole shimmered out with them, leaving only a scorch mark in the cave behind.
When he shimmered with Piper and Phoebe back into the Manor Leo jumped up from the couch. ''And?'' he asked anxiously. Piper smiled and sunk into her husband's arms, ''He's gone.'' She told him. Leo kissed the top of her head and looked at Cole who picked Paris up. ''I'm going home.'' He announced. Phoebe smiled and kissed his cheek, ''Sleep well, Cole.'' ''Thanks.'' Cole said. He glanced at Piper and Leo and then shimmered out with his daughter in his arms.
Lonely and forgotten.
Never thought she'd look my way.
But she smiled at me and held me,
just like she used to do.
Like she loved me.
When she loved me.
Back at home and having put Paris in the nursery, Cole walked into his bedroom tiredly. He took his jacket and his tie off and hung them over the chair like he usually did. He hoped that he could finally get some decent sleep and sat down on his side of the bed when he noticed something on the nightstand.
An envelope addressed to him.
He recgonised Leo's handwriting and picked it up, letting curiousty take over. He opened the envelope and took a picture out along with a small note. 'I thought you would like to have this picture. I think you know who it is.' The note said. Cole looked at the picture and a small spread across his tired looking face, making him look 10 years younger at once. ''Paige..'' he said to himself. He traced his index-finger down the picture and then placed it against the frame of a picture of Paige holding newly-born, Paris. They could've been twins.
When Cole looked up he felt a breeze go through him, one of those faint supernatural breezes. For one brief moment he had felt the presence of Paige's spirit. Cole lay down with a smile and pulled the cover over himself without bothering to get undressed any further. He contently looked at the pictures on his nightstand and soon he fell finally into a deep sleep.
When somebody loved me,
everything was beautiful.
Every hour we spent together,
lives within my heart.
When she loved me...
Notes: Aaaaand that was chapter 31 ... Wow it's going really fast I'm impressed by myself, not that I want to sound like a Bighead XD. If you cried I will tell you something comforting, this wasn't the last chapter. I have the last chapter almost done and typed up so it will be up soon. Please leave a review, because I really like them and it's almost my birthday so I'll consider them as a pressie hehe. Anyway let me know if you liked, cried etc. and the final chapter will be up soooon.. xxxx Sas
