The lyrics in this chapter comes from Ryan Adams's 'I see monsters' and Keane's 'Try again' Both wonderful songs.
And the lyrics in the second chapter was from the Goo Goo Dolls's 'Iris' I forgot to mention that.
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' I can't believe how much I've mist her. I can't think of anyone else who helped me as much as she did.
There's no doubt it was Peyton who helped me through everything with Nikki. Even when she wasn't there, in some way or another she helped me. She's the best friend I've ever had. Maybe we can have that again. The friendship we had'
Jake took a quick pick in the mirror. His eyes were swollen and tired.
"Come on Jenny! Daddy has to work and Jody's waiting! "
Jenny came out through the small kitchen door, holding a blond doll with a red dress in her arms.
"Can I bring Cindy?"
"Off course you can. Put your shoes on! "
'I'll be late!' He gave Jenny her brand new red jacket.
15 minutes later he rushed out of the apartment building where Jody lived.
Peyton pulled her black coat closer to her body. The snowing had stopped. Christmas decorations where showing up all over town. Right in front of her a door flew open and a man rushed out and ran in the direction of her.
Jake stopped. Peyton stopped. At first no one dared to say anything.
"Hi."
"Hey Peyton." They looked at each other.
"I've been meaning to call you but… I didn't know what to say. Exactly…"
"Oh…I thought you'd forgotten about me "he said with a low voice
She gave him a serious gaze.
"How can you thi… "
Jake interrupted:
"Do you want to take a walk with me? He asked.
"Okay." Peyton smiled.
'At first we didn't speak at all. No one could think of anything to say. After about two blocks she turned around and asked me quietly:
"- What are we doing, Jake?" And I answered the only thing I could.
"I don't know…"
We kept walking and she said:
" Is it wrong of me to say that I think I…really like you Jake."
She continued saying my name in the end of every sentence .She softly touched the back of my hand. I could smell her shampoo and I felt dizzy. I didn't know what to say. A million thoughts rushed trough my head once again.
'Is she really over Luke this time? Can I trust her in that way again? Am I just some sort of replacement?'
The answer was pretty clear. I thought' maybe she could love me this time'
"Peyton…"
"I'm sorry." She said and let go of my hand.
"No Peyton… I love you. I really do. But…"
"But you don't trust me?" she said with bitterness in her voice.
" No.I mean, I do trust you. It's just… I need to take this slow, okay?"
"Yeah, off course!" She smiled and I just hoped she wouldn't notice that my knees where shaking and I could hardly stand up.
I'm just staring at the ceiling
Waiting for the feeling
Oh, oh but when she calls,
I know she's the one
Makes me want her harder
Makes me want to be a little stronger
We need to take it slow he said and touched my hand. I felt a feeling in my stomach I haven't felt for years.
I can't…Im not shore what kind of feeling. Hope, maybe? Some sort of excitement? Whatever it was I liked it.
""Baby ill try again, try again
Baby I die every night, every time
What I was isn't what I am
I'd change back but I don't know if I can
Still I try, try again, try again.""
Peyton pressed the doorbell. She could hear the buzz inside. She was really nervous. She knew none of them where the same anymore.
"Can this really work?" she asked herself. There was no answer.
The doorbell rang and in some way he just knew that it was Peyton standing on the other side of the thin brown door. He felt nervous. What if she'd find out he wasn't the same? A lot had happened. He took a deep breath and opened.
"Peyton! Ah…Welcome." He murmured.
"Thank you!" she came inside and took her coat off.
Jenny came running but stopped when she laid eyes on Peyton.
"Hi Jenny!" she said. Jenny looked at her with big eyes. Jake smiled.
"This is Peyton, Jenny. Do you remember Peyton?"
Jenny shook her small head and looked sceptically at Peyton.
"Well, It was a long time ago we saw each other" said Peyton. "You've grown up! You're really big now! "
Jenny looked proud about being called big. Peyton was accepted.
" I'm the tallest girl in my class at school!"
" WOW! Really? That's cool!" Peyton said and gave Jenny a big smile. Jenny took her hand and shook it hard.
"It was nice to meet you Miss Peyton! But Cindy is waiting for me! Its time for tea! She ran away with small steps.
"My God! She's so big! I haven't seen her in…What? Three years? "
"Yeah, three years."
"Has it really been that long?
"Three years! I haven't seen her in three years!" To hear it out loud made his head clearer in so many ways
. She's here now. Here with me. With me."
Jake reached out his arms and pulled her closer to him. He looked at her and kissed her gently on the mouth.
"Are you shore?" she asked him.
"Are you?" he asked her back. " Im no Pete from Fall Out Boy you know!"
She laughed.
"That feels like a million years ago! "
"Well… As shore as ever… Without a doubt!. … But … I'm so sorry Jake. About everything! With Lucas and all... "
"It's okay. It's a long time ago!" He said. "I don't want to loose you again."
"That's good 'cause I'm not going any where" she smiled.
So I think this was the end! Thank you for taking the time to read and please review!
